The ward was surprisingly quiet, and Jian Hao sat curled up on the hospital bed. 【Full Text Reading.】%D7%Cf%D3%C4%B8%F3The moonlight poured in from the window lattice, rendering the entire ward a milky white. Shi Xiaonian opened the door and walked in, she sat on the edge of the bed, seeing Jian Hao in a daze, she was puzzled, and asked with concern: "What's the matter, you won't eat bad brains, right?"

She gestured to touch Jian Hao's head, Jian Hao dodged lightly, he ignored Shi Xiaonian, and said coldly: "It's not early, you go back quickly." ”

"Go back?" Shi Xiao Nian was stunned, she consciously responded "oh", got up and grabbed her bag to leave.

Seeing that she was really leaving, Jian Hao was silent for a long time, his eyes lowered, so that people couldn't see the emotion: "Is it out of this door, and then you will break off the relationship with me?"

Shi Xiaonian's steps suddenly paused, and she stood still. After a while, she turned to stare at him, judging from his expression, Shi Xiaonian knew that Jian Hao was not joking with her, there was no temperature in his dark eyes, they were all cold and serious, like water droplets in the cold winter, which instantly condensed into ice when they landed.

In this kind of scrutinizing gaze, Xiao Nian couldn't say the words that were too ruthless, she moistened her lips and snorted: "I didn't mean that......"

"Then what am I to you? Don't you come to see me when you're happy? If you're unhappy, ignore me? You can refuse my confession, but why don't you be ruthless and cruel to me......" Jian Hao's eyes became more and more dim, "If that's really the case, maybe I'll die, you make me desperate, you shouldn't give me hope anymore, give me hope, why make me desperate again?"

"You, why are you so cruel?"

Jian Hao raised his head and looked straight at Shi Xiaonian, there was something compelling in his eyes.

"I don't have ......" Shi Xiaonian's voice was a little choked, I don't know why, she felt that her nose was sour, and suddenly she wanted to cry. But she still held back her tears.

She really never thought about these questions, she just lived the life she wanted, was it wrong too?

The corners of Shi Xiaonian's mouth were a little astringent, even if she rejected Jian Hao's confession last time, she never thought that it would be such a confrontation scene with him now, it turned out that it was really unavoidable...... The atmosphere will be so dignified.

She felt a pain in her heart and was very sad.

The bangs on his forehead drooped, blocking most of his cheeks. The moonlight was like mist, and before Shi Xiaonian entered the ward, Jian Hao turned off all the lights in the room. In the moonlight, the contours of his face were faint, and his eyebrows were full of tiredness.

"Why did you come to see me this time?Is it because I'm sick, if I'm not sick, are you going to never see me again?" Jian Hao only felt that his mind was in chaos, a thousand things were entangled, he had a terrible headache, and he urgently needed to vent the evil qi that had gathered in his chest, "Shi Xiaonian, why are you going to do this to me? Can't you even notice if I really like you?"

Shi Xiaonian opened his mouth, and he didn't know how to answer Jian Hao's question for a while.

Seeing that she didn't speak, Jian Hao snorted twice in a low voice and smiled bitterly: "Actually, maybe I don't like it deeply enough, so in your heart, I seem to be less important." ”

Shi Xiaonian: "......"

If Jian Hao continues to say this, she will blame herself to death.

"I ......" she was in a hurry, and the tears that had been stored in her eyes slipped down instantly, and in the hazy tears, she looked at his indifferent face. He pursed his lips, his tone of voice was normal, and there were no emotional fluctuations on his face, as if he felt dead at this moment.

His tone made Shi Xiaonian extremely sad.

She remembers how good he is, how little he does to her, and all the scenes where she is with him......

It's just that can you not deny all the past they have?

He knows that after getting along for a while, he has no one to replace in her heart.

But now he says something like this......

Shi Xiaonian covered her face, she didn't have the courage to stay here any longer after all. Although she has always prided herself on being heartless, even if she has never cried in front of people...... But when all the defenses in her heart have collapsed, where will she go?

She rushed out of the ward like crazy, and after running wildly for a while, she cried so much that she finally couldn't hold back, hid in a corner, and slowly crouched down. She hugged her knees, buried her head in it, and cried.

She cried, and those words that had never been said to Jian Hao sounded in her head.

"I am also a man of flesh and blood, I am very lucky to have met you in this big city, thank you for taking care of me during this time, you are always there when I need comfort and help the most. Like an angel falling from the sky, how can I not like you, how can I not like you, I like you and even forget about myself. ”

"But, but I have my own troubles, I can't be sorry for my child, I have to find him. Do you know, if I can't find my child in my life, I won't be able to get out of the shadow in my heart, I'm sorry for him, I can't cross the hurdle in my heart, I feel like the whole person is about to collapse. ”

"I don't want to run away from you, but what should I do? Regardless of my uncertain child, this incident has never happened? I'm sorry, I can't do it, I really can't do it......"

She cried heartbreakingly, and for the first time she felt like she wanted to die like this.

Her body trembled, and under the shroud of the moonlight, her figure became thinner and thinner.

In the dark night, who is crying, who is calling, shouting, blaming and torturing oneself again and again, again and again?

……

When Shi Xiaonian returned to the dormitory, she looked depressed, and her eyes were swollen like peaches. Yan Yueyue originally planned to come over and ask her to have supper together, but when she saw Shi Xiaonian like this, she asked with concern: "Xiao Nian, what's wrong with you? Which bastard bullied you? You tell me who it is, I'll beat him to death!"

Shi Xiaonian shook her head, she bit her lip and didn't speak.

And seeing her like this, Yan Yueyue was even more worried.

"You tell me, is it Jian Hao or Xu Hanfeng? Or who is in your company!? You tell me, no matter who it is, my sister will definitely make that bastard regret coming to this world!" Yan Yueyue said domineeringly, Shi Xiaonian didn't speak, she walked around the room in a hurry. That look, as if the person who was wronged was her.

"Yueyue, it's not what you think. Shi Xiaonian pulled Yan Yueyue's sleeve, and she said in a snort. As soon as Yan Yueyue heard Shi Xiaonian speak, she sat down beside Shi Xiaonian and said hurriedly: "What is that? Don't cry, it's very uncomfortable to see you cry as a sister." ”

"Don't feel bad, I don't cry, I don't cry. He said he wouldn't cry, but Shi Xiaonian cried more and more.

Yan Yueyue saw Shi Xiaonian like this, she bit her lip, and after a while, she sighed and hugged Shi Xiaonian in her arms fiercely.

"If you have to cry, then cry loudly, with me, you don't have to be afraid. ”

She patted Shi Xiaonian's back with her hand, and Shi Xiaonian cried out with a "wow", the first time in her life that she was so unladylike, the first time she was so fragile.

It's like a bubble in the sun, bursting when you poke it.

While crying, she sobbed and said to Yan Yueyue: "Jian Hao confessed to me, but I refused, I thought that we wouldn't have too many feelings for each other, after all, I have always treated him as just a whim for me...... But today, when he completely picked up the topic, I was so uncomfortable, I didn't like this, I hated this feeling, I hated him to death, why did he force me, did I say I didn't like him? I said he liked me, do I have to like him?"

Shi Xiaonian's incoherent words made Yan Yueyue a little dizzy, and Yan Yueyue wondered, "Xiao Nian, then say so, do you like Jian Hao or not?"

was asked by Yan Yueyue, Shi Xiaonian didn't answer, just buried her head and kept crying.

There was really no way, Yan Yueyue asked Shi Xiaonian if she was crying and hungry, she was going to cook noodles. Shi Xiaonian said that he wanted to cook it himself, and he wanted to cook Yangchun noodles.

In the face of her insistence, Yan Yueyue couldn't resist her, so she had to agree.

Shi Xiaonian wiped the tears from her face, she rolled up her sleeves and rushed into the kitchen.

She was busy for a while, put down two large bowls of noodles, and when she came out of the kitchen with two large bowls of Yangchun noodles, she ignored Yan Yueyue, put the bowl on the table, and gnawed on it.

Yan Yueyue saw that she was eating so fiercely, she walked to Shi Xiaonian's side and bowed left and right towards another bowl of Yangchun noodles, she also wanted to eat noodles in a big gulp like Shi Xiaonian. But after two bites, she put down her chopsticks and turned back to her room.

All of a sudden, she was so sad that she wanted to cry.

Many years later, whenever Yan Yueyue recalled this incident, she would scold Shi Xiaonian to the point of blood: "Why do you put so much salt in your noodles? Don't want money! You still eat so fiercely, don't be afraid of high blood pressure if you eat salt!"

As for Yan Yueyue's dog jumping off the wall in a hurry, Shi Xiaonian just smiled faintly.

Seeing her smiling face, it was very strange that Yan Yueyue instantly lost her anger.

She once told Xu Meng about this incident: "In the Yangchun noodles made by Xiao Nian, there was so much salt and salty tears, but she still ate so fiercely, how hungry was she? I couldn't eat it, I was very sad, because I knew that she had never made such unpalatable noodles, and she must have been very sad at that time." ”

When Xu Meng repeated what Yan Yueyue said to Shi Xiaonian, Shi Xiaonian felt that her eyes were hot, and she cried again.

She thought that the happiest thing in her life was to be able to have such a good sister, in the few years of her life, when she was sad, there were sisters with her, she was not alone, she could be very brave.

Even if there will be no less sad times like this in the future, she will definitely be able to go on bravely.

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