Did he really understand what death meant, what cancer meant? Or did Will really understand?

In the last life, as Chu Jiashu, he once embraced death, not fear, not fear, but with a trace of relief, ten years of long torture and suffering, except for those sporadic flashes of happiness, most of the time, he was waiting for death to come. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoHe's tired, he's just tired.

He knew that he was only thirty-two years old, too young to die, really too young, and the Fantasia had withered before it even bloomed. However, the endless life always stood still, and when the proclamation ended, he was happy.

Only at the moment when darkness completely descended, his desire to survive burst out, like a comet gliding across the night sky, instantly bursting with powerful energy, but before he could release it, it had already disappeared.

So he began to run, running towards that glimmer of light. The fear and threat of death is only a momentary moment.

The same is true for Will.

Even if the doctor diagnosed him and he had cancer, even if his mother fell into a meltdown because she was worried about him, even if his girlfriend left his life in a betrayal way because of cancer, even if the psychiatrist was constantly trying to enlighten him and let him vent his inner emotions, even if his friends pulled him and used the cancer to talk at a bar, even if everyone around him looked at him strangely, as if he was already a dead man......

However, he still has no sense of reality.

Cancer and death seemed to be just a small change in his life, and he had to start chemotherapy, as if he suddenly decided to go out and walk his dog every day - it's just that this "dog walking" place is more special, a fixed time, a fixed place, a fixed action. The desire to survive and optimism are supporting him to continue walking. Other than that, the changes in his life never really hit him.

Those trivial details, little by little, accumulate to change his life pattern, invade his living space, and affect his lifestyle. He is afraid, he is worried, he is restless, he is irritable, he can feel that his life is changing little by little, but he is powerless to stop it, but this change is not earth-shaking after all, he can step by step backwards, adjustment, compromise.

Until one day, the doctor told him that chemotherapy was not working, that the cancer was still spreading, that surgery was the only option, and that it would be a success or a failure. As a result, all the back roads were cut off, he was forced into a corner, there was no way back, and the quantitative change finally caused the qualitative change.

The realism was like Mars hitting the Earth, and it hit him hard in the chest. The fork in the road is here, and after closing his eyes, he may never be able to open them again, and it is not up to him to decide, he can only lie on the cold operating table/on/on, waiting for the verdict, completely tied down.

That despair, that anger, that pain, that sadness, exploded in an earth-shattering way. He hated the world, everyone around him, and everything in his life. He knew only one thing: he wasn't ready to die.

It's just a moment. Because, after that, Will's surgery was successful and he was given a new lease on life. Will knew what cancer meant, and he knew what death meant, but after all, it was like a tide, rising and then ebbing, and in the passage of time, quietly withdrawing from the blood, that sense of reality disappeared again.

Chu Jiashu is so, Will is so. The same is true of Adam in the script. On the plane from New York to Seattle, he had figured it out, but he still hadn't thought it through enough.

However, compared to Chu Jiashu, Adam was even more dazed.

Because, high paraplegia is real and immediate, Chu Jiashu can clearly feel that he has lost control of his limbs, but he is still at a loss, until he realizes that even the control of the bladder has been lost, and the sense of shame engulfs him, and the sense of reality becomes clear.

For Adam, the impact of cancer is slowly invading, he is adapting little by little, groping little by little, the germination of that emotion has a gradual process, long and real.

But at the moment, when the doctor diagnosed the diagnosis, Adam was just at a loss and at a loss. What happened to "other people" suddenly happened to me, that kind of overwhelm.

There wasn't so much shock, not so much pain, not so much despair, not so much ups and downs, and not so many ups and downs. Confused, just confused, confused with a blank brain, and a little bit of panic in addition to that, that's all.

Such a performance is Chu Jiashu and Adam, but it should not be Chu Jiashu, but it should be Will and Adam. The boundary between reality and fantasy has been completely disrupted, the previous life, this life, Will's, Lan Li's, memories, scripts, countless story fragments have been disrupted, he must clear his mind and find what belongs to Adam, the confusion and panic of that moment.

Outside the glass window, there was a tranquility, the river was endless, Lan Li's line of sight couldn't help but go far, and then far, the whole world became bigger and wider, as if there was no end in sight, boundless.

In his mind, however, he couldn't help but wonder if he was like a speck of dust in the universe, so insignificant that his existence had no meaning, whether there were people in other corners of the world who faced a similar predicament to him and did not know how they dealt with it, and whether the war-torn lives in the Middle East and Africa should be more worthy of sympathy than cancer......

Eugene Slych. When his faith is torn to pieces, when his soul has escaped into darkness, when his life has fallen into silence, is death a relief for him, and is it not a torment for him to live? Compared with the fragile lives that have disappeared on the battlefield, he has at least a chance to fight, but how can he fight?

How high is the cure rate of cancer? What is the mortality rate? What kind of cancer is he having? Why can't he remember it at all? It's really hard to remember, he's never heard of it, it's a long string of letters, isn't it that even a doctor has ever seen it? Is that a good thing or a bad thing?

The focus of the line of sight began to blur, thoughts began to run wild, and all kinds of ideas rushed in. A sound of "horn" pierced his ears through the glass wall, and the thoughts soaring in the sky instantly converged, and the focus regathered, and then he was stunned, what was he thinking about just now?

Yes, cancer. Wait, what kind of cancer is he? Which is more terrible, cancer or high paralysis, which is more cruel, cancer or war, and what does it mean that cancer is because of a genetic mutation, God's choice? or God's abandonment?

Distracted again, Lan Li lowered his head, looked at the cigarette in his hand, and was a little stunned: shouldn't he smoke? After all, if he has cancer, he should be healthier in order to live. Wait, or should he start smoking? Because, with cancer, life is not long anyway, if you don't enjoy it at this time, if you don't wanton it, won't you have a chance in the future?

Why is he standing here, shouldn't he be working? Work, yes! He finally remembered, he was making a movie, he was an actor.

Lan Li retracted his gaze and stood in place, but he was still a little confused, countless memory fragments were mixed together, and he put the cigarette in his hand in his jacket pocket, and then Lan Li took another step in the direction of the office-

In order to shoot the scenes in the hospital, the crew did not build a set in the studio, but rented an office in the hospital for filming. They lease a floor dedicated to their offices, so as not to disturb the daily work of the hospital as much as possible, and not to cause any disturbances.

"I couldn't understand it, I thought he was just a madman, a self-righteous madman. ”

"I couldn't see what his style of work was, what his purpose was, and I couldn't find any clue at all. ”

"So he's just a madman. ”

"I think he may be under a lot of pressure, after all, everyone says that his acting skills are outstanding, and he can't help but want to improve. ”

"I don't think it's arrogant, I already performed very well in that scene, and I don't think anyone could have done anything better. He just made this gesture on purpose, as if he was some real acting master. ”

……

The sound of chatter is coming from ear to ear, and in a limited space, if not fully audible, it is almost the same. However, neither Seth nor Jonathan stopped these discussions, and after watching the replay twice just now, both of them were puzzled and couldn't guess Lan Li's routine at all.

But Seth was also a little helpless, "Without James, Lan Li is our best choice." He didn't run away now, we are already about to rush to rejoice, what else can we do?" The meaning revealed in and out of the words was that although he was also a little dissatisfied with Lan Li's self-assertion just now, this time they were the weak side after all, and they couldn't be too forceful.

Lan Li's rise is too fast, and the foundation is unstable, even if there are two works of "Buried Alive" and "Love is Crazy", it is still difficult to convince the public. At the end of the day, he was still among the newcomers. In the crew of "Fighting Cancer", Lan Li is the actor with the least qualifications, the fewest works, and the youngest age.

"Babble", the door of the office was pushed open, the low chatter disappeared in an instant, and the whole room became silent, everyone looked towards the door in unison, and then saw Lan Li who had reappeared.

Seth immediately changed his smile and said in surprise and enthusiasm, "Lan Li, you're back? It's not been half an hour." ”

Lan Li didn't seem to notice the eyes swarming from all directions, and walked straight forward, nodding politely to Seth, "I'm ready, I can start filming again." ”