Three days ago, Lu Zhongjun learned from Deputy County Magistrate Wang that he could be transferred.

This news came too suddenly, which made Lu Zhongjun a little stunned.

It's been almost a year and a half since I came to this place called Red Stone Well. If he had heard such news a few months ago, there was no doubt that he would definitely have nodded immediately.

It's been so long since he's been gone, and he's missed the feeling of flying in the sky with a fighter plane.

I remember when I was in Moscow, the bearded instructor who admired him very much said: "Lad, treat the car under you as a lover, develop and train it with all your skills, and you will love this feeling."

He fell in love with this feeling, and the J-6 was his lover, the only lover he would miss after leaving.

But now, things have changed. Just when he was about to nod his head, he hesitated again.

After coming out of Deputy County Magistrate Wang's house, Lu Zhongjun fell into a deep contradiction.

Although Deputy County Magistrate Wang did not say it explicitly, Lu Zhongjun could also guess that this was probably what his father wanted. If he can accept this arrangement, not only can he get out of this isolated and backward community that imprisons him, but the father-son relationship may also be a good sign of frost relief.

His father is a typical iron-fisted figure who came from the war years. Her mother is said to have been the daughter of a high-ranking official in Chongqing, who studied at Wesleyan Women's College in the United States, where the three Song sisters studied, and later abandoned her family to work as a nurse in the liberated area. Her father fell in love with her, and her mother accepted the organization's arrangement and got married.

In the impression of the young Lu Zhongjun, his mother was the most beautiful woman in the world. Although she returned from abroad, she was a traditional woman, and after getting married, she worked hard to take care of her elders, but her father did not spend much time with her, so that after many years of marriage, she finally gave birth to herself and her sister one after another. At least, in his opinion, the family is just an accessory to his father, and the relationship between father and son has been weak since he was a child, even if his father goes home, he will only hold his sister Lu Xiaolin and let her sit on his lap, but he will always have a serious face towards him. Lu Zhongjun gradually got used to it. But then, misfortune struck. At the beginning of the storm, the organization demanded a divorce from the father and mother. When the mother heard the news, she committed suicide not long after. At that time, Lu Zhongjun was only a teenager. He remembered very well that he had come back from outside as usual that day, but the house was empty, his mother was gone, and he was told that she had drunk dichlorvos and was taken to the hospital.

He will never forget what he saw that day later. The mother lay straight on the cold iron bed in the morgue, her beautiful eyes were tightly closed, her face was pale, and her abdomen was bulging high because she had no time to discharge the stomach with water, like a pregnant woman.

He held his crying sister tightly in his arms and wouldn't let her look at her again.

My father finally came back, half a month after my mother's accident.

For the first time, Lu Zhongjun saw a majestic expression on his father's face, an expression full of powerlessness, sadness and deep guilt. He even whispered soft words to comfort Lu Zhongjun. But these can no longer impress the son. Sons don't need that anymore.

It was from this day that he despised and even hated his father.

He did not fulfill his duty to protect his mother and did not deserve his respect.

……

When Lu Zhongjun first met Anna, he had to admit that he was also amazed by her, especially the moment when she looked at him pleadingly with her beautiful eyes that seemed to be able to speak. But after a brief moment of amazement, her whole body and everything she was carrying looked so suspicious. Even when she said Li Hong, he still felt that something was wrong.

She explained that she had come to join her aunt Li Hong, and Li Hong also knew that she was coming soon. In this case, the two should have corresponded before. Since there is correspondence, no matter how forgetful she is, it is impossible for her to forget the address of Li Hong's house.

However, perhaps the feeling of this strange foreign woman reminded him of the photos he had seen when he was a child of his mother wearing a beautiful Western-style dress and an elegant pearl necklace when she was young, he hesitated, and finally decided to ignore his doubts, and the next day he coldly watched her recognize Li Honggu's niece and was taken back.

According to his instincts, even if this woman didn't tell the truth that night, she shouldn't be any threat. Hongshijing was just a small backward place, and he didn't have to check everything clearly, so after paying attention to it for a few days, he felt that there was nothing big about her, so he closed his eyes and let it go.

What made him feel different about her was the night at the base station at the top of the mountain.

At that time, he came back from the second institute and saw her waiting for a bus at the intersection. I didn't want to do much, but after driving out for a while, I looked in the rearview mirror again, and saw her small figure standing alone on the side of the road, and the twilight behind her was getting thicker, and I didn't know what to think about it at the time, so I drove the car back, and then the car had an accident and was forced to spend the night at the base station, she drank wine, and when she got up and entered the house, her steps were unsteady, so he helped her in. Her long hair accidentally hooked the button of his clothes, and she couldn't untie it, revealing a look of shame and embarrassment.

It was the first time he had been so close to a woman, and he could clearly smell the warm smell of a woman that was difficult for him to describe in words, probably because he had drunk a lot of wine, and he was a little smoky at the time, and the blood in his body seemed to flow suddenly faster. After coming out, Lao Ding misunderstood that he and her were in that relationship. Although he immediately denied it, in his heart, to be honest, there was a feeling that he was not very repulsive. Later, unintentionally or intentionally, Lu Zhongjun gradually became more familiar with her.

This woman's temper is not very good, a little bit of a delicate lady, but Lu Zhongjun unexpectedly found that he actually enjoyed this feeling, and even enjoyed it, so he deliberately went to her aunt's commissary to buy a pack of cigarettes, in order to take a look at her, or to take a sentence or two. After the UNRWA primary school holiday, he did not see her for several days, and one night he could not help but go to the commissary to buy cigarettes. He was too embarrassed to ask where she was, and he came back. Then at noon the next day, during dinner, Xiao Qiu brought out her news, saying that he saw her leave two days ago and went back to Shanghai.

"Did you say that?"

He remembered that he had nothing to do at the time, and asked casually.

She said not necessarily, it depends. ”

Xiao Qiu replied to him like this at the time.

At that time, his mood was low, and he suddenly felt that he had no appetite for eating. It is like a traveler who has been walking on a lonely path in the wilderness, and finally meets a companion in front of him, and just as he wants to approach, suddenly the other person leaves him and disappears.

Lu Zhongjun began to feel the loneliness of being abandoned.

He has never been a sentimental person who can't get along with himself, even when he first arrived at Hongshijing, under the huge gap, life is still the same.

But it's strange that this time, he really has this loneliness as if he has been abandoned by her, even though he has nothing to do with her at all.

This loneliness reached its peak a few days later after he went to see Lao Ding only to find that he had died on the top of the mountain. For the first time in his life, he felt the impermanence of life, and the memory of his mother's sudden death when he was a teenager came back to him again.

That night, the entire Hongshijing people were preparing for the New Year. He went out for a walk with lightning, and at last he didn't know what happened, and he came to the side of the railroad next to the bus station.

The night was getting darker and darker, and snowflakes were starting to fall in the sky, but he didn't want to leave.

Since he was a child, he had a mystical fascination with railways. In his opinion, the end of the railway can lead to the unknown distance.

The sky was empty, there was no one around, only lightning jumped in the snow on the side, and he sat alone by the railroad tracks, smoking cigarette after cigarette, letting the snowflakes gradually accumulate on his shoulders.

His consciousness was a little scattered, and his mood was extremely bad, so he wanted to sit down like this.

Things suddenly took a wonderful turn, and she was led to him by lightning.

When he turned his head, and suddenly saw her standing in the snow, and heard her call his name, the bad mood of the past few days disappeared in an instant, and was replaced by a new sense of excitement and happiness.

Yes, it is indeed a sense of well-being.

It was also at that moment that he realized that perhaps, he came here like this in anticipation of what would happen.

And now, what he faintly hoped for really happened, like a miracle.

At that moment, he clearly knew that he was in love with this woman and wanted to take her for himself.

……

The J-6 used to be his favorite lover, but now, the position has been shaken.

Lu Zhongjun has been hesitating.

Accepting this transfer, what awaits him is undoubtedly the future of a fresh start. That was all he was obsessed with.

But to accept means to leave. Leaving means that he will miss this woman who can make him think of sleepless nights. Even, because of this woman, Hongshijing, who was closed and backward, now became charming and amorous in his eyes.

He is not a king, so naturally he can't talk about the difficulties of the beauties. But between J-6 and her, he had a hard time choosing.

Last night, Lu Zhongjun passed by where she lived, and after lingering outside the door for a long time, he finally made a decision.

He doesn't want to go now.

He just wanted to stay in this place with her, it was as simple as that.