Chapter 36: Let it go

"Father's debt is repaid, don't ask me why I hate you! If you want to blame, blame why you were born in the Ye family! Why is it her daughter!" the man roared frantically, and the rain poured down.

The rain like beans hit her face, painfully painful, the feeling of suffocation became stronger and stronger, and everything in front of her seemed to be covered with a faint black mist. Ye Xiangwan seemed to hear the footsteps of the coming Grim Reaper.

But she didn't want to struggle.

Why is she so sad, grief is like a contagion, with his anger, soaking her.

She was the one who was about to die. But she wasn't afraid.

Just sad.

When did he and she first meet? When do you think about it, it seems that it was not the twilight that carried too many unknowns and unrest about the future, but the first dance party in her life even earlier.

He used to be young and kept hiding behind people, secretly watching her.

There are burning eyes, there is inquiry, there is uneasiness, there is sophistication, and perhaps there is hatred.

It's just that it's all too far away for her to remember......

The desire to survive was like being pressed by something in the deepest part of his body, Ye Xiangwan just opened his eyes quietly, wanting to come to see him with the last clarity.

After three years together, they used the most intimate contact to witness the most estranged relationship between the two.

She was once flesh and blood with him, and she slept with him. Those hot or cold nights, they were like two entangled snakes, entangled in death.

But it wasn't until today that she seemed to really see him clearly.

I saw clearly the scarred and bleeding heart hidden behind his strength, cunning, selfishness, and cruelty.

She always thought that he wouldn't love and wouldn't get hurt.

But now, she finally understood. It's not that he can't love people, it's just that at the very beginning, he was deprived of the ability to love people. It's not that he won't be happy, it's just that the pain is too strong for him to extricate himself.

Who took away his right to be happy, who made him sad all the year round?

This answer was cruel to her to answer.

"You must hate me too, don't you? I've been so bad to you for the past three years...... If you want to hate, hate your mother! If it weren't for her, we wouldn't have met!"

Chu Di's palms tightened tighter and tighter, almost straining her throat bone. The buzzing in the brain is the most direct manifestation of hypoxia, the temperature of the body is passing silently, and the quadriplegia is so weak that there is no trace of strength.

The hatred and resentment that have accumulated for many years exploded at this moment. Like a volcanic eruption, it swallows away reason.

He forgot that she was not the woman who took his father back then, and he forgot how bad her health was at this time, and he forgot that she still had his flesh and blood in her womb. Although it was him, he didn't want it at all, it wasn't yet formed.

He just wanted her to disappear, along with all these years of grudges.

Suddenly, the man's hand trembled uncontrollably.

Ye Xiangwan, who was obviously on the verge of a coma, suddenly opened his eyes and showed him a smile.

Then, with the last of her strength, she opened and closed her mouth and said a few words silently.

She said.

Chu Di, I don't hate you, I don't hate anyone.

Leave yourself alone.

A bolt of lightning streaked across the far sky, with a deafening thunderclap.

It was like a sharp knife piercing Chu Di's heart, his hand shook, and he finally let go of Ye Xiangwan.

Suddenly, the earthy air, mixed with the cold rain, rushed into her mouth and nose.

Ye Xiangwan collapsed on the muddy ground, and the bean-sized raindrops stirred up mud drops and splashed them on her face. But Ye Xiangwan didn't seem to feel it, she was breathing heavily, coughing and wheezing, as if she was going to gasp out her lungs.

There was a taste of blood in her mouth, and her throat was so badly wounded that she couldn't say a word.

Why should you let her go? You've already made a decision, aren't you? Why do you want to give her a way out?

Raising his head, the man had already walked away without saying a word.

Rain cats and dogs. Thunder and lightning mingle like the sun has not yet passed.

His lonely back, through the undulating tombstones, disappeared into the rain tomb.

There is no love without a reason in this world, and there is no hate without a reason.

There are only causes that are as confusing as a maze, and there are fruits that are too bitter to swallow.

After that day, Ye Xiangwan didn't meet Chu Di again for a long time.

He seemed to have evaporated from the world, and after the Ministry of Human Resources officially issued a letter of dismissal, he completely disappeared into Ye Xiangwan's world.

Ye Xiangwan took the A4 paper with beautiful lead characters printed on it, stood downstairs of the Chu family, and smiled bitterly in the endless crowd.

Is this the end of his grievances with her, and the grievances of the two families, even if they are an end?

Or does he just not want to see her because he tore his face with her and hates her in his heart?

Or maybe it's because his wedding date is approaching, so he doesn't have the time to harass her?

But no matter which of the above reasons, Ye Xiangwan felt relieved, at least during this time, she could live a normal life for a while.

No more worrying about who will slap or hijack you when you go out.

However, in contrast to her indifference, there is the excitement of all the large and small entertainment newspapers and entertainment reporters in H City.

The wedding of Ji Jasmine and Chu Di was portrayed as a grand and unprecedented wedding of the century by the wonderful entertainers, these two groups represent the wealth of the old and new factions of H City, and now they are combined, what kind of business opportunities and huge wealth will be brought to H City in the future, which ordinary people simply cannot imagine.

As a result, many young lovers also took advantage of this opportunity to choose the same day as Chu Di to get married and engaged, and this red trend eventually led to the hotel family in H City being full, and the wedding banquet was arranged until the beginning of the spring of the second year.

Ye Xiangwan strolled alone on the long ginkgo avenue of the school with a book in his arms.

Compared with some people's weddings that caused a sensation in the city, she is more concerned about her body.

No matter how unhappy she was, Shen Shijun finally found a senior brother who was familiar with her and several old experts in the hospital to jointly diagnose Ye Xiangwan and do a detailed physical examination.

The results of the final check were mixed.

Happily, although her heart has been seriously damaged, it is not irreparable, and if the operation goes well, she can still live like a normal person in the future.

The worry is that because pregnancy will make her body more and more burdensome, and the direct manifestation is the rapid decline of the function of the heart and various organs.

"You have to make a decision sooner. The child can be reborn in the future, but if the mother's body is damaged, it will not be easy to deal with. ”

Shen Shijun's senior brother surnamed Hu, who studied abroad in his early years, saw a lot of openness to foreigners, and was not incomprehensible to unmarried pregnancies, he squeezed his eyes at Shen Shijun as if teasingly, Shen Shijun only didn't see it, and turned his head awkwardly to the side.

"What did you hear from Senior Brother? You must give me an answer this time. I can't watch you drag on like this. It wasn't until the person was far away that Shen Shijun said stiffly.

Ye Xiangwan was not afraid of anything, he was afraid that Shen Shijun would show the face of this late mother. She had to deliberately say lightly, "Senior brother is too exaggerated, I don't know my own body yet, how can I not feel so serious after so many years." ”

It's okay that she didn't speak, but as soon as she opened her mouth, Shen Shijun was half angry, "That's because you're used to being sick and your body is adapting! You don't take it seriously yourself, and of course others don't take you seriously. If you drag it out like this, let alone a senior brother, even the gods won't be able to cure you. ”

PS: Happy Mid-Autumn Festival.