Chapter 51: Everything is her own doing
Shen had a long dream as scheduled, she dreamed that in a dark night, she opened her legs and ran with all her might, behind her was the monster that was going to be swallowed, the hideous face flashed with fear in the dark, she was very scared, so she had to keep running, but no matter where she hid, the monster always had to find her, open its sharp teeth, and make a gesture to swallow her, she wanted to call for help, the voice was in the throat, could not be transmitted to the mouth, in the vast surroundings, there was no trace of anyone, blood and water fell from the sky, melted into the darkness, in the cramped corner, she moved her body, but found that she could not move。
Her mouth was open, her eyes wide, and the air was being drained from her chest.
"Don't. She finally shouted.
When she opened her eyes, the incandescent light surged in front of her eyes, the contrast between the white and the dark stroke in the dream, the slight pain came from the hanging needle on the palm, she moved her fingers, she couldn't feel any strength, and her back was already dripping with sweat, sticky and suffocating.
The strong light made her eyes close uncomfortably, and when she opened them again, the pupils were Qin Shaoheng's figure, staring at her coldly and condescendingly.
How could she be here, she desperately recalled the memories of being in the hospital, but the faint dull pain in her brain made her unable to think anymore, she was shocked, and it took a lot of effort to raise her arm, trembling and putting it on her abdomen, a flat touch, tearing pain spread over her heart.
"No, no...."Her eyes were scarlet with horror, tears dripping down the corners of her eyes, and her throat made a staccato sound as if she had been seriously injured by a blunt object, "My, my, my child...."
Her child, the sustenance of all her hopes, how could it be, how could it have disappeared without a trace, where there should have been a healthy life waiting to be born, and she was fully prepared to give it all love.
She exerted all her strength, struggled to get up, stretched out her other hand to pull out the drip, Qin Shaoheng walked in, held her hand, "Don't move." ”
His voice was cold, like a midwinter slump.
She frowned tightly, half-sitting, her eyes were thick and hot sorrow, the mist was filled, her face was so pale as if it had been painted with a layer of white paint, her thin fingers grabbed the corners of his clothes, "Save it, okay." ”
Qin Shaoheng only looked at her coldly, his expression fluctuated as usual, his eyes were impenetrable waves, his eyes fell on her knuckles grabbing him, he was stunned, hooked the corners of his mouth slightly, and stretched out his fingers to release her knuckles one by one.
She froze, watching her knuckles move away from the corners of his clothes one by one.
"Isn't it just now that you want to care about this child?" he looked down at her, his voice like a quenched ice.
There was a cold chill in the air, freezing on her skin, the bone-chilling coldness rushed from her fingertips to her heart, her body trembled and couldn't stop, tears condensed in the horns, dried with the wind, and the light under her eyes dimmed a little.
Yes, she was bent on leaving, she didn't want his protection, she didn't want Mrs. Qin's wealth and glory, she should have thought that this escape accident was all her fault, it was her gullibility to believe in someone who shouldn't have believing. A person who wants to leave, what qualifications does he have to go back and ask for his help.
Besides, he didn't love her either. She bury herself between her knees, and everything was her own doing, so that she ended up in such a field.
The last bit of connection between her and him was gone, and she could finally end it completely, as she wanted.
"You go—" she raised her eyes, her cheeks covered with tears, and reached out and jerked him away.
He didn't expect her to do this, staggered a few steps, stopped, and frowned.
She looked at him as if she were looking at a stranger, and her tone was mixed with feigned composure, "You go." Let's let each other go. ”
"Let you go?" Qin Shaoheng sneered a few times as if he had heard a ridiculous joke, he stepped forward and pinched her pale and thin chin, "Let you go, so that you can elope with other men?"
"Elopement?" she was forced to look up at him, frowning, innocent emotions in her eyes.
But such a pitiful appearance fell in Qin Shaoheng's eyes, which made him even more angry.
"Why? Is it too late to pretend to be pitiful?" his eyes were full of disgust, as if he were pinching a piece of garbage.
"Whatever you want!" she had no energy to explain, and when she turned her face away, it was almost dawn outside, but what had happened in just a few hours had completely shattered her life, her child, being torn out of her flesh and blood, the physical pain being diluted by the drug, and the pain in her heart was getting worse and worse.
The strength of his chin was a little heavier, his eyes were rolling with rage, was she frustrated and attempted elopement?, this fresh life, the life he had been looking forward to for a long time, disappeared like this, but all she had been thinking about was letting him let her go.
He let go of her jaw and threw a leaflet on the bed, which was illustrated with a description of the miscarriage.
She looked at him with a puzzled look between her eyebrows.
He straightened the corners of his slightly wrinkled clothes, and his cold gaze grabbed her, "This is the brochure in your bag, does it remind you of anything?"
She has no impression of this booklet, how it ran into her bag, she didn't know, and Qin Shaoheng wouldn't have fabricated it out of nothing, but who else could get close to her with such great effort, who else besides Xiao Huien, she sneered, met his gaze, and said, "If I say that someone is framing me all this, do you believe it?"
Qin Shaoheng smiled, "Shen Ruzhi, I trusted you, and then what?"
She worked hard to gain his trust and pave the way for her to leave her, and he didn't believe her, which was understandable. She didn't want to defend anything, nor did she want to expect anything, so she buried her head again, "Mr. Qin, forget it if you don't believe me, let's divorce, the bridge will return to the bridge, and the road will return to the road." There are so many people who want to sit in Mrs. Qin's position, and they are all more qualified than me. ”
"It turns out that in your eyes all along, it's just a name. He pressed her thin shoulders, his eyes scarlet, too many uncertain emotions rolling in his abyssal eyes.
A trace of doubt flashed in her eyes, but she quickly recovered, "Yes, do you think there is love between us that should be in marriage? Mr. Qin should have passed that delusional age." ”
Delusion can find a perfect substitute for true feelings.
"Delusional?" he jerked her away, and she leaned back a few inches.
He straightened up, looked at her coldly, and sneered, "What does Mrs. Qin think I am delusional? Mrs. Qin was too confident. ”
"Not the best. Her heart was about to suffocate, tears were in her eyes, she tilted her head and continued, "Mr. Qin, can you go out first? I'm tired and want to rest." I have already sent you the divorce agreement, I understand that Mr. Qin is very busy, but there is still a minute or two to sign it, if Mr. Qin is unwilling to bother to send it back, when the agreement is signed, I can go over and pick it up. ”
Qin Shaoheng loosened the button of his shirt, and his gaze condensed on Shen Ruzhi, "Do you think that because of you, I will let you go so easily if I lose a child of the Qin family?"
"Then, what does Mr. Qin want? Do you want my life?" she breathed violently, held her head high, looked at him and said, "If you want to lose my life, Mr. Qin is free, anyway, according to the status of your Qin family, it is not difficult to deal with a person?"
"Mrs. Qin's courage to divorce me rather than lose her life, I admire it, but unfortunately, I don't want to fulfill your wish. Since it's so painful to be with me, I'm going to make it even more painful for you. Although he said this with a smile, there was no joke, and his words were like a poisoned blade.
Shen knew that he had such strength, and letting her die could also make her live in pain.
"What do you want?" she asked him desperately.
"No one has ever dared to deceive me and betray me, Mrs. Qin is the first, I haven't figured out how to punish you, you are looking forward to it, I am looking forward to it. Qin Shaoheng's thin lips moved, and he bit between his teeth before being released, "Mrs. Qin has a good rest." I also advise you not to have other thoughts, and I don't think you want anyone to be hurt because of you. As for the person you elopeed to..."
"You...."The intense emotions pulled at the wound, the pain made her face even paler, she gritted her teeth, her voice drowned between her teeth, she remembered, Song Xianzhe risked his life to drag those three people in order to save her, she was saved, but what about Song Xianzhe? Is he still alive?
She twisted her eyebrows and quickly pulled out the drip, lifted the quilt and got up, stumbled, she fell to the ground, and a weak voice sounded in the empty room, "Teacher Song...."
This name is undoubtedly a bomb for Qin Shaoheng, a bang exploded in his mind, he hurriedly stepped forward, grabbed her wrist, she was forced to get up from the ground, he threw her on the bed, the pain of the knife made the sweat stains on her sideburns go straight down, and there was a deep hatred in his eyes when he looked at her. The disgust that rose between her eyebrows was like a thin needle piercing her heart. It hurts, the pain in her body, the pain in her heart, intertwined and flowing in her blood, as if she wants to tear her whole body apart.
She gasped, tired and unable to pull her away from reality, losing even the strength to hold her eyelids closed, her blurred vision was a look of anger and disgust, she never thought they would become such a field now.
Her mouth was slightly open, unable to utter a word.
His voice was getting farther and farther away, and she couldn't tell what he was saying, it was certainly not what she wanted to hear.
Does he hate her? Forget it, let him hate her, he didn't expect him to love her anyway.
Before the last shred of strength was lost in her body, she heard her name called.
"Shen as scheduled, as scheduled, good name. ”
A smile rippled across the corners of her mouth, the fireworks that night were beautiful, his voice was beautiful, his eyes were gentle, was it her delusion?
But she didn't have the energy to look into it anymore, she was very tired and in pain, and she really wanted to sleep well and never have to wake up again.