In the evening, everyone drank a lot of wine, even Dr. Xu, who had never drunk a drip. Then everyone sat in the courtyard and chatted without a word.

They don't know if there will be such an opportunity, maybe ten years from now, maybe ten years before someone leaves. After all, no one knows what the future holds, and they have always entrusted their lives to heaven.

Although he knew that the hangover was not good, Liu Xuan still wanted to get drunk. He was in too much pain and suppressed for a long time. His parents didn't cry when he left him, and Ling'er had to be strong when he left him, but he couldn't stop him at all, and they all left him one after another.

He has always been the most painful, and he himself is burdened with great hatred. Even if revenge is successful now, Liu Xuan is not really happy. There are some things that he can't forget, he only has a little memory of his parents, and he can't remember it no matter how hard he tries afterwards.

Liu Xuan once asked Dr. Xu, but the other party said that he had no choice. If it's an injury, it's an injury to the inside, and all that can be treated is an external injury. At most, it is guided, but it is difficult to say whether it is useful or not.

Liu Xuan got some things about his parents from his master and Shangguan Jinyue, but after all, he was not a close person, and what he knew was not a big deal.

He felt that he would forget even the things of his parents, which was really unfilial. But these words were not said to anyone, because I did not know how to say them. Everyone thinks that Liu Xuan is powerful, they all think that he can do anything, and they can only pretend to be like that.

Liu Xuan didn't know when he set up a character for himself, and he was not an actor, so there was no need to survive according to the personality. But after getting to know more people around him, he found that his relationship with them became closer and closer, and he couldn't let go of them at all.

No matter what, when they were in danger, Liu Xuan could only choose to protect them. Not a responsibility, just a subconscious, out of the actions of a friend.

He has bitterness in his heart, but he can't tell it, so when he met Bian Yanli, he often felt that the two of them were too late to see each other. Especially when he saw the dark side of the 18th floor, Liu Xuan didn't think it was very dark, on the contrary, he felt that he was the real one.

It's just that that's all for later. Even at that time, the other party said a lot of sincere words, but Liu Xuan still didn't untie the knot in his heart, he just scribbled a few words.

"Senior brother, I know your pain. Actually, sometimes I see you drinking alone, but I just stand in the corner and don't want to disturb you. I'm not very good at comforting, I just think that even if you don't know, I can be there for you. ”

"Sixth Senior Brother, I don't usually see you talking, but I didn't expect you to be the one who observed me the most. Could it be that you are also my fan brother? Then you should compete with Ah Meng and them for the name of my fan? I heard that there are other first and second rankings, and I don't know what the use is. ”

"People in Mogu who don't admire you, everyone is your fan. I don't speak because I'm not very good at judging the situation, and sometimes I want to say it but I'm worried that I'll hurt people by saying the wrong thing. But I can feel the pain in your heart, even if I don't know your life. ”

"My life is not easy at all. You know that my enemy is the Sun family, and my family was once the wealthy Liu family in the imperial capital. You should also know that I've been hurt, and more than once. Anyway, all in all, I don't have much memory of my home, and I can't remember it no matter how hard I try. ”

As he spoke, Liu Xuan took another sip of wine, "Do you know? I see other people's parents always thinking a lot, for example, my mother is also such a gentle person, and my father will do such things. It's just that those are all fragments, too fragmented and difficult to put together. ”

"It turned out that it was because I missed my family. Actually, I don't know much about this, because I was abandoned as an infant and was sent to an orphanage by well-wishers. Who knew that there was an accident in the orphanage, and then everyone was separated. Some people find a place, but the children know what to do, and I get lost. ”

"I forgot that you were picked up by Master on the road like this. Master has brought back so many people that it's hard for me to remember everyone's experiences. Have you ever thought about what your parents should be like, or have you ever hated them? ”

"I've thought about it, I've thought about it a lot. I even had a lot of speculation, such as that they didn't mean to abandon me, but that my family was too poor to support me. Or maybe something happened at home and they were hunted down. But no matter what reason I devised for them, I found that I couldn't forgive them. ”

"I understand that you don't have them in your memory, but it's really too much to abandon this. Whatever the reason, it shouldn't be done. ”

"In Mogu, many people have the same memories of their parents as you, and there are many people like me, who are too young to know their parents at all. But we have experienced life and death, so we don't care much about our parents. Although the memories of the elder brother are all fragments, at least there is content, and I don't even know what to think. ”

"I mentioned your sadness? I may have drunk too much, I would have paid attention to this before. ”

"It's fine, it's not sad. After so many years, I have long been able to deal with it calmly. The hardest day was in the orphanage, when I had ignorant memories, and I was always told that we were all parents without people, and I felt very uncomfortable, but I survived. ”

"You said you were watching me secretly, why didn't you come up and drink with me? Actually, I won't refuse you, even if I don't say something at the time, but I don't have any secrets about you. ”

"I think maybe I'm better suited to be a listener, you can say whatever you want, and I can keep it a secret from you. But it won't be persuasive, and I'm worried about whether you really want people to know. After all, some people don't want others to intervene, and everyone has a separate space in their hearts. ”

"That's right, I suggest that you can get a psychiatrist qualification certificate after you leave Mogu. Although you haven't studied it systematically, you can read other people's thoughts. Actually, it's not that you can't persuade people, but you're more easy-going. You want others to figure it out on their own, not on your words. ”

"Guidance? maybe. I know that after everyone's life experience, I have thought that everyone's life is so simple, how can there be pain. But then I realized I was wrong. Many things in life are unpredictable, just like the first time you bumped into you in a bad mood and drinking. ”

"Do you remember that clearly? Actually, I didn't drink very well at first, and I practiced it myself little by little. When I'm in a bad mood, I drink a little to the moon alone, and I don't know who to say to someone, so I can only hold it in my heart, and I can also relieve myself by drinking. ”

When Liu Xuan first arrived in Mogu, Shi had already told Liu Xuan that a man must have a certain amount of alcohol when he grows up. It's just that at that time, he felt that the master was talking nonsense, who stipulated that men must drink alcohol, and the taste was not good, so why should he drink.

Later, he experienced some things and realized that drinking is not because it is delicious, but because it expresses his feelings. When you are in pain, you can relieve your worries, and when you are happy, you can stimulate it. And when it comes to drinking, whether it's yourself or many people, there are not so many restrictions.

At first, all he could drink was a small jar, which was the master's own wine. Later, as he returned from the battlefield, including when he thought of his parents, he began to gradually increase the amount of alcohol he drank.

I don't know how long it took, Liu Xuan's alcohol consumption was very good, and ordinary people couldn't drink him at all. Unless he is in a really bad mood, then it belongs to the drunkenness and the drunkenness of the people.

The master is very good to him, and the two of them are also very close, but Liu Xuan always feels that the master is already so busy, and he shouldn't let him revolve around him all the time. After all, Master has always been thinking about avenging himself, and he doesn't want to let Master worry about it because of his thoughts.

It is said that men don't feel pain easily, and Liu Xuan thinks it's because it's not really sad. If you once had such beauty, whether it is family affection or love, I am afraid that what will be left in the future will only be pain.

"Senior brother, I think you are painting your heart. In fact, the person who can't get out of the knot is yourself, no matter what happens, everyone is related to you, and your pain is several times that of us. I know it's not just your parents' business, there should be bells in the back. ”

"Heh, I thought I was a strong person, and I was originally a strong person. It's just that I don't know why the super soldier king doesn't shed tears, is it true that a good boy can only shed blood and not tears? I thought that loving my parents could shed tears for them, but I seemed to ......"

"Is there anything to commemorate them in the imperial capital? After the accident back then, I'm afraid there won't even be a tombstone, right? I want to pay homage to them when I have the opportunity to go to the imperial capital in the future, I guess you will have a thought to keep. ”

"Yes, Jin Yue asked me to leave something at home, but I feel that the house is rebuilt, even if the land is the same, but everything has changed. Finally I planted flowers for them in the garden, thinking that I would find a quiet place in the suburbs and make a small cemetery, which my mother would like. ”

"It doesn't look like a brotherhood would do it, but I'm not surprised. I know you're good, but I'm not going to position you easily. Liu Xuan is Liu Xuan, no matter what your name is, with so many years of knowledge, I know what kind of person Senior Brother is. ”

"I don't know if I'll be able to get out of my prison, but I'm more comfortable when I do this. But after you proposed to leave Mogu today, I have a little ......."

"That's nothing, it's just an emotion. If it's not convenient for you to face others, you can tell me later. Liu Xuan's strength does not need to be disguised, we all default to it. So even if you are sad about your parents' affairs, you are still yourself and will not become a weak person. ”

"Otherwise, you can directly open a psychological counseling room in the imperial capital, your money should be enough, and I can also make some investments." I think you're very suitable for this, but I can't imagine what kind of image that kind of sixth junior brother will be. ”

"This suggestion can be kept, and I think I will go to a few more places before deciding. Anyway, we are young, and we all have infinite possibilities in the future, and I don't feel that it will be too late if I don't make a decision now. ”

Liu Xuan smiled, and then clinked glasses with the other party. How to say, when it comes to the final moment of separation, it is good to suddenly find that there is someone who can understand me. Although the next moment will be separated, as long as you live, you will always meet. After all, the world is a ball, how far away can it be.

They drank together, reminiscing about their childhood, and it seemed that the things in their memories came to their senses one by one. And Ling'er was also by their side, and everyone never really left, but just changed the way.

I don't know how late I drank that night, but in the end basically everyone got drunk. Doctor Xu and Shi had drunk some and went back to their rooms to sleep, Liu Xuan and some of them fell directly drunk in the courtyard, and some people insisted on crawling back to their rooms to sleep even though they were drunk.

Liu Xuan felt that although this wine was bitter, it was a pleasure to drink.