Chapter 156: I don't want to regret it
"Lu Xingchuan, no matter how I refuse, you think there is still a possibility between us, which bothers me. So, I'm here today to make it clear to you thoroughly. ”
Lu Xingchuan's action of sending flowers stiffened there, and in an instant, the look of loss and sadness on his face was instantly replaced by that warm smile.
"It's okay, we've got dinner time, just say whatever you want to say. ”
He set the flowers aside and got the waiter to open the wine. The waiter professionally made a decanting for them, and served them according to the menu, and a series of actions were completed, and An Xiaoran was already on pins and needles.
"I understand what you're trying to say, the scandal has caused you a lot of trouble, so you want to avoid me and want to return to a peaceful life. But Xiao Ran, the scandal is not just because we met, if we don't meet, we can stop the scandal, and the scandal has long been clarified. Someone did it on purpose, so why should we pay for someone else's narrow-mindedness? ”
Under the ambiguous light, Lu Xingchuan's gaze was particularly tempting, and he looked at An Xiaoran as if he was looking at a rare treasure, full of greed and attachment.
An Xiaoran was uncomfortable by his gaze, she lowered her eyes and whispered: "We missed it, I don't deny that I once loved you, crazy love, the kind I can give up everything for you." But it is precisely because I love you to the bone that your departure will hurt me so much. It took me seven years to forget about you, and I finally got out of this nightmare, but you suddenly appeared and said that you want to be with me, don't you think it's unfair to me?"
"I'm sorry for the little dye, it's my fault. Lu Xingchuan's expression was gloomy, and he could understand An Xiaoran's pain over the years.
"You've said apologies many times, but can apologies make up for the seven years you missed? At the beginning, you disappeared inexplicably, maybe I don't blame you, but what about the next time, do you know how important your appearance is to me, I live desperately every day, and when it comes to the most embarrassing time, I only have less than ten yuan in my wallet, but I have half a month to get my next salary. What would have happened to us if you had shown up at that time?"
An Xiaoran took a deep breath, her eyes were sour, not to pay tribute to their past, but to live a life that was so bitter that it couldn't be more bitter.
"You chose to give up, you don't want me to stay where I am and wait for you for seven years. Lu Xingchuan, how many seven years have there been in this life, have you counted? ”
An Xiaoran's words pierced Lu Xingchuan's heart like an awl. He has been to the dark night, to the crew where she used to work and apply for jobs, and it is precisely because he has seen that it is not easy to work in that kind of place, so he can deeply understand what An Xiaoran said.
The woman he loved the most, who had endured so much pain, was never there, and he really had no right to pursue her anymore.
It was the cowardice of the past that made him choose the most unforgivable path, but he had already realized that he was wrong, and he was extremely eager to get another chance, even if it was only once, he would definitely make her the happiest woman in the world.
"So I'm going to chase you again now. Lu Xingchuan looked at An Xiaoran, his gaze was extremely firm: "I have to make up for the missing part, I can swear to you that you will never be wronged again in this life if you are with me." ”
"Should I be moved?" An Xiaoran said quickly: "Even children understand that there is no regret medicine in the world. The feeling for you is only in the past, and there is no way to come back when it has passed. I don't need your care anymore, on the contrary, your presence will only cause me trouble, I have said so, do you want to continue?"
An Xiaoran's tone became heavier, and she selectively ignored Lu Xingchuan's injured expression. It is impossible for her and Lu Xingchuan to be together again, meaningless entanglement will only harm others and themselves, these words should still be made clear when Lu Xingchuan has not fallen too deep, this is not only good for himself, but also responsible for him.
An Xiaoran's sanity made Lu Xingchuan's heart throb faintly.
He knew An Xiaoran, so he knew that he would only say these words so decisively when she didn't have him in her heart at all.
There is no regret medicine, how cruel the truth is, he understands the truth, but does he really not even have the last chance?
"I'm going to continue. Lu Xingchuan said affirmatively: "It is my right to pursue the woman I like." I'm sorry for causing you trouble, but if I don't fight for it, and I want to let everything go like before, then I won't have a chance at all. It was because of my indulgence that I missed you, the same mistake that I don't want to make a second time. ”
An Xiaoran was helpless for a while, she didn't know how to convince Lu Xingchuan, what she wanted to do was indeed his power, she couldn't dominate, and she didn't have power.
But to do this, on the premise of destroying his family, and on the premise of many obstacles that cannot be broken, An Xiaoran is extremely reluctant in his heart. She does not deny that she is not disgusted with Lu Xingchuan, and she also knows that she doesn't love him so much, otherwise, even if the situation is difficult, she will insist.
Instead of offending the whole world for the sake of a man who doesn't love much, it is better to choose to give up directly.
"Lu Xingchuan, you ......"
"I ordered your favorite black pepper steak, so let's have some appetizers first, otherwise the steak will be greasy. Lu Xingchuan didn't want to listen to An Xiaoran's refusal anymore, so he picked up the silver fork and said quickly.
"Xingchuan, you are still so good at taking care of people, even the steak is greasy. ”
An Xiaoran was just about to eat, when suddenly, a sweet voice came from above her head, and when she raised her head, Gao Shanshan was already sitting next to Lu Xingchuan.
Lu Xingchuan didn't expect her to come, and looked at her with a surprised expression.
Gao Shanshan raised her eyebrows: "What, did I disturb you?"
An Xiaoran hurriedly said: "No, no, I didn't expect Miss Gao to come ......"
"Didn't you think of it? That really disappointed you, there is no secret between him and me, and he told me when he came to see you. ”
Gao Shanshan said in an unkind tone, as if only in this way could she swear her sovereignty over Lu Xingchuan.
"Gao Shanshan, don't talk nonsense, go home!"
"Xingchuan, I know you understand that I can't eat spicy things when I'm pregnant, but I'm going to suffocate to death if I stay at home all the time, won't I be able to do it this time. Gao Shanshan shook Lu Xingchuan's arm coquettishly, then turned to An Xiaoran and said, "I don't think Miss An will mind if I sit here, right?" ”
Gao Shanshan's sudden appearance made the already tense situation even more embarrassing. An Xiaoran smiled, when Gao Shanshan asked her like this, she didn't even have a chance to leave, so she could only choose to stay and smile stiffly.