I lay down at less than 0 o'clock, but I still didn't fall asleep.

The plan to go to bed early and wake up early failed again.

Since I changed from lying down to sitting, the back and waist, which every author has, have also found me.

I can't sleep and lie there, occasionally walking around the quiet space where there is only a dog barking, watching and talking, looking at the comments, everyone complains, and I laugh too, which is very happy.

I saw a few by chance, not much, just a few comments. The smile faded. After thinking about it, I couldn't sleep anyway, so I sent a single chapter.

A few comments may be old book friends, very dissatisfied with my overhaul of the plot. I think the original is good.

Saying that you have changed, fat man, you are not the same person you used to be, and now it is boring to write like this, and there is no desire to read it.

I would like to say......

I'm not compromising for grades, nor am I compromising because I'm being sprayed. It's just that I have repeatedly emphasized that everyone may not have a real sense of substitution, I am too old to bear it.

I used to talk about my first book, Big Fate, but no one knew it because of that. The first was written early, and the second is that the audience of Korean entertainment is small. In the end, since it is a bad book, no one reads it.

Now you see that I can naturally talk about the great destiny at will, yes, I myself have never regretted writing this book, and I have always thought it was a good book.

And yet you made me go through it again, and I would be terrified when I remembered those painful years.

Or fear.

The book was sprayed all the way, and the four million words were written from beginning to end, so I wrote it according to my own ideas. At the end of the writing, the few book friends also finished spraying and left. Don't even bother to spray.

Six or seven hundred yuan a month, and of course full attendance.

One of the most impressive comments was: "Why do you still write like this? ”

I don't know if the book friend remembers, and I forget who he is. But this comment is really like a knife to the heart. There are even those that let me die directly, hahahahaha.

But that's it, and I persevered. That was my first book.

I saw it today, and they all said that the fat man is awesome, the fat man is a hundred leagues, and the fat man has a golden alliance. But you don't know that my evaluation in the circle at that time was extremely negative. So I care about the feelings of book friends? It's that whoever mentions that he likes to watch Big Destiny at that time will really attract ridicule.

"I'm rubbing, this is a fool, right?

"Awesome. God. Shake M, right? Like the big fate?"

"People who like big fate, their brains are not normal. ”

And so on, I still beautify it a lot.

I'm not changing it for money, I want to make money To be honest, the accepted entertainment is a small theme. How can you make money without going to big topics? Especially a full-time writer like me.

Yes, you might say, maybe I didn't write entertainment to make much money. That's why I didn't go.

It's not without this reason, but we all know that it's not just the online literature industry, but also the workplace. Consider a development ceiling.

Isn't this the impact of writing entertainment texts at the end? You don't have to think about sending physical books, selling film and television drama copyrights, or even game copyrights. Not to mention what high-end Wanding, how many can there be?

If you are really ambitious, even if you can't break out, you will have to break through.

I like to be entertained, but I can't help it. From Korean entertainment to Chinese entertainment.

Since I was a child, I have always liked literature and art, film and television dramas, and star songs.

This is also a disguised dream realization, hobbies and meals together.

So what did I change so badly? For a good mental state and environment.

I can't take it anymore. I'm old, you don't believe me, think I'm laughing at myself or making fun of me. You don't have to try, you think about it, for a year, three chapters and 10,000 words a day, in the case of being sprayed and scolded every day, you have to persevere, and in the end you don't scold, you play standalone.

This kind of mental pressure, when I was young, I had an iron head, and my physical and mental state were still at their peak, and I could bear it.

How old am I this year? I've been writing for seven years, just like a sports athlete, and I've had injuries and strains that have accumulated both physically and mentally.

You let me continue to carry all this now, insist on myself, what is under pressure, book friends spray, persuasion, and so on to persist until the end, I am afraid to think about it.

People don't rely on their muscles and bones for their abilities.

Some people may say, "You still wrote like that, and you still have to set it like that?" I can only say that you don't know me. Do you think my sweet writing is superb? Hehe, hehe.

You're too young.

In fact, the first thing I did to get through the second line of Ren Du was to abuse Gong. Poof, hehehehehe. O(∩_∩)O

So this is already a lot less, I can only say that the market is now more unfriendly to abusive texts, and the acceptance is less. I'm still immersed in the old notion that this abuse is nothing. It should be able to bear it. It turns out that I am too old to bear it, and now I am actually not the same book friends. Being abused by reality, I can understand the pressure of life. I'm one of them.

I don't ask those book friends who are disappointed in me, who are not satisfied with my drastic changes, to forgive me anything.

I just ask you to understand, understand.

Then I knew that maybe I was destined to leave after disappointment, and I would never forget about each other again.

I bless and thank you for liking my work.

It's still the same sentence, there are a lot of books in Dianniang, and you will find the one that belongs to you. I wish you all happiness...... O(∩_∩)O

Of course, I wouldn't really give up. I just know that Dianniang's platform is not suitable for me to write about that kind of subject matter and genre.

I may be different from other authors in that I am full-time. I'm going to do it in the future, and I don't have anything else to do to support myself.

But in addition to the Dianniang platform, there are also physical books. At the very least, there are film and television drama scripts to write.

When I'm older, more accumulated, and better honed, I'll try.

Maybe that kind of world is better for me? But I haven't tried, I don't know.

Please bless me as well. O(∩_∩)O

PS: I always say that my mother seems to be full of malice towards me, I always think so.

What others can do, I can't do now.

What others can tolerate must be picked and chosen by me.

If others have any flaws, they will pass, and I must not tolerate any mistakes.

The book friend comforted me with a smile and said, because I have great expectations for you.

I say...... Phew!

I'm typical, I didn't take much of the cheap, I lost the kind of loss!

Just feel that they treat me differently, and they target me.

I never dare to say that I write the best, whether it is in the online literature industry or entertainment themes.

But I don't think I'm the worst for sure.

And yet?

The faults of others can be accepted and can continue to be seen.

When it comes to me, this is not good, that is not right, can you understand my psychological gap?

Yes, there are also book friends who say. Those books are casually read, and your books are picky because they have expectations, and they will reward and subscribe.

Come on...... I've been writing for seven years now, and I've got a good book. And I read it at the end, and I had almost a thousand subscriptions per chapter in the later stage.

Do I call this a good grade? Is this called a tipping and a subscription?

Not to mention other themes, isn't there an entertainment novel that has better grades than me?

What is the most hateful?

He goes to other people's books to leave messages and licks dogs, gives people rewards, subscribes to recommendation votes, and gives people a lot of praise, I don't pick this, I don't lack so many books. I have my own book friends.

But it's hateful, go to someone's house to lick the dog, and come to me to serve it, all kinds of pretenses.

Oops, I'm.

You give people a reward for subscribing to tickets, and you give people good words and good reviews, and you don't give me anything when you come back, and you spray me.

Do you think I can balance?

Stinky face. O(╥﹏╥)o

No, how to talk about it, it's coming to this.

Ps2: Help. Please help me. I have a mental illness that has been bothering me for a long time. In addition to being able to pronounce the code words, there was a very uncomfortable problem that made me miserable.

I can't see 444, or the number 414. Especially in terms of time, every time I deliberately avoid it, I always see it so coincidentally.

When I see it, I feel sad for a day, and I will be terrified for a day. I always feel like something bad is going to happen.

And then every time it seems to be confirmed, something bad really happened.

For example, I just saw the time 414 again.

It was really hard to torture me.

I don't have anyone to help me with, and I can't talk to my mom. I'm a man, after all, so grown-up.

I'm out of touch and isolated from the world.

Anyone can help me, it's really uncomfortable. I envy those who don't care when they see the numbers 444 and 414, I envy O(╥_╥)