NO.31

After three days of playing, although I ate and drank every day, I felt so tired, and this boring life seemed to be no different from going to school. To put it mildly, I want to go back to school, I want to go back to school to listen to Teacher Hou's lectures, provided that I don't have to do my homework every day.

These days of idle boredom, I went through the bits and pieces of life last semester from beginning to end, and found that there was no gain, the only gain was that just yesterday I found that I had become lazy, I used to insist on learning English every day to memorize words, and would complete my homework on time, but now I feel that writing homework is a waste of time, why do you have to write more than one more topic that is very simple.

I don't know if Zhong Xiaojie feels this way, I don't dare ask. It would not be good if he was still as diligent and studious at school as before, and he knew that I was often lazy and didn't want to do my homework, and I set a wrong example for him.

I seem to feel that I am slowly getting stupid, I am not as good at doing questions as before, although I am still the first in the whole school, but it is only a matter of time before I am surpassed, I don't want to sit back and eat empty again, I feel scared in such a big city.

I remembered a short article I had read on my desk in the library:

"That hour by hour of light ***** meticulously carved into this much-anticipated bright eye

One day they will be treated as tyrants

Turning that once earth-shattering face into no longer beautiful"

Life will not be particularly gracious to anyone, nor will it be particularly unkind to anyone. I not only thought about my own life after entering high school, but also thought of Gong Zi and Peng Meijia.

If I hadn't been born into a family where food and clothing had nothing to offer, but a family that was very ordinary, would I still be wasting my time like I am now?

I've never been prejudiced against anyone, if it weren't for Gong Zi and the math teacher getting too close, I think Gong Zi is a great and cool person, close to perfect, just like the male number one in most TV dramas, living in difficult conditions at the beginning, and then seizing various opportunities with his own efforts, and finally living a happy life. Of course, I don't know if Gong Zi will live happily in the future, even now I don't know, because we have long broken off contact, but ordinary hard-working people will not live too badly, at least his grades in his first year of high school are enough to envy others.

Gong Zi is not a particularly smart person, but he is really diligent enough, which is precisely the most terrifying. I'm not afraid that he's stupid, I'm afraid that he's diligent, the four-character proverb "diligence can make up for clumsiness", do you think the ancestors are talking about playing?

"There is a road for the road in the book mountain", I have always understood this truth, but after entering high school, my starting point was a little higher than others, and I became a little fluttering and forgetful.

When I was a child, I learned to play the piano with Zhong Xiaojie, and he was always praised at the beginning, and I was always criticized by the teacher for playing wrong. During that time when I was learning the piano, my heart was very painful, and I didn't want to be praised by the teacher like my younger brother, as long as I didn't criticize me by name.

I know in my own heart, although the teacher didn't directly call me stupid, but the criticism by name has been explicit enough. What's more, in that kind of private training class, even if the teacher thinks you are stupid and stupid, they will not say it clearly, the students who come to the training class are their biggest source of income, how can they be stupid enough to smash their own jobs.

When I was learning the piano, I would spend a long time reviewing the pieces taught by the teacher, not because I wanted to be praised by the teacher, but because I wanted not to play the wrong music in the next class, and not to be told by the teacher in front of other students that I still need to work hard, which would be quite embarrassing. Slowly I started to be the one who was praised by the teacher in every lesson, and I passed the piano grade 10 ahead of my brother and the other students in the class.

At that time, I had a lot of doubts in my heart, and I wanted to talk to someone. It's better for Zhong Renyong to write an email, but whether he will tell a bunch of big truths again, that's what I'm most afraid of.

My first email didn't have a clear idea, I wrote down what came to mind, and the most mentioned was that I didn't know what I should do in the future, and I longed for my dad to give me a shortcut, even if he couldn't answer my questions, and give me a few suggestions.

I waited hopefully for my father's reply, even if it was a few casual words of comfort, as long as it wasn't a bunch of big truths.

Coincidentally, the expected thing happened. Dad's reply to the email was as disappointing as ever, and it was still something like study hard.

I'm thinking, Dad's emotional intelligence is really low, and the content of every chat is the same, is this the father's love that has always been praised in the poem? This mountain is about to overwhelm himself, and his high school life is very depressing, and he has intensified his hype about the importance of studying in high school, doesn't he know that there is a word called counterproduct?

Failed to communicate with my father, so I ran to Sister Jianing to complain. "Sister, why do you say that my dad is always different from what I think, I feel that he doesn't understand me at all, and he has a bunch of big truths all day long, thinking that he is a saint, but I understand all the truths, and I feel annoyed when he says too much. ”

My sister put on her glasses and became so serious, as if she was about to say something that she had been preparing for a long time. "Then do you try to understand his thoughts in the past? The growth environment and life experience are different, the ideas are naturally different, and your own feelings are always the best you know, no matter how much others empathize, they will not understand as thoroughly as yourself. You complain that he doesn't understand you, but you don't really try to understand him, you have to understand one thing: understanding is mutual. ”

I don't know what to say with such a serious expression, and I want to refute it, but I can't find any entry point. I thought my sister would complain about my dissatisfaction with my parents with me, but after a long time, my sister and my father were on the same front, it was like two armies facing each other, I ran to the enemy and told them how I was going to beat you in a while, so stupid.

The sister continued: "Maybe for you, as long as everything related to you has his participation, it is a kind of bondage, in fact, he just wants you to take fewer detours, and his greatest wish is to hope that you can take care of yourself without his protection." In fact, your personality in our family is the most worrying, Xiaojie is usually very aggressive, and he doesn't think too much about other people's feelings, how he is comfortable, and you always think too much, it is difficult for your character to take care of yourself when you go out. ”

When I chatted with Sister Jianing, Zhong Xiaojie ran over and said something very inappropriate, "Brother, sister, let's go eat Peking duck, I'm hungry." ”

In addition to the title of "foodie", I think Zhong Xiaojie is also a "topic terminator", no, it should be a "super topic terminator", because he ends up with topics that have nothing to do with him.

Taking advantage of Zhong Xiaojie's devouring of roast duck, I rewrote an email and sent it to my father, this time it was not like the previous messy letter, a little less restrained, more of the indescribable affection between father and son, of course, it was also sent with my younger brother when he was fully armed when he ate roast duck.

This is the first time in 18 years that I have shared my life with Mr. Chung In-yong so heartily, and this feeling is not bad, not very boring.