What does it feel like to lose someone you love? Some people say it's heartbreaking, others say you're like the walking dead.

Lin Qian felt that without Chen Qing, it seemed that the whole world no longer had color, and all interesting things were boring. Now I feel as if I have fallen into the sea, cold and helpless...... However, Lin Qian was extremely sober and understood that she couldn't let herself fall deeper and deeper, because there were still many people waiting for her on the shore.

As of the day before the breakup, they had been together for 1,113 days.

Lin Qian's diary records that the two people met and knew each other, and fell in love with each other until they separated. There is also QQ space, Lin Qian will intercept a very loving and warm chat record with Chen Qing every day as a log update. At that time, I still wanted to wait until the wedding day to give it to Chen Qing as a surprise. Now, it seems, there will never be another day.

The bathroom at home also has a couple cup that two people bought together when they were together for a month, the huge doll on the bed was caught by two people for a long time on their two-month anniversary, the bracelet in the drawer was given by Chen Qing on the first anniversary of the two people, and the photo album on the table was made by Chen Qing after confirming the transfer of schools, and each one was Lin Qian in Chen Qing's eyes. Lin Qian, who loves to laugh, Lin Qian, who is angry, Lin Qian, Lin Qian, who is wearing a school uniform, Lin Qian, who falls asleep on the desk, so many Lin Qian...... Behind each photo is a passage written by Chen Qing to Lin Qian. Chen Qing, who loves Lin Qian so seriously, so many memories of two people falling in love with each other have become a thing of the past.

Lin Qian shook his head, not wanting to think about everything with Chen Qing anymore. Then clicked on Ding Xin's dialog box.

Lin Qian: "Xinxin, Chen Qing and I are over." Thinking back to this journey, I don't know when it began, I seem to have turned Chen Qing into my world, my center. And I'm always around him, accommodating him. He has changed his mind, but I have changed my character. It's no longer the confident and principled me I used to be. ”

Ding Xin was still thinking about whether to call Lin Qian, but she didn't reply to the message until last night, so she was worried about what happened to her, but Lin Qian's news came.

Ding Xin: "!!! shallow, although it may not be appropriate to say so. But I'm so happy, congratulations on leaving the scumbag!"

Lin Qian: "Poof...... Xinxin, although I know that you don't want me to get hurt, so you persuaded me to separate from Chen Qing, but don't you really need to comfort me?

Ding Xin: "Mua, because I'm sure you'll figure it out, so I think it's just a matter of time." Forget this scumbag, there will definitely be a better one in the future~"

Will you come across a better one in the future...... But what if it's not what you want? No matter how good it is, what's the use? Lin Qian suddenly became excited, and his thoughts were too sad, but it was really difficult to forget someone. From waking up to the present, I have resisted the urge to cry countless times, and my nose is gone.

Ding Xin waited on the other side of the computer for a long time and didn't wait for Lin Qian's reply, worried about whether she was hiding somewhere to cry again, so she hurriedly sent a message to Lin Qian.

Ding Xin: "Shallow, I know you're very uncomfortable. I don't want to talk about chicken soup for the soul or anything, those are really useless. I just want to ask you, do you remember who you used to be?"

"Didi" Lin Qian was pulled back to reality by the message prompt and saw Ding Xin's news.

Lin Qian: "Who used to be?"

Ding Xin: "Shallow, this year is our freshman year, and it is also the eighth year we have known each other. I still remember the first time I saw you at that time, it was on the stage of our school's art show. The first impression you gave me was confidence, and the whole person seemed to glow. I was also a girl, but at that time, I was very inferior because of family reasons. I always miniaturized my sense of existence, I just didn't want to be understood, I was afraid that people would know that I had a father like that. But you're different, and you're good in my eyes. Then we met by chance, and then we became good friends, and I began to learn more about you. I like your decisiveness, I like that you have a bottom line and principles. Also appreciate your generosity and bravery. But later, after you and Chen Qing were together, I felt that you began to change gradually. ”

Lin Qian: "I thought about it for a long time after I got home yesterday, and then my mother also saw that I had something on my mind and said a lot to me. I also feel like I've changed since then. I love Chen Qing so much that I'm afraid of losing him, so I suffer from gains and losses. Especially when he changed schools, I was even more scared. I couldn't touch him, I couldn't hold him. I was afraid that after we were separated, he would fall in love with someone else. So, I always accommodated him and let her. After that, I lost my temper and lost my self-confidence...... But in the end, I lost his ......."

Ding Xin: "Yes, in fact, you know it in your heart. Shallow, I understand you. But when you were willing to forgive Chen Qing that day, I was really stunned. You told me before that the last thing you can accept in this life is betrayal, and you said that you will never forgive. Because once the seeds of suspicion are planted, they will only grow without stopping. But, that day you forgive. At that time, I realized that if you really love each other, Chen Qing will give you another chance in the future. With your personality, I expected you to break up in the end, but I didn't expect it to be so soon. ”

Lin Qian: "Xinxin, what you said is right, sure enough, the person who knows me is none other than Xinxin." In fact, after forgiveness, I always felt that something was wrong in my heart, and I was still very panicked, and I had a feeling that I would lose Chen Qing at any time. I know Chen Qing too well, really. By the time he told me I wasn't going to be back this weekend, I had already guessed about it, but I was making a fool of myself. ”

Ding Xin: "You mean Chen Qing lied to you? He is not a club activity at all!?"

Lin Qian: "Yes, I don't believe his words. So, I went to his space and found the girl's visitor record and I saw that Chen Qing left the same words for me and her the day after we reconciled. Later, I also knew that they were already together, and Chen Qing never mentioned me......"

Ding Xin: "...... Shallow, will you share half of my bed tonight?"

Lin Qian: "Okay, I'll wait for you." If you want to come to my house for dinner, I asked my mother to cook more. ”

Ding Xin: "Okay, I'll bring some snacks you like, wait for me~~~"

Lin Qian: "Haha, wait for you, pay attention to safety on the road~"

As soon as this sentence was posted, Ding Xin was already offline. Lin Qian understood why Ding Xin suddenly said that she was coming to her, because she was afraid that she would be uncomfortable alone.

Lin Qian clicked on the video sent to her by Ding Xin last night, the two people in the video were dressed up strange and funny, looking at each other laughing so much that they couldn't stand up straight, Lin Qian pressed the pause button, and the picture was frozen at that moment.

"Thank you, fool Xin......" Lin Qian said softly......