Chapter 179: Fireflies
And Xin Bai's murderous intent afterwards was just to protect himself and abandon the car to protect his handsomeness. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. biquge。 infoBecause the "sister" was unexpectedly not killed by Li Jingting's secret arrow, the "sister" may have guessed something. Whether it is a personal enmity against his own safety, or an outlier's change of opinion on the chess game, the best way is to discard the chess pieces, and would rather kill by mistake than let one go.
As everyone knows, Xin Yi is no longer the "sister" in the story. is not a blindfolded and stupid "Aqing" in his previous life.
More than ten years have passed, making all the truth unbearable. More than ten years of calculations have exposed the inherent darkness of people's hearts.
No matter how you justify it, no matter what the result is, it is impossible to deny the coldness and ugliness of this "brother and sister" chess game.
In the chess game, fate is like a mustard. Sure enough, except for the word "interests", all the "affection" may just be a play. It's not about Fengyue, and naturally it's not about black and white.
Xin Yi's heart was gradually sinking, sinking to the bottomless abyss: "Then why, until the end, or except for the one time on the bank of the lotus pond that night, you didn't actually harm my life? ”
Xin Bai smiled suddenly.
"Because Ah Qing said that the little brother has always been Xin Yi's little brother, I only hope that Ah Qing will always be Xin Bai's Ah Qing. Xin Bai smiled sheepishly, "At that time, I realized that in the chess game, there are only interests, and nothing to do with Fengyue." But even if you understand it again, you will become less like yourself because of some people. ”
"Not like yourself?" Xin Yi was stunned.
Xin Bai nodded self-deprecatingly: "It's like knowing that there is a cliff ahead, and you can't control your feet moving forward." Knowing that the wine in the cup is a poisonous bird, he will drink it willingly. I lost chess, but rather, I lost myself. ”
"What's the point of talking about this now?" Xin Yi smiled bitterly, "It doesn't matter if you lose the chess or lose yourself, the outcome has already been decided." It is impossible to change, and there is no going back. ”
"Yes. I think about it from the beginning, God has eyes, did he write everyone's ending. It's just a trapped beast still fighting, struggling in vain. ”
Xin Bai stepped forward, took Xin Yi's hand, and led her to the moat to look at the endless river.
The blue waves ripple, the gulls and herons contend, the river is like a jade belt cutting the middle plain, and the sky is bright and cloudy.
In the moat, there is a prosperous Chang'an, and how many grievances are reversed to write a chess game.
Beyond the moat, there is a vast plain, and many mountains and rivers are silent.
"Back then, my mother committed suicide by throwing herself into the river. Xin Bai's voice came faintly, "You can share the suffering, but not the blessing." The emperor ascended the throne, and my mother, the biggest hero, has become the biggest hidden danger. The emperor's heart, accustomed to ruthlessness, he pretended to be affectionate in front of the world, and promised to be in the future, but secretly ordered Jinyi Wei to kill my mother. Even in the end, he said that he missed the old love, so that she would be less painful, and first poisoned the mandala who caused the hallucination to die, and then used the butcher's knife to take her life. ”
A puff of moisture rose from Xin Bai's eyes, and he swallowed his throat before he could continue: "The practice of Jinyiwei is: to take the head with death. But my mother is so arrogant, she doesn't want her husband's butcher's knife to dirty her own blood. So she swallowed the poison, and took advantage of the laxity that Jinyiwei thought it would be a success, and with her last breath, she jumped off the moat. ”
Xin Yi listened silently. Xin Qi's evaluation of Li He kept echoing in her mind: Emperor.
Two simple words, but how many innocent lives were buried, how many noble dragon crowns were buried, and how much cold blood was hidden
Nobody knows. But there are always people who know that the dragon chair is a good thing.
It is said that when the people found Chang Niangniang's body in the moat afterwards, she died peacefully and peacefully. Xin Yi recalled, "It turned out that it was possible to annihilate this body with river water, instead of being beheaded as a sacrifice for the throne of the husband." The essence is clean and clean, and it is so proud to stay in the world. ”
Xin Yi turned his head, and his eyes were complicated to explore Xin Bai: "So, the purpose of the little brother stepping into this game and betting everything to win this chess is ......"
"Finding the meaning of being alive. I never understood why my mother gave birth to me. She is such a smart person, she will not be unaware, she will bring disaster to herself, and will make me live without seeing the light of day. Xin Bai grinned self-deprecatingly, a coldness rose between his eyebrows, "I have been looking for more than 20 years but I can't find it...... It's really tiring...... It's okay if you lose, you can finally rest......"
The man's tone was decomposed, so ethereal that it sounded like it came from the depths of time, and it was as if it were lost.
After years of dreams, the past is unbearable, and there may be no answer. But you have to gamble on an obsession, fishing for the moon in the water every year, and in the end it is like a dream bubble.
The human heart is too fragile in the end.
More than 20 years have passed, and obsession has become a demon. The moth is not because it is fighting the fire, but because it has the intention of death, so it is cremated for the rest of its life.
"The little brother lost in chess. This game is too difficult, and A-Qing should not repeat the mistakes of the past. Xin Bai stretched out his hand and rubbed the top of Xin Yi's head again, "Fame and fortune, obsessive questioning, it's not Ah Qing's purpose." Seeing the cruelty of the chess game, it's good to stop here, but don't end up like a little brother, or even a little brother. ”
"Nope. Ah Qing will finish, and he will never lose. ”
Xin Yi raised his eyes and bloomed with a bright smile, a smile that was resolute and clean like fireworks.
Xin Bai was stunned: "This game is different child's play." In the past, when you played, you were taught to retreat from the difficulties. Now that you're seeing a life in it, you still have to ......."
"Because there is no way back in this game! As soon as you step in, there are only two results: either you win or you lose. And Ah Qing got married from the Lu family, no, from the very beginning, the little brother used me as a pawn, and Ah Qing has no way out!"
Xin Yi interrupted Xin Bai's words suddenly, and a spark rose from the bottom of his warm eyes.
A little spark that is not too hot but is unusually bright.
"If you give up everything and retreat, you can only make a living. Only by moving forward, holding the arteries of the chess game, and controlling the initiative of the fallen pieces, can you be qualified to seek peace for the rest of your life. Ah Qing is by no means like a little brother who can gamble on this life, but what Ah Qing wants is to win this life!" Xin Yi was speechless, and his eyebrows were like fire.
Xin Bai was stunned. If he is a moth that is chasing the sun, then Xin Yi is a firefly who holds the sun in his arms.
Ignite yourself to be the light, and then light up the night.
He didn't understand that a woman had to die once to have such courage, but he understood that the softest water was the most strong, and the gentleness in the world was like a knife.
Long. Xin Bai sighed with a complicated expression: "Ah Qing has you thought about it?"
"Don't seek to be benevolent, but seek no regrets. Xin Yi spat out eight words categorically.
Xin Bai grinned and shook his head again, like a sister who was disgusted with the tip of the horns and did not grow, although her face was full of helplessness, but her smile was soft.
He suddenly squatted down with his back to Xin Yi, and said softly: "When I married the Lu family for you, I carried you to the sedan chair. But then you made a pornography. Now, let the little brother carry you for a while. It should be regarded as a gift to your future marriage. ”
Xin Yi hesitated for a moment. But after hearing the second half of Xin Bai's sentence, he jumped on the man's back without hesitation.
Xin Bai said, "Because the little brother can no longer see it, you are really married."