165. Loneliness
Fu Weiwei had never seen Fu Jingchun like this.
looked in the direction of Fu Jingchun's gaze, but the whole person was also stunned.
Then Fu Weiwei didn't react yet.
Fu Jingchun had already run in that direction.
Fu Weiwei actually didn't see his face clearly.
At that time, only one side face could be seen.
And which family's side face is very much like a person.
Su Xiaoman!
No wonder Fu Jingchun just had an expression like he had seen a ghost.
But Fu Wei sighed in his heart.
It was already the third time before she knew it.
However, every time in the past, it was just a mistake to recognize the person.
The world is so big, and there are so many people who look a little similar.
In the end, it was just an empty joy.
This is actually very cruel to Fu Jingqing.
Fu sighed slightly.
Walk straight inside the service area.
Wu's mother saw her: "Sir, isn't Mr. also here." ”
Fu Weiwei said: "Let's go back first, the eldest brother won't come over for the time being." ”
And over there, Fu Jingchun ran all the way.
But there are too many people in the amusement park.
It was just a glance, and then it was completely drowned in the crowd.
At that glance, he only thought he was hallucinating.
Maybe it's really a hallucination.
But even if it's a hallucination, he hopes it can last a little longer.
Why can't I find it?
Even if I find a similar face again.
Even if it's another empty rejoicing.
Fu Jingchun runs in the amusement park.
Until it gets dark.
The amusement park is closing.
All the visitors are starting to leave.
Such a lively place became sparse in an instant.
Fu Jingchun was a little depressed.
Finally walked over to the merry-go-round and sat down.
After sitting for a while, the staff of the amusement park came over: "Sir, our park is about to close here, you must go out." “
Fu Jingchun left the amusement park.
When Fu Jingchun came, it was delivered by the driver.
Now it's a person.
He also didn't bother to call the driver to come over.
Inexplicably, I just feel very lonely.
That loneliness was like rooting down his back, sucking his blood and soul day after day.
The city is very lively, and everywhere you go is neon and brightly lit.
Shuttling through the flow of people, Fu Jingchun felt for the first time that he actually had nothing.
It was as if the light had been lost in life.
Let the world shine brightly.
but it was as cold as an ice cellar.
Fu Jingchun walked to Pearl Square unconsciously.
This used to be Su Xiaoman's favorite place.
Because there's a food court here.
Because there are musical fountains here.
The last days.
Fu Jingchun accompanied Su Xiaoman out for a walk every day.
It's about a forty-minute walk from Champs-Bay.
But the two of them walked hand in hand, chatting lightly, and time passed unconsciously.
Everything in the past tormented him like a nightmare.
Fu Jingchun sat down next to the fountain pool in Pearl Square.
Tilt your head slightly.
There is no moon tonight.
But it's rare to see the stars.
Xiaoman, it would be nice if you were still here.
Sitting next to Fu Jingchun was a child.
It looks small, about the size of peace.
The reason why Fu Jingchun noticed this child.
It's because this kid is playing with a Rubik's Cube.
It's rare for a child of this age to be interested in a Rubik's Cube.
And Fu Jingchun watched this kid play with the Rubik's Cube, very skillful.
In about 30 seconds, the cube was put together to make each side exactly the same color.
And after this kid finished fighting, he seemed to sigh.
It looks boring and too simple.
This attracted Fu Jingchun's attention.
When Fu Jingchun was a child, his favorite game was also the Rubik's Cube.
So just now, he could see it.
This kid follows the formula every step of the way.
However, Fu Jingchun was surprised.
How can this child, who looks so young, still know the Rubik's Cube formula.
The kid also noticed that Fu Jingchun was looking at him.
raised his head and glanced at Fu Jingchun, saw that Fu Jingchun was staring at the Rubik's Cube in his hand, and directly handed over the Rubik's Cube: "You also want to play?"
Fu Jingchun was slightly stunned.
Then he looked up at the little boy in front of him,
The little boy is very good-looking.
Especially those eyes, clean and dark, like black stones.
I don't know why, when Fu Jingchun saw this child, he only felt like his heart had been knocked by something.
Those eyes seem to have a kind of magical power.
Fu Jingchun unconsciously asked, "Why are you alone, what about your parents?"
The little boy said, "My mom is calling over there, and I'm waiting for her here." ”
As he spoke, he pointed behind him.
But a fountain several meters high suddenly erupted behind him, and Fu Jingchun couldn't see it clearly at all.
But the little boy had already stood up and said, "I'll give you the Rubik's Cube, I'm tired of playing anyway, it's going to rain, so you can go back quickly." ”
With that, the little boy walked around the fountain unhurriedly and left.
Fu Jingchun took the Rubik's Cube and was stunned for a while.
When he turned to look at the little boy again, he had disappeared into the night.
It was raining in the air.
After Fu Jingchun went back, it was already nine o'clock in the evening.
Fu Jingchun returned to the snow garden.
Normally, he lives in the snow park with Xiao Ping'an.
Except for Wu's mother, the nanny who takes care of Xiao Ping'an at home, there are no other superfluous people.
Wu's mother had just called and said that she had brought Xiao Ping'an back.
After Fu Jingchun came back, he wanted to go to see Xiao Ping'an first.
When he arrived at the door, he saw Su Yuan walking out of it.
Fu Jingqing's voice was very light: "Why are you here?"
Su Yuan said: "I heard Weiwei say that Ping An was almost lost today, I'll come and take a look." ”
Fu Jingchun did not speak.
Su Yuan said: "Ping An just fell asleep, by the way, did you have dinner?"
Fu Jingchun said: "I'm not hungry. ”
Su Yuan said: "If you are not hungry, you should eat a little." ”
Wu's mother happened to be next to her.
Su Yuan instructed: "Mother Wu, you go and cook some shrimp dumplings for Mr., I brought them over today and put them in the refrigerator." ”
"Okay, I'll go. ”
Wu's mother left, and Fu Jingchun turned around and went back to his room.
Su Yuan also followed.
After arriving at the room, Fu Jingchun took out a bottle of wine and a wine glass from the wine cabinet.
I poured a glass and drank it all.
Su Yuan looked at Fu Jingchun, but said, "You don't look in a good mood today. “
Fu Jingchun didn't speak, and got another glass of wine.
Su Yuan went over and snatched the wine in his hand: "Don't drink it, tell me Weiwei, you met a woman who looks like her today." ”
Fu Jingchun's obvious body was obvious for a while, and even his fingers paused slightly.
Su Yuan said: "This is not the first time, why can't you wake up, Xiao Man has left, but you are still alive, you can't keep doing this, Xiao Man will not feel at ease even if he is in the spirit of the sky." ”
Fu Jingchun looked tired.
He put down the bottle, but walked to the floor-to-ceiling window and turned his back: "I always feel that she is still there, I can feel her breath." ”
Su Yuan only felt heartache.
So many years.
Although she is dead, it seems to exist in every corner.
Fu Jingchun's words made her feel cold.
In the past four years, Fu Jingchun has never forgotten Su Xiaoman for a moment.
But he couldn't see it.
In the past four years, who has been by his side.
Who loves him so truly and warmly?
Su Yuan slowly walked left and right in the direction of Fu Jingchun.
When he walked behind Fu Jingchun, he stopped.
She stretched out her arm and slowly hugged Fu Jingchun's waist from behind.
Su Yuan's voice seemed to be choked with a hint of choking: "Jingchun, she has already left, why can't you look back at me, I've been waiting for you, do you know? Xiaoman won't come back, do you really want to live like this for the rest of your life? Give me a chance, peace needs a mother, don't you? You turn around and look at me, okay?"
It's been four years.
She went from 24 to 28 in her youth.
She is no longer young.
Even Fu Weiwei, who had been matching her and Fu Jingchun back then, began to persuade her to let go and find someone else.
She didn't want to let go.
But she was not reconciled.
In the past, Su Xiaoman was alive, and she was Fu Jingchun's rightful wife, pregnant with Fu Jingchun's child.
She had nothing to say.
But now, Su Xiaoman is dead.
It's been four years.
But why, it was as if she had never left.
The desperation she waited.
How many more four years?
How much time do you have to wait for Fu Jingchun to come out of the past?
Su Yuan only felt hopeless.
Fu Jingchun slowly took Su Yuan's hand away.
Fu Jingchun turned around. 、
His eyes fell on Su Yuan's body.
Su Yuan hadn't shed tears for a long time.
At least never before anyone's eyes.
But at this time, she couldn't help it, and tears fell like this.
Fu Jingchun hadn't seen her like this for a long time.
Over the years, his gaze never seemed to stay on her.
Fu Jingchun looked at her quietly like this, his eyes were dark.
Su Yuan seemed to have a glimmer of hope in his heart.
She muttered, "Brother Jingchun......"
The four words of Brother Jingchun seem to be the only persistence in her Su Yuan's life.
The Su family and the Fu family are world friends.
She had met Fu Jingchun when she was very young.
Fu Jingchun is three years older than her.
I also took care of her when I was a child.
When did you fall in love with Fu Jingchun?
Maybe it was the first time I saw Fu Jingchun, who was only six or seven years old, sitting at home playing the piano quietly.
Sunlight streams in through the glass windows.
It's like putting a golden armor on his body.
Fu Jingchun talks about piano, and few people know about it.
But he talks about the piano as if the world doesn't match it.
Su Yuan later chose ballet.
is because her wish since she was a child is that one day Fu Jingchun will sit there playing the piano, and she will dance beside him.
All the efforts she made were just to be worthy of him.
Su Yuan sometimes found it incomprehensible.
At that time, I was so young.
Where to know what is like and what is love.
But Su Yuan is clear.
I fell in love with Fu Jingchun at that time.
Because this feeling has never changed over the years.
On the contrary, it became more intense and became a kind of attachment.