Chapter 7: I'll ...... If I Cry Again
Xu Disheng looked at Qianyi's charm from being fascinated to reacting and then burying himself in the pillow with a shy face, he didn't think it was her seduction of him. He watched Qianyi put the pillow behind him, and then slept with her eyes closed with her back to the bed, showing that she didn't want to have physical contact with him at all, Xu Disheng was very angry, he hated women the most to use the trick of wanting to capture men, and today he was made such a trick by a woman who was disgusted with him.
He showed no mercy to her as he had been the night before. She wanted to scream in pain, but in order to prevent herself from screaming, she bit Xu Disheng's shoulder, and she was so tired that she didn't know when she would fall asleep.
Qianyi hadn't had that dream for a long time, but it wasn't actually a dream, it was an unbearable past.
When Qianbaili returned to the old mansion of Qianjia late at night, he was as drunk as every time he bought drunk before. He seemed to have a dream called before, he went into the master bedroom and called Shen Wan's name, but no one responded to him, he remembered that his wife would occasionally go to his daughter's room to sleep with his daughter, so he staggered into Qianyi's room.
Chii listened to the sound of progressive footsteps, her small body trembling more and more, and she hid in the far corner of the room, watching the doorknob unscrew in the dark. As soon as Qianbaili came in, he shouted Shen Wan's name, but no one responded to him, and in the drunken haze, he didn't see Shen Wan's figure on Qianyi's bed, even the shadow of his daughter, and he didn't see it. He froze in place, and suddenly remembered that his wife had already run away. His heart ached irrepressibly, and he never understood, well, why did she leave him ruthlessly, what did he do wrong?
He saw Qian Yi huddled in the corner, and the corners of his mouth suddenly hooked up a hideous smile, the face was the same as Shen Wan. He strode over to Qianyi and dragged her out of the corner, Qianyi was so frightened that she cried out and kept shouting, "Daddy......"
Qian Baili paused, turned to look at Qian Yi who was trying to curl himself up on the ground, he squatted down, and suddenly asked with an expressionless face, "Why did you leave me?"
"Dad, I didn't leave you!" At that time, Qianyi clearly felt the sadness flowing from her father, so thick and heavy, surgingly surrounding Qianyi, so she cried even more fiercely.
"Say, why did you leave me?" Qian Baili clenched Qianyi's shoulders tightly, as if he was going to crush Qianyi. There is nowhere to vent his majestic anger, and poor Qianyi is just an outlet for catharsis. Many years later, Qian Yi has been thinking that if Qian Baili hadn't used her as Shen Wan to vent his swollen resentment at that time, I'm afraid he would have gone crazy a long time ago.
Qianyi's face turned pale in pain, and her shoulders hurt as if they were about to be broken: "Dad......"
A pair of teary eyes struggled to break into Qianbai's eyes, he looked at Qianyi blankly, and his mind automatically separated Shen Wan and Qianyi's faces, and he suddenly realized that this girl who had always been regarded as Shen Wan by him was his daughter, and at the same time, she was also her daughter. The father's debt was repaid by the son, and this sentence suddenly popped out of Qianbaili's mind, so shouldn't Shen Wan owe him Qianyi to pay it back?
Qian Baili suddenly laughed hideously, and his eyes were as cold as those of a messenger from hell. Qianyi didn't know what was wrong with Qianbaili, but she was also obviously aware of his changes. She took advantage of the opportunity to let go of her hand, got up and was about to rush out of the room. But the door was slammed shut by Qianbaili one step ahead, and Qianyi looked at Qianbaili approaching step by step, as well as a moving gecko that he was holding tightly in his hand, and his eyes were terrified. She would never have imagined that her father, who had loved her so much two years ago, would force her to eat the gecko that was still trying to break free from its free hand.
At that time, Qianbaili was only dominated by the hatred in his heart, and he drank alcohol, and he couldn't realize what kind of crazy thing he was doing. Instinctively, he pressed the gecko to Chiyi's lips, and Chiri closed her lips tightly, twisting her body to break free of Qianbaili's hand that was trapping her freedom and getting rid of the gecko that was attached to her lips. Her tears were like the night when it rained, she couldn't stop it, she wanted to open her mouth to beg for mercy, but as soon as she opened her mouth, the gecko would inevitably be pressed into her mouth with a thousand blows, so she didn't dare to speak.
In the confusion, she didn't know what she could touch, and slammed it into Qianbai's head.
Everything came to an abrupt end like an image cut in the middle of the process.
Qianbai's hand slipped to the ground, and so did the gecko, which struggled a few times and never moved again.
Qianyi watched Qianbaili's forehead gradually become covered with blood in her arms, her fingertips trembled very much, and the whole villa sounded her bitter and sharp cry.
And this year, she was twelve years old.
She eventually failed to eat the gecko at the cost of smashing her father, but after that, whenever she saw a lizard-like creature again, her brain would go blank with fright, and she would even be short of breath and incapacitated. Some fears are wounded, deeply seared in the heart, even for a lifetime, they cannot be removed.
Qianyi woke up in her sleep - she couldn't stop crying, she cried very hard as she lay in her arms and bleed, she had lost her mother, and even though she seemed to have no love for her, she still didn't want to lose her father. Her cry woke up Xu Disheng beside her, Xu Disheng's eyebrows jumped suddenly, he didn't know what nerves she was having in the middle of the night. He turned around and grabbed her roughly, and his voice was cold and low: "What the hell are you doing?"
But Chii didn't respond to him, she kept crying, but her eyes were closed, realizing that she was dreaming because she was holding his hand and muttering, "Don't, don't ......"
After a last exclamation, she sat up from the bed, realizing that she had dreamed of something that had happened when she was twelve, and she still had palpitations, and tears were falling uncontrollably. Xu Disheng twisted his eyebrows, and when he saw her sitting there motionless, he pulled her down violently. She let out an exclamation, seeing Xu Disheng's dark eyes shining on her, she somehow suddenly felt very sad, her brows were twisted together, and her face was sad that Xu Disheng had never seen before, she said: "Xu Disheng, I'm really afraid of ......"
She didn't say she didn't mean it, she didn't apologize, she just said that she was really afraid. There were tears streaming down her eyes, she stared at him intently, didn't make any moves, didn't make a single cry, she just quietly shed tears, quietly let the sadness hidden in her heart slowly flow away with the tears and finally evaporate.
It is false to say that it does not shake, Xu Disheng looked at the eyes full of sadness, his heart was hit by something, and then there was an irrepressible throbbing.
The eyes of the two looked at each other for a long time, Xu Disheng didn't know how long he had watched her cry, and when he suddenly reacted, he felt that his hand holding her ear became wet. And Qianyi was still crying, as if she was going to cry for a century, and there was no sign of stopping. Xu Disheng opened her mouth to drink and she was not allowed to cry anymore, but she didn't say anything after opening it several times. Xu Disheng's hand slowly clenched into a fist, what was wrong with him, after opening his mouth for the last time and still didn't say anything, he slammed the whole person on Qianyi, and neither of them had any clothes on them. Qian Yi felt this and was stunned.
Xu Disheng saw that she finally had another reaction, and his breath sprayed in Qianyi's ears, crispy and numb: "If you cry again, I'll fuck you." ”
Qian Yi was so frightened that he immediately silenced and covered his eyes again, and then quietly clamped his thighs, Xu Disheng couldn't help but be stunned when he noticed her small actions, he turned over and got off her, turned his back to Qian Yi and continued to sleep.
Chii also turned her back, wiped the tears from her face, sniffed, then took a few deep breaths and slowly fell asleep again.
Hearing Qianyi's gradually steady breathing, Xu Disheng opened his eyes, he turned to look at Qianyi's side face, and his mind suddenly broke into those eyes full of sadness, and his heart moved. She said that she was really afraid, and remembered her reaction after seeing the lizard today, and his eyes deepened. If her reaction was true, then why was she so afraid?
For the first time, Xu Disheng didn't sleep all night.
When Qianyi woke up, the futon beside her had lost its temperature, and she slept too late last night, and with nightmares, her biological clock was out of order.
"Nightmare ......" Qianyi muttered these two words in her mouth, suddenly remembering the conversation she had with Xu Disheng last night. She woke up from her dream last night and lost control of her emotions, but fortunately, she didn't cry in front of him. However, she still cried in front of him, Qianyi patted her head in annoyance, this beat didn't matter, but it suddenly reminded her of Xu Disheng's last words.
I'll ...... if I cry again
Obviously she didn't say this, but she blushed and hid back in the quilt, she couldn't persuade her to cry, so it was good to comfort her!
Qianyi thought indignantly, but suddenly thought that he hated her so much, and her face drooped involuntarily. In fact, he hated her so much, and when she woke him up with nightmares crying last night, he didn't impatiently throw her out of bed, which can be regarded as benevolent. Qianyi pursed her lips and got out of bed to take a bath in the bathroom. Xu was abused by Xu Disheng twice before, but this time she seemed to get used to it, she didn't can't get out of bed like last time.
When she went downstairs, Zhang's mother was drying clothes, and said hello to Zhang's mother with a smile, she was very hungry at the moment without breakfast, and the doorbell rang when she was about to rush to the dining table. She tilted her head in surprise, Xu Disheng was not there, and no one who knew her knew that she lived here, why did someone ring the doorbell at this time? She ran to open the door in front of Zhang's mother, but there was no one in front of the door, she looked around and found a very chic black envelope on the ground. She opened the envelope without any hesitation, and two photos slipped out of it, and the angle of the shot Qian Yi knew at a glance that it was a long-distance candid shot, but she still recognized at a glance that the man who was being held by a beautiful girl she had never seen before was Xu Disheng.