For a moment, Chu Di wanted to say to Lin Xiangwan, you go, go far, never come back, everything that happened is a dream, wake up from the dream, you and I have nothing to do with it.

Not for anything else, just for these days and nights she stayed at his bedside sleeplessly, just for the tears she shed when he was assassinated.

Just for those days that he wants to forget and can't forget, those days engraved on his body, seared in his soul, and spent time together.

She sat in his arms, the two of them soaked in the hot spring together, he could see her side face when he looked down, her eyes closed, the corners of her mouth involuntarily cocked, I am afraid that even she didn't know, she was laughing.

She was so beautiful when she smiled, and when he first knew her, he often wondered how this girl could smile so beautifully, more than all the women he had ever seen, how could she smile so brightly, so bright that she wanted to destroy it.

So, what was she thinking when she smiled involuntarily in his arms? Was she calculating how to bankrupt him, to make him lose everything, to make him feel the same pain as she did?

He didn't believe it.

He didn't believe that there were such dirty and dirty thoughts hidden behind such a pure and sweet smile, he didn't believe that Lin Xiangwan had such a deep scheming, she hated him, so she took revenge on him, but she was by no means a scheming person, her cleverness was not used in this, even if he still thought so much because of her after falling so much and suffering so many losses.

didn't let her go, but also because he was reluctant.

If she is gone, who will prove his days of perseverance, and his unfulfilled promises, to whom should be delivered? He was reluctant to let her escape, he would rather leave her in pieces than let her disappear from his world.

Chu Di's hand had already fallen on the door switch, and he still didn't press the button in the end.

When a thought arises, thousands of rivers and mountains, a thought disappears, and the vicissitudes of life.

One of our decisions often determines the direction of countless things in the future, whether happy or sad, gathering or dispersing, but when we make this decision, we can't see that far.

Even if I see it, it's more of a backfire, and I can't help myself, and my heart can't help myself.

The car drove slowly through the downtown area, and after getting on the highway, it sped off.

"There's no pity, just do it later. Just a pot of soup. After a long silence, Chu Di replied.

But Lin Xiangwan didn't say anything more, she leaned her head against the car window, gesturing something with her fingers in the thin mist knotted on the glass, Chu Di looked over and found that she was writing.

Shen Shijun, Ye Nan, Ye Kuan, Xu Mingfei...... She wrote down the names of all the people she knew, then wiped them off one by one, sighed, and re-wrote them.

She stubbornly repeated these movements, as if they had a great meaning and influence on her, as if the names of those people would be immortalized because she had smeared them on the car window.

The two words she wrote the most were still Ye Nan.

She carefully wrote down the two words neatly, stroke by stroke, and then carefully erased them, her movements gentle, her lips pursed as if she had completed an important ritual.

Chu Di saw that there seemed to be tears flashing in her eyes, but it was only an illusion for a moment, and if she looked closely, she was still expressionless, as if she didn't care about what was about to happen.

When he arrived at the place, the car stopped, Lin Xiangwan got out of the car, and couldn't help but sigh lightly, "It's really a convenient place." ”

Chu Di: "What?"

Lin Xiangwan raised his eyebrows and pointed to the tall and low mountain road in the distance, "Wait a while, just bury me there, clean and hidden." Bury it deeper, don't let the wild dogs dig it out in the middle of the night, it's scary. ”

She joked about her life nonchalantly, giving rise to a sense of powerlessness that wanted to be angry but didn't know where to start, Chu Di glared at her for a long time, and finally brushed his sleeves and said, "Don't talk nonsense, no one said that they would kill you." ”

Before the path into the mountain, there is a broken temple, and Ah Dao has waited for the temple gate.

Chu Di saw him from a distance, so he nodded at him, Ah Dao ran over, saw Lin Xiangwan, and smiled at her embarrassedly, "Sister Wan, you have made a big mistake this time." ”

Lin Xiangwan also nodded and said, "Yes, I'm going to make a big deal for you, please, I'll be quick in a while, I'm afraid it hurts." ”

"Sister Wan, you ......" Ah Dao was so embarrassed that he didn't know what to say, Lin Xiangwan didn't care about him, turned back to Chu Di and said, "You two discuss how to deal with me, I'll go into the temple and have a look." ”

After speaking, Lin Xiangwan went straight into the temple.

The country has national laws, the family has family rules, if Chu Di doesn't pursue these things she does, then no matter who dares to come to him in the future, in that way, not only Chu's mother, but even Chu Di himself is probably worried about his life.

He can only see the right thing by killing chickens and showing them to monkeys.

As for how he wanted to deal with himself, Lin Xiangwan lowered her head and smiled, she really didn't even care at all.

Some people say that mourning is greater than heart death, but she always feels that mourning is greater than heart death.

Because the heart is immortal, there is always a little fantasy in the heart, and only then will I feel that there is hope for everything. But after all this, she has extinguished the last spark in her heart.

The heart is dead, what is the use of leaving this dilapidated body?

I don't know what year and month the old temple was built, and after hundreds of years of wind and rain, it has long been dilapidated. The Buddha statue enshrined in the temple even peeled off the paint on the body, revealing the mud and wood bones inside and looking embarrassed, Lin Xiangwan stood in front of the offering table, very respectfully folded his hands, bowing and worshipping.

She doesn't believe in gods and Buddhas, but she hopes that Ye Nan can believe it. For if a man is not afraid, he will live a very poor life.

Just like her.

It's not what you want that's scary, it's what you're afraid of is that you don't want anything.

Because people have weaknesses, they will have fear, and they will know how to advance and retreat, but if you are facing a person who doesn't want anything, what should you do with her?

There was a sound of heavy footsteps behind him, Lin Xiangwan didn't turn back, "Have you discussed, where are you going to do it?" Let's go outside, it's always bad to see blood in the land of Buddhism." ”

"Ah Dao's subordinates are measured...... You don't have to be afraid...... I will ask the best doctor to take care of you......" Chu Di stood behind her, for some reason, facing this slender figure, he always felt an invisible pressure.

"Chu Di, it's really not pleasant for you to say this. Your people are going to operate on me, and you still tell me not to be afraid, because I found a doctor afterwards, so I won't be in pain or bleed?" Lin Xiangwan shook his head and sighed, "After so many years, you have actually not changed, you will never stand in other people's positions and think for others, you think you can understand everything and control everything, but in the end, you will find out that you don't understand anything." quot;

"Then what do you know? You did these things, didn't you think that I would find out?Or do you think that even if I found out, I wouldn't do anything to you?" Chu Di said coldly, if she really thought that, it was actually not wrong, because he hinted to her that he could retreat to his last limit for her, but he didn't expect that she would be so bold that she would really dare to lift his scales.

Lin Xiangwan put down his hand, took two steps towards the door, and said helplessly, "Look, I'm the reason why we can't be together." Because none of us can take a step back for the sake of the other party, we are actually the same people, and we refuse to let go of what we have identified, even if we are bruised and bruised by the other party, we will not take a step back. The two of us are like two hedgehogs, together, we can't do anything other than hurt each other. So...... Mr. Chu, goodbye. ”

After she finished speaking, she sighed as if she was extremely sorry, and then went out of the broken temple, not giving Chu Di a chance to answer at all.

As soon as he went out, he saw Ah Dao, and he stood in front of the temple gate with his brows tightly locked. Ah Dao looks a little childish, although he is already a man in his thirties, when his brows are furrowed, he still looks like a child who is facing a difficult problem and does not know how to solve it. Lin Xiangwan was because of this childishness in him, so he took special care of Chu Di's brothers.

She persuaded Ah Dao to go to an internship class and learn a trade, so that when he was out of the underworld, or when Chu Di couldn't use him, he could live a good life.

Unexpectedly, Ah Dao not only got a college degree, but also found a wife in tutoring, and now the two are running the manor in a down-to-earth manner, just waiting for the birth of the child after the New Year, which is a happy and healthy family of three.

All of them seem to be able to arrange their lives well, except for her and him.

Lin Xiangwan has always wondered if her life would be different if she left Chu Di, but if she forgot those things, would she find the so-called happiness.

But she tried for so long, but she didn't succeed.

They are probably the evil fate mentioned in the eight-character book of fortunes, unless one person dies, there will be no peace in eternal life.

"Ah Dao, I'll leave it to you. I went to the car and waited. Chu Di commanded, and walked quickly in the direction of the car, without even looking back.

He didn't dare to look back, because he was afraid that he would see the image of blood gushing out when the knife stabbed Lin Xiangwan's shoulder or arm, and he felt that he couldn't stand it. In the past, he stabbed others like cutting melons and vegetables, and he would not frown when he killed a bloody way out of a dark alley, but now he couldn't bear to see her shed a drop of blood.

What's wrong? Who changed whom?

The reason why Ah Dao is called Ah Dao is because he uses the knife well, he is extremely accurate and fast, he will only let Lin Xiangwan bleed a little, he will not hurt too deeply, he will not kill her, and he will not cut her important muscles, as long as Lin Xiangwan suffers this punishment, the past can be erased, and then he will take her far away, hide her well, let her not wade into this muddy water again, and after a long time, she will slowly forget these things, and then they may be able to start again.

Chu Di told himself this as he walked briskly, until he heard the crisp sound of a gunshot, which sounded behind him......