Chapter 16 The Past Is Like Smoke
Penglai Kyoto at 21:25 p.m
Yu Haitang called Xiao Yuchen out for a walk alone, and the two walked side by side on the Huanhai Pedestrian Street under the Imperial Capital Bridge, and there were wandering musicians performing on the beach.
As he walked, Yu Haitang suddenly said to Xiao Yuchen: "Xiao Chen, take off your mask, no one knows you here." ”
"Sister Begonia, what's wrong?" Xiao Yuchen was a little unsure, but he still obediently took the mask off his face.
Yu Haitang picked up his hands and walked towards a boulder next to the beach.
"Sister Begonia, is there any problem here?" Xiao Yuchen looked at Yu Haitang, staring at the mermaid goddess statue on the boulder in a daze.
Seeing that Yu Haitang didn't speak, he approached and followed Yu Haitang's gaze to see three handprints on the front of the square boulder below the statue of the goddess.
Yu Haitang slowly stretched out a hand and gently stroked the largest palm. His eyes are like water, so tender, so gentle, and even more focused. The stroke is very light... Very light, light as if I was afraid of breaking the handprint with a lot of force, I saw Yu Haitang put the palm into the big palm print smoothly, as if he wanted to grasp something, he was so stubborn and persistent. It's a pity that no matter how much she fantasizes about it, it's just an empty cement print, not even a handprint with a trace of temperature, even if she can't catch anything, but she still grabs it carefully, as if that person is in front of her, so clear.
Just when Begonia was silent and closed in her own world, the artist who was performing on the beach came to a piece of music in a trance - "Seriously" sung by a domestic star, "Don't take it too seriously...... The music shook softly in the ears of every pedestrian on the beach, touching everyone's heart. The musician's voice is slightly hoarse and low, playing this lyrical music with emotion, as if telling his own story, but also evoking the dusty past in everyone's heart, it seems that this wandering artist is also a person with a story.
Yu Haitang suddenly knelt down on his knees and slowly bent in front of the stone statue, one hand still in the palm print as if he was about to grasp something. Her hair just covered her face and fell to the ground, one hand half-covering her lips, and her whole face buried deep in the stone.
Xiao Yuchen squatted down and gently stroked Yu Haitang's shoulder with his hand: "Sister Haitang......." wanted to say something but couldn't say anything. He knew that Yu Haitang should have touched the scene, and this man must be very good, very good, otherwise why would Yu Haitang, who has always been cheerful, be sad like this? Could it be the dead zero?
The music is still gently floating in the air, and people's hearts are also opening the door to the past with music. Some people, some things, even if time has passed, can not be erased, time will only accumulate your past in your heart, the deeper you bury, the deeper your love. Isn't that what people do? They always think that they are strong, that they will not be bound by the past, but once the thoughts of memory are opened, they can no longer deceive themselves. There is a saying that I deceived time and the world, but I still lost to myself in the end.
"Hmm... Hmm...."Yu Haitang had already cried, Xiao Yuchen's hand could only be awkwardly put on Yu Haitang's shoulder, "Sister Begonia...... "He really didn't know how to comfort him, and what to say." It's one thing to guess it, but it's another thing for Yu Haitang to not say it himself.
Yu Haitang raised his head and looked at Xiao Yuchen, Xiao Yuchen looked at the begonia whose eyes were already red and his tears were still flowing. Somehow, my heart hurts.
The teary-eyed Begonia suddenly said to Xiao Yuchen: "Xiao, is it okay to hug me?" Hug me, just once." ”
Xiao Yuchen slowly hugged Begonia, Begonia's hands became harder and harder, as if she was afraid that Xiao Yuchen would disappear, she could no longer bear the pain of parting. Some scars are still full of holes even if they heal on the outside, and Xiao Yuchen knows that this is Haitang's mistake for him.
"Hmm... Hmm..."
"It's okay if you don't go"
"Please, I can't live without you"
A murmur echoed in Xiao Yuchen's ears, Xiao Yuchen's heart was very painful, he felt heartache for Begonia, he knew for the first time that his eccentric and lively Sister Begonia was so deep and so true, he didn't know where it started, and he went deep;
Yu Haitang hugged Xiao Yuchen tightly and fell deeply into his past memories:
"Uncle, how about I be your little wife when I grow up?"
A young man full of ridicule said: "Luo Yao is really not ashamed, she is only a teenager and thinks of spring!"
Another voice that sounded slightly older than the young man said, "Family master, Luo Yao is young, don't blame him." ”
A very calm young man smiled and said, "It's okay, it's okay, Luo Yao is still quite cute." ”
A beautiful girl's voice came: "Luo Yao, you rob my husband with me at such a young age? If you want to be a little wife, you have to ask me about this big wife."
"Hahaha"
"Hahaha"
Everyone around laughed
......
A fourteen or fifteen-year-old girl who was studying ink at her desk asked a middle-aged man in her early thirties, "Uncle, are you writing about the country before the family?"
"Yes," the middle-aged man sighed as he looked at the four words.
"Why do you want to put your country before your family?"
"Luo Yao, where did you come from without a country?
Han Luoyao nodded as if she didn't understand, "Oh"
"Uncle, can you marry me?"
"Marry you?"
"Yes, aren't you cute, don't uncles like me?"
"Like it, don't mess with me, haha, it's a little itchy"
"I don't care, my sister married you at the age of 19. I'm almost 18, and you're going to promise to marry me!"
"Ai, Luo Yao, don't make any noise about your uncle, he has a lot of other more important things to do. The middle-aged man's wife entered the room and wanted to pull away.
"No, I don't want to! I won't let go if I don't promise!" Han Luoyao seemed to be afraid that this sister would snatch his wishful husband away.
The middle-aged man looked at his wife helplessly and embarrassed.
The woman said, "Okay, okay, Luo Yao won't make trouble, my eldest wife promised you, when you are eighteen years old, let your uncle marry you, okay?"
"Don't lie to me, pull the hook!"
"Okay, pull the hook"
"I'm going to pull with my uncle, not with you"
.......
Yu Haitang cried and cried and laughed. Xiao Yuchen thought it was okay, but before he could let go, suddenly Yu Haitang cried even more.
Recall:
"Dad, I'm not leaving, I'm not leaving!" shouted an 18-year-old girl with a red cheongsam in her hand. His eyes were redder than the current begonias, and his voice was hoarse. She was so sad, so sad, and when she heard all this again, she felt for the first time that her world had no color. She was like a child groping in the dark, helpless and frightened, and there was really no light left. The man who had pulled her out of the darkness when she was most helpless and pitiful, that majestic and strong figure was like a beam of light in her life, illuminating her future and dispelling the confusion of her past.
"Let's go!" A middle-aged man said calmly: "If you don't leave, you won't have a chance, your uncle has already found your stand-in, don't be willful!"
"No, I'm not leaving, since he has become a ray of light in my life, why do you want to make my whole world dark again!" The girl was heartbroken, the most desperate thing for a person is not that there is no hope, but that there is hope and then despair again. Why is life so dramatic, so creative and tricky!
"He said he would marry me when I was 18 years old!
"Ahh Hmm..."The girl's tears and snot have been mixed together, and the whole face is no longer beautiful. The girl's eyes could not cry, only a trace of choking.
The middle-aged man looked at the girl, and he couldn't bear it, but he had to take the girl away.
"This is my wedding dress, what a beautiful red"
The girl changed into a red wedding dress directly on the boat, and then washed her face directly with seawater.
Looking in the direction she had left, she seemed to remember this place forever, the place that opened her world and brought her happiness, because it was her light. The girl's red eyes stared in this direction, and she didn't take her eyes off it for a long time. Even if the autumn water is seen through, the sea will never come back, and it will not come back. He's not going to be there either.
"Uncle, I love you, I'm leaving" murmured softly and passed out directly. She knew that if she said goodbye today, she would say goodbye forever. There is no more her uncle in the world, and there is no Han Luoyao. Some are just a dusty past and a scar that will not heal.
The memories end.
Yu Haitang, who hugged Xiao Yuchen tightly, whispered softly in Xiao Yuchen's ear: "I was not born when you were born, and I am old when you were born." ”
"If I can regret it, I will not run away, no matter what the outcome is. I will face it with you, because you are here, the world, and the eternity. ”
"Cry, cry, Sister Begonia, it's good to cry out a lot of things, don't hold it in your heart. ”
Xiao Yuchen said while gently patting Begonia's back.
After a long time, Yu Haitang has begun to come to his senses. The past is like this, the scar that has been uncovered is nothing more than another pain, and after the pain, it is buried again. This is life, no matter how much you get, you will always pay more.
"One of these three mudras is mine, one is his, and one is his wife's. After a pause, Yu Haitang wiped his last tears with a tissue.
"If a person falls in love with someone he shouldn't love, he is destined to bear scars for the rest of his life!" Yu Haitang stood up and carefully wiped his handprints with a tissue. Afraid that her tears would stain these handprints, this was the only place she could miss now.
"Alright, let's go back. Go over there and see if there's anything to eat, and don't drink tonight!" Yu Haitang seemed to have changed someone, and the lively and casual royal sister was back.
The two shadows on the beach, one in front and one behind, stretched longer and longer under the illumination of the light.
"Sister Begonia, is this love?" Xiao Yuchen was touched, and whispered to himself, "Are you tired?"
"Huh"
After a sigh, the two of them had already left the place where the record had been, and Xiao Yuchen's question had no one to answer for him. He just understood one thing, no matter how glamorous everyone was on the outside, no one knew how his heart was full of holes except himself.
Personality is as out of character as Yu Haitang has been in love for many years, anyone is just one of thousands of ordinary people, and he Xiao Yuchen is no exception! Love in the world is nothing more than that, even if you know that moths are fighting fires, you know that there are thousands of holes, and you know that there is no result; But he still didn't hesitate. Because of love, so love!