Fu Xiang slept in the same room as Cen Jinghuai, and that night, he lingered at the door for a long time, and finally went to sit in the hall all night.

Fu Xiang and Lingxi couldn't sleep, Lingxi cleaned up the wreckage on the ground, took a bottle of wine, and the two sat opposite each other, drinking stuffy wine together, and the wind and rain outside the window did not stop.

On this night, the people on the ship could not sleep.

Cen Jinghuai smoked all the cigarettes, and he couldn't suppress the fire that kept rising in his heart.

In his memory, Lu Zhengshen was a good person and a very good brother. The uncle brought Lu Zhengshen back to see them when he was fifteen years old, and the two of them stood together, and when they saw each other, their eyes were surprised.

It was like looking in a mirror, and if he wasn't wearing a different outfit, he really suspected that this was a clone in front of him.

It was a novelty, and the two greeted each other and introduced themselves.

At first, it was cramped, and slowly, it began to become familiar. When I was a child, I only needed a common interest, and no matter how strange it was, I could play together.

They like the same thing, but from that time, Cen Jinghuai knew that this brother who lived in a rich family was not as free and happy as he imagined. His words and deeds are seen by others.

If you are too good, you will be envied, too mediocre and incompetent, and you will be ridiculed.

He lived there cautiously, and at that moment, Cen Jinghuai could see envy in his eyes.

When she was eighteen years old, Cen Xingduo had a problem in her business, and her father came to her, which caused a large number of creditors. When life was frustrated, Lu Zhengshen gave them all the money he had saved, a lot, but not enough to solve the difficulties.

But when he gave him the money, Cen Jinghuai felt his kindness.

He said, "Don't go, I'll do my best to help you." ”

Lu Zhengshen is not like Cen Jinghuai, he can grow up step by step in a fairly normal family, like ordinary children, what age to do something, when he should be rebellious, he is also rebellious, which makes Cen Xingduo jump angrily.

His life was peaceful, without too many waves, and it was smooth sailing, without many setbacks.

Good learning, good popularity, strong ability, everywhere is shining and eye-catching.

For a long time, he and Lu Zhengshen have had some contact in private, and the relationship between the two is not bad.

Therefore, he didn't understand why he joined such an organization, and what reason he had to go from the sun into the darkness.

It turned out that he was just betrayed and used by his dearest brother.

He smashed everything in the room that could be smashed.

Lin Nuan's room was next door, and she heard all the commotion.

She hesitated, but eventually walked over and knocked on the door.

It took a while for the door to open. Cen Jinghuai's whole person was ruthless, and the moment he saw her, his eyes softened in an instant, his eyes were slightly red, he looked at her, and said, "What's wrong?"

Lin Nuan had never seen him like this, so he was startled, and subconsciously stepped back, saying, "No, I heard a lot of movement here, and I thought something was going on, so I came over and asked." ”

"It's fine. He put one hand against the door and lowered his eyes.

She noticed the blood on the back of his hand, "Are you really alright?"

The corners of his mouth hooked, and he shook his head silently.

Lin Nuan stood there, seeing that he didn't want to talk more, she nodded, "Okay, then don't bother." ”

She took another step back and turned to leave.

The next moment, Cen Jinghuai came out of the door in one step, reached out and clasped her arm, pulled her over, and hugged her into his arms.

His movements were fast, and when Lin Nuan reacted, the person was already in his arms.

She nudged him, "You ......"

"Don't speak. His tone was cold, commanding.

Her brow furrowed, and slowly loosened.

Inexplicably, a grievance arose, rushed to his head, his nose was sore, and his eye sockets were also suffering.

She closed her eyes, and only for a moment, she struggled again, "Let go." ”

His hand loosened a little, and then, he grabbed her waist again, picked her up, went straight into the room, pressed her against the door, lowered his head, and before his lips touched, Lin Nuan quickly avoided it, "You, don't go too far." ”

He snorted, hooked the corners of his mouth, said nothing, and forcibly gagged her lips again.

Lin Nuan pulled out his hand to hit him, and after hitting him twice, he was held and pressed against the door panel.

He bit her lip hard, raised his eyes, and the two looked at each other, each with different emotions.

In his dark eyes, there was her anger and hatred, as well as resentment.

His kiss slowly stopped, and both of them breathed a little fast.

Lin Nuan lowered his eyes, his lips pursed, and his chest rose and fell slightly.

After a while, Cen Jinghuai let go of his hand, took a few steps back, sat on the bed, waved his hand at her silently, and said two words dejectedly, "I'm sorry." ”

Lin Nuan sneered and said mockingly: "Give someone a knife, and then give someone an understatement of sorry, and the wound will be able to heal automatically? ”

She wiped her mouth, not bothering to talk to him too much, and turned around to leave.

Cen Jinghuai didn't speak, except for these two words, he didn't know what to say. Maybe when all his memories can be restored, he will know what to say to her.

Lin Nuan didn't leave immediately, her hand holding the doorknob tightened, and she didn't open the door, and then, suddenly, turned around, and walked to him in a few steps.

Cen Jinghuai raised her head at the right time, she raised her hand and slapped him in the face.

It's a good fit.

He didn't dodge, didn't stop, didn't even blink an eye.

Lin Nuan doesn't beat people, when she really beats people, it shows that she is really angry to the extreme, and she needs to vent her emotions.

The two looked at each other silently.

Cen Jinghuai said, "What do you want?"

She was silent, and the hand hanging by her side subconsciously clenched into a fist. His tone and eyes made her heart tremble, and she could clearly feel that her heart, which was originally as hard as iron, was softening little by little.

She gritted her teeth and warned herself that there were others around him, a woman who was willing to die for him and give her all, and he himself belonged to someone else.

Between them, there is nothing at all, it is only a few months between them, she can even let Lin Jingcheng go, what can't he do?

She suddenly laughed, tears fell from her eyes, and she said, "I'm sorry." On the spur of the moment, I shouldn't have hit you. ”

"It doesn't matter. ”

"When will we be able to land?"

"It may take some more time, and now the situation is unclear, so we must make sure that there is no danger before we can land, otherwise we will be caught in the net." Bear with me. ”

"Good. She nodded, "Then I'll go back to my room and don't disturb you." ”

He watched her walk to the door, go out, and gently close the door again, gently, and even politely. But he didn't like her being so polite and thoughtful, but wanted to see her mood swings and stretch out her hand to hit people.

Hate is better than nothing.

He sat for a while, cleaned up his room, and lay down to rest.

Closing his eyes, it was all the pictures of kissing her just now, and when I recalled it over and over again, my heart became peaceful. It's also good to try to keep more memories.

For the next few days, the atmosphere on board was somewhat dreary.

Lingxi and Fu Xiang almost didn't speak, and they all separated after eating, each eating their own. On the contrary, Lin Nuan was calmer and calmer, she would take the initiative to talk to Lingxi and Fu Xiang, whatever she wanted, she didn't want to hold it alone, she was afraid that the old illness would recur and become a burden.

Lingxi was a bit of a heavy drinker, and most of the time she drank alone on the roof of the boat, and sometimes she was so drunk that she slept on it.

After coming and going, the man fell ill.

No matter how powerful they are, they are only flesh and blood.

There was no fever reducer on the ship, so Lin Nuan physically cooled her down and took care of her all the time. After all, there is nothing to do on the ship, and there is something to do, but it is not so boring.

Cen Jinghuai came in to see it once, and after a brief inquiry, he never came again.

After that night, he hadn't spoken to Fu Xiang and Lingxi, and spent most of his time alone.

A ship was so big, but for several days, no one saw him.

He won't show up unless he takes the initiative to look for it.

Fu Xiang came in with clear porridge, "Has the fever subsided?"

"Not yet, let's take a look again, if you don't retreat, it may be a little troublesome. ”

Lin Nuan took the porridge and put it aside.

Fu Xiang didn't go out immediately, he glanced at Lin Nuan, thought about it, and sat down, "Thank you." ”

"Thanks for what?"

He smiled and shrugged, "Nothing. ”

Fu Xiang turned his head and glanced at the door, Lin Nuan happened to see it, and said, "He has been here once." ”

"Really?"

"yes. Lin Nuan asked casually, "You have a conflict?"

After asking, Lin Nuan felt that he had asked too much, waved his hand, and said, "You don't have to say it, I don't really want to know, it's just smooth." ”

He thought for a moment and couldn't help but say, "He didn't have to be like us." ”

The expression on Lin Nuan's face paused.

Fu Xiang continued: "This shouldn't have been his life, this was originally supposed to be the life of Lu Zhengshen of the Lu family in Haicheng, it was he who played tricks and let Cen Jinghuai replace him. He shouldn't have failed you on purpose, he's not that kind of person. ”

"He was a man of faith and righteousness. If you still have affection for him, please give him a little warmth. In the past two years, I think he will only be a little happy in front of you. ”

Lin Nuan shook her head, "There is a person by his side who can give her warmth, it shouldn't be me, my name is Lin Nuan, but I am not a person who will send warmth to others casually." ”

She smiled and answered appropriately.

"You mean An Xiaoyuan?"

She was silent, her heart tightened slightly, and she calmed down a little.

At this time, Lingxi opened his eyes and woke up. She was very uncomfortable, and Lin Nuan immediately handed over the warm water she had prepared, helped her up and took a sip.

She glanced at her, drank the water, and the whole person felt much more comfortable, and drank the whole glass of water in a row.

Lin Nuan poured her another glass, "It's good to drink more water." ”

Lingxi smiled and joked, "I know, water is a panacea, just drink more boiled water." ”

Lin Nuan smiled with her, "It's a joke, it means that it's about to get better." ”

After she finished drinking, she lay back down, her limbs were weak, and she was still very uncomfortable. She raised her hand, put it on her head, and said, "This bad weather, you can still catch a cold, and I am really convinced." ”

"A girl's body should be weaker. ”

She stretched out a finger, shook it, and said, "I'm not an ordinary woman, I'm a woman's appearance, a man's heart." ”

"That's a woman, too. When she saw her awake, she thought that the two men should have something to say, and got up to leave.

Lingxi stopped her, "You don't have to go, I don't have anything to say to him." He doesn't have the care you take care of, don't go. ”

She took her hand and refused to let go.

She glared at Fu Xiang, "It's you, you can get out." ”

Fu Xiang snorted, he really didn't stay, got up and left.

Lin Nuan only smiled awkwardly and sat down again.

Lingxi's palm was hot, and it felt a little warmer. Lin Nuan asked her to lie down, went to get a basin of water again, wiped her face and hands and wiped her squeaky nest, and when she wiped her squeaky nest, she giggled like a child.

In fact, Lin Nuan felt that they were not very old, and they only seemed mature after experiencing wind and frost.

"How old are you?"

Lingxi thought for a while, "Twenty-five, it's not very clear, why should you remember the age so clearly, it doesn't make sense." ”

Life is black, they can't see the light, and age is really no objection to them. What's more, she doesn't even remember that she was born in that year and month, so she really doesn't know how old she is.

According to the ID card, it is twenty-six years old.

Lin Nuan glanced at her, her eyes were calm and cold, without too many fluctuations.

She said: "I am an orphan, I was brought into this organization when I can remember, in the organization, in fact, you have to clear your memory every once in a while, to ensure that the mercenaries have no feelings, so that the mission will not have any worries, regardless of life and death, go all out." ”

"But a few of us are very clever and powerful, and we have applied for privileges. When she said this, she smiled, very bright, just like a child who took the first exam and asked his parents for candy with a paper.

"Well, you're amazing. ”

Lingxi smiled, "It's a pity that no matter how powerful it is, I can't get rid of this kind of life." I finally grew up to be so big, and I didn't have a good relationship and simply fell in love. I envy An Xiaoyuan, she likes a person to be persistent, she told me, falling in love with someone, very happy, if you are with the person you love, it is really the best thing in the world, what do you say?"

Lin Nuan's expression shook slightly, and he nodded, "Yes." ”

"Do you hate An Xiaoyuan?" she asked.

Lin Nuan shook his head.

"You're lying. Lingxi raised his eyebrows and put the towel on his head, "Then don't you love Cen Jinghuai?" An Xiaoyuan said that if you really love someone, you will be desperate for everything, regardless of life and death, as long as you can be with him. Are you too?"

"We're different. Lin Wen replied faintly.

"And how are you?"

Lin Nuan originally wanted to recall what kind of psychology he had when he liked Lin Jingcheng, but found that he couldn't remember anything.

What I was thinking about was more of Cen Jinghuai's heartbeat.

Love is really a magical thing, it has nothing to do with time, it has nothing to do with succession, as long as the aura is right, the environment is right, everything will be right. Among thousands of people, I want to be attracted to you, not anyone else, just you, that is the fate that should be destined to have.

Lin Nuan said: "I don't like to lose my feelings, so I can't be like her, desperate for a person, regardless of life and death, I can't." I just want him to give me security and I give him stability. Peaceful, white-headed and old, spend the rest of your life together. ”

"So, if Cen Jinghuai can't give you such a life, you don't like him?"

"It's not that I don't like it, it's that I choose to give up. ”

Lingxi didn't understand, "What does it mean to like and give up? Doesn't giving up mean that you don't like it at all?"

"Probably. ”

Lingxi looked at her, was silent for a while, and whispered: "But in fact, I think An Xiaoyuan is so pitiful." ”

Lin Nuan didn't speak.

"Even if she gives her all, she may not be able to get the love of the other party, and the last two people will be very painful, right?"

Lin Wen shrugged his shoulders and didn't want to make any comments.

Everyone treats feelings differently and chooses differently, so they should all be respected.

Lingxi: "If I were a man and I saw her like this, I would only want to run away." But Cen Jinghuai didn't, An Xiaoyuan messed up his task many times, he never blamed a word, he carried it all by himself, he would take care of her, but I never saw stars in his eyes. ”

She smiled, "It's like when he looks at you, he feels like he wants to give you everything, but he's afraid that you won't like it, so he deliberately keeps it." I've never seen him like this, never. I seem to understand something now. ”

"If it were you, he wouldn't let you stay with him, that's how he loves you. And you, who are far away from him, do not become a burden to him, and that is also the way you love him. To love someone is to think about the other person, not to be selfish and possessive. ”

Lin Nuan laughed and shook his head, "No, I'm just afraid of death." ”

"No, if he is in danger one day, you will definitely risk your life to save him, do you believe it?"

Lingxi looked at her with a smile on her eyebrows, very determined.

Lin Nuan felt that she had said a little too much, she lowered her eyes, changed the topic, and picked up the porridge hanging next to her, "Are you hungry? ”

Lingxi held her hand, "He didn't mean to forget you, you see, we messed with his memory, but he still saw you differently, which means that he never let you go." You still have two weeks, on this sea, no one else disturbs you, there is no danger, you give him a little sweetness. Trust me, when his memory is restored, you will never see him again. In fact, he and An Xiaoyuan had broken up at that meeting, but Xiaoyuan refused to admit it, and when she met us later, she just gave her a chance, so she treated him as if he had never mentioned breaking up and stayed by his side. ”

She took the porridge and drank it in small sips.

It turned out to be a good stew.

While she was drinking, she looked at her from the side, Lingxi liked Lin Nuan, liked the gentleness in her, when she wiped her body and squeaked her nest, it made her feel like a mother, but she never had a mother, I don't know what it's like to have a mother.

Lin Nuan was silent, didn't say anything, and still maintained an indifferent smile on her face, as if her words didn't take her to heart at all, and still insisted on herself.

But only she knows that the wall of her heart that was originally built easily collapsed at this moment.

In the past two years, it has been even more difficult for him than her.

It didn't seem easy for him to be alive and for her to see him.

After drinking the porridge, Lingxi lay down and slept again.

She had a high fever that didn't go away, her limbs were weak, and Lin Nuan always felt that something was wrong.

At night, she had a little cough, there was no water in the room, she went out to pour water, and when she went up, she saw Cen Jinghuai sitting there, not knowing what she was doing.

The two looked at each other, and he quickly withdrew his gaze.

Lin Nuan coughed and walked over to boil water.

Neither of them spoke, Xu is Lingxi's words worked, Lin Nuan's heart beat a little fast inexplicably, she felt her eyes fall on her, but she didn't dare to look back, she knew that when she turned back, he would definitely dodge.

She was thinking about what kind of topic she was looking for, so she could talk about it naturally, and after thinking about it for a long time, her head was empty, and she couldn't think of anything.

She laughed self-deprecatingly, laughing at what she was thinking, she was really affected by Lingxi, and it seemed that she was going to have a fever too. She thought, raising her hand and touching her forehead.

This move happened to be seen by Cen Jinghuai.

"You're not feeling well, either?"

"Nope. She looked back, looked at him, and smiled.

Cen Jinghuai didn't have any expression, and said, "Let Fu Xiang take care of her, you don't have to worry about it." ”

"Oh. She scraped the lid of the cup with her fingers and replied lightly.

After it was over, she was annoyed again, this is the day to talk to death.

She was about to say something more, but Cen Jinghuai was already ready to leave.

Lin Nuan was anxious for a while, turned around, but the result was too big, and he hit the kettle, and with a bang, the kettle fell to the ground, and the half-boiled water inside splashed everywhere. She screamed and stepped back, only to slip and fall directly to the land.

The whole thing happened too suddenly, Cen Jinghuai came over, and saw her lying on the ground, embarrassed, and covered in water.

Luckily, it hasn't boiled yet, and it's still far from boiling, and the water is lukewarm.

He twisted his eyebrows and pulled her up, but without reproach, he just took a towel and wiped it for her, and said, "It's late, go and rest." ”

"But I'm a little thirsty. ”

He glanced at her, "Then you go sit and I'll get it." ”

"Good. She didn't refuse, stepped aside, and slowly wiped the water from her body.

Cen Jinghuai removed the water on the ground, reconnected the water, and boiled it.

Lin Nuan stood in the corner, holding a towel in his hand, looking at his back, after hesitating for a few seconds, he suddenly puffed up his breath, walked over in a few steps, and was just about to stretch out his hand, he suddenly turned around, hugged him head-on, and rushed directly into his arms.

Lin Nuan didn't expect him to suddenly turn around, his eyes widened, looking at him, his expression frozen, not knowing what to say.

Cen Jinghuai looked at her, a trace of surprise crossed her eyes, and the corners of her lips rose uncontrollably, "You, what are you doing?"

Lin Nuan's brain spun quickly, and said, "Hug you, don't you understand?"

He finally couldn't help but smile, his eyes lit up slightly, "Finished hugging?"

"Hmm......" she lowered her eyes, her eyes rolling, "not yet." ”

"So, hug again?"

She swallowed, tightened her arms, leaned over, her cheeks pressed against his chest, her hands wrapped around his strong waist, and there was no fat on his waist. His hands hung down at his sides and he was not presumptuous.

The smell of smoke on his body, I don't know how much he smoked, the taste was quite strong.

"You haven't finished your cigarette yet?"

"And a pack. ”

"Smoking to replenish your body?"

He let out a low laugh, the voice came from his chest to her ears, muffled, she raised her eyes, saw him smiling, and smiled too, her hands did not let go, "Lend me one too, I also want to make up for it." ”

Cen Jinghuai lowered his eyes, the two looked at each other, his throat rolled, and after a moment, he turned his gaze away, and the water behind him boiled, he pulled her away, pulled her away from him, and said, "Women can't smoke." ”

She grabbed his clothes and stood beside him, "Who prescribed it?"

"In my case, that's the rule. ”

"Then I watched Lingxi smoke before, and you didn't care. ”

He glanced at her, "Then the doctor can't smoke." ”

"I'm not a doctor now, I'm not in a hospital, I'm not a doctor. She tugged at him and spread her hands, "Give me a root." ”

It seems like it has to be.

"It's gone. He poured the water into her glass, handed it over, and deliberately scalded her fingers.

Lin Nuan retracted his hand, "You just said that there is another pack." ”

"Go back and rest, just let Fu Xiang take care of it. Dock in two weeks' time, and I'll send you back then. He took her hand and pulled the hem of his shirt and told her to take the cup.

One last look, then ready to go back to the room.

The water was very hot, Lin Nuan couldn't hold it, she wrung her eyebrows, "It's too hot, you help me get to the room." ”

She immediately shoved the glass back into his hand.

It's a little hot, but it's not that hot.

She lowered her head and rubbed her hands repeatedly.

"Are you hungry?"

She raised her eyebrows imperceptibly, "Hungry." ”

"Then you go and sit and I'll get you something to eat." ”

"Okay. She went and sat down.

Cen Jinghuai turned on the lights and made her a supper.

He cooked the noodles, walked over, placed them in front of him, bent down and sat down, turned sideways, and looked at her. Lin Nuan didn't dodge it, and smiled at him.

He endured his heartbeat, stretched out his hand, put the back of his hand on her forehead, and touched his own, it was confirmed that he was not infected by the spirit rhino and did not have a fever.

There was no smell of alcohol on her body, and she was sure that she was awake at the moment, and he asked, "Do you know what you're doing?"

"Of course I do. ”

He subconsciously clenched his hands, looked at her for a moment, and chuckled, "Reason." ”

"There's no reason for it. She sat down in front of him, and the distance between the two narrowed, and she slowly leaned in.

Cen Jinghuai's eyes fell on her lips, watching her lips slowly get closer, and when she was about to touch him, she suddenly turned around, took chopsticks and began to eat noodles, and when she turned her head to look at him, there was a little more playful smile in her eyes.

He cursed secretly in his heart, the speed of his heartbeat was a little scary. She did it on purpose, but he wasn't angry at all, just laughing, laughing uncontrollably.

He took a breath and sat down beside her, without a word or any intention of leaving.

I feel like the whole person is sucked by her, and it's hard to extricate myself.