Chapter 42: The Time I Can't Go Back
was troubled by Pan Wei and Ding Mingtian, and Xiaoxiao didn't plan to participate in the activities in the department in the original itinerary. After all, both of them are the best of the graduate students, and meeting each other at the event is inevitable.
What's more, now Zhang Xiaoxiao is no longer in the mood to have fun, she was originally revisited, but she was deliberately reminded by the two, and the memories she thought had been left behind were found little by little, little by little.
The name "Qi Xiaofan" reappeared in her mind frequently, making her sleepless.
When Xiaoxiao came back to his senses, it was already pitch black outside the window.
The hotel she lives in is a lively night market street downstairs, and every table is full of people, they are of different ages and accents, but they laugh together, drink, and punch.
The companions were partying, laughing and remembering the lyrics she had heard when she was studying, and she didn't want to participate in the excitement. That...... Let's order takeout, right?
When I lifted my phone, I found that it was already out of power.
Then be hungry. She tossed her phone away and went back to bed.
"It's good to get some sleep. She hypnotized herself and woke up forgetting everything.
But she didn't expect that she couldn't sleep at all, staring at the ceiling with big eyes, and she didn't feel sleepy.
"Hey. There was a faint sigh in the room, she got up resignedly, plugged in the charger, and opened the network disk in the mobile phone.
An audio file appeared at the top of the phone's screen, and Xiaoxiao stopped on the "play" page, and did not move for a while.
If you look closely, you will find that the hands that smile across the screen are trembling slightly.
Do you want to listen?she asked herself. In the end, he just laughed self-deprecatingly and pressed the play button.
"I'm sorry. Qi Xiaofan remembered in a low voice in the room, Zhang Xiaoxiao hugged his mobile phone, curled up on the bed, biting his lip hard, and did not let himself speak.
"It's my fault, I shouldn't have provoked you. You just forgot about me and pretended I didn't exist, okay?"
His voice was gentle, coaxing and laughing, and he was careful not to say a word heavy.
"Not good. No matter how many times she hears it, every time she comes to this sentence, Xiaoxiao will refute it, as if this can reflect her determination.
"I don't like Pan Wei, she knows it, but she must accompany me. Xiaoxiao, you just be selfish to me, I don't want to delay you, but I'm not afraid to delay her. ”
"I've made my choice and I'm not going to change it. I've dragged you down and don't want to let her down again. ”
"The doctor said I wouldn't live for three years, so ...... I just want the rest of the time to be cleaner and simpler. ”
When the recording ended, the room fell silent.
This was the last time Zhang Xiaoxiao contacted Qi Xiaofan, and he had already left school to go home to recuperate. Xiaoxiao QQ sent him a voice message, from the afternoon to the early morning, Qi Xiaofan couldn't screw it, and finally answered.
Then there is such a dialogue, Xiaoxiao cut out part of herself, leaving only this one.
When Qi Xiaofan was still there, whenever she wanted to get in touch, she would put out this paragraph, listen to it, and then sober up.
With the doctor's treatment, Xiaoxiao hadn't heard this recording for a long time, and she thought she wouldn't need it anymore.
Pan Wei said that Zhang Xiaoxiao did not attend Qi Xiaofan's funeral, in fact, she really has no news of Qi Xiaofan. As long as it is someone who has a little relationship with him, such as Ding Mingtian or Pan Wei, she has completely blacked out every contact information.
Just thinking about it like this, Xiaoxiao didn't know when she fell asleep, and when she woke up, she was woken up by a knock on the door of the hotel, and when she opened her eyes, the sun was already shining outside.
"Who?" The person knocking at the door was still stubbornly continuing, smiling and glancing down at his phone, there was no missed call, it shouldn't be Mu Chaoyang.
No one else knows where they live?
Instead of packing up, she struggled to open the door with her messy hair and clothes she hadn't changed all night.
Seeing Ding Mingtian outside the door, she closed it without hesitation. Ding Mingtian's eyes were quick, and he pressed the door frame, "Sister, if you work harder, your hand will be broken." ”
"It's just right, so you can go to the hospital and stay until I go back to Z City. "After all, it used to be so good, but now without Pan Wei, Xiaoxiao and Ding Mingtian don't have as tense relationships as yesterday.
Although the words in his mouth were ruthless, the ridiculous smile still lightened his strength, Ding Mingtian caught a gap and slipped in, raising the noodles in his hand: "Don't look at my face, look at its face." ”
Xiaoxiao threw Ding Mingtian into the room alone, turned around and went into the bathroom to clean himself up, Ding Mingtian was very comfortable and pulled open the curtains, turned on the TV again, and shouted: "I'll open the window for you to breathe." ”
"What are you doing?" Zhang Xiaoxiao cleaned up and found that Ding Mingtian was already half-lying on the bed where there was no one, and he didn't recognize life at all.
"That's not right...... Why do you know I live here?!" Xiaoxiao suddenly reacted, she had never told Ding Mingtian where she lived, how did he find it?
Ding Mingtian didn't have the slightest intention of getting up, and pointed to what he was eating, "The soup is going to be gone, you eat it quickly." ”
"Answer my question!" said to him with a smile, and Ding Mingtian sat up.
"I told you not to be angry. He gave Xiaoxiao a vaccination.
Don't be angry? Xiaoxiao returned a smiling and unsmiling look, let him experience it for himself.
"I came with you yesterday...... Then just went to the front desk and checked your room number. ”
"You're sick, right!" Facing Ding Mingtian's honest explanation, he smiled and didn't appreciate it at all, "It's okay for you to let me go, haven't I told you everything, Xiaotian, let's not get in touch." ”
Ding Mingtian's smiling words made Ding Mingtian quite unconvinced, "Why!"
He didn't understand that Qi Xiaofan's death was not caused by him, he didn't do anything wrong in front of Xiaoxiao, and even the person who made that stupid decision was Qi Xiaofan, not him.
"Sister, what have I done, you have to have nothing to do with me? Didn't we get along well before?" The story of Zhang Xiaoxiao and Qi Xiaofan, Ding Mingtian has been involved from beginning to end - as a supporting role.
Like Xiaoxiao's memory, he missed that time together very much, so when Xiaoxiao told him that Qi Xiaofan broke up with her, he was angry.
After that, he went to find Qi Xiaofan and also knew the truth of the matter. Birth, old age, sickness and death, unable to do anything, Ding Mingtian could only agree to help Qi Xiaofan take care of Xiaoxiao.
It's just that I didn't expect that after Zhang Xiaoxiao and Qi Xiaofan completely broke up, they only sent him three words - I'm sorry, and disappeared.
Sometimes he is also sighing, Zhang Xiaoxiao and Qi Xiaofan are really a pair made in heaven, and they are so absolute and ruthless when they deal with things.
"You're not wrong. Xiaoxiao pulled two noodles and had no appetite.
I just think of your brother when I see you. Xiaoxiao thought in her heart but didn't say it, "You went to great lengths to find" Mu Chaoyang is not your boyfriend, right? Ding Mingtian didn't dwell on the topic just now, he came to Xiaoxiao today with other thoughts.
Xiaoxiao was just about to refute, Ding Mingtian shook his head, "I went to check, sister, it turns out that he is really the legendary Mu Chaoyang." ”
"What does it matter who he is?" Xiaoxiao ignored him, "Could it be that I get along with the opposite sex and have to report to you?"
didn't want to say more to him, Xiaoxiao immediately issued an eviction order, "Okay, I received the things you sent, and the relationship between me and Mu Chaoyang, you also found out, can you leave?"
Ding Mingtian is such a willful and coaxing character, but this "person" definitely does not include Zhang Xiaoxiao, she is used to being domineering in front of these two brothers.
If Mu Chaoyang is still a little cautious and deliberate, then he will be free to act as a blessing to Qi Xiaofan.
"You're avoiding me because of my brother. Since Xiaoxiao has issued an eviction order, Ding Mingtian no longer detours, "So in your eyes, I am not Ding Mingtian at all, but his younger brother Qi Xiaofan." That's all, right?"
"Aren't you?" she asked rhetorically, unable to deny it.
Ding Mingtian sighed, he knew that this was the case, from beginning to end, he was just Qi Xiaofan's younger brother in his smile.
"Yes. Ding Mingtian was speechless, he looked at the smiling gaze extremely seriously, "If my brother can, can I?"
What can you do?, Xiaoxiao frowned and wanted to ask.
"Be your boyfriend. ”
Ding Mingtian's words made him jump up from the chair with a frightened smile, "Are you crazy? ”
"What did I say?" Ding Mingtian didn't look like he was joking at all, "When you were with him, didn't you like him too?"
But he is not Mu Chaoyang's friend. Laughing and laughing, "You call me sister, in fact, I used to be your sister-in-law, Ding Mingtian, you have a clear mind." ”
Xiaoxiao's righteous words did not cause any deterrence to Ding Mingtian, but he approached Xiaoxiao.
Ding Mingtian was much taller than Xiaoxiao, and at this time he was condescending, forcing Xiaoxiao to retreat all the time.
What is he going to do? Xiaoxiao is not sure, Ding Mingtian is not Mu Chaoyang or Qi Xiaofan, and he is used to doing things in an orderly manner. Xiaoxiao suddenly felt scared.
"Xiaotian, I'm ...... with your brother"
"What about being in love? He's dead. Speaking of Qi Xiaofan, Ding Mingtian seemed to have lost patience, "He is the one who broke our harmonious situation!"
It seemed that he had endured it for a long time, and Ding Mingtian complained loudly: "Originally, even if he had a physical condition, we could be with He Meimei, and we could take care of him and accompany him together." Even in today's situation, we can still go to sweep the grave every year. ”
He grabbed a pillow and threw it against the wall, "But how is he doing now in such a childish way?
Xiaoxiao knows that although Ding Mingtian likes her, it is not a man's love for women. He just loved that time, and the three of them had fun freely.
Ding Mingtian is like a spoiled gentleman at home, and the whole academy didn't dare to mess with him, until he met Qi Xiaofan, and somehow accepted this little brother.
Then he met her, Qi Xiaofan and Zhang Xiaoxiao had a quarrel like this, and Ding Mingtian's identity was particularly embarrassing. In the past few years, I am afraid that this has also become a knot in his heart.
"Xiaotian, why bother. Xiaoxiao was a little helpless, and her tone was very sad, "You just chased me, what if I became your girlfriend?"
She persuaded Ding Mingtian, but she quietly moved to the door.
"There was no going back to those days. I started a new life, and so should you. Zhang Xiaoxiao lost Qi Xiaofan, but she later met Yu Yan, and now she still has Mu Chaoyang by her side, what about Ding Mingtian?
"He can do it, so can I!" Ding Mingtian was unmoved when he heard this, "Sister, you believe me, without him, we can play, make trouble, and have fun...... What are you doing so far away from me?"
Saying this, Ding Mingtian discovered Xiaoxiao's action, and his anger rose from his heart, and he was about to catch Xiaoxiao with an arrow step.
Zhang Xiaoxiao's eyes were quick, and he opened the door of the room and was about to ask for help outside, but he crashed into someone else's arms unexpectedly.
I just wanted to call for help, but I looked up...... collided with Mu Chaoyang's gaze again.
……
Is it him again, or is he ......
Xiaoxiao didn't know how she was feeling now, whether she should be surprised or surprised.