"You know, what despair is?"

When people reach middle age, they are easily infected by this sentence.

But in addition to posting on Moments in the middle of the night to lament the difficulties of life, few people really mean it and say this to others.

Li Mowen paused, he knew that this was a man with a story.

He took a sip of tea and smiled, then said, "Mr. Song, since you are here, you might as well talk about it." ”

"Although I am not very old, I also know the difficulties of the world!"

"Some people spend their lives working hard for future generations, but in exchange for unfilial sons. ”

"Some people are stubborn and paranoid, but they also hurt the people around them. ”

"Not all the efforts in this world will be rewarded, let alone the so-called fairness, and it seems to be a luxury to be able to get what you want. ”

"But there's a trail to follow, and there's a reason in it. ”

Li Mowen poured a cup of tea for the other party, and then laughed softly: "Do you see the people queuing outside, or think about the family members of the patients who are full of anxious expressions at the door of the emergency room of the hospital." ”

"You say you're desperate, and how many people aren't desperate!"

Song Jianqing's heart was blocked, he had been tossing and turning at night for more than half a month, and it was difficult to sleep.

He lowered his head and sighed, took a puff of his cigarette and asked, "Don't you mind?"

Li Mowen shook his head with a smile, signaling that it didn't matter.

Bang!

The lighter lit a cigarette, and Song Jianqing said: "I'm a screenwriter!"

When he said this, his eyes were a little dazed and depressed.

"I have been working for more than ten years, and I have been unknown, but a few years ago I got an opportunity by chance, a part-time assistant director, which allowed me to see another path in my life. ”

Li Mowen didn't speak, in fact, he saw it.

After all, the current level is so high, it means that you have indeed done this profession, otherwise you will not be able to grow just because you have talent and no experience.

Song Jianqing smoked a cigarette and felt a little thirsty in his throat, he continued: "As a screenwriter, I still have food to eat, but to be a director." ”

He smiled bitterly: "My wife scolds me and thinks too much." ”

Li Mowen's brows furrowed slightly, which was a little chilling.

Song Jianqing sighed, shook his head and said: "Divorced, she took the initiative to propose it, she thinks I'm like crazy, I don't do a good screenplay, I have to do something Spring and Autumn Dream." ”

"Then I did it for a long time. ”

"I write my own scripts, write scripts, and then go to investors, I say...... My only request is that I be the director. ”

Song Jianqing pinched the cigarette, and his eyes were confused: "Do you think I'm delusional?"

"It's been more than a year, and my hair has turned gray a lot this year. ”

"People, you always have to look forward. ”

"I don't think I'm wrong, I've talked to a lot of directors, seriously. ”

"After all, I'm originally in this circle, and I feel like I can really give it a try, but why ......"

"Why doesn't anyone want to give me a chance?"

Song Jianqing smiled sarcastically and said: "I'm not afraid of being embarrassed, I sold my house too, I am ready to pay for it myself, write the script by myself, if I can't invite actors, I will shoot it myself." ”

"They all said I was crazy and no one could understand me. ”

His voice grew choked, "I...... I'm not reconciled. ”

He looked up at the young man with red eyes, he didn't know if the other party could understand him, but he really couldn't breathe.

And as time passed, it seemed that everyone's gaze towards them was a little ......

Song Jianqing felt that he might be driven crazy.

He said in a hoarse voice: "Last week, someone came to see the house and learned that I was going to sell the house, and my ex-wife quarreled with me again. ”

His tone grew deeper and lower, and his voice grew quieter.

"She told me to see a psychiatrist, and she said I must be sick. ”

"Master, do you think I'm sick?"

"I just do what I want to do, it's so hard, no one believes in me, no one trusts me, no one supports me. ”

Li Mo heard a calm voice, he probably understood what was going on, and said that people who engage in art are very extreme in their thinking!

I finally ran into it today.

Li Mowen hesitated for a moment, cleared his mind, and asked, "Do you care about money?"

Song Jianqing swallowed a mouthful of water, shook his head and said, "If you lose, you lose." ”

"Do you care about the name?" Li Mowen continued to ask.

Song Jianqing said in a low voice with dull eyes: "I have never gotten it, and I can't talk about losing it." ”

Li Mowen tapped lightly on the table very funny, and then spoke: "You said earlier that because you didn't develop as a screenwriter, you found out that you have the interest and ability to be a director by chance. ”

"Since you don't care about money and fame, then if you don't develop, you won't develop!"

"Why do you have to be a director, be an honest screenwriter, and you won't leave your family and friends. ”

Song Jianqing wanted to refute: "I ......"

He didn't know how to answer the other party for a while.

Li Mowen shook his head and jokingly said, "Do you want to prove yourself? Who do you want to prove it to? Or do you ...... Actually, you care!"

"You care about money, you care about fame!"

"You have pursuits, you are not willing to be mediocre!"

"But now you're telling me that you don't care about money, fame, and fortune. ”

"Do you know why you lost everyone's support?

Li Mo heard that he slowly said with deep meaning: "Because you put on a high hat for yourself, a hat that is better than everything, but it is just a false hat extended from your own inner desires."

"So you can throw away everything, including the so-called money, loved ones, and your current friends. ”

"Even deep down, I'm afraid you're thinking day and night that if one day you succeed, you'll make them regret it. ”

Li Mowen smiled sarcastically: "You were originally such a real, chasing fame and fortune, but you didn't face yourself, but put on an ideal high hat for yourself." ”

Li Mowen's voice became louder and louder, as if he wanted to wake up this person.

"You might as well simply tell your wife that you want to be popular, you want to be a director, and you want to make a lot of money. ”

"So you're going to take a gamble, and ask her if she's willing to gamble with you!"

"Why do you have to deceive yourself and label yourself as a false image that is not for fame and fortune?"

To be honest, the other party is a talented person who also deserves his own guidance.

But a man who abandoned his wife and children, and even sold his house to prove himself, was not worthy of his help in Li Mowen's opinion.

There are many talented people in this world, and not all of them have to help themselves.

Song Jianqing was scolded with a split head and a face, and the whole person was stunned, as if he had lost his soul......

Time seems to stand still in this moment.

Even breathing has become a luxury.

His eyes glazed over, a tear slipped from the corner of his eye, and then he smiled self-deprecatingly.

Let the tears flow out of the eyes like this, without the slightest disguise and covering.

His nose was sore, as if he couldn't stop it.

Song Jianqing gasped for breath, he swallowed a mouthful of water with difficulty, he slammed his head against the wall hard, and then broke the silence with a hoarse voice.

"Yes!"

He shouted hard, "I am!"

He slammed his head against the wall and shouted: "I want to be a director, any cat or dog can be a director these days, why can't I." ”

"I just want to prove it to them, and I can do it too!"

He cried out in grief: "You are right, I am a layman, I don't have so many lofty ideals!"

"I want to make money, I want to be famous!"

"I ......"

Li Mowen interrupted the other party's words when he opened his mouth, and he reminded in a loud voice: "Then be a person again!"

"If it's a man, dare to do it and pick it up again!"

"You can't even manage your own life well, and you still want to show others what works?"

Li Mowen picked up the teacup, then took a sip of tea, moistened his throat, and then said calmly: "When everything settles down and life is back on track, I will show you a way." ”

Song Jianqing was stunned, and slowly turned his head to look at this man in disbelief.

His throat was clutched, and his eyes were stunned.

He slowly spat out a sentence, as if asking the other person and as if asking himself.

"I ...... Is there any salvation?"

Li Mowen responded with a smile: "Don't ask me, the answer is in your heart." ”

The wind blew slowly, like an autumn.