There is nothing wrong with loving someone, the fault is that the person does not love me. [No pop-ups.]

- Hua Xiaoyun

The moment I walked into the hospital, I heard Jian Hao say that he was Shi Xiaonian's man, and my heartbeat stopped at this moment.

I knew a long time ago that the person Jian Hao loved was Shi Xiaonian, no matter what I did, no matter how much I wanted to desperately break them up, but those two hearts that were fused together were already inseparable.

All this I did was in vain.

I know this from what Lee Min-ho said to me at the engagement scene.

He said that it is impossible for Jian Hao to be engaged to me, even if he dies, he will be with Shi Xiaonian!

Li Minhao may not know how hard he hit me with what he said! After so long, I have been planning the layout, and I have finally waited until today, but in the end, what did I get in exchange?

Dad advised me from the beginning not to be attached, because in the end, the person who will be hurt will only be me.

I don't know, I just don't want to give in to fate. Obviously, I knew Jian Hao first, at first it was my sister who snatched love, and then it was Shi Xiaonian...... How could I possibly endure it?

How can someone I love like someone else?

I'm not reconciled, in fact, the person I lost to in the end was not Jian Hao, not Shi Xiaonian, but myself. At that time, I left home in a fit of rage, crossed the ocean, left my hometown, and cut off contact with my family. So much so that when my sister passed away, I didn't know about it until later.

I'm thinking, the period when my sister passed away should be the low point of Jian Hao's life, if I had been by his side at that time, would everything be different?

It's a pity that there are no ifs in this world, only results, and if you miss it, it's irretrievable, and no one has a time machine, so you can't go back.

And sometimes, the cruelty is not that I don't love you, but that we can't go back.

If you deny the past, what will be left in the end?

Nothing.

When I heard from the doctor in the hospital that Shi Xiaonian was rhY ab blood type, there was a crazy thought in my head: If I don't save Shi Xiaonian and just watch Shi Xiaonian die, will Jian Hao come back to me?

But when I saw his performance, I knew that this was just wishful thinking on my part.

Jian Hao loves Shi Xiaonian so much, how can her love be transferred like this because of her death? Moreover, Shi Xiaonian still happened in front of Jian Hao, if Shi Xiaonian really died, maybe Jian Hao would never forgive himself in this life.

And how can a person who has closed his heart open to others again?

So, I decided to save Shi Xiaonian!

It's a little compensation for everything I did to her in the past, anyway, I have to pay it back anyway.

Taking a step back, Shi Xiaonian's body has my blood Y...... During the blood transfusion, I was thinking, if I changed my heart to Shi Xiaonian, would her heartbeat become mine, and I could accompany Jian Hao forever in my life?

Some thought too much, and after the blood transfusion, I left the hospital directly. Because I know this is not the place for me to continue to stay.

Where will I go?

I don't know, maybe go home, maybe find a place where no one is, lick my wounds, until I can forget the day Jian Hao.

How far that day was, I don't know.

For many years to come, I didn't dare to let myself think too much and get too contaminated, but I just immersed myself in the country of sorrow and comforted and healed myself.

I still love him.

No matter what, if you fall in love, it's a lifetime.