Chapter 34: The Collapse of the Heart
Su Han's comment really scared me. If Zhang Xue sees this, she will definitely ask me what happened to Su Han.
I also deleted the talk together. But after a while, Su Han chatted with me privately, hehehe...... Li Siwen, are you scared?
glanced at the message sent by Su Han. I was a little depressed by what she said. Silently closed the window and did not reply to her.
Since the starling already knows, let's know. Whoever makes himself can't afford to mess with anyone. Isn't it a starling? I, Li Siwen, have provoked so many people, and I'm really not afraid of this one.
However, Su Han is really sassy. As far as I know, I've gotten along with several people.
It is estimated that the starling is also to play Su Han. Maybe you'll have had enough of it and kick her out, it's definitely like that.
Su Han saw that I didn't speak, and mocked me on QQ again, saying that I would be like this for the rest of my life, and when I saw others, I could only walk with my head down.
I gritted my teeth fiercely, thinking, let you fart! I don't know who it was, when I was in the hotel before, I shouted for me to get it.
I turned off my phone and lay in bed again with insomnia.
After thinking about it for a long time, I finally decided. I decided to confess to Zhang Xue tomorrow, maybe she would forgive me.
Thinking that I had to face Zhang Xue and say this, my heart was like being fried in an oil pot. It's extremely uncomfortable.
It felt like it took a long time to get through until the next morning. I don't have any energy at all, and I feel like I'm going to be a fool for the past two days because of this.
When I got to school. Zhang Xue still came to bring me breakfast.
I had already decided to think about it in the evening. But after seeing Zhang Xue, I couldn't say a word.
Take a big bite of the white bun. Looking at Zhang Xue, who was sitting next to me for breakfast. Being so good to me, how could I bear to hurt her?
Eat it quickly. Zhang Xue handed me a few sips of Nutrition Express.
After I finished eating and drinking, Zhang Xue smiled very satisfied, and praised me, why did I eat up breakfast this morning so obediently.
looked at Zhang Xue blankly, a little in a trance. In the face of her, I could only smile reluctantly.
Actually, I don't really have any appetite at all. It's just that I know it very well in my heart. Perhaps, this is the last time I will eat the breakfast that Zhang Xue bought for me.
It's a good mood to look at her. I really can't bear to say, let's break up.
Until she left our class, I didn't even bother to say these words.
In just a few words, I can say it to anyone. But the moment I saw Zhang Xue, I felt that I was weighing thousands of pounds in my heart, and I couldn't breathe.
Staring in the direction Zhang Xue left, I was silent......
I didn't go out with Wang Lei and them all morning. When Zhang Xue heard about it, she thought I was sick. Hurried to our classroom to see me.
I was instructed for a long time to remember to drink the medicine. He pretended to be angry and said to me, "Didn't you buy you medicine yesterday?"
Looking up at Zhang Xue, I shook my head. At the moment, I really want to make myself a fool, an idiot.
That way, I can really be carefree.
It doesn't matter what my expression is. When Zhang Xue heard that I didn't take medicine, she was so angry that she reached out and grabbed my ear, and she didn't use much force. I was so angry that I blushed and asked me if I had a long memory and if I drank medicine.
Originally, I didn't have anything to do, but at most I felt uncomfortable.
But Zhang Xue had a fight with me, looking at her puffing face, it was very cute.
I couldn't hold back for a while, and my eyes were red.
Probably no one can understand how I feel now, and I have not had the love of my parents since I was a child. Now I finally have a girl who loves me, but I have encountered such a thing again.
Perhaps no one can understand how much I need this love. Perhaps no one can understand how much ridicule I have suffered.
Look at my expression is wrong. Zhang Xue was taken aback by me, thinking that she was working too hard, and quickly apologized to me. He smiled wryly and said to me, "Even if I hurt you, I won't cry, right?"
Shake your head. Zhang Xue didn't know my hardship. I looked at her and wanted to tell her about it, but every time the words came to my lips, I had to swallow them.
I guess I really thought I was sick. Zhang Xue said a few words to me, and left without bothering me anymore.
At noon, I slept alone in the classroom.
I'm left alone, and my heart doesn't feel like it's so messed up.
Looking at the empty classroom, I still decided to tell Zhang Xue by text message.
After the decision. I found myself holding my phone and it was shaking......
It was very difficult to write things down in text messages. Holding the phone with both hands, and putting his thumb on the send button, he was reluctant to send it out......
Really, if I send it out, it means that all my hard work for so long has been in vain.
Stared at the text message a few times. Suddenly, I thought that I was hiding from Zhang Xue, which was the biggest harm to her.
Stretched out his hand and slapped himself twice, the hot pain made me sober up, I realized my situation, in case the starling came to trouble me in the afternoon, then I would be embarrassed.
Shaking his head with a wry smile, he closed his eyes, I thought, I am also really a man once.
I pressed the send button hard, and after the prompt that the text message was successfully sent sounded, the mobile phone in my hand fell to the ground with a bang.
Just after the text message was sent. I suddenly felt like I was being emptied.
The heart is also empty, especially special is not a taste......
Finished texting. I didn't dare to stay in the classroom, after all, when Zhang Xue saw the text message, she would definitely come to me.
In order to avoid Zhang Xue. I left school. I sat in a place selling noodles and drank beer to suppress the pain in my heart.
Sure enough, within ten minutes of the text message, my phone rang......
Zhang Xue's phone began to send me again and again, and there were even text messages, she told me to answer the phone quickly, and told me, don't mess with her, she was wrong.
Silently listening to the ringtone in my hand, silently looking at the text messages sent one by one, I seemed to see the picture of Zhang Xue bursting into tears and breaking down on the other end of the phone.
I'm also very worried. Thinking of Zhang Xue, I feel guilty and really sorry for her......
Sipping on beer, trying to numb his inner hesitation and helplessness with alcohol.
It didn't take long for it to be more than Zhang Xue's call. Even Wang Lei's phone began to call me, over and over again, making me look at it, my head hurts.
I drank two full bottles of beer. I felt like I wasn't drunk this time.
Holding my phone, I sent a text message to Su Han, just to tell her that I broke up with Zhang Xue and asked her when she planned to dispose of the child in her belly.
The text message is sent in the past. But Su Han's reply was delayed.
has been sitting from the place where the board noodles are sold to the stalls. It was also dark and cold. I put my hands on my shoulders and squatted on the ground not daring to go home.
I dare say that Zhang Xue must have gone to my house heartbroken. The only thing I'm worried about now is that I can't let Sister Qing know about this matter.
The phone is running out of battery. I sent a text message to Sister Qing saying that I wouldn't be going back tonight, and that I would spend the night at a friend's house and that it would be nice for her not to worry about me.
When all is done. I put my phone down. Stand up on your own and walk alone in this merciless cold wind.
Along the way, I feel like I'm really a fucking bastard. Fortunately, I haven't hurt Zhang Xue yet, if I had a relationship with Zhang Xue, then I would definitely not break up with Zhang Xue now.
smiled self-deprecatingly, he was really self-inflicted............
Just when I was confused and didn't know where to go. Suddenly, Wang Lei sent me a text message, the content was also very simple, he scolded me, saying that I was not a man, and I knew that I would be responsible after sleeping with Su Han. Why did you break up so hastily after being with Zhang Xue?
Followed by another text message, Wang Lei's, he said to me in the text message: "Li Siwen, are you a man, are you a man?
"If you want to break up, you have to make it clear to Zhang Xue face to face. Do you know that Zhang Xue has been crying for you all afternoon now. If you are still a man, why don't you hurry up and let Lao Tzu come to the school gate! If you don't answer the phone in the afternoon, Zhang Xue almost went out and let the car crash !!"
After reading the text message, I felt that my brain was buzzing blank, I never dreamed that Zhang Xue would do this for me, I didn't expect Zhang Xue to care about me so much.
Silently looking at the text message, I thought.
That's right, what about my so-called responsibility, I know to be responsible for Su Han, so what about my responsibility to Zhang Xue?
A word woke me up. slapped myself hard, even if I broke up, I should go and make it clear to Zhang Xue face to face.
hurriedly sent a text message back to Wang Lei: Wait for me!