He finally understood that it was tears that had been shed for him.

But it has become the most unworthy thing in this world.

"Why are there a bunch of psychopaths around me, I'm afraid of you, if you feel that you owe me something, owe me something. Li Panruo said helplessly, pulled out the pillow and fell down.

When she heard his words, she burst into tears and laughed, maybe this man couldn't say those heart-wrenching love words, but he was more real than anyone else, flesh and blood.

"I'll come back tomorrow night. She saw that Li Panruo had closed her eyes, so she left such a sentence and left quietly.

In the end, both of them had a kind of paranoid person from their own perspective, and Li Banruo compromised.

Ah Bin, who was standing outside the guardianship and watching all this, smiled, Qiu Yue opened the door, looked at Ah Bin who was guarding the door and said, "Thank you." ”

Abin shook her head, but didn't say anything, she smiled and left.

Looking at the back of Qiu Yue leaving, Abin muttered something that the old man in Xiaoxinganling often muttered.

If you don't owe each other, how can you meet?

The turbulent days are gone, and then it is as calm as ever, and time has slowly become Li Banruo's infusion, from five bags to four bags, from three bags to two, from two bags to this guy being able to get up and go to the toilet by himself, and finally to transferring from the intensive care unit to the general ward, it seems that under this blandness, everything is silently getting better.

For a week, every night the autumn moon will come with the soup, and almost every night it will change a trick, and then it will be solved by Li Banruo and Ah Bin, who seem to be violent creatures, and Ah Bin is also blessed with this illness, and can feast on it every night.

Except for the fourth and fifth children, who came twice and were instantly bombarded away by Li Panruo, the others never came over, and Abin's life was almost boring to the extreme every day, except for Wang Xialuo who occasionally came to chat with him, and often sat in front of the door for a day.

The little nurse who is mainly in charge of Li Panruo is curious every day about what kind of strange people these two men are, one lies on the bed and sleeps for a day, and then every day she finds cigarette butts all over the floor on the balcony, but no matter how she dissuades her, the guy who has entered the rescue room is so bent on doing it. And this guy in a green tracksuit, except for leaving a few times and changing into a few green tracksuits as always, almost all that is left is just sitting at the door, motionless, like a statue, these two people born in this century, almost no entertainment, not even a mobile phone to look at, so that she feels lonely for these two people.

But what is more worthy of her attention is that every night an extremely beautiful woman will come and bring soup to the two, but she can't think of this kind of beautiful woman, what intersection does she have with such two strange people who come home, she knows these doubts, maybe she may not be able to find such an answer in this life.

This week, Li Panruo's patience was almost completely shattered, and he proposed to be discharged from the hospital when he was able to get out of bed, but he was rejected by Qiu Yue extremely strongly, and he had to live for ten days and half a month, which was the most crazy thing for Li Panruo, if it weren't for the two Liqun quietly carried by Lao Wu, he estimated that he would have suffocated to death in this ward.

Because of the biological clock in the bar, he can't see the sun and can't sleep, he just stands on the balcony and smokes at night, seemingly enjoying this comfortable life, but in fact, he is crazy in his heart, and he is drunk and dreaming of life in the bar, in this ward is simply hell, especially he has to be served by Abin every day, this is the most unacceptable to him, there is no specific reason, he just feels very aggrieved, he thinks that there is no more difficult day in the world.

In the early morning, Abin took the boxed lunch, knocked on the balcony window and said to Li Panruo: "Eat." ”

Li Banruo stepped on the cigarette butt and got up, his movements were still a little slow, after all, the wound on his waist had not yet healed, but compared to the pain of the wound, what tortured him the most was this ward like a cage, especially when he needed to live with this most uninteresting guy in the world.

He took the lunch box and began to gobble it up, seeing that Abin had already laid down on the hospital bed next to him, it seemed that Wang Xintian had said hello to the leaders of this hospital, they could enjoy the privilege of being alone in this ward, but this made Li Panruo feel that he owed the dead fat man a favor.

"I'll be crazy if I don't get out of the hospital. Li Banruo ate a boxed lunch, also lay down on the bed, and said to Abin, who did not move.

Abin turned over, seeing that Li Banruo was not sleepy, turned on the TV, turned the volume to the lowest, and there was nothing he wanted to see in exchange, and finally stopped at the advertisement, put down the remote control, as long as this can make the room a little more angry, he said: "I wish you would be discharged from the hospital tomorrow, and you don't have to stay up like this, but if you can be discharged from the hospital, you have to ask her." ”

"Qiuyue?" Li Panruo knew who Abin was talking about.

Abin smiled and didn't deny it.

"Why do we have to listen, I was once cut half to death, and I didn't want to be discharged from the hospital when I wanted to be discharged, who can take care of Lao Tzu. Li Banruo said with an unhappy face, as if he had a very good opinion about what Abin said.

Abin smiled bitterly: "You have to be lucky, at least now that you have such a bad life, someone is worried about you." ”

Li Banruo was silent, as if he was told to the bottom by Abin at once, although he didn't say anything, but he still acquiesced to Abin's statement, he sighed, he wanted to light another cigarette, but thinking about the little nurse who loved to worry about making an appointment with him to three cigarettes a night, he had already smoked a small half box, so he consciously put the cigarette back under the pillow again.

"What are you going to do?" said Abin.

"What do you mean?" Li Banruo was blinded by Ah Bin's momentary question.

"For Qiu Yue's feelings for you, you have to give her an explanation No, we are all understanding people, love and hate, although you can deliberately blur that feeling, but for a woman, this is inevitably a bit hurtful. Tabin lay on the bed, holding his head in his hands and said.

Li Panruo understood what Abin meant, and he muttered, "Do you need a break?"

"One step forward or one step back, you have to take a step forward, and standing still is not the way. Abin said, although these words may not help him to say, but he can't bear to watch Li Banruo and Qiu Yue hurt each other, he doesn't believe that there will be a pure relationship between men and women in this world, there must be a relationship, either interests, or feelings, obviously Qiu Yue has no interests in Li Banruo's body.

Li Banruo exhaled deeply, in the eyes of most people, Abin is so harmless to humans and animals, but in dealing with feelings, Abin is often much more ruthless than most ordinary people, in fact, he also knows this in his heart, but he still didn't look directly at this slightly cruel problem, but since he was picked out by Abin, he smiled bitterly: " How can I be worthy of her, the reason why she has a good impression of me now is just three points of heat, for her, there are too many better choices, but I am different, I only have worse choices. ”

"So, that's what you're thinking now?" said Abin, looking at Li Panruo.

Li Panruo nodded and said, "I've always had this idea. ”

"Am I saying a little too redundant?" said Abin, knowing that he was a little more difficult for a strong man.

"You're right, feelings are getting deeper and deeper, I don't allow her to have such a future, it's time to have a break, although it's too cruel for her, but in order to avoid the one-tenth, one-hundredth possibility, this would rather be broken than a complete thing, it should be done or has to be done. Li Banruo said half-lying on the bed, looking at the sky of this city through the window, his expression was extremely complicated.

You know better than anyone what will happen to you when you go down such a path. Abin finally puffed up his anger and said the sentence he had endured for a long time, although this sentence was particularly ridiculous for such a reality.

Li Banruo looked at Ah Bin, who had a serious face, the corners of his mouth raised, Ah Bin didn't expect that Li Banruo would be so calm when he heard him say this, he finally understood that maybe such a hopeless guy who went mad would have a calmness that no one would have in the face of this point of no return.

"This is a river and lake, it's easy to step in, it's hard to go out again, but I never planned to go out, I like this kind of life, you want me to put on a tie to work, not to mention that there is no place for people like me, every day to live that kind of crooked life, I really can't get by. Li Panruo said very old-fashionedly, that look, not at all like a young man who was just twenty-three full of enthusiasm, but like an immature old man who was tossed by the accident in the rivers and lakes, or he really experienced all this too early.

The life of others is seventy-three years old, and this little person spent twenty-three years to go through the experience, so what should he do in the remaining fifty years?

Maybe it's just waiting for death.

Ah Bin looked at Li Panruo like this, maybe it was an illusion, at this moment Li Panruo, he could see the taste of the old man in Xiaoxinganling, he was cynical about everything, an absolute self-centered hero, he couldn't tell whether this kind of character was good or bad, after all, what kind of life God gave a person is not for ridicule, but for awe.

"Do you think I'm hopeless?" Li Banruo said to Abin, who had been silent for a long time.

"There is no cure, but there is no cure. Abin muttered, closing his eyes and looking like he was asleep.

Seeing that Abin no longer cared about himself, Li Banruo also exhaled a long breath, leaned against the wall and put one in his mouth, but did not light it, just looked at the sky outside the window comfortably and muttered.

If you don't owe each other, how can you meet?