Chapter 14: Not Worth It
Walking out of the coffee shop, Lin Qian's heart was complicated.
Disappointment, grievances, heartache...... For a while, my mind came to mind. The tears could no longer be suppressed, and they fell down frantically.
The patience and strength that have worked hard for half a year have all collapsed at this moment.
Lin Qian didn't understand, he really didn't understand. Why did the person who loved so hard at the beginning become the way he is now? Is it because he and Jin Yuxin found out that she is not as good as she imagined? Or is it because she is not as stupid as herself and always lets him?
Whatever the reason...... At the same time as Chen Qing said those words, Lin Qian's heart was completely dead.
It was already completely dark.
At this point, many young couples come out for a walk after eating, holding hands and leisurely walking on the road blowing the wind.
Only Lin Qian, walking fast. It is in stark contrast to the leisurely people on the road. Along the way, the tears never stopped. No matter how much you wipe it, you can't wipe it dry.
Ding Xin was eating in the dormitory, and he just took out his mobile phone and was about to ask Lin Qian when he would come back. I saw Lin Qian pushing open the door, his face full of tears. Ding Xin was startled, and quickly took a napkin and stepped forward. While helping Lin Qian wipe her tears, he took her to the edge of the bed and sat down.
After Lin Qian sat down, he took the napkin and wanted to wipe away his tears. However, while wiping, he suddenly covered his face and cried bitterly.
Ding Xin on the side was in a hurry but didn't dare to ask, so he had to gently caress her back and comfort her until her mood stabilized.
Lin Qian raised his head and looked at Ding Xin, and said with a crying voice: "Xinxin, Chen Qing is back." But I'd rather he never come back. ”
Ding Xin saw Lin Qian crying so sadly, and asked anxiously, "Did he bully you?"
Lin Qian shook his head, took a hard breath and said, "No, Xinxin." He didn't bully me, I was sad because...... It's because he said he regretted it, he said he wanted to be with me. After saying this, tears poured out uncontrollably. Lin Qian saw Ding Xin's anxious appearance and knew what she was worried about, so he continued: "Don't worry, I've been stupid once before. It doesn't make sense, and it will be stupid a second time. But...... I'm really uncomfortable. Xinxin, you know, I would rather him give up on me completely and let me forget him painfully, than he begged me in such a low voice, begging me to give him a chance to make up for the damage he did to me. Why? Why do I always have to pay for his immaturity? Why does he have the face to come back to me after he gave up on me? I hate him, I really hate him...... He didn't understand at all, trusting this kind of thing. Once it is broken, no matter how much time it takes, no matter how much effort it takes, it will not be as good as ever. I firmly believe that if I had been the one who had done these things, he would not have forgiven me. But why does he have double standards, why does he forgive himself? Just because of a word of regret, do you want both of us to continue in torment in the future? Xinxin, I think I may never know him...... It's true...... Didn't understand"
Ding Xin saw Lin Qian's eyes red when she cried, and she was distressed, and when she heard Lin Qian say that Chen Qing still had the face to come back to her to get back together, she was angry at the moment: "Qianqian, you are not wrong in this matter, it's not that you don't understand him, it's that he has changed and become insatiable." I've been looking at you for the past six months, and you seem to be getting better little by little. But I know, you didn't let go, you endured so hard. So, cry out if you want to cry, and put it down when you're done......"
Lin Qian understood those truths in his heart, especially after seeing Chen Qing today, he was even more sure, he shouldn't be sad for him anymore.
It's really not worth it.
Lin Qian slowed down for a while, was pushed by Ding Xin to take a hot bath, and lay down comfortably.
suddenly remembered that Yao Jia told her about the party in the afternoon, so he said to Ding Xin: "That's right, Xinxin." In the afternoon, Yao Jia came to me and told me about the class reunion on Saturday night, and called Chen Qing. ”
Ding Xin didn't like Yao Jia very much, and when she heard that she also called Chen Qing, she suddenly became angry, and said angrily: "Yao Jia is really full and has nothing to do, what is Chen Qing shouting at our class reunion?"
Lin Qian also frowned and said, "I didn't expect it either, but they didn't know that I broke up with Chen Qing." ”
Ding Xin suddenly thought of something, and hurriedly said, "Qianqian! Why is it so coincidental? Yao Jia only asked you when you were on holiday this afternoon, and Chen Qing appeared in the evening. Could it be that Chen Qing asked Yao Jia for help, maybe this class reunion was also discussed by them in advance!"
Lin Qian heard Ding Xin say this, and after thinking about it carefully, he said: "I also think that things are too coincidental, but I heard her call Chen Qing this afternoon, so I didn't want to go." I don't want to go anymore. If you really want to get together, next time. ”
Then Lin Qian took out his mobile phone and sent a message to Yao Jia, saying that he and Ding Xin had something to do this Saturday, and they agreed to make an appointment on another day during the summer vacation.
Yao Jia's persuasion was fruitless, so she had to agree.
When everything was done, Lin Qian only felt that his eyelids were heavy and he couldn't open his eyes. So after saying goodnight to Ding Xin, he went to sleep, and he didn't even have time to say anything about Song Ci's request.
At six o'clock in the morning, Lin Qian woke up leisurely.
His eyes were unsurprisingly swollen, but his spirits were surprisingly good. Because last night there was no dream.
glanced at Ding Xin, who was still asleep, with one foot still on the outside of the quilt.
Seeing this, Lin Qian got out of bed, gently walked to Ding Xin's bedside, helped her cover the quilt, and then returned to her bed and took out her mobile phone.
It doesn't matter if you don't look at it, you'll almost be startled when you see it.
Song Ci sent her a bunch of QQ messages!!
Lin Qian unlocked his phone with a headache, wanting to see what Song Ci had specifically said.
"Lin Qian, are you back?"
"Did you tell Ding Xin?
"Lin Qian, why didn't you reply to the message? Did you get to the dormitory safely?"
"See the message and make sure you're safe. ”
"Are you alright?"
“……”
Lin Qian looked at the messages sent by Song Ci and remembered what he promised him yesterday. Because of Chen Qing, I forgot to tell Xinxin when I came back.
So he replied embarrassedly: "I went to bed early last night, so I didn't reply to you." That one...... I haven't asked Xinxin yet, I'll talk to her when she wakes up later. ”
After sending the message, Lin Qian was just about to go to wash up, and his mobile phone rang. It was a message from Song Ci.
Song Ci: "It's okay if you're fine." ”
Lin Qian: "Thank you, it's okay." Why did you wake up so early?"
Song Ci: "I always get up early, has Ding Xin woken up?"
Lin Qian: "Not yet, but it should be soon." She usually starts at seven o'clock. ”
Song Ci: "Okay, I'll go for a run first, and I'll help you bring breakfast later." I'll send you a message when I arrive, and then I'll come down and get it. ”
Lin Qian: "...... No, I'm already up. ”
Song Ci: "Don't refuse, actually, I mainly want to buy it for Ding Xin, but you also said that she must be embarrassed." So ......"
Lin Qian: "...... So I'm following the light?"
Song Ci: "No, no, I want to invite you to eat." Then it's decided, come down and get it later. ”
Seeing this, Lin Qian had no choice but to agree. After turning his head and going into the bathroom for a brief wash, he lay back on the bed and squinted for a while.