Hearing me say this, Deng Wenliang's expression looked very embarrassed, and he whispered in my ear apologetically: "I'm sorry, I've been ...... lately Too busy......"

I forced a smile, it was just a simple stretch of my facial muscles, I was afraid it was even more ugly than crying, and I tried to relax my body and match his movements......

Twenty minutes later, he was panting on top of me, his weight weighing me down, and I gently put my hand on his broad back and said to him with great difficulty, "All right, let me rest for a while." ”

Hearing my weak words, a hint of strangeness flashed in Deng Wenliang's eyes, but soon he smiled, kissed me lightly on the face, and whispered, "Okay, good night." ”

I pulled the quilt and covered myself tightly, Deng Wenliang got up and got out of bed and went to the bathroom, and a moment later he came back, tired and lying beside me, and turned on the lamp.

I kept my eyes closed and slept lightly, but I didn't actually fall asleep until he turned off the light, and I lay still for a while, then looked back at him.

Listening to this familiar snoring, I smiled helplessly, I must be tired today, right?

This night, I fell into insomnia again, the power of the sleeping pill had already made my husband's sudden interest disappear, I had to stare at the dark ceiling to think about my thoughts, accompanied by my husband's comfortable snoring.

I thought a lot that night, about the years we've been through, about my own upbringing.

I grew up in an unhappy family, and the cowardly part of my character came from my father, because my father was a child who was abused by his stepmother, and if he has a stepmother, he will have a stepfather, and this sentence is not wrong at all.

Because my grandmother was not good to my father, so my grandfather also cared very little for him, my father went into the society as a teenager and participated in the work, and the culture was accumulated little by little in the society after work, he was very diligent, and he was also very studious, and had a certain literary talent.

However, after all, my father grew up in such a special family, after my father reached the age of marriage, no girl in our local family was willing to marry into such a family, for fear of being angry with my mother-in-law, and later, under the introduction of others, my mother, who was born in the countryside, married my father, but their union was a tragedy.

What do I say about my mother's character, now I recall it, it is a little neurotic, she will suddenly wake you up loudly while you are sleeping, and she doesn't care if she scares you or not, I remember when I was a child, there were many situations where she was quite normal a moment ago, but suddenly changed her face the next moment, and shouted at us at the top of her voice, and my father, because of his cowardly character, and he felt ashamed of my mother when he married his mother, so he didn't dare to raise any objections to her education method, in such a growing environment, I was a little introverted and autistic since I was a child, and I couldn't avoid a little inferiority and cowardice when I grew up。

I have an older brother above, much older than me, in fact, my brother and I are very talented, our appearance has been praised by the neighbors, and our academic performance has been very good since childhood, but because of the relationship between the growth environment, the personality is a little introverted, and my brother is better than me.