The young woman smiled. Of course, I have time."

It was about five o'clock in the morning, because I was tired, I was too tired just now, I was sweating a lot, I was very tired.

But I'm not ready to go to bed yet, I don't trust a stranger too much, I just hold on and watch the road ahead, I have to think about every situation, if this young woman is a psychopathic murderer, or send me to the police station to accuse me of rape.

Fortunately, it didn't take long for the car to enter the county seat, and then it went out of the county seat again. The young woman smiled and said to me, "Now you can rest assured." Rest assured of what."

The young woman cut off. You were suspicious, weren't you suspicious of me?"

I'm not very good at deceiving people, so I have to nod my head and admit it, and I wonder why people see through my mind so easily.

Is it me too young, too simple Tucson broken, or I'm not good at camouflage.

I'm thinking, if Fang Jie, Zheng Tianjiu, and Li Weiwei can also see through my mind at a glance, then wouldn't I just be unlucky?

I've been through so much, and most of the time I'm losing.

Looking at the young woman beside me with a somewhat cold and noble expression, I gradually understood, in fact, the reason is very simple, that is, I am too young.

At school, the Tigers are developing very well, and in the entire campus of City C, I Chen Song is almost unstoppable, but as soon as I leave school, I can't move an inch. All because I am only 18 years old, I am still an ignorant student, and my opponents are all old fritters who have been in the society for many years.

Under Fang Jie's hands, I don't have my own small group, so Fang Jie can call me and go as soon as possible, even if Zheng Tianjiu wants to deal with me, he won't take it too seriously.

The Closed Grid Gang is an example.When other gangs are against me.Fang Jie will only stand by and watch.Thinking of this.I gradually understand.If I want to be not passive.I must first consolidate my position.I am the boss of the Tiger Gang, it doesn't mean that I am also the boss of the Snow Wolf Gang.If I continue to be ignorant like this.Maybe one day in the future.Fang Jie will really kill me without any scruples.

The outside world is 10,000 times more sinister than the school.I realized that the biggest mistake I've ever made is to face the real underworld with a mixed school mentality.It's a fatal flaw.So.I have to change.I have to change.I have to change.I have to change.

The young woman saw through my mind again." Look at the way you're preoccupied, I've been hit a lot lately."

I don't want to speak, because I'm a natural person who is not good at words, I understand that if you talk too much, you will lose, so you might as well choose to be silent, so that others will think that you are very substantial, or very scheming.

It turns out that the biggest advantage of silence is that you can hide what you really think in your heart, and no one else will ever guess what you are thinking.

It's like this young woman, and when she saw that I didn't speak, she became even more curious." You don't say yes, let me guess, it must be out of love, right?"

I'm smiling, I don't say anything, I don't nod my head, I don't shake my head, I pretend to be mysterious.

She guessed again: "That's being hunted down."

This time she guessed correctly, but I kept the same expression, and she said it in a different way. I couldn't help but laugh. Sure enough, it would be better for men to be calmer, after all, there are so many things to carry on our shoulders.

On the way, this beautiful woman asked me what I was doing here, why I was in such a remote area, why I rushed back to City C overnight, why I didn't spend the night in this county, I didn't answer her, instead of making up a lame lie for her to debunk, it was better to keep it mysterious, let her guess for herself.

"Haha, you're pretending to be mysterious, aren't you?"

Eventually, she saw through my thoughts, I nodded, and confessed, "To be honest, I don't want people to know what I'm thinking, because I'm so naïve, so I always fail, and I want to change that."

The young woman took out a box of women's cigarettes, lit it, and took a puff elegantly. She said to me as she drove: "When I was young, when I was just injured, I had this thought, life is everyone's best mentor, and in the end we will choose the most appropriate way to protect ourselves. You are still young, you should not worry too much, I don't think failure is terrible, because I am afraid of failure, and looking forward is the most terrible thing."

I heard a saying a long time ago.A person's courage is limited.The more you grow up, the less courage you have.We should take advantage of our youth.Take advantage of our fearlessness.Go to the party.To create a blue sky of our own.Because once the youth is over.,We will become insensitive.Running around for life.So the beautiful illusions will disappear at that age.We will become cautious.We will never dare to touch dangerous things again.

I think that's why this young woman is looking for passion, and once people lose the pursuit of life, they need passion to anesthetize themselves, alcohol, drugs, religion, and so on.

......

When we arrived at City C, it was almost noon, we parted on the edge of a square, I was going to leave a phone number, or invite her to a meal to thank you, but as soon as I got out of the car, she drove away, and she didn't say goodbye, she didn't look back at me, like a stranger.

She just disappeared from my life as if she had never appeared, and it made me feel cruel, but I would be used to saying goodbye to it for the rest of my life.

Take a taxi back home.Go to the bathroom to take a shower.The room is empty.I've just experienced a life-and-death escape.When I look at myself in the mirror.I feel like the hero in the movie.The killer is not too cold.The only difference is.I don't have an ex-girlfriend that I can miss and worry about.Li Qing has nothing to do with feelings for me.For me, it has nothing to do with feelings.

I've been walking on this road for so long, and I've come to understand that this is a world where people eat people, and that all fairytale fantasies should be put down.

Only without care, only ruthless, can you become the king of the sky with one hand, those tenderness, those sweetness, do not belong to me, in my world, only slaughter, or be killed.

After taking a shower, I stood at the window, looking at this devastated world, I had no romantic feelings for wishing it would get better, some were just the most primitive yuang of surviving in this world. These days, I have seen too many evils, I have always been torn between soul and reality, my humanity has always been entangled between greatness and meanness, looking at this cold city, I have understood, I can't be a great person, then, let me be a complete villain.

This experience changed me completely, as the young woman said, life is our best teacher, no matter what our hearts are, it will eventually teach us to grow and some of the necessary lessons to survive.

I've been ignorant for too long.I can't be a gun in someone else's hand forever.From now on.I'm going to be in charge of my own destiny.That scheming, confused and ignorant Chen Song will die completely from today on.

(The pace of the counterattack is a bit slow, but it's not far off, we should be thankful for suffering, because suffering gives us wisdom and allows us to grow.)