The place to gather for dinner in the city center is a newly opened buffet barbecue restaurant. A group of people eat, drink, chat, and chat, and the relationship is deepened during the play.

Today's dinner was full of young people, and the biggest one was Umeda, a teaching assistant in the Department of Photography. Umeda is still single at the age of thirty-seven, and he doesn't like to be asked about his relationships. One of the teachers he had the best relationship with guessed that Umeda was reluctant to talk about it because he was heartbroken.

Umeda's wish is not to become a teacher, but his mother is not in good health, and has been hospitalized for a year and a half, and was only rescued once last week.

"When people are old, their body organs are naturally aging, and the doctor said that if you want to prolong your life, you need to install a stent, but my mother disagrees. She said that she didn't have to waste that money, and that my mother hadn't really wanted to live since my brother-in-law died, and that if I hadn't dragged her, she would have been gone. ”

It's hard for Umeda to say about himself, and everyone doesn't know that Umeda has a sister, and they all think he's an only son.

"My brother-in-law walked to save people, he was a swimming instructor, but he died in the river. Sometimes I wonder why those three bastards had to go when they knew they couldn't go down the river, and let them die, so why did they catch up with my brother-in-law. When my sister heard the news and rushed over, the three bastards were rescued, but my brother-in-law did not have the strength to climb ashore, she was a weak woman who could not swim at all, but she did not hesitate to jump down to save my brother-in-law, and when she found the bodies of both of them, their hands were still tightly held together. ”

Umeda was already drunk, probably years of depression, plus his mother's frequent critical illness, and his whole mental pressure was too great to be relieved. Resentment has been piling up in his heart for more than ten years, and he often dreams recently that his sister and brother-in-law take him around to play, but when he wakes up, the room is deserted.

Everyone didn't know that Umeda still had such a wound in his heart, and he wanted to comfort him but didn't know how to speak. Not the parties, all the language is blank and weak. It seems to be quite immoral, saying that you should go, why should you go? Whose life is not life?

Others will praise a hero, and those who are rescued have a conscience may remember their life-saving benefactor for a year or two, but after a long time, who can remember their names except for the relatives of the deceased?

Chen Xin looked at Zhou Hao helplessly, her brows furrowed, and she didn't know how to explain Teacher Umeda.

"When your brother-in-law saved people, he didn't think about whether the other party should save them, he just thought that they were three lives. And your sister just loves him too much. But you have to know that if your brother-in-law is not so good, how can your sister love him so much, love him to life and death. ”

"I'd rather he was not good, then he wouldn't save people, and he wouldn't let my sister die with him, and our family would be happy together. ”

Zhou Hao patted Umeda on the shoulder, thinking that he should go to see a psychiatrist, not that there was something wrong with his thoughts, but that the resentment and longing that he hadn't vented for more than ten years had already driven him crazy, and if his mother really died, maybe something would happen to him.

"I had a good relationship with Umeda Sensei, and my sister and brother-in-law also passed away. But it's not to save people, my brother-in-law is a soldier, and he died in the line of duty. Chen Xin suddenly spoke, and the others turned their heads to look at her, and even Umeda half-propped up her head to look at Chen Xin, "When my brother-in-law died, my sister was still pregnant, and our sister was an orphan, and there were no other relatives at home. ”

"So how"

Teacher Xiao Wang asked in a circle, I want to say that Chen Xin also said that her sister passed away before.

"My sister had to take care of me, take care of the children, and bear the grief of her husband's death and the stress of life, and then she gave birth prematurely. The postpartum hemorrhage could not be saved, and she closed her eyes before she could even hold the child with her own hands. ”

Chen Xin tilted her head and wiped the corners of her eyes with a tissue.

"At that time, I had just graduated from high school, and when I looked at my nephew who looked like a kitten in the incubator, I felt like the sky was going to fall. ”

"My brother-in-law still has parents and brothers, and my nephew still has paternal blood relatives, but I only have him. My sister had been precautioning against this day for a long time, and she told the doctor and the head of her brother-in-law that she hoped to leave the child to me to raise. ”

Zhou Hao pinched her fingers and half-wrapped his arms around her shoulders.

"During the saddest time, I was actually the same as Teacher Mei, and I also had resentment in my heart. There were so many people on the mission, why was it my brother-in-law who sacrificed it? During that time, all kinds of thoughts that popped up in my head were really dark, and I always felt that the whole world was against me. Why did my sister and I die young? Why do you look at my sister to be a happy mother, but she loses her husband. Why did I lose my parents when I was a child, and I lost my sister when I was just an adult? To be honest, there was a time when I hated even my brother-in-law, thinking that if my sister hadn't married him, she wouldn't have left me. ”

She rested her forehead on Zhou Hao's shoulder and silently shed two lines of tears.

"But looking back, if it is someone else who is sacrificed, other people's parents and relatives will also have to bear the same grief as me, I have the ability to raise my nephew alone, but others may not be able to support the children and the elderly, when I think of a child as old as Zhang Zhang, guarding the old man guarding the dilapidated house, and taking on the responsibility of his parents with his immature body, I feel distressed, so I still have to bear it, at least I can do my best to give Zhang Zhang the best life. ”

"Teacher Mei's sister is deeply in love with your brother-in-law, she jumped down without hesitation at that time because she knew that you can take on the responsibility of taking care of your parents, you have tortured yourself all these years and imprisoned your mother in this pain, because your refusal to let go will make her miss her daughter and son-in-law who died early all the time. It's time for you to come out, and it's time to come out with your mother. ”

Chen Xin's words are not so clear, those who can understand will naturally understand, and those who can't understand don't understand what she means at all.

But Umeda should understand, but understanding and being willing to let go are two different things, and no one else can help him make a decision.

The first half of the meal was quite high, but the second half became sensational, and because of Mr. Mei's drunkenness, everyone didn't continue to look for a place to play, and they dispersed when they went out.

Umeda and Mr. Xiao Wang lived quite close to each other, and several teachers took a taxi back together.

"You say, is what Teacher Chen said true? If so, why does she have to raise her nephew alone, didn't she say that her brother-in-law still has relatives? ”

"Because I don't feel at ease. Umeda pressed her forehead against the window glass and said sullenly, "She said that she only has an older sister, and her sister has also said before that she will give the child to her, and I guess the conditions of her brother-in-law's house are not very good." Besides, life under the fence is not comfortable, even if it is your grandparents, they may not protect you for the rest of your life. ”