Chapter Ninety-Nine: All the sorrow and sorrow is for others
The room was silent, save for the crunch of keystrokes. After sitting for a few minutes, Zhou He couldn't sit still, looked up at Dr. Lu, picked up the pen in the pen holder and tapped it.
Dr. Lu still ignored her and finished the business at hand, then he looked back at her and said, "Do you have anything to say?"
He asked knowingly.
Zhou He didn't say anything, and after a while, he asked slowly: "Do people hallucinate at certain times?"
Dr. Lu pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose and said, "Yes, it is normal to have hallucinations occasionally. ”
Zhou He's gaze was a little dull, and he fell silent and did not speak.
Dr. Lu didn't bother her, and after a while she came back to her senses, he said, "If you want, you can also tell me about the situation." ”
Zhou He's unfocused gaze fell on him, as if grasping the only life-saving straw, and said eagerly: "I went out of the clinic last week, and when I got into the car, I saw a person who looked very similar to my friend in the rearview mirror. I saw it, and I got out of the car right away, and in a short time, the person was gone. I searched around and couldn't see anyone. ”
Her mood was close to collapse, her speech was intermittent, and she looked at Dr. Lu with pleading, and said, "It's not that I'm wrong, it's that he's hiding, isn't it?"
Dr. Lu groaned slightly and said, "It's hard for me to draw conclusions. But sometimes, when people are so hungry, they often take illusions as real. ”
Zhou He covered his face with both hands, curled up and buried his head in his lap, and did not speak for a long time. After a long time, she sorted out her emotions, leaned back in her chair, and said coyly: "Recently, I always feel that someone is following me. A few times I walked around the crowd and felt like someone was watching me from behind. ”
Dr. Lu groaned slightly and said, "Miss Zhou, Mr. Li has already told me about your situation. He thinks you're too sad and need to get out of it as soon as possible. But I don't think so, people are emotional creatures, and it's normal to be sad and sad. As you say, you've just been in grief for a little bit longer. I think you can completely control your emotions and work well except when you are alone, which proves that you are slowly recovering. What you just told me, I can't tell if it's your hallucinations or it's real. But I would suggest that you don't drink too much lately, keep your mind clear for a while, and if you still feel that someone is following you, I suggest you call the police. ”
Zhou He's eyes lit up suddenly, and he said, "You mean to say that those feelings of mine may not be hallucinations?"
Her bright eyes gave Dr. Lui some pressure, and he pondered the words and said, "I can't be sure. ”
Zhou He's eyes dimmed, and seeing that it was time, he got up and said goodbye to Dr. Lu.
Zhou He is in a trance, and the entrance of the clinic is a crossroads. She walked to the side of the road, and she didn't know what she was thinking, but she went straight to the opposite side of the road.
There was a car coming from the opposite side of the road, because it was immediately a red light, and the car was moving very fast. At this critical moment, someone pulled her hard. She fell straight into the arms of the comer.
Cheng Wei's face sank violently, and he took her aside.
The black sedan braked suddenly, and the driver, annoyed, lowered the window and opened his mouth to curse. Before the words could be spoken, they met Cheng Wei's gloomy eyes.
The words he was about to say went into his stomach, and he didn't dare to speak again, and drove away.
Zhou He saw that the person who came was Cheng Wei, and his face was unconcealable disappointment. Standing on the side of the road, he was about to break free of Cheng Wei's hand, but Cheng Wei pulled her hand tightly.
He just stuffed her into the car and started the car without saying a word.
Zhou He came back to her senses at this time, and the strange thing was that she was not afraid. She didn't look at Cheng Wei, and said in a low voice, "I still have to go back to the company." ”
Cheng Wei's lips were pursed tightly, although he tried his best to restrain himself, there was also anger in his peach blossom eyes. He didn't listen to Zhou He's words, drove the car into a small alley, and stopped with a sudden brake.
He didn't speak, and looked at Zhou He gloomily.
Zhou He looked out the window without saying a word, his eyes were empty. One of her faces was pale and expressionless.
The green tendons on the back of Cheng Wei's clenched hand jumped violently, and after a long time, he gradually released his fist, looked at Zhou He with heavy eyes, and said, "Today's incident, I don't want to have a second time." ”
He didn't wait for Zhou He's answer and started the car again. Sent her back downstairs to her company.
The car stopped, but he didn't open the door. looked at her expressionlessly and said, "I'll come to pick you up after work, if I come over and can't see you then." I will ask Mr. Meng for leave on your behalf. ”
His tone was tough and completely incomprehensible.
Zhou He knew that he had done it completely, so he didn't speak, opened the car door and got out of the car.
Her figure quickly disappeared into the elevator, and Cheng Wei took out a cigarette and smoked it. After smoking a cigarette, he extinguished the cigarette butt and took out his mobile phone to make a call.
The week to the company has returned to normal, there is no doubt that there is a meeting with customers in the afternoon, and there is another meeting. By the time she got to work, her face was tired. She went to the pantry to make a cup of coffee and drank it slowly, standing by the window and watching the lights downstairs.
There were already colleagues outside who were getting off work one after another, and she finished her cup of coffee and was about to go back to the office when her mobile phone rang.
The call came to an unfamiliar number, she looked at it for a while, picked it up, and fed it in a hoarse voice.
The person on the other end of the phone was Li Jing, and he said without any emotion: "Miss Zhou, Mr. Cheng has a temporary meeting, and I am already in the parking lot downstairs of your company." ”
Zhou He was silent for a moment, but in the end he still said, "I'll come down immediately." ”
She said to go down immediately, but she didn't go down right away, just sat in the office in a daze. I don't know how long she sat there, but there was a sudden knock on the office door, and she suddenly came back to her senses. Speak in.
Outside, a colleague who was working overtime pushed open the door and said, "Director Zhou, someone is looking for you at the front desk." ”
Zhou He knew that it was Li Jing who came over, and said that he knew. I didn't stay any longer, got up and packed my things and walked out.
Li was actually standing at the front desk, with an impatient look on his face. Zhou He had no doubt that if he didn't come over soon, he would rush straight to her office.
She didn't speak in the past, and she didn't care about the gossip of her colleagues, and walked directly to the elevator.
She left, and Li actually followed her.
When she arrived at the parking lot, Li actually stepped forward and opened the car door for her.
Zhou He whispered thank you and got into the car.
She didn't speak all the way, and she didn't even speak. When she got to the ground, she opened the car door and got out of the car, and Li actually followed her out of the car.
Zhou He knew what he meant, and said, "I'll just go up myself." ”
Li didn't speak, but still followed her.
Zhou He was just about to walk to the elevator when a car drove over. Cheng Wei quickly got out of the car, Li actually greeted him respectfully, he lightly asked him to go back, and then walked to the elevator with Zhou Yiyi.
Zhou Ji was reluctant to talk to him, and when he entered the elevator, he leaned against the elevator wall and closed his eyes. Waiting for the elevator to arrive, she took the lead and walked outside.
She was about to take out the key and come out to open the door, but Cheng Wei said lightly: "Auntie cooked and changed her clothes and came over to eat." ”
Zhou He's footsteps paused slightly, he didn't wait for her to speak, and continued: "If you don't have an appetite, I will personally bring it to you and ask you." ”
After he finished speaking, he stopped caring about Zhou He and went back to the house.
Zhou He stood in the corridor for a while, changed his clothes and washed his face, and then went to Cheng Wei's side.
The aunt had already prepared the meal, a simple and light three dishes and one soup. Auntie should have gone back, Cheng Wei took the rice by himself, and put a bowl of chicken soup in front of Zhou He.
Although Zhou He had no appetite, he still ate a bowl of rice and a bowl of chicken soup under his gaze.
She wanted to get up and clean up the dishes and chopsticks, but Cheng Wei didn't let her move. Packed up on your own.
Zhou He sat in the living room and did not go back. When Cheng Wei came out, she said in a low voice: "I'm fine, I will go to and from work by myself in the future." ”
Cheng Wei didn't speak, took the remote control and turned on the TV.
He was probably afraid that Zhou He would be alone, so he got up after a while, took out a few books from the study and put them in front of her, and did not answer the previous words, saying: "It's still early, read the book for a while and rest at ten o'clock." The guest room aunt has been cleaned up. ”
That's what she wants to do here.
Zhou He's body stiffened, and he subconsciously bit his lip. Cheng Wei had lowered his head and flipped up the book in his hand, as if he hadn't seen her small movements, and said, "If you can't sleep here, I'll go to your side." ”
Zhou He's lips pursed tightly, and finally he didn't say anything, picked up the book and read it. At ten o'clock, Cheng Wei reminded her on time, and had already prepared new toiletries and pajamas for her.
Zhou He went to wash up and lay down on the bed.
She was subconsciously disgusted by all Cheng Wei's arrangements, and she also hated being stared at like this. But she knew very well that she couldn't do anything, so she could only be silent.
Cheng Wei seems to be idle, and she stays with Cheng Wei all weekend. Cheng Wei didn't stay at home all the time, and took her to the supermarket on Saturday to buy daily necessities and fruits. I woke her up early on Sunday and climbed up. When she got home, she was tired on the couch and didn't want to move.
The two hadn't been alone together for a long time, but they weren't embarrassed. Each is doing his own thing. Cheng Wei is like being able to read minds, he will prepare everything she wants in advance.
But on such a day, Zhou He did not feel relaxed, but wanted to escape more.
On Monday, she had to go to G City on a business trip, and she used to go on such business trips. She was quietly relieved when she heard Meng Shan arrange for someone else to come over.
Zhou He's body stiffened, and when the meeting was over, she went to Meng Shan's office and said, "Mr. Meng, I am more familiar with customers, and I think it is better for me to use the past." ”
Meng Shan said with a smile on her face: "I have also considered it, but we always have to give newcomers a chance, right?" You've been on a business trip for a while ago, so take a good rest during this time. ”
Zhou He couldn't find a rebuttal, so he had to come out of Meng Shan's office in a hurry.
After getting off work in the afternoon, Cheng Wei came to pick her up in person. His car was parked closest to the elevator entrance, and when she went out, he lowered the window and motioned for her to get in.
He brought a small box of ice cream, and when Zhou got into the car, he handed it to her, saying, "It's still edible, it's not melted." ”
Zhou He didn't pick it up, looked up at him, and said, "On a business trip over there in G City, you and Mr. Meng said hello, didn't you?"
Her tone was a little impulsive.
The expression on Cheng Wei's face remained unchanged at all, and he said lightly: "You are not suitable for business trips now." ”
Zhou He's eyes were already angry, and his lips were pursed tightly. A faint sadness suddenly appeared on his face, looked at Cheng Wei, and said, "What qualifications does Mr. Cheng have to interfere in my life?"
The atmosphere in the car was tense, and he originally thought that Cheng Wei was going to say something, but he didn't say anything. Just started the car.
Zhou He was as soft and weak as a punch on cotton, and leaned back on the seat in a dejected manner.
She was tired all day, and it didn't take long for her to fall asleep after closing her eyes. The car drove to the parking lot and stopped, Cheng Wei covered her with her coat, then opened the door and picked her out of the seat behind her.
Her body was very light, and she slept very deeply, until she was put on the bed, and she was still asleep.
Cheng Wei covered her with a quilt, and when she went out, her aunt was standing outside worriedly. Meals are already on the table. Seeing Cheng Wei, he asked, "Mr. Cheng, is Miss Zhou okay?"
Cheng Wei said that it was okay and said, "You go back." ”
The aunt glanced in the direction of the guest room, answered yes, and quickly went out.
Cheng Wei didn't sit down to eat, went to the kitchen, took out a small piece of green vegetables, scooped up rice and boiled porridge. He didn't leave the kitchen while he was cooking, but took a cigarette and smoked it.
The porridge in the kitchen made a slight boiling sound, and his figure gradually blurred in the white mist. I don't know how long it took for him to come back to his senses, pick up a spoon and stir up the porridge.
When Zhou He woke up, it was already past ten o'clock, and Cheng Wei was sitting on the sofa looking through the books. When he saw her get up, he got up, took out the warm porridge, and said, "Come and eat." ”
His craftsmanship is average, and the porridge is not very viscous. Weeks combined with not much to eat. She had already slept once, and she couldn't sleep right away. She was a little deliberate, watching TV on the couch all the time, and didn't mention going to sleep.
Zhou He originally thought that he would not be able to hold it up and go to bed early, but he didn't. He seemed to be in good spirits, and he didn't seem to be sleepy until Zhou He yawned.
In the end, Zhou He couldn't hold it back and went to sleep, so he got up and went to wash.
Because he was disgusted with Cheng Wei, Zhou He originally couldn't afford to take the driver's license test. This time, I took the initiative to find a coach to practice.
Probably because she was afraid that she would do something that would hurt her again, she actually followed when she went to practice driving. However, he followed more obscuribly and did not attract the attention of others.
Zhou He was bored, but he couldn't resist.
I don't know if it was her hallucination during that time, since Cheng Wei started to pick her up, she never felt that anyone was following her anymore.
Cheng Wei takes care of her meticulously, and even delivers nutritious meals to her company at noon. If it weren't for the fear of attracting attention, he would definitely arrange for others to see her finish eating before leaving.
If it was a few years ago, he cared for her so meticulously, she would have been as sweet as honey. But now, there is only boredom that cannot be escaped.
In mid-August, she went to Xu Yuanning's grave for the first time. I don't know who came to see him, but he put a fresh bouquet of lilies in front of his grave.
Zhou He placed the flowers he brought in front of the tomb and sat down in front of the tombstone. Looking at Xu Yuanning's gentle smiling face on the tombstone, tears couldn't help but flood out.
She knew that Xu Yuanning wouldn't want to see her shed tears. She quickly held back her tears, gently stroked the photo on the tombstone, and said softly, "Senior Brother Xu, are you okay over there?"
There was silence all around, except for the sound of the wind. Scenes from the past came to her mind. She owed him too much to pay it off.
She knew that although Xu Yuanning had never mentioned it, he would go to Canada, mostly because she was there. She sometimes even wondered if he was not going to Canada, but somewhere else. After Shen Yue became pregnant, she couldn't find him. Then, she may marry the father of the child.
Or, if the Xu family knew in advance that Shen Yue was not pregnant with his child, they might have dissolved the marriage. There will be no more everything that came after.
Zhou He drank alcohol for the first time in a long time. Cheng Wei looked at her and didn't stop her. Just picked her up when she was drunk and put her on.
Her pain, despite her usual efforts to hide it, was still visible at a glance.
I don't know why, Cheng Wei's mind suddenly appeared to see her for the first time. She was robbed by robbers and was covered with injuries, but at that time, there was no sadness or sadness in her eyes. If you're strong, it's not like a little girl.
Yes, she's always been strong. is so strong that it seems that nothing can defeat her. No matter what happens, she will be on her feet very quickly
When did her grief appear? It was when he drove her away. He even remembered that time at the hotel on Hop Huan Street, her instantly faded blood-colored face and the desperate look in her eyes.
Cheng Wei stood in front of the window, the cold wind blowing on his face. He reached for his cigarette and lit it with a lighter. Look at the lights outside, then slowly exhale smoke.
Now, all her sorrows and sorrows, are given to others. And he is just a familiar stranger in her world.
Cheng Wei smoked hard, and there was no expression on his handsome face. After a long time, he dusted off the fireworks and leaned against the cold wall.
On the third day of Zhou He's visit to Xu Yuanning's cemetery, she had just gotten off work when she received a call from her eldest uncle.
Zhou He has been in Kyoto for so long, and he has never called him. Zhou He's heart gave birth to a bad premonition. Picked up the phone and called my uncle. Li Ruifeng on the other end of the phone said in a deep voice: "You come back to Yucheng." ”
His words were brief, and Zhou He wanted to ask him something, but he hung up the phone directly.
Zhou He was very uneasy, and with the help of Cheng Wei, he booked a ticket back to Yucheng. She originally planned to go back by herself, but Cheng Wei actually followed her on the plane.
The two-hour flight was difficult for Zhou He. When she arrived at the airport, Li Ruifeng sent a driver to pick her up, and after Zhou He asked what was wrong, the driver said: "Mr. Xiao Li was injured in the performance of official duties and is now being rescued in the hospital." Everybody's already here. ”
Zhou He's mind buzzed, and then he remembered that since Cheng Wei appeared, Li Peiyuan hadn't called her. I never went back to Kyoto.
She tried her best to restrain herself from composing, but her hands trembled uncontrollably. I want to ask the driver something, but I'm afraid of the answer. She bit her lip desperately.
When she arrived at the hospital, Li Peiyuan still hadn't come out of the operating room, and there were many people standing in the corridor. Her steps were vain, and she walked step by step.
Her face was pale, Li Tian poured her a glass of warm water, saying that Li Peiyuan had lost too much blood, and now that the bleeding had stopped, the doctor said that there should be no big problem, so let her not worry.
Zhou He wanted to squeeze out a smile, but in the end he couldn't squeeze it out.
Li Peiyuan had been operating for more than five hours, and he was pushed out of the operating room by the nurse not long after he arrived. He had lost a lot of blood, his face was pale, and his eyes were tightly closed.
It is not known that he was injured in the line of duty, and his colleagues were not seen in the hospital. Not long after he left the operating room, Zhou He's eldest uncle and second uncle left in a hurry. Only a few juniors were left in the hospital
Li Tian was pregnant, and after learning that Li Peiyuan would wake up the next day, Zhou He asked her to go back to rest first.
In such a short period of time, she quickly perked up again. Organize things calmly and organically.
It is useless to leave too many people in the hospital, Li Tian thought about it for a while, and went to the hotel. Leaving Zhou He with a few cousins and cousins who were not familiar with him.
With such a lintel of the Li family, Li Peiyuan's injury should not be cold. But for some reason, no one came this time. Several cousins and cousins also did not mention this matter, and the atmosphere in the ward was extremely depressing.
Zhou He kept watch in the ward until the doctor came to check in the middle of the night, and she went to the bathroom and walked out to see Cheng Wei standing at the end of the corridor. She didn't pay attention to him when she got on the bus at the airport, and he actually came with him. And never left.
Zhou He stood in the corridor in a daze, and walked over after a long while.
Cheng Wei didn't know how long he had been standing before he turned around when he heard her footsteps. He snuffed out the cigarette butt in his hand and asked, "How is it?"
He smoked too much, and his voice was hoarse. As he spoke, he took the thermos box placed next to the window and said, "The porridge is still warm, I haven't eaten, eat some cushions, don't have stomach pain." ”