Chapter 39: Desperate to Love
Since Gu Yunfan moved in, Jing Ya never thought about sending Yan Yidong to the hospital that night, and she didn't say a word about that incident in front of Gu Yunfan, she didn't want to have any unnecessary incidents. It should have been over a long time ago, no, it was already over. She didn't want to have any entanglement with the past anymore, even if that person was Lin Xi, someone she once thought she would never forget in this life......
And how?
In the first few days when Gu Yunfan moved here, the two sometimes had a little embarrassment, for example, that heart-pounding night, because the light was turned off, when he kissed her, he bumped her nose; when he helped her fold her clothes, he found that there were her underwear in the pile of clothes; after he took a bath, she found that there was no bath towel, so she had to stand at the door, and then handed him the hand holding the bath towel from the door that was half open...... However, it takes them the shortest time to adapt to such a cohabitation life. Soon, it became natural, and the two of them really got along like a couple.
Regarding the idea of the stars and moon on the wedding dress, Jingya didn't ask Gu Yunfan, she thought, maybe it was an idea he thought of. She had told him before that she loved to look at the stars and the moon, and perhaps he had just remembered her little hobby.
Today is the last working day on the eve of the Spring Festival, and Ruan Chengjie knows that most of the employees are from other cities, so every year he will take a week off before the statutory holiday, so that everyone can go back to reunite with their families as soon as possible. According to the rules of previous years, there will be a dinner party after work today, that is, a reunion dinner. When she went out in the morning, Jingya told Gu Yunfan that she would come back later today, and Gu Yunfan happened to have a drinking party in the evening, so the two of them began to be busy with each other since they separated in the morning.
The reunion dinner ended at more than nine o'clock in the evening, and Fanlu and Jingya left together after saying goodbye to other colleagues because they lived in the same community. Jingya drank about half a glass of wine, and she didn't dare to drink more, because Gu Yunfan told her, "You can't drink anymore in the future, unless it's with me." It sounded like a rule, but Gu Yunfan was lying on her pillow and said it at the time, and her heart couldn't help but heat slightly, and she laughed to herself. Fanlu beside her thought that the words she had just said made her smile, so she said with a crimson face: "I also think it's not good to see my parents so early, but Shen Jiapeng said that he is usually too busy, and he only stays at home for a longer time during the Spring Festival, Sister Jingya, do you also think that I am too reserved." ”
Jingya came out of her thoughts at this time, and she thought that Fanlu was telling her about Shen Jiapeng taking her back during the Spring Festival, and heard her say that she was "too unreserved", so she said, "Do you love him?"
"Love!" replied Fanlu categorically.
"yes, then you don't have to dwell on it. ”
Yes, when you fall in love with someone, no matter what the result is, you will love him desperately. Jingya thought so at this time, a few days of cohabitation, so that she began to have a plan for the future, she planned to wait for next spring, the weather is ambiguous, they will go to take wedding photos, and then start to prepare for the specific matters of the wedding, yes, and honeymoon, must choose a place with the sea......
Little by little, she was happily thinking in her heart, and when she entered the unit building and was about to press the elevator button, she heard someone calling her.
"Jingya!"
She turned around, that person was really Yan Yidong, the bubbles of happiness in her heart just now immediately burst one by one, she couldn't remember, when it started, as long as she saw Yan Yidong, her heart would have a mixed taste, he was like a dream, when he appeared, she was melancholy, and after leaving, he and she could be relaxed. She had tried hard to distance the two of them, but it seemed that when she took a step back, he could take two steps closer to her.
"Your phone is down?" Yan Yidong approached her.
She unconsciously took a step back and answered with an "um". In fact, the day after she sent him to the hospital, she changed her number, in order not to let Gu Yunfan be too careful, she casually pulled out a reason, saying that it was a mobile business hall to do the activity of sending phone bills, so she changed her number. When she said this, she didn't dare to look at Gu Yunfan's eyes.
"Jingya, I really miss you, I ...... I don't know what to do to get you back. His voice was desolate, even sad, yes, he was very sad, his face was haggard, his beard was unshaved, and he was completely two people from the gentle and elegant Yan Yidong he saw for the first time.
"It's too late, you should go back early. Jingya's hand raised and stopped in mid-air for a moment, and finally pressed the elevator button.
The elevator indicator light soon lit up, "ding!", the elevator door opened, she didn't plan to turn back, just prepared to go straight to the elevator, but as soon as she took a step, her body was pulled away, Yan Yidong pulled her arm and walked out, his strength was extremely great, not at all like the haggard person just now should have, he kept pulling her away, she wanted to break free, but to no avail.
"Yan Yidong, you let go of me, let go of me......" No matter how she called him, he didn't look back and didn't let go.
Finally, when he got to her car, he unlocked it, opened the door, and carefully seated her, so that he had to pass over her and sit back in the driver's seat in order to prevent her from picking it off.
"Lin Xi, what the hell are you going to do, we have broken up, we have broken up for many years. ”
"We didn't break up. He retorted, "You know, after I went abroad, there was not a day when I didn't want you, I thought about you every day and thought crazy, I looked for people everywhere to inquire about your situation in China, but I finally couldn't find you, I was like crazy, I was afraid that I would never see you again, I went to the bar to drink, and I drank as if I heard you calling me, so I went to look for you, I took your picture, I wanted to go to you, and as a result, I was hit by a car." He said in a choked tone, his head on the steering wheel, trying to keep himself from crying.
"It must be God who has mercy on me and our feelings, I didn't die, I just changed my face, at that time I was thinking, it's okay, that Lin Xi in the past has made Bai Jingya suffer too much, from now on, I can't let her suffer a little bit more, I also changed my name by the way, I want to be a new me, let me love you again, so that you can also accept my love again." ”
Jing Ya didn't say a word, silently listening to him talk about his experiences, which she never thought about and didn't dare to think about.
After a while, he continued: "I originally didn't plan to use Lin Xi's identity again, but I heard that you want to agree to his marriage proposal, I can't care about that, I can only tell you again, 'I am Lin Xi', yes, you say I'm shameless, but I can't let you marry someone else, I love you, as long as I have you, I can do anything!"
Desperate!
Jing Ya listened to the last four words, and her heart was full of signs, just now she was also thinking about desperately loving someone, that person was Gu Yunfan, but at this moment, she heard Yan Yi, no, it should be said that Lin Xi was here to tell her "desperate" to love her.
"However, we have been separated for five years, and your parents will not agree to me being with you, and besides, I am now Gu Yunfan's fiancée, you ......"
Before Jingya's words could be finished, a strong kiss stuck her words in her throat, his kiss was hot and strong, she was so bound that she was about to lose her breath.
After a long time, he slowly let go of her, his chin against her forehead, "I have never forgotten you, never, I have always regarded you as the only one in my life, no one will separate us again, and I will never let you marry someone else." He said resolutely.
"Lin Xi, are you sober, okay? I loved you, but that was five years ago, I'm tired, I don't want to hold on to the past anymore. I have fallen in love with someone else now, that person is Gu Yunfan, I can only tell you so much. ”
Yan Yidong was finally discouraged, he didn't say anything anymore, just lowered his head, and after a while he whispered, "Okay, I understand, you can go back." ”
After Jingya left, the tears in his eyes finally welled up uncontrollably, and on the way here, he prepared a lot of things to say to her, and he said them all, and he was right, but what he didn't expect was that she would say, "I am in love with someone else now, and that person is Gu Yunfan." The words pierced his heart like a needle. He knew it was too late, and he had lost her—his quietness......