The sun rose, and the dazzling light dispelled the darkness of the whole night, and in the corner of a small alley, where the woman with heavy makeup sat stupidly, her expression a little blank.

It seems that everything is like a dream, and nothing has changed in the end, but why, she obviously has special resistance to everything, she is extraordinarily unable to let go, just like a thorn around her, slowly softening, leaving only a scarred, weak and vulnerable shell.

Li Kaisha raised her head, through this narrow alley, looking up at the world, she is the little frog at the bottom of the well, she doesn't know what love is, because she has never been loved, whether it is this world, or the people of this world, so she also doesn't know how to love, and even doesn't know how to face what she loves.

Since she was born, she has hated this world, because this world has taken everything she has, and she has hated it for twenty years, but it has only been used by this world for a few hours to completely subvert her heart that she thinks is indestructible, and when she peels it off, this world that she hates to the extreme, just gives her a small part that she wants to protect to the death.

For the first time, she understood that she was dirty, so she felt that she was not worthy of standing in front of that man, and she was not even worthy of this man who had done so much for her, whether it was a hopeless thing She didn't know, she only knew that she had fallen into the warmth and tenderness that that man gave her.

It is often the case that a person who thinks that he will never love someone again in his life usually falls in love with someone completely in a short period of time, and then carries the memories and beauty given by that person for the rest of his life, and is this considered a kind of cruelty?

It doesn't count when you think about that person who raised the corners of your mouth slightly, and when you are tormented by a lonely nightmare at night.

Li Kaisha got up slowly, she couldn't tell what kind of emotion this was, naïve, crazy, abstract, but she just hoped that the next time she appeared in front of his eyes, she would not be as powerless as she was now, she wanted to let the man see a new self, no matter what way.

It is as if a lost man has found his soul, and a fallen man has grasped tenderness, and this disgusting world usually becomes incomparably lovely at this time.

If all this is a dream, then let her indulge in this dream forever and never wake up again.

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In the small hotel, Abin was woken up by the ringing of his mobile phone, he rubbed his eyes, and found that it was already dusk outside the window, and he didn't expect that he had slept for such a whole day, perhaps because he was extremely tired.

He touched the vibrating phone, because he had paid the bill last night, so the phone finally played its real role.

Picking up his mobile phone and looking at the caller number, his expression sank, and he remembered the agreement with Guo Yegun, as if he knew that he would be scolded if he connected it, so Abin connected the phone at a distance from his ear.

"Little rabbit cub, it's against you, where did you go?" Guo Yegun, who was on the other side, choked directly, because Abin promised him that he was just going to see someone, but he didn't expect to leave like this, it was more than a week, and there was not even a single message, so Guo Yegun made a phone call without a rut, and actually got through the mobile phone, in Guo Yegun's opinion, this is extremely similar to Abin directly chose to run away.

"Master, I'm in the capital. Abin said stubbornly, knowing that if Guo Ye's gun was in front of him now, he would definitely suffer another meal.

"What's the nerve? It's been the past two years that have suffocated you?" Guo Yegun said very unceremoniously, because Abin's answer was beyond his comprehension.

Abin sighed deeply, he really didn't know how to explain this for a while, and he held back for a while and said, "Master, I have something that I have to do, even if you come to remove my arm this time, I have to do it." ”

Guo Yegun, who was scolding, stopped reprimanding when he heard Ah Bin's words, because he knew the seriousness of Ah Bin's words, and couldn't help but ask patiently: "Even if it's made up, it's a story that makes me feel psychologically balanced." ”

Ah Bin smiled bitterly, and just told Guo Yegun about the cause and effect at all, and Guo Yegun, who has always been extremely irritable, didn't interject, just listened patiently, and only gritted his teeth until the end and said: "Little rabbit cub, do you know what level of family the Li family and the Guo family are in the capital?"

"I didn't know much when I didn't come, but now I do. Abin said stupidly, he could imagine the wonderful expression of Guo Yegun on the other side of the phone.

"Then why don't you get back to me obediently, don't you want to die?" Guo Yegun on the other side said very irritably, listening to this voice, it seemed to come out of between his teeth.

"Master, this kindness must be repaid, no matter what way, so I want to stay in the capital. Abin seems to be the first time in the past two years that he has disagreed with Guo Yegun, even if Guo Yegun asked him to stab a fierce son in the river in the winter, he jumped down without saying a word, but this time, his voice was extraordinarily resolute.

Guo Ye's teeth on the other side were gritting, and he knew very well that the more he looked like Abin, the more he drilled the tip of the horns, and the more he couldn't pull it out.

Is this an advantage or a disadvantage, Guo Yegun doesn't know, now he just has a headache, an incomparably headache, because as far as Abin is concerned, although after two years of tempering, if he wants to openly oppose the Li and Guo families in the capital, this probability is infinitely close to zero, or there is no chance at all.

"It's true that one by one is tougher, women are not fuel-efficient lamps, men are not fuel-efficient lamps, when will the wedding be held. Guo Yegun compromised extremely helplessly, because for now, it seems that he has no other way, he can't tie Abin out.

"I don't know. Abin said very sincerely, although he knew that Guo Ye's gun on the other side had exploded his lungs.

"What are your plans, do you have or do you plan?" Guo Yegun took a deep breath and told himself to be calm, and then calm.

"Nope. ”

"******! die!" Guo Yegun yelled angrily, feeling that there was no room for communication with Abin on the other side of the phone, so he hung up the phone fiercely.

On the phone, Abin looked at the phone and smiled bitterly, knowing that the man estimated that he would kill him in the capital after hanging up the phone and would eat him alive, but despite this, what should he do?

Drill out of this bull's horn?

So is he still him? This is a question, a question that is not profound, but it has to be faced.

On the other side of the phone, in the courtyard of a small wooden house under an unknown mountain in Xiaoxing'an Mountains, although a man yelled and scolded at the phone, he had a smile of disobedience.

He put down his mobile phone, took out a homemade cigarette, put it to his mouth and lit it, took a deep breath, and said with a bitter face: "Chen Tianshi, you really left a scourge, a stone that doesn't know the height of the sky and the thickness of the earth, only knows the rampage, what kind of waves will it stir up when it falls on the water surface of the capital? Those old men who can only maintain order can't stand such a nail, even if he is right, what can he do?"

Although he said it so complainingly, Guo Yegun's face was filled with an extremely relieved smile, because he was such a guy who had done too many things that people wanted to do but hesitated all their lives.

"Let's make trouble, the bigger the trouble, the better, it's better to tear off the fig leaf of the family for me, if there is anything, I will carry it for you." Guo Yegun looked up at the sky and said in a voice that only he could hear, this man who couldn't find the lost soul in the first place, there was a glimmer of light in his eyes, it was a deep expectation, this kind of thing was even born in his life, although most people didn't understand why these things that could be ignored should be taken so seriously.

It's like a bottle of water, it doesn't matter where you put it, but for a person dying in the desert, it may be better than everything, and at this moment, Guo Yegun is the one who is about to die of thirst.

Putting down the phone, Abin lay on the bed and looked at the broken ceiling, his heart was full of a thousand emotions, but he didn't know how to speak, this indescribable feeling tormented him, making him not know what was right or wrong.

But when a person has this kind of thought, he may be destined to become a loser, although he knows this, Abin still can't understand such a river, and what he can do is to pay the price of his own life, not to follow the crowd, never to follow the crowd.

But in such a world, in such a world, the price of not following the crowd is too expensive, so expensive that some Dousheng small people don't even have the opportunity to imagine, and what really makes Abin feel desperate.

Nevertheless, if you go to the end, is that an end that you will be satisfied with?

That year, the old man muttered to him like this, in this life, to the end, there is only one self left, even if he is successful in the eyes of others, he feels defeated, that is a loss, and even if he is unsightly in the eyes of others, he feels that he has won, that is a win.

A very simple truth, but in this complex world, it is always difficult to move an inch, because most people eventually live as themselves in the eyes of others.

I forgot when I lost my true self.

Abin's stomach rumbled at this time, after thinking about life, no matter who has to face the most realistic firewood, rice, oil and salt, even if it is full of red dust, the salt that should be eaten, the bridge that should be crossed, can not be less than others, this is also the fairness of life.