The girl is indeed quite good-looking, but because my heart has been filled with Jiang Xi, there is almost no extra eyes to appreciate other girls.

To put it bluntly, except for Jiang Xi, I don't feel anyone now.

The girl was a talkative person, and her tone was warm and cheerful, and I could see that she was quite interested in me, but it was also a little unnatural, because she was talking alone from beginning to end, and I just nodded or um.

She was eating a chocolate milkshake and bread as she tore off a piece of bread and brought it to my mouth, "It's really delicious, you can eat it." ”

I shook my head and dodged, "You eat, I'm not hungry, I want coffee!"

I don't usually like to drink coffee, and I tend to lose sleep at night after drinking, but today I drank it because if I didn't drink coffee, I felt like I was going to fall asleep.

She put down her hand a little boredly, and said seemingly unintentionally, "Do you rarely come to this kind of place? Do you think that this place is particularly petty bourgeoisie, the food here is delicious, the environment is very good, and the young people who come to sit here are all dressed up cleanly, neatly dressed, and the quality is quite high at first glance." ”

I actually didn't pay much attention to what she said, so I didn't care about the meaning of her words, so I replied casually, "Whether the quality is good or not has nothing to do with whether you dress neatly or indecently, well-dressed can only mean that you are rich, and under the gorgeous appearance, it is easier to hide a dirty heart." ”

The last sentence was once said by Jiang Xi, so Jiang Xi is a person who doesn't pay much attention to appearance, of course, it doesn't mean that she likes to be sloppy, didn't she write on the marriage profile, hoping to find a simple and responsible man.

The girl listened to my words and smiled a little embarrassedly, "Hehe, you're right, but, Jiangdong, can you change your clothes on your next date with me, you see your salary of more than four thousand a month, it's definitely not a problem to buy a set of clothes for two or three hundred yuan, right, your clothes look too old, this style, it's about ten years ago, right?"

She looked uncertain, and showed a hint of anticipation that she might have guessed correctly, but I didn't disappoint her, nodded and said, "It's not just ten years, it's been more than ten years." ”

"Ahh

She smiled so heartily that I don't know if she was really happy or if she was trying to hide other emotions, but I didn't really care what she was really thinking in her heart anyway.

When she finished eating, she said, "Shall we go to the movies?"

I said, "Okay!"

We were walking towards a nearby movie theater when she asked me.

"Why are you in a trance?"

"Oh, I haven't slept very well lately!"

"Aren't you happy with me?"

Me, "......"

I don't know how to answer the girl, I promised my second sister, even if I don't want to date the girl, I will wait until the date is over to go back.

The girl smiled, not seeming to care.

When I was about to walk into the cinema, the girl's hand kept rubbing the back of my hand, intentionally or unintentionally, I don't know if it was my delusion, or if she wanted me to hold her hand, but I didn't have the energy to guess, so I just didn't notice.

She bought the movie ticket, and I didn't pay attention to what movie it was, because I wasn't in the mood at all, and my mind was full of the first time I went on a date with Jiang Xi to watch a movie.

Then...... How passionately should I want to trick her? At this moment, what kind of heart is like water, so numb that I want to go home and lie on the bed with my head covered and continue to be depressed.

Dating this girl didn't alleviate my depression in the slightest, and it also put me in a state of patience, and I don't know how long I could endure it.

When I arrived in the dark theater, I looked at the big screen like a stone, and I couldn't take my eyes off it.

"Is it pretty?" the girl asked me.

"Beautiful!" I replied.

In fact, I didn't even see what the name was, just like last time, but there was a sense of desolation in my state of mind.

Suddenly, the girl leaned her head on my shoulder and said, "I have a good impression of you, how about we try to get along? If you think it's right after a while, it's good to go on, if you don't think it's right and then break up, don't you think it's okay?"

I was suddenly stunned, that sentence was not good, I couldn't say it, I always had to save some face for her, and promised the second sister that I would refuse when I went back, but that sentence was good, I couldn't say it, so I could only pretend not to hear it.

I smelled a perfume smell on the girl's body, Jiang Xi never rubbed perfume, I only remembered that she had a faint fragrance that belonged to a woman.

Jiang Xi won't take the initiative to lean in like this, but as long as I give her a little signal, she will definitely be able to get what I mean.

Jiang Xi never disliked me for not dressing well, she would only wash my clothes cleanly, iron them and put them in the closet.

Invisibly, I compared Jiang Xi and this girl in my heart, no matter how I compared, I felt that she was not as good as Jiang Xi.

For a moment, I suddenly had an epiphany, in fact, it was not that this girl was bad, but that I couldn't see her good in my eyes.

It's like, what I used to like was the cool horse galloping on the grassland, and now I have to force myself to be with a sheep I don't understand.

It's like, I've always wanted to eat steak, but now I have to change it to Dongpo elbow.

I have no appetite, I can't eat, I just feel fat and sick to my stomach.

Before the movie ended, I couldn't stand the inner torment anymore, and I said to the girl, "I'm a little uncomfortable, let's go out for a while." ”

The girl immediately sensed that something was wrong, and came out with me with a cold face.

"What do you mean Koto?"

She followed me and asked, I didn't say anything, because I didn't know what to say, and as a result, when I inadvertently raised my eyes, I actually saw Jiang Xi, and ...... The man next to her.

I was shocked not only by these, but also by the men I knew next to her.

He is the leader of the project team of another department.

Although I don't know him very well, I often meet him in the company and say hello.

Our colleagues have also talked about this team leader Wang in private, and we all know that he entered the company three years earlier than us, his work number is within 20,000, my work number is outside 50,000, and the employees within 20,000 have been allocated a large number of shares of a certain W company.

At that time, my salary was 4,000 a month, and the team leader estimated that it was about 20,000 a month, so he was the big coffee among us little programmers, and his annual salary in one year could buy a house like Uncle Jiang Xi's family.

At this moment, because Jiang Xi stood beside him, I had a strong sense of inferiority, and it seemed that Jiang Xi was better than me if he found any one.

This team leader is about the same height as me, although he doesn't look as delicate as me, but he is not much ugly, anyway, in the eyes of straight men like me, except for the tall and mighty, except for the particularly ugly, most men look much worse in my eyes.

I looked at them stupidly, and at that moment my steps seemed to be nailed, and my heart was a little uncomfortable.