Chapter 180

When it comes to his family, the first thing Lin Xi can think of is the widower who was eager to sell her to his dead wife for five million, and used it to change business cooperation, and he hadn't contacted Lin Qiang, who had not been in contact for a long time.

What makes Bo Yang even more distressed is that that's it.

She thought of Lin Qiang for the first time, and she actually counted Lin Qiang in the category of her family.

"Hmm...... My uncle's words, in fact, it is almost the same whether he comes or not. I'm mainly afraid of embarrassing you. Lin Xi said in a low voice.

She didn't have to think about it to guess the uncle's face, her reunion with Bo Yang was caused by the uncle, although to some extent, she still had to thank the uncle.

But at that time, Lin Qiang was clearly for profit.

It was like this at that time, and now that Lin Xi and Bo Yang are getting married, Lin Qiang doesn't know how to use this relationship.

Lin Xi didn't worry about anything else, no matter how ugly the uncle's words were, she didn't care, anyway, she was used to listening to all kinds of unpleasant words since she was a child.

She was just afraid that Bo Yang would be embarrassed and that he would be unhappy.

"Actually, I don't care, you don't have to be embarrassed. Lin Xi smiled, picked off the shrimp skin from a spoonful of egg custard, and put it in a thin bowl.

Bo Yang didn't move his chopsticks, and was silent for a few seconds before he whispered, "It's not Lin Qiang." I mean...... Your parents. ”

Lin Xi raised his eyes and looked at him, "My dad is in prison, my mom ...... I haven't seen her in nearly twenty years, and I don't know where she is. Besides, I haven't seen each other in 20 years, so it's no different from a stranger. Whether I get married and have children, or I am born, old, sick or dead, how much does it mean to her?"

Bo Yang really wanted the topic to stop here, so he just said it directly, then forget it, you can just have me. You still have Xiao Xun.

Almost all of this is already on the lips.

But Bo Yang thought of what Professor Jiang said to him, Bo Yang, this is not up to you to decide.

It's not up to you to decide.

Damn it...... Why can't I decide? This is my woman! It's my wife! Bo Yang roared in his heart.

But he sighed softly and whispered, "I mean, if you want to see them, at least in the matter of our marriage license." I can find a way to find your mother. As for Lin Wei...... I can also go with you to meet him. ”

Lin Xi was silent for a long time.

Bo Yang didn't know if she was struggling or upset, or both.

Silence spread for a few moments.

Lin Xicai said in a low voice, "See ...... It's gone. I haven't seen each other in so many years, and I don't know what to say when I see you again. ”

Lin Xi thought of the scene when he had a glimpse of his mother in Shunjiang Hospital last time.

But if I really came face to face with her at that time, what kind of expression should I use, and what should I say?

"Do you hate her?" Bo Yang took her hand and found that her fingers were cold.

"It's been so long that sometimes even the memories have become blurry. ”

Lin Xi thought for a while, smiled self-deprecatingly, and shook his head helplessly, "I still remember that the hardest time when I was a child was the time before Xiao Xun's mother was pregnant after my mother and my father divorced and left the house. It's so hard that my dad will transfer all his anger to my mom on me. Every day is terrifying. ”

I don't know if it's because I remembered that dark time, Lin Xi's hands were cold, even if Bo Yang's warm palm was covered, he couldn't warm up.

"I vaguely remember that at that time, I just survived by thinking about my mother. ”

Lin Xi smiled lightly, but the smile did not reach the bottom of his eyes, only the sadness in his eyes, "In fact, when they were not divorced, every time my mother was beaten by my father, there would be a period of hysteria, and she would always say something terrible, she always said, either we died together." You don't have to suffer......"

Bo Yang's eyes were full of yin owls, and he couldn't help but use a little force to hold her hand.

It was also because of the clenching that Lin Xi's fingertips trembled so obviously.

"In the dark time after she was gone, I didn't think that it might be better to die. But I still survived, after all, when my dad didn't beat my mom, my mom was still very good to me...... Pretty good, right? I don't really think about it. ”

Lin Xi sighed lightly, "I only remember that at that time, I survived by thinking about my mother's kindness to me. It stands to reason that if I can survive that period of time, I think that my mother should be good to me, but now...... But I can't even remember it. ”

"Human memory seems to be deceiving. Just such a family, such an atmosphere, such a Lin Wei, just because I am a woman, I was even born a mistake. Under such a premise...... Did my mom really treat me well? I don't remember, and I don't know if she really treated me well. Or was I in the despair of being like when I was a child, in order to survive, and I imagined that she was kind to me as an antidote. ”

She always spoke unhurriedly, eloquently, and couldn't hear too much emotion, as if she was a little sad, but it was also very shallow.

Lin Xi seemed to be completely detached from those things, narrating like a bystander.

"Later, Xiao Xun's mother came in with a big belly, and after taking a picture of the boy, my life was better. The good times didn't last long, after Xiao Xun was born, the problem gradually revealed when he was one or two years old. Life was hard again, but at that time, I didn't have the heart to rely on it, and I don't know if it was my mother's kindness to me. I have to take care of Xiao Xun, I have to protect him. That's it. ”

Lin Xi's fingers lightly hooked Bo Yang's palm, "The grip is too tight, my hands hurt." ”

"My heart hurts. Bo Yang said, he put her hand to his lips and kissed it gently, "Every time I hear you talk about it, my heart is like a knife." You can always use such an understatement. ”

"So. It's all over, and you can say it lightly, there is nothing to hate or hate, and it seems that there is no way to even complain. ”

Lin Xi grabbed his hand and put it to his mouth and kissed it, "I can't remember if she's been nice to me, and I can't even remember if she's been nice to me." Naturally, I can't talk about love or not. I can't quite remember whether she was bad to me, how bad. Naturally, there is no such thing as hating or complaining. ”

Lin Xi looked at Bo Yang's eyes, there was a soft gaze in her eyes, "After all, I'm busy loving you, I'm busy hurting Xiao Xun, and I'm busy caring about Jiayun...... Where is the heart to hate anyone, you must know that if you really want to hate someone, it will take all your thoughts. ”