July 2004

Heilongjiang

A teacher training college

night

The summer breeze is slightly cool, and the street lights are confused

I'm really going to graduate.

Walking in the familiar campus in the past, there is no more ease and pleasure in my heart, only a heavy stone, looking at the occasional passing by my side with a relaxed and comfortable face, a pair of intimate couples, the taste in my heart is even more uncomfortable.

Came downstairs to the dormitory, said hello to the aunt who watched the door, climbed up to the seventh floor with great effort, the corridor was a mess, tomorrow is the last day of leaving the school, the whole floor is like a big garbage dump, all kinds of things are thrown everywhere, back to the empty dormitory, did not turn on the light, just lay down on the bed, want to calm down the lost mood, but feel a little panicked under the body, touch it with your hand, the beginning is rough, get up and look at the light outside the window.

"Why is it a straw mat, where is my futon, is there a thief coming in?"

Then I thought about it, there was nothing to lose, I didn't care if he slept for a while, he was in a bad mood, even if there was a thief, he didn't bother to pay attention to it.

Just thinking about lying down, Fu remembered something, suddenly got up from the bed, looked at the table, and sighed, the computer was still there.

I didn't want to sleep after this toss, I got up and turned on the light to go to the table, and saw two bottles of beer and a chicken paw on the table, I couldn't help but be stunned, and then my heart was warm, in the end, it was my brother who lived for four years, and I knew that I had a long night and left me two bottles of beer before I went home.

Picked up a bottle and was about to open it, when a note appeared below: "Boss (because I am the oldest, ranked first in the dormitory), you will leave tomorrow, the bedding is no longer needed, the brothers will sell it, just when you finally invite the brothers to drink, I left you two bottles and a chicken paw, eat and drink well."

I slot, these scumbags, scolded in their mouths, picked up the beer and slammed it on the table, the beer lid fell in response, and I drank a bottle in one gulp, and after a few full burps, I felt dizzy.

"This is not my amount! Is this the use of wine to kill sorrows?"

Habitually turn on the computer, habitually open the D drive, habitually click on the love action movie, and Mr. Cang, who used to excite my little brother, also feels boring.

Think about what I have done in the four years of college, every day in addition to eating and drinking, and then just shopping and wandering, nothing to watch small films, not even a girlfriend, the pieces hurt me shallowly!

Since Mr. Cang's class can't be listened to, let's take a look at the novel! Click on the novel website, which is basically a novel like time travel, and at the beginning of the wake-up and a beautiful woman was a nest, or was dumped by a beautiful girlfriend, or was abused by the rich second generation and the official second generation.

It's interesting to look at it in the past.,It's all nonsense to think about it now.,I want you to catch up with the goddess with a dick.,And I want the goddess to get rid of it.,It's really funny.,Men always complain that women are unfaithful to themselves.,In their eyes, women should be dogs.,No matter how poor or poor the family is, they have to follow the owner obediently.,But the owner can abandon it at any time and find a new love.,When these men who always think that their girlfriends will dump him because of money.,Can you still hold it when a white rich beauty wants to marry him.。

I can't read the novel.,Play League of Legends!Hit a step by step, this broken computer I was so angry that I wanted to smash it, but the wine bottle that was raised didn't go down, although it was second-hand, but it also accompanied me through a few years of good times, and I still had money to buy it when I got home!

I sighed, nibbled on a few chicken feet, took out a piece of clothing from my duffel bag, and prepared to cover my body at night, when the phone rang suddenly, I picked it up and saw that it was my father's.

"Hey, Dad, what's the matter so late" When I saw the phone call at home, my heart was even more uncomfortable.

In 2006, the salary of ordinary workers in the small county town where I was born was only more than 600 a month, thinking about spending so much money on the family, I felt that I had not learned anything when I graduated.

My professional teachers are basically just graduated from college, almost all of them are Harbin Normal University, basically like us students, it can be said that they don't understand all of them, and the professional teacher in the last semester is a woman, with long hair fluttering, tall and thin, not bad, the grapevine says that it is the children of the leaders in the city, otherwise how can they be assigned to this as a university teacher as soon as they graduate.

She also has a boyfriend, average-looking, wears glasses, her home is rural, and her living conditions are very good, because she spent a lot of money to be assigned to this school with this woman's virgin, but when I was about to graduate, I heard that they were separated, and the man was a girl in the Chinese department.

In this school, I will have a few flat software, is a photo or something, or outside with people to spend money to learn, it was not as good as a junior college, learning a technology is better than the last third-rate book wasted time, now I can't find a job, I really don't know how to face my parents.

"Son, what time will I be home tomorrow!" Dad's happy voice came, every time my father and mother called me, I was full of joy, thinking that my son who was away would be down-to-earth and happy when he heard his son's voice.

"When you get home at eleven o'clock tomorrow night, are you and your mother okay, are all the work in the field done?" I forced down the sour feeling in my heart.

Before the 80s, the director of a large state-owned factory had the same administrative level as the mayor and the secretary of the municipal party committee, or even higher.

When my parents were just laid off, I was still in elementary school, at that time the two of them always quarreled (can you not quarrel if you have no money to live), and they did not go out to work, one is that the employment environment is not good, and the other is that they have just come out of the factory, I really don't know what to do, at that time my father was almost deceived by relatives to engage in pyramid schemes, the day before the train, the relative called to tell my father, only to save the family.

My small county is the most rickshaw boarding, a dollar to run the whole city, one year in the city also let these three wheels pay to order a unified coachman uniform, one person three hundred, the result caused the resistance of the pedaling, are the lowest level of the society, hard work to make money, this official not only does not want to broaden the employment channels, but also from the bones to squeeze oil, and finally it is gone, but the chengguan often catch the pedaling car, to be filial piety to release the car, because this one chengguan was killed by the pedaler, I heard that the pedaling sentenced to death after the execution, the day of cremation the city pedaling the car to see off。

worked hard to make money, and my parents didn't want to go.

Mom always lies on the kang and complains that Dad is incapable and lazy, and Dad was silent at first, saying that the two of them would fight in a hurry, so I would cry or run.

Later, a relative came to my house and said that he was making money by planting grain in other places, but the two of them borrowed money from relatives to go to other places to farm.

"Go home and be at home with your grandfather," my father instructed.

"Dad, I want to go home for a few days and then go out and look for a job, I can't stay home all the time" When it comes to work, my heart is very irritable.

"Don't go out, your uncle said that he has a classmate who can help you become a teacher, you just wait for the letter at home"

Dad was clearly in a good mood.

"Really, where is it!" At this moment, I felt that my irritable heart was full of surprise, and the dark sky outside was bright.

"It's at your uncle's house," Dad smiled over the phone.

"It's okay for me to go home, why don't I refund the ticket tomorrow morning, go and help you work, I have been in high school for five years (repeat a year), and I have never done any work for my family in four years of college, and you have to spend money to hire people, and I can save a labor money if I go to help" I know that this work costs money, and the family is not rich, so let's save a little, and I feel like I've grown up a lot in an instant.

"Okay" Dad hesitated, but finally agreed.

Turning off the phone, I felt that my lost spirit was back, Teacher Cang could teach me again, and the computer didn't seem to be ......so stuck.

Day 3

Afternoon

Five o'clock

"Merristun has arrived," shouted the conductor on the bus.

After a day and a night of train and seven or eight hours of passenger cars, I walked down from the dirty bus with my luggage, and looked out in a daze, only to see that in front of me was an endless field, and all kinds of crops growing Cistanche were swinging back and forth in the summer wind, making the sound of brushing, like ocean waves.

"Son" heard my father's voice in my ear, I looked up, and my father came from the side with a smile, and his eyes were full of love.

"Dad, have you been waiting for a long time?" looked at my father's dark, wrinkled face because of emaciation, and my heart was a little sour.

"It's not long, I'm hungry, come home and ask your mom to cook for you," my dad reached out to take my luggage.

"It's okay, Dad, I just didn't do anything in the car, where is our house?" I stopped my father and looked at the field, but there was no house in sight.

"I'll see you when you go inside along this road," Dad didn't insist and led me inside from a dirt road full of ruts.

The road was full of potholes, and it was difficult to walk with one foot deep and one foot shallow, let alone dragging the suitcase, so I carried the box in my hand and followed my father and walked inside.

After only five or six minutes of walking, I felt some pain in my arms, as my grandfather said, I can't lift my hands and shoulders.

"Look, it's right ahead," Dad walked for fifteen or sixteen minutes, pointing with his hand ahead.

I looked up and saw a straw-covered manhole (a hole dug in the ground and covered with wood and plastic wrap to support people) in a clearing on the side of the road.

At the edge of the shed was a chimney made of earth and iron, surrounded by a grasshopper (a three-wheeled farm walk-behind tractor) and some agricultural implements, as well as a tethered yellow earth dog.

The earth dog may have smelled his father's scent, and stood from the ground far away, stretching his neck and wagging his tail and barking.

In front of the shack, the door made of wooden strips and plastic bags opened, and my mother came out, dressed in coarse cloth overalls and wearing farm shoes, and her black and thin mother waved her hand at me with a smile on her face and shouted, "The eldest son is here."

At that moment, my heart was filled with excitement, as if I felt this deep love for the first time in my life.