"When he looked at the stage and the audience, he always felt that the people who got married should be those people. Because each of those people seemed happier than they were on the stage. The wedding was going on, and the master of ceremonies was very formal: Would you like to love her only for the rest of your life? He turned his head to look at the woman in the wedding dress with an equally confused face. Whispered: Yes. ”

The woman's answer was yes, and she cried. The people below are very happy, and they feel that they have witnessed the marriage of lovers. Only the two of them knew why the woman was crying, just like the tears in his heart at this time. ”

He had a lot of thoughts: I did what I said before, and you did it. It's just that the people in front of us are not each other. ”

The master of ceremonies asked them to exchange tokens, and he gently put the ring on the woman's finger, and his voice was soft: I love you. The woman's tearful eyes flashed with doubt, but finally she nodded lightly: Thank you. She didn't say I love you too because she wasn't sure if he said it to her, just as he wasn't sure if he said it to him. ”

After the wedding, there was no romance and no romance as he imagined. For the rest of his life, he was left with only responsibility, because he went from one person to two people, to the pillar of a family. ”

A year later, she became pregnant. She quit her job and raised her baby at home. His career was getting started, and he was tired and tired every day, and he had to deal with the special emotions of a pregnant woman when he went home. In addition, the relationship between his parents and his wife is not very harmonious, and he is caught in the middle and angry, but he does not dare to complain in the slightest. ”

It's just that every day when he returns to the parking lot of the community, he spends more and more time in the car. Within a year, he went from a person who had no addiction to cigarettes to a smoker with a pack of cigarettes a day. ”

Finally, just as he was about to collapse, the child finally landed. Before and after giving birth, he lost hundreds of thousands in total, but it didn't matter, the moment he saw the child, he felt that everything was worth it. He felt that the withered heart was beginning to sprout again. He didn't know if it was him growing or if his children were growing. But he finally understood why she always liked to share everything about her children. It won't be long before she does. Thinking of this, he looked at his weak wife: You have worked hard. ”

The joy of the new life didn't last long, and as the child grew up and the energy he poured into his work, the contradictions between them grew. The daily conflicts are those trivial things, but she always has a lot of energy to argue. ”

"It turned out that when he went back to the house, he would only smoke three cigarettes, and at most half a pack of cigarettes in the back. He was even, a little scared to go home. ”

At the age of forty, he gradually felt the erosion of time on his body, and his career has been tepid, and he is no longer able to fight. Every day when I go home, the nagging disappears, it's all about the child. ”

In order not to let the child lose, he tried his best. But when a person is strong and poor, there are some things that he really doesn't want to buy for his children, but those things that he can't get in his life. ”

"His child is in the sixth grade, preparing for the high school entrance examination. His child's homeroom teacher said that he had to study hard in order to be admitted to a good junior high school, a high school, and a good university. ”

He could only smile and say, okay, I will supervise the children's studies more at home. His child's homeroom teacher showed an impatient face, as if he was calling Hanako: The children in the class have all signed up for cram school, and I go to school, two thousand a month. ”

In the second year of junior high school, his child's homeroom teacher took a break from the parent-teacher meeting and said to him: The second year of junior high school is very important. He didn't wait for the head teacher to finish speaking, so he hurriedly agreed: "Well, I was just about to enroll my child in a cram school, do you have any recommendations, teacher? This time, he finally smiled happily in response to him. ”

His child was admitted to a good high school as he wished, and he felt that everything he had paid before had been rewarded, and he had no grievances in his heart, only joy. ”

One day he came home dragging his more and more problematic body and was about to rest, when his child suddenly told him that he wanted to learn a musical instrument. He didn't hesitate, because he couldn't say anything he couldn't say. Maybe he was also very unconvinced, not convinced that he had lost at the starting line before. He didn't want his children to be like him. ”

Fortunately, his child was admitted to a key book, but when he filled in the volunteer, it was not the best volunteer he thought was before. So he prepared some drinks and foods that he liked to drink and eat when he bragged to his friends when he was young. It was decided to communicate with him, and as the exchange deepened, the exchange turned into a quarrel. ”

"He found out that he was old. He is no longer the young man who can drink wine and eat melon seeds, and can reason with more than a dozen people alone, nor is he the young man who dares to roll up his sleeves and do it if he doesn't agree with him. He was too old to say or beat this 18-year-old, his own child. “

He could only hold on to the last position, repeating one sentence over and over again: I am your father! The child looked at him and knew that it was useless to argue. He looked very disappointed, he thought he would understand him, he thought he would understand him. ”

"It seems that he won, but he lost. In the end, the child chose his own major according to his own wishes. There were fewer and fewer topics between them, until his children began to enter society, and the topics between them began to slowly increase. ”

His child said he wanted to change, but after learning about his current situation, his attitude was reversed. Tell him to persevere. Later, his children were quite successful and finally married. ”

He didn't know what he thought, and suddenly asked his child: Do you like her? The child was stunned: I married my own wife, I don't love her, why do you want to marry her?"

He smiled, and smiled happily. He felt like he was starting a new life again. The child has finally matured, and after being tired for so long, he wants to go out and have a look. There was still nagging in the kitchen, and he sat on the couch. It seems that I listened to it, but I didn't seem to hear it, maybe I got used to it. ”

She walked out with the dish, it was still the same dish he was best at thirty years ago, he had eaten it for thirty years, and he didn't know what it tasted like. ”

She began to plan with him where to go, and the two of them were like talking about business as they had when they first met thirty years ago. It's just that the alienation between them dissipates, and sometimes they are attacked by the other party with weakness. But he still couldn't tell whether he liked her or not, or whether he was like her. ”

"Everything is ready, just as I was about to leave, the child made a phone call: Mom, Dad, I'm too busy with work, can you help me take care of the child?"