Lin Xiangwan has never seen Chu Di's father, but he has also heard that Chu's father was one of the most beautiful men in H City when he was young, Chu Di's eldest combined with the characteristics of his parents, although Chu's mother is beautiful, but she is a little angry, so although Chu Di is also very good in appearance, it is not as good as Chu's father's demeanor back then.

Although the photo is an old photo that has been in place for decades, the people in the photo are still suave.

Even if you look at it from a few decades, he is an excellent man.

If a woman is too beautiful, she is a disaster, and if a man is too outstanding, he is also full of demons.

"My father came back from England to see my grandfather in H City for the summer vacation, when the Chu family and the Lin family lived next to each other, and the two families often moved around, and slowly became acquainted. ”

Lin Luo was sixteen years old that year, which was the most beautiful age for a woman, like a flower, and when she saw a man who had returned from a foreign land, she spoke the same words, and it was not difficult to guess what happened later. It's a pity that the heavens don't fulfill people's wishes, and two girls are entangled with a young man, and it is inevitable that they will be sad.

Seeing that the two of them were getting along, the two families wanted to settle the matter, but they didn't expect it...... Wait for the New Year...... Then came the news that my mother was pregnant...... I heard that it was because a few people went out together and my father was drunk, so he ...... It's just that this kind of thing happened, and the three adults panicked, and the marriage with your mother was over. "A few decades ago, H City was not as weathered and open as it is today, even if it was a marriage, most of it was the order of the parents, and even if this kind of thing happened, no matter how good the marriage was, I was afraid that it could only be declared over.

"Is that kid you?" Lin Xiangwan looked at the photo album, and then looked back, the photos were all threesomes, but the eyes of the three people had long lost the sincerity and enthusiasm of the first few pages, even if they were smiling, they could see the pent-up emotions in their hearts.

"How is it possible, it is not their age. The child was gone, and I don't know if it was taken away or if it was lost on its own. Chu Di smiled bitterly and shook his head. "After this happened, your mother once ran away from home for half a month, and happened to miss the college entrance examination, so she had to apply for nursing school, and then many years later, she got married and gave birth to you, but she met my father by accident......"

Obviously she is the person she likes, but she has such an ugly thing with others, how can she be embarrassed? What else can she do except leave her, who would have thought that one wrong step, one wrong step, if she had been admitted to university that year, would she have met different people, would she have a different life?

The more Lin Xiangwan thought about it, the more she felt sorry for her mother, and the deeper the resentment towards Chu's mother became.

Scheming people are never scheming in a day or two, they must be born like this, in order to get their own happiness, they don't care about the life or death of others. She even wondered if the child's statement was true...... Just once, she was pregnant, and Mrs. Chu's luck was really good.

Lin Xiangwan couldn't help but sneer, but in the end, he could only close the album and put it aside.

Because the truth of the facts, no matter what, cannot be found, so many years have passed, and so many people have died. Even if you know the truth, what can you do?

"Then my mother, what happened to her?" "In the past, even if there is more dissatisfaction in my heart, I can only let it pass, otherwise I can't get along with myself, Lin Xiangwan has suffered enough stubborn losses, and I don't want to torture myself like this anymore. She was more concerned about her mother's condition.

"She left with my father because my father had cancer at that time, and his body was at the end of his life, and he didn't have more than a few months to live, and he wanted to go through the last part of his life with her, so he begged her to let her go with him. Your mother relented and agreed. After my father died, she wanted to go back to you, but the old lady of the Ye family did not agree to her entering the door again, and not long after, your father married a new wife...... It's Aunt Xiang...... She didn't leave H City until you went to school, and she saw that Aunt Xiang was pretty good to you, so she left. ”

"Then ...... she now" Lin Xiangwan listened like a knife, her mother, a kind mother, she has been thinking about others all her life, but has she ever thought about herself, has she ever thought about her?

No matter how good a stepmother is, she is also a stepmother, where can she compare to her own mother, why would she rather go by herself than take her with her? Is she willing to suffer alone than drag her down? Why is she so stupid?

Chu Di saw that Lin Xiangwan was sad, and he felt uncomfortable, he took out a wooden box from behind the rubble of the villa, a hardcover book, and sent it to Lin Xiangwan, "Later, she went to another city, where she became a layman in the Zen temple, and died of illness twelve years ago. Here are her ashes, and some of the things she wrote when she was alive. I brought them all back. She used to have a diary, which was buried in this garden, and when she was turning over the garden, she was found by the workers and handed it to me. But the diary has been so corroded that I have found a professional restorer, but I haven't been able to restore it all, so I can't tell you where she went back then, or what happened between the three of them, all I can give you is a record of the days after she left. ”

Lin Xiangwan snatched the small wooden box and hugged it tightly to her chest, tears instantly wet her cheeks, for a long time, she had always felt that there was a hole in her heart that could never be filled, and now, holding the last thing left by her biological mother, she finally knew what was missing in her heart, the long-lasting hole, was finally filled.

Chu Di saw Lin Xiangwan crying silently, he regretted in his heart, he squatted down and hugged her, "I asked the head of the temple, and she said that she didn't go through any pain, just because of the disease, she seemed to know that her time was short, so she didn't go to treatment, she didn't suffer anything...... "I wanted to comfort her, but the words that came out seemed so pale.

"What do you know about !!!!Your mother is alive and well, of course you don't know how uncomfortable she is!!You hurt her! You joined forces to force her away!!Don't tell me that she hasn't suffered anything! Isn't all these decades of suffering painful? My pain is not pain? Do you know what it's like to be told to be a child without a mother since childhood? Do you know what it's like to watch your siblings embrace joy in front of your parents, while you can only suffer the cold eyes of others? I've wanted to see her for so many years, but what have I been waiting for? It's a handful of her ashes!!You don't understand anything! You go! I don't want to see you!!" She was like a wounded little beast, screaming and rejecting all his kindness, she didn't need this man's care, she didn't want his mercy, if it wasn't for him, if it wasn't for his damned parents, how could things have come to this.

She slid on the ground, from the initial silent tears, to the last howling, the sound of crying tore Chu Di's heart, Chu Di was worried that her body could not stand such a strong stimulation, and wanted to pull her up from the ground, but she desperately resisted him, her palms fell on his face and shoulders indiscriminately, making a "pop, pop." Chu Di endured it silently, until her voice began to become hoarse, and even her body began to tremble, Chu Di was ruthless, and picked up Lin Xiangwan, who was almost exhausted, from the ground.

Looking directly at Chu Mu, he whispered word by word in her ear.

"Good and evil are limited in the end, do you think she will not be uncomfortable if she lives? Look at her appearance! She is now neither a ghost nor a ghost, her only son ignores her, she does not eat well and sleep well every day, and she is in fear all day long, just because she knows that she has done something wrong, and she is afraid of being punished, but is it useful for her to be afraid? She did steal happiness from your mother that year, but how long has she been proud? Her husband would rather die outside than look at her more! She's been in that wheelchair for decades, and your mother can at least move around and go where she wants, but what about her? The space in which she lives, only this inch of the world, out of this rose manor, the whole world is not an inch for her! Now she has a stroke, she can't even speak clearly, she doesn't even recognize me, but all she remembers in her mind is your mother, she can't sleep at night, and she needs to use a large dose of Valium, but even so, she often wakes up from her dreams, and when she wakes up, she will take my hand and say to me, I'm sorry for her, I did something wrong, I knew it was wrong...... Lin Xiangwan, she knows that she is wrong, she is already so old, there are not a few days of real happiness in her life, if she is still sane now, she will definitely apologize to you personally. But she can't do it now, so I apologize to you for her, for what she did back then, for what I did, can't you give me another chance?"

Chu Di's eyes were full of sadness and bitterness. It's just that he is a man, and even if there is more pain, he has to endure it. He can't cry, he can only bleed, but he can't shed tears, no matter how uncomfortable he feels in his heart, he can't complain a word, all he does is beg her for forgiveness, as long as she nods.

It turns out that there is really no winner in this war, everyone loses, and they lose so much that they are heartbroken and incomplete.

"No, I don't!!" Lin Xiangwan held her ears tightly with her hands, she didn't want to listen to him, she didn't want to say a word, but his voice just got into her ears.

Why did he tell her this, why couldn't he let her live a peaceful life, she had already told herself to let go of everything in the past, but why did he dig it all up?

She's really, really, and doesn't want to have anything to do with him anymore.