Ryan Stone carefully closed his eyes, the warmth of his eyes making his eyelids tremble slightly, completely devoid of eyes, but still revealing a trace of throbbing in his heart, listening intently, his body movements just still, unconsciously swinging, little by little catching the fragments of sound coming from the radio.

The smile on the corner of his mouth was so happy and so bright, but the heartbreaking pain and despair surged gently between the eyebrows, like the gentle waves of the white sand beach on the Cote d'Azur, which was thrillingly beautiful, but after a moment of beauty, the emotions of sadness and loss were dragged on for a long time, for a long time.

Ryan loosened the strength of his hands, shoulders, waist and thighs little by little, and swayed softly like aquatic plants in a gravity-free environment, his eyes closed revealed a trace of peace and tranquility, like a baby lying in the cradle and gradually falling asleep, and the faint sadness and shallow pain gradually disappeared.

Like ripples, it seems to have disappeared, but the afterglow is spreading.

When he opened his eyes again, his expression was completely calm, and even the smile on the corner of his mouth was calming down, and it seemed to have completely calmed down, "An Ninggang, let your dog bark a few more times, is it okay?" Ryan said softly, as if enjoying a lullaby, worried that An Ninggang didn't understand what he meant, he continued to explain, "Dog, dog bark, woo, dog." ”

Then, he heard An Ninggang himself learn to howl as a wolf, cheering happily and joyfully.

Suddenly, smiles and sadness rushed up at the same time, the corners of his mouth rose again, his eyes were closed again, he gritted his teeth tightly, and all the intricate emotions were sealed in his chest.

"Wang. ”

"Whew. ”

Ryan learns to bark as a dog, while An Ning Gang learns to bark as a wolf.

The different cultures and different languages of the two countries are embodied in the onomatopoeia of animal screams, which perfectly combines the absurdity and crisis of this moment, and finally all the weight falls on Ryan's strong shoulders that are about to fall apart but refuse to collapse completely, which is unbearable and heart-wrenching.

Ryan also realized this, and so, he also followed An Ning at first to imitate his wolf howl, sometimes the dog barked and the wolf howled, completely confused, but the two of them sang and harmonized, and really began to yell at each other, like naughty children scrambling to laugh and play.

"Woohoo!"

Ryan released all his emotions to his heart's content, dropped his reserve, threw away his restraints, threw away his mask, regained his childishness, howled uncontrollably, as if completely releasing all the negative emotions in his chest, and at this moment, his body once again tasted unwillingness and anger.

However, the more angry he was, the more powerless, the more unwilling he became, the more desperate he became, and finally turned into a thick sadness, slamming on the bridge of his nose fiercely, and a burst of sourness exploded instantly, Ryan only had time to close his eyes tightly, but a touch of moisture still blurred his eyes, and the corners of his tightly closed eyelids flashed with crystal tears.

He gritted his teeth like this, his voice rampaged through his chest in a dull voice, choked and cried in the depths of his throat, and no sound leaked out, but the Adam's apple sliding up and down and the completely tense jaw could not hide it at all, revealing the collapse of the sky and the earth and the tsunami in the depths of his soul.

"Whew...... Whew......"

He tried to make a little noise again, pretending that he didn't care, but failed, leaving only a blurred mass of syllables, rolling in his throat intermittently, unable to vent, unable to vent, his hands clenched into fists, clenched tightly, and his muscles were tensed to the extreme.

If he could, all he wanted was to punch and smash anything to pieces, but he couldn't.

Patience to the extreme, the mood finally broke the embankment, "Woo...... No, no, no...... Don't ......" Ryan shook his head softly, gently, let out a meaningless murmur, took a deep breath, took a deep breath, and it seemed that in an instant, the control came back again, and the emotions were combed again, and then he let out a chuckle of "heh", showed a relieved smile, and said calmly, "I'm going to die, An Ninggang." ”

The calmness, reflecting the dazedness and sadness in the eyes, became more and more intense, without hazy tears or collapsed emotions, but the bitterness in the heart was vividly outlined.

He shrugged his shoulders slightly, but in the heavy spacesuit, he was not visible, and only faintly saw the slight changes in his body, "I know that everyone is bound to die, everyone knows, but ...... I'm going to die today. The words abruptly closed the stage, there was no end note, no breath sound, and after finishing speaking, he stayed in place in a daze, his eyes were a little distracted, as if he was understanding the true meaning of "death".

This short silence interprets a simple sentence into too many meanings, and the afterglow is far-reaching, as if everyone can have a completely different understanding. This is true of life, and so is death.

"It's funny, isn't it? Ryan chuckled again and pouted self-deprecatingly, "You know, when you know ......" His eyes were distracted again, and it seemed that his brain was starting to slow down, but even so, the unfinished words clearly conveyed the meaning.

It's one thing to know that death will come eventually, it's another thing to know the exact time of death, and it's another thing to know that the date of death is today.

The vast expanse of blankness and blankness is just bitter.

Then the focus of his eyes refocused, and he came back to his senses again, "The problem is, I'm scared, very, very scared. Gradually, his voice faded into a murmur, his strength, his composure, his professionalism, his sanity, all of them collapsed at this moment, unmasking and skinning, revealing his truest self.

With a sentence of "very, very scared", the low voice began to tremble slightly, fragile and flustered.

"No one will mourn me, and no one will pray for me. Ryan said quietly, and An Ninggang's singing lullaby came to his ears, as if he was caring for the baby to sleep, quiet and gentle.

The sadness in the depths of the eyes condensed little by little, turned into a crystal clear teardrop, hanging on the eyelashes, more and more, heavier and heavier, and finally the eyelashes were still unable to bear the weight after all, and fell like this, one after another, clearly distinct.

However, his expression did not change much, just calmly staring straight ahead, revealing a deep sense of dazed and powerlessness, which contrasted sharply with the condensation of tears, as if ...... The soul is dead, but the body is still reacting, and the empty shell of the walking dead bursts out of grief and painful despair to the extreme.

From a medical point of view, after the human body is declared physically dead, the biological/physical reaction does not stop immediately, the most intuitive example is that nails and hair will continue to grow, as if the soul has dissipated, but the body remains.

That's what Ryan is like now. That sadness, surging exponentially, broke the strong shell completely, exposing the softest part of the heart.

After a slight pause, his gaze moved up slightly, as if he was looking at the radio, and then he could travel through time and space, communicate with An Ninggang face to face, and ask intently and seriously, "Will you mourn for me? Will you pray for me? Or is it too late? as if I missed my family...... I lost them. ”

A simple "Lost", a word without any weight, but in that calm tone, it reveals a thick sigh and sadness, there is no superfluous explanation, and there is no need for superfluous explanations, the whole story has become complete, showing all the regrets and regrets in the heart.

"I wanted to pray for myself, but I never prayed because ......" Ryan's words paused for another moment, a shallow smile slid over his eyes that seemed to awaken memories, "because no one ever taught me." The loneliness and loneliness hidden behind the words seeped out little by little. "Never. ”

"Medi?" An Ninggang's call came faintly and indistinctly, and then there was a burst of baby crying sounds, and An Ninggang immediately began to hum a lullaby, soothing the baby who woke up in his sleep.

Ryan's expression was suddenly stunned, almost instantly, the shock and disbelief in his eyes slowly overflowed, and then turned into hopeless sadness, he just clenched his teeth like this, tears slid down in large drops, without warning, and helpless, almost crying to the point that he couldn't help himself, completely out of control.

There was no sound, just seeing the tears falling down one by one, and the slightly trembling corners of the mouth completely burst out the suppressed emotions. He tried to open his mouth to make a sound, but his lips only had time to squirm for a moment, and then he squeezed it tightly again, swallowing all the choked and crying firmly.

Even if the mouth is full of bitterness, even if the mouth is full of blood, even if the mouth is full of sourness.

Baby, the newborn baby, the most primitive and beautiful form of life, vigorous and vivid, thriving, with a powerful force that breaks all barriers, makes people yearn for it, but it also makes people fearful.

In his mind, he couldn't help but think of his brother's birth, he thought of his brother, thought of his brother's newborn child, and thought of his family whose faces were gradually blurred.

He tried to get away from those fetters and yearn for a higher level of life and hope, but he didn't know that his pursuit was always by his side, and the most mysterious and greatest secret of the universe was by his side.

The world he believed in, the world he fought for, and the world he owned completely collapsed at this moment, as if he could clearly see the process of the destruction of the entire universe. It's like a big bang.