Some people say that before a person dies, he will desperately want the world to remember him, no matter what form it takes, because a person's real death is not when he is terminally ill, nor when he is buried in the sea of swords, mountains and fires, but when he is forgotten, how sad, but I hope that everyone will forget me, this river and lake will forget me, but only you can't, because I think that only you remember it, it is enough, so that when you grow old, we can really disappear into this world together.

Is this a sudden realization? Is it a wake-up before death? I don't know, maybe I just jumped from one dream to another.

But on this day, the dream still woke up, and what I was facing was you with a wrinkled face, and I was also bruised all over my body because of this Jianghu injury, I finally understood where my pain came from, that is, I who stepped into this Jianghu back then, betrayed you, and failed her, so I have come to this point, I have no one to complain, even those who put me to death, I feel that this is all deserved.

For so many years, I have the most common muttering sentence to Pranya Chuangzi, smart people never see, but look at paying, the reason why I say this, because I am the least intelligent person, I have everything in the first thirty years of my life, so the last twenty years, is to pay, I have thought about a hundred more than once, but I am afraid of being laughed at, how to say that the biggest hero in Xicheng District can not die so whimsically, I always have to watch those two children grow up, I always have to wait for the gentleness to come back, always let Hongfang have a place in the capital, always let my group of children in Xicheng District be able to take charge of themselves, so that I won't feel guilty to see her after I die.

You're right? I've lived to such a failure that if I can't even get rid of death, that's the real cruelty, so I've survived all these years.

My rivers and lakes are guilt, a song that can never be resisted.

She watched, slowly flattening this dense piece of paper with small characters written on it, and couldn't help but feel distressed for this man, although this man gave her the greatest harm and even ruined her life, no matter how much she resented him, how much she hated him for not recovering, she never regretted meeting him.

Maybe it's love that stenchs.

Now, although these three words have become meaningless, extremely powerless, and although you have heard your ears calloused, I still need to say it again, and for the last time.

I'm sorry, I still owe you a wedding.

Although I didn't expect you to forgive me from the beginning, in the end I hope that this time, you will forgive me as a wretched person, because I really have nothing to lose, so let me gain a little bit.

The villa in Jincheng Huafu, I have been assigned to your name, although these things are not important to you, but at least they can make your life a little better in the future, and those two children, if they come back one day, and bother you to take care of them more, although they are very unconvinced, but still listen to you.

Live well, one way or another, but don't forget about me as a liar.

Zhang Ailing said that because she has loved, she is compassionate, and because she understands, she is tolerant. The former is negative, because for us, it is painful because we have loved, but I am convinced of the latter, and it is precisely because we understand that we are tolerant.

The woman who loved me when I had nothing, I love you, at the beginning, and in the end...

A long letter arrived, in exchange for perhaps the most crystalline tears in this river and lake, not so beautiful, not so rhyme, not even more breathtaking, like that man's life, so it will be extremely real, she gently folded the letter, then put back the envelope, and closed her eyes slightly.

In her memory, it was the first time she saw him, with nothing and a displacement.

But in his eyes, she saw the situation after 10,000 years, and finally this glance turned into this letter, an old man who has experienced the vicissitudes of half a life, she never thought that her love was too failed, because she never regretted meeting him, this is the essence of this relationship, because from beginning to end, the bond between him and her has never been broken.

"Sister Wu..."Han Pengyi couldn't help but say, he knew that this letter might have a big impact on Wu Ying.

Wu Ying wiped away the tears on her face and said with a smile, "Sister Wu is fine." ”

Han Pengyi could see the far-fetched on Wu Ying's face, but he could see a little relief from it, and he couldn't help but secretly breathe a sigh of relief, maybe the content of this letter was not as sad as he imagined.

There was silence again, and she only opened the window slightly, blew in the cool wind, and whispered, "I have forgiven you." ”

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In the infield of the wanderers, the wine table was already full of beer bottles, but most of them were the records of the fourth and fifth children, and the guy who drank the least was the one who was the most drunk.

I have to say that this wine is not as happy as usual, extremely monotonous, just repeating the action of pouring a full cup and then pouring it down, which is undoubtedly the fastest way to get drunk, so in the end, even the fifth and fourth who drank so much that they were terrible appeared drunk, as for the guy with the worst amount of alcohol, he had already become muddy at the moment.

Lao Wu put down the wine glass again, and finally spoke: "Master Pan, I don't have any opinion on your choice, and I can't watch Abin jump into this fire pit, although we don't have that strength, but we can't violate the benevolence in our hearts because of this." ”

Li Panruo, who was lying on the table, raised his head, his hazy drunk eyes didn't look like he was talking drunk, he carefully looked for perfunctory words from the fifth child's face, but found nothing, it seemed that this could prove that this was the fifth child's true words.

The fourth child is the same as the fifth, and he also nodded firmly, although this seems to be a stupid act in the eyes of outsiders, but only they know whether it is worth it or not.

Li Panruo smiled, because the affirmation of the fourth and fifth children made his heart firm again, people live for this, and the reason why they work extremely hard is not to leave any regrets for themselves.

He raised his glass again, and then said in a muffled voice, "Respect the righteousness of our hearts." ”

Although Li Banruo's appearance didn't look like he could drink again, the fourth and fifth children did not persuade them to drink, so the three wine glasses collided like this, and then poured this glass of wine together.

Li Panruo was the first to finish drinking, put down the wine glass and wiped the beer foam from his mouth, then took out a cigarette, and just put it to his mouth before he could light it before he fell headlong on the table, drunk like a dead dog.

The fifth and fourth looked at each other, smiled bitterly, and the two of them each lit a cigarette like this, and then the fifth sighed and said: "Abin is a good boy, it can be seen that it is not easy for him to come this far." ”

The fourth body understood what the fifth child meant, although he felt numb to his fingers when he drank it, he still quickly typed a line of words in the mobile phone, and then threw the mobile phone directly to the fifth child.

Lao Wu took the phone and looked at the line of words on the screen, you don't have to be like this, Ban Ye really wants to help Abin, you also really want to help this child, and so do I, so no one has to explain anything for this benevolence, and there is no need to say whether these things are worth it or not, don't you know who I am in your heart?

After reading this long line of words, the bitterness on his face gradually relieved, he threw the mobile phone to the fourth child again, and then he understood that Abin couldn't let go of Li Banruo's benevolence, and Li Banruo couldn't let go because of his benevolence and righteousness with the fourth, and in the end, he couldn't let go because of the benevolence of the fourth, and the fourth went back to the starting point.

He finally figured out that it seemed that the person who was afraid of being disappointed and losing was not only Ah Bin, but also Pan Ye, himself too, and the fourth child, perhaps because of the same point in a sense, so the four of them with different personalities and seemingly absolutely not belonging to the same world would finally stay at this wine table.

"Fourth, we all think too much, instead of worrying about what stupidity, wouldn't it be better to go to the end together?" said the fifth with a relieved face.

Seeing that the fifth child was enlightened, the fourth child nodded silently, and then raised a glass of wine to the fifth child.

The two wine glasses collided, and the rivers and lakes that belonged to them were drunk.

In the small room upstairs, he had been lying in bed for two hours, and Ah Bin still couldn't find the slightest sleep, not because of the torture given to him by the wounds on his body, but because of the deepest thing hidden in his heart.

Looking at the night sky through the small window in the room with his eyes open, I don't know why, Abin always had a feeling in his heart that he couldn't let go, and his mind once again flashed with the firm expression of the old man and the old five. For him, it was like a light in the vast darkness, which made him yearn for it desperately, but whenever he wanted to hold on to the darkness, the black hand called the past held his heart like this, and then there was a tingling sensation that people couldn't adapt to.

He was afraid of losing, he was terrified of losing, and it was precisely because he longed for that light that he needed to leave it, because he didn't want to experience the feeling of being robbed of everything in his heart by the world.

Finally, he got up silently, sat down at the table and opened the diary of some years, turned page after page, and finally found the blank page, on which he scribbled the three names, but after writing, he held the pen tightly in his hand and could not rest assured, hesitated for a long time, he finally chose to cross out the three names, and then closed the diary, carrying the bag he had when he came.