I am a puppet controlled by fate, looking for an unknown way out of suffocation and despair. I have passed through your heart, not that I don't want to stay, but that you refuse to take it in.

- Xu Hanfeng

It's hard to love someone, but no matter how difficult it is, I will continue to persevere, because I know that persistence may not be successful, but if you don't persevere, you will not succeed.

With this belief, from beginning to end, I have never given up the pursuit of Xiao Nian. I've never felt like this, loving someone can really make people crazy, especially knowing that the other person doesn't love you, and still force it.

I can't ask for it, I don't accept it.

From childhood to adulthood, what I wanted, there was nothing I couldn't get. I am like this because of love, but I can see that Xiao Nian only loves Jian Hao, no matter how hard I try, she turns a blind eye to me.

That's why I made a move on Jane's International in a fit of anger, and when Jian Hao was looking for Xiao Nian and didn't care about the company, I won.

I once told Jian Hao that if he wants to get back what belongs to him, he only needs to do one thing, and that is to give up Xiao Nian, and I will replace her side.

But Jian Hao refused, he only left me one sentence: "Love is not the whole of life, but Xiao Nian is the whole of my life." ”

When Jian Hao said this, I knew that it was impossible for me to snatch Xiao Nian away from him.

I was very depressed during that time, in order to be able to get Xiao Nian's face and prove to her that I was not worse than Jian Hao. I've been trying, but unfortunately she'll never see my efforts.

Because her heart has never been in me.

Mo Sang and Linda both said that I was stupid, there was no grass at the end of the world, why bother to love Shi Xiaonian. When they said that, I laughed at them in turn: "If that's the case, why do you two have to hang yourself from my crooked neck tree?"

They were gone.

In fact, we all know that it is very simple to love someone, but it is very difficult to forget someone you love.

When Xiao Nian had a car accident, I ran to the hospital, and the first thing I did was to punch Jian Hao. Why, since he got Xiao Nian, he didn't cherish her well? Moreover, I heard that he was going to be engaged to Hua Xiaoyun of the Hua family! If Mo Sang hadn't stopped me at that time, I would have to beat this bastard into a dog!

When I hit him, I was surprised why Jian Hao didn't fight back. I know better than anyone how ruthless this man is. That night, when he wasted my feet, he didn't do anything with any procrastination, and he didn't show any mercy. But now, he actually let me beat and scold, and didn't fight back or fight back?

He's weak-hearted, it must be so!

However, later I realized that this bastard was not weak-hearted, but that his heart was all on Xiao Nian's body, so he would be indifferent to my scolding. It was something I thought of myself, and I will always remember the look in his eyes.

I finally gave up, because I understood that Jian Hao and Xiao Nian were the amber stones that wrapped the little ants.

Xiao Nian wants to be that little ant, always protected by Jian Hao, never abandoned, never separated.

And I'm just an outsider.

Sometimes I wonder how nice it would be if I was an emotional idiot, stupidly loving someone, loving her with all my heart, whether the other person loves me or not.

But I couldn't.

I'm going to get out of here, to go abroad, to get out of here, maybe it's my best bet.

I won't forget it though.

Because I will always remember that here, there is a woman I love the most.

Her name is Shi Xiaonian.

End of the fan.