"Human blood vessels have the ability to heal themselves, and many people who commit suicide, even if they cut their arteries at that time, will not die, because the blood will become viscous and the blood vessels will be closed. So you can imagine what she's doing these days. She had to bite open the arteries again and again to keep her baby alive. If she was an ordinary person, then we can assume that she broke her own veins and felt unbearable pain, so she went to destroy her other hand, but she was a doctor, so I can infer that she realized that she had injured her most important nerve, so she started to try to ...... with her other hand."

The man's speed of speech was very slow, sentence by sentence, like Ling Chi, which made Chu Di feel painful.

His fists clenched, sweat on his back soaking his shirt.

Lin Xiangwan is a person who is very afraid of pain, he remembers that when they were together before, he left her overnight, and the next morning she must have been so painful that she couldn't get out of bed, she would shrink in the corner of the bed like a kitten, hiding under the sheets, shivering.

But she was so afraid of pain, but she did such a jaw-dropping thing.

Biting off the arteries of her own hands and ruining her future future, just to protect her children......

Although the nerves in her hands have been reconnected, and the postoperative hand reexamination will be carried out by the best re-examiner in the hospital for her, no one can say how much she can recover, so it is conservatively estimated that her future medical career will be extremely difficult. I suggest that she be hospitalized for a long time, I don't know what is the psychological condition of this Miss Lin, some patients are unable to accept physical creations, which will cause mental hindrance, and in serious cases, self-harm, Mr. Chu, do you think she will?" The man seemed to be afraid that Chu Di was not uncomfortable enough, and repeatedly threw unacceptable questions to him.

Chu Di lowered his head and was silent for a long time, then said, "I don't know what about others, if it's her...... She wouldn't ...... She'll try to cooperate with you......"

"Oh, that's fine. Because I have seen many patients who have changed from able-bodied to disabled, and there are also people who have committed suicide. ”

"Shut up!!she's definitely not!" Chu Di was annoyed, and the look on his face became extremely ugly.

The man shrugged unconcernedly, "That's the best ......"

"Dr. Qiu, the patients in the intensive care unit have woken up, you can go over and take a look. While the two were talking, there was a soft knock at the door.

As soon as Chu Di heard this, he immediately opened the door and rushed out like a gale, and the man looked at his back, shook his head, and sighed in a low voice.

It took Lin Xiangwan a while to understand why she was here, she looked at Chu Di beside the hospital bed and opened her mouth.

Maybe it was because she hadn't spoken for a long time, so her voice was extremely low, and Chu Di had to get close to hear it, she asked him in a very weak voice, "Where is Ye Nan?"

"Ye Nan is fine, it's in the next room, maybe he's sleeping now, do you want to see him?" Chu Di's voice trembled slightly, her hand was too badly injured, so she didn't dare to grab her wrist, so she could only hold her side tightly.

Lin Xiangwan shook his head and closed his eyes again.

She was really tired, this journey, she had walked far and wide, she was exhausted, and she didn't think about how to face Chu Di, about Ye Zhen, about Chu Mu, about Ye Nan, she actually had a lot of things to ask him.

But when these came to his lips, they all turned into silence.

Ask him again, what's the point?

Do you want her to open all the old scars again, and face them bloodily again? Isn't she hurt enough? Do you want to give him another chance to laugh at her stupidity? Does she still have the slightest expectation of him?

No...... Nothing.

She had nothing left for him.

There is no love, no hope, no like, no reluctance.

There was no hatred either.

Some people say that the back of love is hate, but this is not true, because if you still hate someone, it means that you still have expectations for him, and it is precisely because your expectations are disappointed that you hate him.

Hate is actually a type of love. In itself, it is love. To hate him is to pity him, and now, she doesn't even bother to give him alms.

And the real backside of love is actually indifference.

You don't love someone anymore, it's wrong for him to cry, it's wrong to be silent, it's wrong to breathe alive, it's wrong to die. You don't love him anymore, it's enough to stop paying attention to him and completely abandon him from your life.

Whether he is outside your world or withered or displaced, it has nothing to do with you, even if he dies in front of you, you will not feel the slightest sadness. Maybe out of human instinct, you will feel scared, but you will never shed another tear because of him.

Your heart is dead, and there is no room for pain for others.

You're dying of pain.

It was late at night, but there were many people in the city who had not yet slept. Chu Di is one of them.

Chu Di sat in front of Lin Xiangwan's hospital bed, with green stubble on his chin, black and purple eye circles, bloodshot whites of his eyes, and blood channels on his lips because of dry cracking.

He hadn't slept for a few days, he didn't dare to close his eyes, he was afraid that as long as he slept for a while, and then opened his eyes, Lin Xiangwan would disappear from in front of him.

So he can only make himself feel at ease if he looks at her with a good mistake.

It had been two more days since Lin Xiang woke up in the evening, and she was awake intermittently, and then fell into a coma again, although according to her attending doctor, this was a normal phenomenon in recovery, but Chu Di still felt scared.

Yes, scared.

He hadn't tasted the meaning of the word for many, many years. He had always thought that he was a strong enough person, but when he saw Lin Xiangwan and Ye Nan leaning together in the cellar covered in blood, hugging her stiff body that could no longer detect her heartbeat and breathing, he really felt scared.

He had never been that scared.

He clearly felt her life passing between his fingers, he couldn't grasp it, he could only watch it go, watch her go.

If you lose her, then what's the point of life? No matter how much money you make, no one can share the happiness with you, and when the wealth you have reaches a certain amount, it becomes a number on paper, even if he has turned the Chu clan into the largest economy at that time, he is rich enough to rival the country, so what?

He could no longer see her smile, he could no longer hear her voice calling his name, and even after death, she probably did not want to see him.

Heaven, hell, where there is him, there will be no her.

"Ah Wan...... Tell me how I can make amends. He clasped his hands together against his forehead and asked her in a low voice.

In the silence of the night, his voice was especially lonely.

No one answered him.

It's like these days, when she wakes up, no matter what he says to her, she won't answer a word. Not only her, but Ye Nan too, didn't say a word to him, let someone dress and feed him, his eyes were just staring blankly at a certain point outside the window, when he forced him to look at himself, he would be frustrated to find that even if his eyes were looking at him, his pupils reflected his reflection, but his figure was not projected in his heart.

He just looked at him, without any emotion, like looking at a leaf, a wall.

Chu Di asked the doctor why this was, but no one could give him a positive answer, but most neurologists thought that it was because the child was stimulated too much, so it was traumatized, which directly led to speech dysfunction.

It's not a disease, but it's more difficult to treat than a disease, and if he can't find a breakthrough, maybe he will have to do it for the rest of his life......

No one told Chu Di what happened to their mother and son in these days, those dark days, but it is not difficult to speculate from the various scars on Lin Xiangwan's body that they had a bad life, they escaped death, although they were alive, they were not worth rejoicing at all.

In order to survive, both of them paid too much price, and this price will affect them for years to come, making them unhappy and unhappy even if they live.

"Ah Wan, I know you must be very angry, no one can forgive you when you encounter this kind of thing. I said I would protect you, but I broke my promise, and I don't expect you to give me another chance. I just want to ......" Chu Di knew that Lin Xiangwan would not hear these words, but he still wanted to tell her that maybe only when she was asleep could he tell her that when she woke up, he would not have the courage. "You can take revenge on me as much as you want, in any way you can think of...... It doesn't matter if you kill me...... But...... Don't touch her...... I can never see her again, never see her, and I know that she is too much this time, and even I can't forgive her...... But...... She's my mother after all...... Ah Wan...... This is my final limit, and you can take and destroy whatever belongs to me...... As long as you let her go...... She is very old and will not live for a few years......" Chu Di said suddenly, not noticing at all, Lin Xiangwan's palm, which had been flattened, was slowly, slowly, clenched into a fist.

The illness comes like a mountain, and the illness goes like a thread, Lin Xiangwan has deeply felt this in the past few days, she seems to have a special fate with the hospital, either working in the hospital or recuperating in the hospital.

After lying in the hospital for nearly a month, Lin Xiangwan was allowed to get out of bed only after the injuries on his body had scabbed.

The hand was seriously injured, and when he was fine, he could only pull it down at 90 degrees, even if he lifted it flat, he would feel unbearable soreness, but Lin Xiangwan did not regret it.

Ye Nan is still the same, ignoring people and not talking, when Xiao Zhen came to visit the patient, she brought him a lot of toys that the two of them had played with before, and Ye Nan didn't even look at her.

Jane and her mother left crying.