245 Helpless

"I don't feel anything between me and her!" Jacob's voice tightened, but there was not the slightest anger, more of a thick tiredness and helplessness, and he could even feel it, his muscles were tense, his hands were straight, but he was trying to restrain himself, and he did not clench into fists. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. biquge。 info

But Jacob's helpless attitude angered Anna, her handsome eyebrows couldn't help but tangled, the anger became unstable in the irritability, she closed her eyes to avoid herself from making more uncontrollable actions, but the voice still leaked her inner gritted teeth, "Between you and her!

"No!" Jacob's emotions seemed to be a little irrepressible, and his voice rose slightly, "Not at all!"

Anna opened her eyes, her voice continued to rise, and she suppressed Jacob fiercely, glaring at Jacob incredulously, "It's clear that there is! I just read your text message!"

"She's just my colleague!"

Both of them raised their voices, Anna's sharpness and Jacob's richness collided and echoed in the small space of the kitchen for a long time, Anna's body couldn't help but lean forward, and she had the upper hand.

"She! you!" Jacob opened his palms frantically, wanting to look up to the sky and scream to vent his inner irritability and depression, but all his emotions were pressed into his chest, and it was extremely difficult to even express it, let alone vent it, he could only roar angrily, "You shouldn't read my text messages!"

Anna looked away in a panic, but then realized that she couldn't show weakness, so she turned her head to look again, looked at the angry Jacob, and shook her head irritably, "Why are you yelling at me?"

The injured fragility fainted between his eyebrows, like a slap in the face, hit Jacob's head hard, looking at those bright eyes, helpless emotions pulled his ankles and fell quickly, like a free fall, all emotions disappeared, only powerless, deep powerlessness, "I'm sorry I yelled just now." ”

Jacob raised his hands to support his head, his fingers digging into his hair, and felt like his heavy brain was about to explode, but there was nothing he could do. That kind of helplessness, powerlessness, and helplessness make the heart empty in the depths. He didn't want to argue.

However, Anna didn't receive the message, "Don't be angry with me. Anna regained the upper hand and said condescendingly, "If you keep shouting, everyone else will be drawn in." ”

The disappointment and reproach in his words stung Jacob, and he raised his head and looked at Anna in front of him through his hands, his eyes were full of incredulity, and he couldn't believe that Anna really said this, and in those dark brown eyes he could see anger rise and then dissipate, irritability rise and then dissipate, agitation rise and then dissipate again. The mixed look was silently accusing.

Anna looked away uneasily, Jacob's gaze made her feel uneasy, she wanted to reconcile, but the words she said were different, "It's important, if someone else comes." ”

The raised voice, the thick disappointment, the restless anger, Anna listened to her own voice, unwilling to believe that it was her own voice, this was her own words, every thought in her mind resisted these words, even she hated herself. Still, she spoke.

Anna turned around, hiding her panic because she knew she had made a mistake. Even with her back to Jacob, she could feel Jacob's anger after he was grieved to the extreme. Jacob like this was something she had never seen before, and she didn't have the courage to face it.

Yes, Jacob was angry, his eyes widened, and the fragmented emotions surged again, he knew that he should shut up, and the quarrel should end at this point, but, the body stood up impulsively, as if anger had taken away the dominance of the body, "Who will come?"

His voice could be heard clearly in his head, and he hoped that Anna would be able to deny it, that he hoped that Anna would fight back, that he hoped that Anna would be able to confront him again. However, he was disappointed. This time, silence awaited him. Except for silence, or silence.

Jacob stood still, as if he wanted to sit down, but he was standing, as if he wanted to stand up straight, but he couldn't bear the weight on his shoulders, he half-squatted, every muscle of his body stiffened in place, and then slowly, slowly stood upright. Little by little, all the emotions on that face began to ebb, the ruddy face turned pale, and even the anger at the corners of the mouth and eyes disappeared without a trace, replaced by despair, deep despair.

There was still silence. Anna began to chop the zucchini again, thinking only of the sound of the blade and the cutting board, and the sound of the pan making people irritate.

The last glimmer of hope in his dark brown eyes was also extinguished, and a look of disbelief flashed, and the monstrous anger made him take two big steps forward, but the kitchen was really too narrow, and it only took two steps for him to hit the stove hard, but he didn't care, there was only one thought in his mind, "Have you slept with him?"

Anna didn't answer, still intently cutting the zucchini, and Jacob patted Anna on the shoulder, "Did you answer me?"

"Don't touch me!" was Anna's only response.

But this response angered Jacob, who looked at Anna with a tearful eye, lowered his head, and tried to look into Anna's eyes, into those clear eyes, to hear the answer to the question, even if he wasn't sure if he wanted to hear the answer, "Did you sleep with him?" Yes or no?"

"Don't touch me!" Anna screamed at her top volume, then pushed Jacob away. But this time, she fell behind.

"Is there any?" Jacob roared with all his might, like an angry lion, and the desperate rage dragged him into endless darkness.

"Jacob, don't!" Anna said coldly, putting down her knife, raising her hands, closing her eyes, but never daring to look up.

"Don't want anything?" Jacob slammed back wall to wall, and then froze in place, looking at Anna's side face, looking at the side face that refused to exchange glances with him, the sadness and bitterness fell on his shoulders like this, the heavy weight was almost overwhelming, Jacob looked at Anna sadly, it seemed that in just a moment, the anger vanished, only confusion remained, and the loss of being in free fall but unable to land.

"Is there any? It's a very simple question, yes and no. Jacob said calmly, as if it were a lake without a single wave, so clear that you could see the ripples and wreckage in the depths of the lake. "Is there any?"

One second it was a hot and abnormal conflict, like a comet hitting the earth, and the next second it was calm again, so quiet that the sound of the oil pan became noisy again.

Anna didn't speak, just silently lowered her hands, looked at the zucchini on the board, and her eyes suddenly lost focus. She wanted to look up at Jacob, but she didn't have the courage, she knew that the face she once loved had now faded from all light and color.

Jacob just looked at Anna quietly, quietly. Then he drooped his shoulders, turned and walked back, sat down again in a state of devotion, took up the red wine, and said nothing.

"I'm not going to answer your questions. Anna got busy again, picked up the knife again, and prepared to cut the zucchini, she shook her head lightly and whispered.

The red wine in Jacob's hand paused, "Why can't you look me in the eye and answer me?" But his question still didn't get answered, and the emotions in his chest went on a rampage, tearing him into countless pieces, as if it would explode in the next second, and it came out without warning, "Look at me!" Jacob roared in despair, like thunder on the ground, this was his only request, he wanted to see those eyes he loved again.

Anna was startled, closed her eyes, shrunk her shoulders, and her whole body shrunk, but she was unwilling to back down, turned around and yelled back strongly, "Don't scream!"

"I can roar when I want!"

"No, you can't. Not in my house!"

The unreasonable roars of the two people stirred in the air, and the whole room began to tremble, even the warm yellow halo was dyed with a layer of coldness, and the irrepressible anger burned all the shackles of reason, and before there was time to think, all the words broke through the shackles of the throat.

"Well, then I'll go back to my house! I want to go back to my own home! Don't I want to go back to my home? I want to go back now!" all Jacob's emotions exploded, pouring down like a flood, his muscles tensed, and he roared loudly around his neck.

Anna was also completely angry, still holding the sharp knife in her hand, and collided back without showing weakness, "Why are you yelling at me?"

"Who are you to say that about me?" Jacob stared at Anna's back with no response, "yes, I just want to yell at you here! I don't want to be in my own house!"

"Don't yell at me......" Anna's voice was completely drowned out by Jacob's roar like a surging river, and she was powerless to resist, she simply threw the knife directly into the sink, and simply turned away neatly, refusing to continue to communicate.

Jacob still looked at the sizzling oil pot in front of him, his eyes did not follow Anna's footsteps, his movements froze in place, and quietly watched the thick smell of gunpowder slowly dissipate, the loneliness between his eyebrows slowly precipitated, the light in the depths of his eyes gradually disappeared, and the shoulder lines that were tense because of anger slowly softened, and then began to fall apart.

A touch of pain slipped through his eyes, but he didn't even have the strength to close his eyes, and he still held the glass of red wine in his right hand, and he never took a sip of it, and even the alcohol could not numb his nerves.

Zila, zila, the sound of the frying pan echoed in the kitchen, and it was frighteningly quiet.