Locking himself in the bedroom, Tian Xiaonuan relaxed a little, looking at the pale pink peach blossom quilt covered on the bed, and the various scalp tendons scattered on the side of the bed.

She took a long breath and gently opened the closet, which was full of neatly stacked clothes, all summer clothes, one for men and the other for women, mostly white, with a cute cat head on the T-shirt.

She touched these clothes, all of them were her own size, summer clothes, that is, last summer, did she still live here?

I was frightened by this question in my mind, and fell on the bed, another feeling of palpitations, as if she had already been lying on this bed, Tian Xiaonuan got up suddenly, opened the bathroom door, turned on the faucet, and washed her face with cold water, wanting to sober herself up, and stop this kind of illusory feeling.

She habitually took off the towel closest to her on her left, wiped her face and looked at herself in the mirror, looking at the skincare products on the sink, exactly the same as the one she used at home.

Tian Xiaonuan couldn't stand it anymore, opened the door and rushed out, He Silang heard the movement, saw Tian Xiaonuan running out as if she was frightened, and hugged her crumbling body.

"Xiao Nuan, what's wrong with you? Is it here that makes you uncomfortable? I'll take you away now, blame me. ”

He Silang's body was hot, and the warmth in her arms made Tian Xiaonuan, who was soft, regain some strength, she pointed to the sofa next to her, He Silang hurriedly hugged her, gently put her on the sofa, lit a long cushion on her back, and went to the bedroom to take out a blanket and spread it on her.

"I was going to pour you water, I saw the coffee, you used to like this taste, you try it. ”

Tian Xiaonuan looked at the Starbucks mug, and when she smelled the taste, she knew that this was the latte in Starbucks instant coffee, one of her favorite flavors.

After drinking a few sips of hot coffee, the bitter and slightly sweet taste relieved her nervous nerves, and asked about the aroma of coffee, Tian Xiaonuan gradually felt an impulse in her heart.

She wants to make a decision, wants to have a result, doesn't want to go on like this, delaying him and wasting her time, if she still can't remember in the end, if she still can't give him what he wants in the end, the longer the time drags on, the more harm will be to him.

"He Silang, I want to talk to you. ”

He Silang suddenly had a bad feeling, and Tian Xiaonuan's voice became calm and indifferent.

"I have amnesia, I can't remember our previous love, I don't remember how I felt about you, and I'm not sure if I can think about it in the future, so I thought, let's break it off today. ”

"No, what's the point, I don't want to break it, Xiao Nuan, don't be like this. He Silang's heart suddenly clenched, and Tian Xiaonuan broke the word, as if it was the most terrible thing he had ever heard in his life.

"You are my wife, you were seriously injured in order to save me, when you were unconscious, I decided, no matter what you are like in the future, whether you wake up or not, you are the only wife in my life, I don't want to break it, I will not leave you in this life, even if you don't want me, I will pester you. ”

He Silang's eyes flashed with tears, Tian Xiaonuan looked at him with grief, discomfort, fear and even despair, his eyes flashed uncomfortably, and he almost softened, but this is not right, this is not fair to him and himself, he can't accept it now, he will accept it after a long time, Tian Xiaonuan gritted his teeth and was ruthless.

"Don't be like this, calm down, I can't remember you, and I don't want to get married in my life, I just want to live quietly alone, I just want to be with my mother and sisters, and my relatives at home, watching everyone live happily, I will be satisfied in this life."

I can't remember you, since I can't remember, it's that we don't have this fate, fate has ended, whether you say I'm selfish, or call me cold-blooded, I just want to correct my life track now, I don't need a boyfriend or a husband, I just want to live alone, so I think we're continuing like this, maintaining an unclear relationship, husband and wife are not husband and wife, friends are not friends, just slightly better than strangers...... Hmm!"

Tian Xiaonuan's mouth was blocked by He Silang all of a sudden, his domineering kiss made her suddenly unable to breathe, pushed him away, pushed him away, she shouted in her heart, and the smell of men peculiar to his body penetrated into her nose, with the fresh smell of her favorite Lux soap.

"Ah!" Tian Xiaonuan called softly, this kiss made her so familiar, she seemed to have been longing for his kiss, and her body seemed to be complaining about her, why did she wait so long, no, Tian Xiaonuan suddenly bit down hard.

He Silang let go of his mouth, his lips had been bitten by Tian Xiaonuan and left blood, and he had already tasted a faint fishy sweet taste in his mouth.

He looked at Tian Xiaonuan who was a little scared, curled up together, and suddenly hated himself for what was wrong with him, why did he go crazy, he slapped himself twice, and his cheeks quickly swelled.

"I'm sorry, I was impulsive, I ...... When I heard that you were going to break up with me, I was afraid, and when I was a soldier, the instructor taught me that a good special forces soldier must first overcome the fear in his heart in order to constantly defeat those opponents who are stronger than himself. Before I met you, I had never been afraid, and I didn't even think that life and death could not be feared by myself.

After getting to know you, your happiness and sadness, your smile and your ignorance of me, all make me involuntarily think repeatedly, I am afraid if you ignore me, I am afraid when you are angry, you are in danger, I want to kill myself, why can't I protect you, I have learned so much, but I can't protect you, I know that I shouldn't be so selfish, if you want to be free, I should give it to you, I should have made it clear to my parents, I actually vaguely knew that there would be such a day, but I never wanted to face all this, I didn't want to lose you. ”

He Silang's knees weakened, he fell to the ground, and a tear fell from the corner of his eye, dripping on the back of Tian Xiaonuan's hand.

Tian Xiaonuan's heart seemed to be pulled by a hand, and the severe pain made her breathless, He Silang saw Xiaonuan's face change, and he was so frightened that he slapped himself twice.

"It's me who is wrong, Xiao Nuan, don't feel bad, what if...... I have really become a burden to you, I go and say to the family, you want to be free, I ...... will let go, in your life, you should live arbitrarily and chicly. ”

He Silang gritted his teeth, seeing that Tian Xiaonuan was uncomfortable, he found that he was a bastard, why did he force the person he loved the most, as long as she was happy, wouldn't it be fine?

"My life?" Tian Xiaonuan's face changed greatly, why did he say this?

He Silang smiled bitterly: "Maybe in this life, I am a variable that should not appear." ”