Silence, long silence, deathly silence in the room.

I bit my lip tightly, tears gradually filling my eyes, my conscience was wrestling with feelings, I had never experienced such a difficult choice before, not even before I decided to end that nightmarish marriage that lasted for thirteen years.

Although in my previous life experience, I have never done a single thing that violates conscience and morality, and punishing evil and promoting good has been a life creed since I was sensible, but at this moment, let me personally send this young man to court, emotionally, I can't do it anyway.

Because no matter how much I tried to hide, cover up, and be vague before, in this moment of confrontation when both of our inner worlds have been exposed, I can no longer hide the most embarrassing secret in my heart, that is, I once loved the boy in front of me deeply.

No matter how ashamed this sentence is, no matter what worldly obstacles this relationship has, at this special moment of life and death, I must face my heart calmly.

His toned posture, his hearty laughter, his kind and charming smile, and the sound of the piano under his fingers like flowing clouds and rivers have deeply touched my heart, like a warm spring breeze, like the warm winter sun, which has been stationed in the depths of my soul for a long time, and can no longer linger.

"Let him go, let him go......" A voice echoed in my heart for a long time, "Although their sins are unforgivable, they are also excusable, let them go......"

Finally, the voice prevailed over the other murmurs in my heart, and I came out of my mouth three low scales, so low that I couldn't seem to hear them clearly: "You go." ”

Ye Xing raised his head and looked at me with a little surprise, as if he thought I wasn't talking to him, and after a moment, he muttered to me, "You really decided to let us go like this?"

I didn't look at him, just squeezed a few muffled words out of my throat: "Let you go, what's the nonsense?"

Ye Xing smiled awkwardly, then he looked at me, thought and said slowly, "Actually, you don't have to have anything...... psychological burden, about how Kexin resold the secrets of Deng Wenliang's company to others, as well as the Yang family's car accident case, I don't know the specific details, and some key circumstances Kexin is also unclear, and the law also pays attention to evidence, without evidence, no one can be determined...... Crime. I just think that there are some things that have been hidden from you for so long, and it is time for you to have an explanation, so I told you and the ......"

Listening to his words, which seemed to be both self-consolation and self-confession, my endurance finally reached its peak, and I frowned and shouted at him, "Get out of here!

Ye Xing heard this ultimatum from me, he looked at me deeply, got up slowly, grabbed his coat, and walked slowly towards the door.

When I looked at his tall and long back standing in front of the door, I suddenly understood that this parting might be a parting of life and death for the two of us, and in this life, there may never be a chance to meet again.

At that moment, all kinds of melancholy welled up in my heart, and when I watched his hand on the doorknob, I could no longer care about any reserve and dignity, and I shouted at him: "Wait!"

His body shook and slowly turned around.

At this moment, I seemed to have a thousand words to tell him, but now it was only one sentence, I looked at his back with teary eyes, and asked in a choked voice: "Are you real...... Have you ever loved me?"

At that moment, looking at my tearful eyes, Ye Xing also wept, he slowly tried to remove the tears on his cheeks, and said to me slowly: "Whether you believe it or not, every word I said to you just now is true." I'm really...... I have loved you, you are the first in my life to awaken my conscience...... People, before I met you, there was no right and wrong, right and wrong in my world, only what was good for us and what was not good for us. It was you who made me understand the true meaning of life, awakened my desire for a plain life, the longer I have been in contact with you, the more I desire to embrace you in my arms, and live with you the kind of ordinary life that you have been looking forward to, I even ......"

Speaking of this, Ye Xing's tone became a little low, and he lowered his head slightly.

After a while, Ye Xing raised his head, his eyes were red, and he continued to say to me: "Since I had that kind of thought, I even went to persuade Ke Xin and told her that since Deng Wenliang is good to you, and your life is very rich and comfortable now, then you can accompany him well...... Let's go on, let the past pass, don't think about revenge or anything like that, it's more important to live the current life. But you know, there are some roads, once you take the wrong road, you can't turn back, Kexin is like this, and so am I. When she heard that I was going to give up on her, Kexin cried and shouted at me like crazy, and she said that if she didn't have me, she wouldn't want any revenge or anything like that, and she wouldn't need so much money at all, because life has lost its meaning to her, and what is the meaning of hatred and money to these nothing?"

"So you didn't give up on her in the end and decided to follow her all the way to the end?" I asked, choking up.

Ye Xing nodded at me with tears in his eyes and muttered, "I can't go back, and so is Kexin." Do you know? Whenever I think of you, my heart springs up with sweet love, which is real love, the love of a man for a woman, but whenever I think of Kexin, I feel a raw pain in my heart, a pain that melts into my bones, a pain that cannot be resolved. Along the way, she and I have already you and me, and I have you, and we can't tell each other apart, so I said that if she goes to die alone, my heart will hurt for a lifetime. If Kexin didn't have such a tragic past, I probably wouldn't be so concerned about her and couldn't let go of her, but because she has that past, she doesn't trust anyone in the world except me, and it can be said that I am the whole meaning of her life. So in this life, no matter how difficult the road ahead is, we can only move forward side by side. And you ......"

When he spoke of me, Ye Xing's eyes softened, and his tone became much softer: "I love you, there is no doubt that this is not adulterated, you are the most real dream I have ever had in this life, meeting the right person at the wrong time is the most real relationship for us...... Interpretation. So we have no part in this life, and in this life, you will give me to ...... Ke Xin, if there is an afterlife, let's be a fairy couple who only envy mandarin ducks and not immortals, okay?"

Hearing this, I was already in tears, I lowered my head and shouted at him in a choked voice: "You go!

Ye Xing finally looked at me deeply, and he whispered to me, "Sister Man, take care!" and then pushed open the door and walked out quickly.

The moment the door closed, I fell on the couch, crying like a mess of mud.

***

From this day on, Ye Xing lost all news, his mobile phone was down, and he no longer logged in to any network contacts, such as QQ and MSN, and his avatar was always gray.

Yang Kexin never came to disturb me again, the two of them, like a light breeze like fog and rain, gently swept through my space, and now disappeared out of thin air.

My life has returned to its former tranquillity, and it has begun to follow the rhythm of the same steps as it did a while ago.

I go to the store every day to inspect the store, check the accounts, and have a boring date with Lao Wang every other day, my daughter Tongtong will come to me every big week, because Deng Wenliang sold the house and temporarily rented a place to live, according to Tongtong, the conditions are very poor, probably to save money.

Because Tongtong thought it was dirty and messy, she didn't want to go to the big week, so she often came to me during the big day.

"Mom, Yang Kexin is gone!" said my daughter leaning on the couch in my living room one Sunday evening, staring at me with wide eyes.

"Oh. I looked up slightly from a clothing magazine and replied nonchalantly.

"Mom, this time it's unusual! You said she wouldn't have seen my dad get poor and run away with others, right? Anyway, my dad's face is very bad for a while, I went to his side, and he didn't talk to me much anymore, and when he asked about Yang Kexin, he looked impatient, saying that you children don't care about adults, hum!" Seeing that I didn't take it seriously, Tongtong came up to me and said to me in a matter-of-fact manner.

I smiled helplessly, gently stroked my daughter's lovely cheek, and thought to myself, even if Deng Wenliang found out that he was deceived by his beloved little wife, with his arrogant and self-righteous character, he would slap a swollen face and become fat, and he would not let everyone know.

"Mom, if Yang Kexin runs away, do you want to follow Dad...... What about remarriage?" Tongtong's big eyes rolled, she thought for a long time, and asked me cautiously.

I put down the magazine in my hand, looked at Tongtong, and asked her softly, "Do you think your father treated me like that at the beginning, and it is necessary for me to remarry him?"

Hearing me ask, Tongtong pouted and lowered her head, and muttered, "Dad has really done a good job in this matter...... Dishonorable. ”

I smiled wryly, gently put my arm around my daughter's delicate shoulder, and whispered to her, "Poverty and crisis are not terrible, because as long as there are people, these can be reversed." I am afraid of the change of people's hearts, and once people's hearts change, it will not be able to be reversed with no amount of effort. Your father's heart was like that to me, and now it is the same with my heart for him. Therefore, no matter whether he and Yang Kexin break up or not, no matter what his current situation is, he has nothing to do with me, and remarrying him, in this life, there is no such possibility. ”

Listening to my sincere words, Tongtong nodded at me with big eyes, and said softly: "Mom, I understand you." ”

I smiled and hugged my daughter into my arms, feeling in my heart that she was the biggest gain in my marriage to Deng Wenliang.