Determination is nothing but a slave to memory, and it will change at will according to your memory.

- Shakespeare, Hamlet

The unit gave Mancang a long vacation, and the leader told Mancang that there was no need to rush back to work, and that he would come back to report at any time after adjusting his state.

Mancang refused everyone's requests to visit his home, and no one could really understand his feelings, except Feng Ying......

The poor mother and son were ruthlessly teased by fate twice, and after experiencing the ups and downs of life, in the end, only the mother and son were left to rely on each other.

Whether in Jingkou Village or in Beijing......

He didn't want to remember the past, but as soon as he closed his eyes, the memories came like a tide, and every happy fragment of the past has now become a sharp knife, cutting his already wounded internal organs over and over again......

Memories quench the bones, and thoughts eat the heart.

Qin Xin's murder case is not complicated, after a systematic psychiatric evaluation, the suspect was transferred by the court to the Municipal Psychiatric Hospital for compulsory treatment, Qin Xin's hospital actively cooperated with Mancang to give a certain amount of compensation, where does Mancang care about this, at this moment, money is of no use to him.

On the day the verdict was handed down, Mitsukura calmly accepted the final outcome.

He is like the unlucky clam chosen by the sand in the hundreds of millions of individuals in the rivers and seas, and can only reconcile with this source of pain alone in the years to come, until it becomes a mellow pearl, and those experiences become immortal wealth......

But this wealth is someone else's in the end, and for Mancang, it will always be there, and there is only one difference between pain or not.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, out of the gate of the court, Mancang saw a familiar figure, holding a cigarette, leaning on the stone lion in front of the court, seeing that he was coming, the man quickly threw the cigarette butt on the ground, stepped on it twice with his right foot, and greeted him with a smile.

"Officer Xu, why are you ...... here" Man Cang recognized the man in front of him.

"I'm waiting for you, go, I'll take you somewhere. Officer Xu kindly put his arm around Mancang's shoulders and said.

"Where to go, I'm a little uncomfortable, or let's go another day......" Mancang politely refused.

"Get in the car, I won't delay you too long. After speaking, Officer Xu pointed to the black Jetta in front of him and said.

Seeing that he couldn't get rid of it, Mancang had to follow Officer Xu to the car door.

"By the way, my name is Xu Haibin, I am 35 years old this year, my colleagues call me Da Xu, and you can also call me that in private. Officer Xu fastened his seatbelt and said as he started the car.

"Hmm......" Mancang looked out the car window, the gradually receding high-rise building, and echoed casually.

"I read your information, Ding Mancang, is a doctor, my dream when I was a child was to be a doctor, what a noble profession, save lives and help the wounded," Da Xu said with his hands on the steering wheel and staring intently at ......the road ahead.

Halfway through his words, Xu Haibin realized that he shouldn't mention the sensitive word "death", and then paused.

Mancang in the passenger seat, leaning his head against the window glass, his eyes were vacant, and he did not speak.

"Right...... I'm sorry brother, look at my ......," explained with a lot of embarrassment......

"It's okay, you don't have to be so restrained, to speak...... Where the hell are you going to take me?" asked Mankura, turning his head to Da Xu, who was driving the car.

"You'll know when you get there, it's half an hour in the next hour, it's close. Da Xu glanced at Mancang and said mysteriously.

Mancang no longer answered, and the car continued to drive, passing through the hustle and bustle of the city, and the tall buildings and spacious streets in front of him were gradually replaced by courtyard houses and criss-crossing narrow alleys......

This ordinary alley surrounded by high-rise buildings is a unique scenery of the city of Beijing......

"It's here, get out of the car!" Da Xu said to Mancang next to him, unbuckling his seat belt.

The two got out of the car, and saw the pigeon flying overhead, the children frolicking in front of the store opposite, the old man strolling leisurely with the birdcage, and the young man in a suit and leather shoes looking tired......

With the smell of vegetables in the wind, the children began to shout to go home for dinner, and the urban village full of the smell of fireworks in the world actually made Mancang feel particularly cordial, everything here, Mancang is so familiar......

"Kuroko, are you off work?" a fat woman with curly hair, carrying a bundle of noodles, passed by the door.

"Aunt Li, how many times have I told you, in front of outsiders, don't you mention my nickname, is it?" Da Xu said with a smile.

"Cheng Chengcheng, look at my memory, haha......" Aunt Li shrunk her neck, trotted all the way, and turned into the alley next to her.

Daxu opened the rear door, bent down, took out a plastic bag of apples from the back seat with his left hand, closed the door, fumbled in the pocket of his police uniform pants with his right hand, took out a bunch of keys, leaned against the vermilion gate with his body, twisted a few times in the pile of keys with his right hand, held one of them, and poked and twisted the lock hanging on the gate......

At this time, Mancang reacted, hurriedly ran over, took the plastic bag in Da Xu's hand, Da Xu untied the lock, pushed open the gate with his left hand, and glanced at the courtyard.

"Come in, this is my house. ”

Mancang didn't make a sound, walked towards the yard with the apple, turned around and bolted the gate from the inside, hurriedly ran over, led the way in front, and an ordinary bungalow came into Mancang's eyes.

Da Xu opened the door and cordially beckoned Man Cang to come in, Man Cang was tall, lowered his head and entered the living room of Da Xu's house, casually put the apple on the table in front of him, Da Xu motioned to Man Cang to sit down, and walked straight into the bathroom.

Mancang saw Da Xu take down a towel from the wall, put it on his shoulder, lowered his head and took out a basin, took some water, and put it on the stool in the living room, then bent down to pick up the thermos pot next to him, opened the lid with a "bang", carefully poured hot water into the basin with his right hand, and reached into the basin with his left hand from time to time to test the water temperature, and then nodded slightly, covered the kettle, and put the kettle back in its original place.

He took off the towel from his shoulder, put it in the basin, rubbed it a few times, then took it out, twisted it, spread it out on the palm of his right hand, and turned around and walked in the direction of the bedroom.

Man Cang followed curiously, only to see Da Xu sitting next to a woman lying on the bed with her eyes closed, carefully wiping her face, and above the head of the bed, there was a faded wedding photo, in which the woman was wearing a beautiful wedding dress, smiling happily......

"Daughter-in-law, today I have a special price for apples in the supermarket near my unit, you like to eat apples the most, I will buy more, I will wash your face in a while, and I will feed you!" Da Xu said softly to the sleeping woman in front of him.

"This ...... It's ......" Mancang was obviously a little incoherent.

"Oh, this is my wife, you can see it, vegetative person, lying in bed for four years......" Da Xu picked up one of the woman's hands and said as he wiped it.

"What the hell is going on here, why is she ......" Man Cang probably realized that there was something wrong with him asking this, and swallowed back in the middle of his words.

Da Xu raised his head, glanced at Mancang, and said with a smile:

"It's okay, there's nothing I can't say, when I first joined the work, I caught a fugitive who seriously injured someone, and after he was released from prison, he inquired about my wife's unit. Just four years ago, when I was on duty that day, he ......" Speaking of this, he paused for a moment, took a deep breath, and continued:

"The grandson committed suicide on the spot, and he didn't even give me a chance to scold him, isn't that ...... It's the same as yours, but I'm luckier enough to save at least one ......."

Mancang froze, and the man in front of him, as if telling a story, calmly recounted his experience.

It turned out that he was also one of the hundreds of millions of clams......

Mancang noticed the row of scabbed teeth on Da Xu's wrist that had been bitten out by himself......

"That day...... I'm sorry, I didn't know you ......" Mitsukura didn't know how to express his apologies accurately, in fact, so far, he couldn't even say a complete sentence.

"Are you talking about this?" Da Xu smiled and pointed to the scar on his arm, "It's okay, I understand." ”

Da Xu got up and walked to the living room, and followed him with a blank stump.

Daxu took out a carton of milk from the refrigerator, tore it open, poured it into a heating pot, pressed the button, and there was a sound of "......" from the pot, he took out two apples from the pocket on the table, went to the bathroom to wash them, and handed one to Mancang.

"Eat, I always buy their apples, they're very sweet......"

After Da Xu finished speaking, he turned around and took out a fruit knife and a juicer, cut the apples into several even pieces on the board, and poured them into the juicer, after the electricity was turned on, the apple pieces were scattered and rotated rapidly in the juicer, gradually scattered, and finally Da Xu took down a plastic cup at the bottom of the juicer, which was squeezed apple juice, and turned around to pour the milk and apple juice in the heating pot into the bowl together, stirred well with a spoon, put some out, carefully dripped on the veins of his arm, and nodded......

Da Xu returned to the bedroom, put the bowl on the bedside table, picked up the pillow next to him with one hand, and tried to lift his wife's head up with the other hand.

"Seeing you that day reminded me of my former self, which is not comfortable, after all, I am a person from the past, so I am thinking about finding time to chat with you......" Da Xu said.

"In our line of work, dealing with the scene of murder every day, I have seen too many tragedies, and the world is impermanent......" Daxu sighed and continued:

"I don't know how to comfort you, I just brought you here to let you know that this and that kind of situation is happening all the time in this world. People will encounter several hardships that they can't accept in the world, but whether they are crying or laughing, choosing to sink or face it strongly, the days will eventually pass day by day. If you have an unfinished business in this world, then you will have to turn the page sooner or later. ”

Da Xu put down the bowl in his hand, walked to Man Cang, patted him lightly on the shoulder, and said with a smile:

"Listen, if you want to hear more stories like you, or even worse than you, how much you need, I can tell you now. But after listening to it, I hope you can start a new life...... You have an unfinished mission: as a man you have a family to protect, as a healer you have the duty to save lives, and as a living person, you have your own ...... for the rest of your life."

Outside the window, the sun was setting, and a touch of afterglow sprinkled on Mancang's face, so bright that he narrowed his eyes......

Even the sun, which is about to set, is releasing its energy without stopping.

This is the ending song of the old days, and this is the trailer for a new day......

Oh, yes

This sun is new every day,

Man Cang turned his head to look at the dazzling afterglow,

I almost forgot,

At least one thing,

I still need an answer......