Life is a lonely journey that is born, unable to live, and ultimately successful.

I think this time you have to do it thoroughly, in short, everyone basically already knows that since you can't meet and stay in this situation, you need to face it thoroughly.

I don't know what will happen this time, I've come to this point, and I have to explain what I say or do.

But when He Yu appeared in front of me, I was surprised for a moment. And I, on the other hand, am not at peace.

At that time, I was still thinking about how to explain this matter with Lu Hai.

He Yulu was held by Lin Zhenhai beside her, and there were her parents next to her, and even He Yong came.

At that time, I was a little overwhelmed, but Lu Hai's quick reaction told me that he went to tell Brother Long first, and then asked me to stabilize the scene, so I ran away.

I don't know what kind of medicine is sold in the land and sea gourd.

I was a little worried, because I didn't know what to say until He Yulu and the others came to me.

Will He Yulu's father tell her the truth, probably not, otherwise she wouldn't come, then I can't say it directly.

How do I say hello? Coincidentally? Do you say by chance, and I leave each other by chance?

My mind was still thinking about it, so when He Yulu and the others passed me, I still had a smile, but it was stiff.

Only He Yong came back to greet me and asked me what I was doing here.

Instead of answering, I asked what they were doing.

Actually, I really don't know how they came here.

He Yong said that he would accompany He Yulu to see a doctor.

******

For about a month, I had dinner with Yanzi that day, during which Yanko was always gagging. So I accompanied Yanzi to the hospital.

Actually, I thought it was because of Ryoko, who hadn't been here since that time back.

During this time, I often go to see Yanzi.

I've been abandoned twice, so who can blame me?

No, I haven't even received a marriage certificate, at least don't worry about it.

I knew that although I couldn't see it, Yanko must be very sad inside.

A month ago, after that time, my heart was broken.

I didn't go for treatment because He Yulu refused to be treated.

Although I can still go to see He Yulu every day, it seems like she has disappeared from my world.

It's hot, I'm worried that she's too tired, it's raining, I'm worried that she's forgetting to bring an umbrella, I'm afraid she'll miss the meal, I'm afraid she'll suddenly be unable to hold on, I'm afraid I'll not be able to see her......

However, whenever I am worried, Lin Zhenhai will always appear by her side in time.

Since He Yulu's father was discharged from the hospital, I have seen He Yulu less and less.

But I didn't compromise, when I felt that there was only one thing worth doing in my life, and no one could stop me.

At that time, I was ashamed that Chen Ya's wedding was not held successfully because of the delay in Chen Ya's wedding, and I asked Zhang Zhi a few days later if things would be bad, whether Mr. Lin would have any misunderstanding about Chen Ya, and whether there would be another wedding later?

Zhang Zhi told me that Chen Ya is already married, so I should stop being obsessed.

I said that I could only feel at ease if I knew that Chen Ya would make up the wedding.

Zhang Zhi said that only after receiving a marriage certificate can the wedding be held in the church.

Since that wedding, Zhang Zhi and Ning Meixuan have been very close and often show affection in front of me.

During this period, Zhang Zhi also asked me many times about Hu Jing's news, and I always said, Zhang Zhi, you kid treat Ning Meixuan well.

And I always think very sadly about what happened to Hu Jing, as if the world has evaporated, I have also been to her house to look for her, but her house has been closed, and her father is gone.

In a casual conversation, Zhang Zhi told me that Lin Zhenhai was Lin Zhenhua's younger brother, and I was a little surprised, thinking that this was providence.

I asked about the others, and Zhang Zhi only knew so much.

When accompanying Yanzi to the hospital, at the gate of the hospital, we happened to meet Zhang Zhi and Ning Meixuan, who had just come out of the hospital.

I asked them if anyone was sick, and Zhang Zhi and Ning Meixuan kept silent. I didn't bother to ask.

After some check-ups, the doctor told us that Yanko was pregnant, which was bad news.

When I got back that night, I called Ryoko and told me all about it.

There was just silence on the other end of the line.

To my surprise, early the next morning, Ryoko came to H City, and I accompanied him to find Yanzi, and Ryoko said that he must be responsible.

Not only was Yanzi disappointed in him, but even I couldn't raise my confidence, thinking that Ryoko was just a few sweet words.

Liangzi took Yanzi to the Civil Affairs Bureau to apply for a marriage certificate at that time.

Even Yanzi was worried for a while, and Yanzi, who has always been silent, always asked me what to do?

My phone rang, I looked at the caller ID, it was He Yulu's phone, and she called me for the first time.

I was nervous about connecting, and He Yulu said that she wanted to meet me.

I was in a hurry.

He Yulu asked me why I didn't go to treatment.

I said that if you rule, I will rule, and if you don't, I will not cure either.

He Yulu said yes, but she was admitted to the hospital that night.

However, He Yulu also said something that made me feel cold, this is the last request to promise me, after being cured, let me not go to her again, the disease must be treated in the United States.

I didn't think much about it at the time, as long as she was cured, it didn't matter what happened.

I thought of the bank card downstairs in Zhang Zhi's company, which I threw away and was picked up by Ning Meixuan and returned to me, which contained 1.5 million. And the card that He Yulu gave me back to me when he resigned from Brother Long that day was also 300,000.

A few days later, I found Lu Hai and contacted the experts in that rice country again.

At that time, Lu Hai told me that he couldn't leave, and then asked someone to give me a card, saying that there were 1.5 million in it.

That night, I returned the card to Lu Hai, saying that I already had the money, because I knew that Lu Hai couldn't get the money, and I didn't want Lu Hai to do anything illegal.

I thought that He Yulu could go to the United States with me for treatment, so that I could have the opportunity to restore the relationship with He Yulu and increase my relationship.

But He Yulu refused to live or die, and said that I would keep my promise.

I didn't even tell my parents, so I came to a strange country alone.

During the treatment, I kept texting He Yulu and called He Yulu's father on the pretext of exploration.

But I know it's just an excuse.

In the hospital in the United States, I actually met Hu Jing.

She was still an old profession in the hospital, a nurse.

She said that the person in charge of the ward had taken a leave of absence, so she was transferred.

However, since she was transferred, she has not left, and the person who was in charge of the ward has never been here again.

After investigating, I learned that Hu Jing did this deliberately.

Here, Hu Jing has become the lively and cheerful her again, but she didn't talk about why she didn't say goodbye before.

I felt that the world was impermanent, and what I didn't expect was that Hao Zhou was also here.

Instead, Hao Zhou told me that Hu Jing had agreed to be his girlfriend.

Since Hu Jing was in charge of this ward, I found out that Hu Jing was not in charge of other wards.

I asked the nurse from before, and the nurse said no.

Then I wondered, why did Hu Jing stay in this ward from work to work?

And sometimes after work, Hu Jing doesn't leave.

Since then, I feel that my life is inseparable from Hu Jing.

Help me with cooking, laundry, pouring water, telling stories...... No matter what I do, I always have her in my life, and I have never had it before.

With Hu Jing by his side, time flies quickly.

It's been more than a year, but I didn't expect Hu Jing to accompany me for more than a year.

Finally, I was able to be discharged from the hospital, and that day, Hu Jing specially asked for leave, saying that he wanted to go out with me, but Hao Zhou did not come. Hu Jing said he was busy.

From Hu Jing's mouth, I knew that Hao Zhou also opened a restaurant here, and business was very good.

Hu Jing told me that there was a paradise not far from the hospital, and she said to go there.

Hu Jing said that he wanted to take me to experience the culture of the United States, so we walked over.

On the way, Hu Jing asked me a question, do you like me?

I said, aren't you and Hao Zhou very good......

If Hao Zhou and I weren't boyfriend and girlfriend, would we be boyfriend and girlfriend?

I thought about it, anyway, you are all like this, there is no what if, besides, Hu Jing has taken care of me for so long, so I will talk casually, yes!

As soon as I spoke, I suddenly felt a heat on my face, and I took advantage of my eyes to see Hu Jing kissing me on the face with a smile.

I immediately felt hot, but fortunately Hu Jing hurriedly ran away and didn't see my embarrassment.

At the moment when I raised my head, I saw a familiar figure on the corner of the street in the distance, ah, I suddenly felt ashamed, Hao Zhou!

How can you do this with your best friend on your back?

I was a little overwhelmed all of a sudden, and when I came back to my senses, I saw Hu Jing screaming and running towards me, and looking at my left side in horror.

Before I had time to turn my head, Hu Jing had already run over, stretched out his hands, pushed me backwards hard, and I fell out with a big stumble.

And when I flew out upside down, I saw what was happening.

A speeding car, which I later learned was at least one hundred and fifty yards per hour, came at a rapid pace and flew over Hu Jing's body, where I should have been standing.

My world fell silent all of a sudden, except for the sound of a car hitting Hu Jing's body.

And the moment Hu Jing fell to the ground, Hu Jing turned his head sideways and looked at me with a bloody face, and smiled at me, and that smile became eternal.

I was stupid there, Hao Zhou rushed over, hugged Hu Jing and cried bitterly.

Hu Jing, who had died on the way to the hospital.

No matter how Hao Zhou beats me or scolds me, I am waiting for all the judgments, and silently guarding Hu Jing's side.

I didn't attend her funeral, and I didn't have the face to attend.

I suddenly felt that my heart hurt so much, no matter what I did, I would suddenly remember Hu Jing's shadow and the time when she accompanied me.

I think I'm obsessed.

I think I'm ashamed of Hao Zhou, his shop is closed, I don't know where he went, I called him, and he didn't answer.

I texted him with my apologies.

I'm going to go back to H City, because I feel that in the United States, there is a shadow of Hu Jing everywhere, and I am afraid that I will get lovesickness, I warn myself that I am not such a person who is in the morning and twilight, I can't be like this, this must be an illusion, I can't think about Hu Jing anymore.

I suddenly remembered that the song "Forgetting" that Hu Jing once sang for me was just like the lyrics, and it hurt so much that I forgot all this.

When I returned to H City, I first went home and went to see my parents.

This time, I only used hundreds of thousands of dollars for the treatment of the disease, but I didn't expect the treatment cost in the country to be so cheap, so I left the rest of the money to my parents.

My parents cried like tears.

I said goodbye to my parents and came to H City, but found that He Yulu was not in the hospital, I think He Yulu should have been cured and discharged, first I called He Yulu.

But I found that the phone was not answered.

I sent a text message over and I said that my illness was cured and I wanted to see you.

He Yulu's text message immediately replied, asking me if I didn't say I wouldn't meet again?

I said, but I really want to see you.

"Okay, then you come to Jingbei East Road. ”

I immediately took a taxi to Jingbei East Road, I saw He Yulu send a text message agreeing to meet, my heart suddenly became excited again, I can see He Yulu, how to face it?

When he arrived at the agreed place, he found that there was no shadow of He Yulu, but Lin Zhenhai came.

I didn't pay attention to Lin Zhenhai, but Lin Zhenhai walked over to me.

I just found out that this was an ancestral hall, and Lin Zhenhai led me through the ancestral hall, behind which there was a vast flat bottom, full of graveyards.

I looked at Lin Zhenhai in surprise.

He told me the truth of all this.

He Yulu is dead, no, it can't be, how can it be?

I screamed, didn't she go to the hospital for treatment?

Lin Zhenhai's rare calmness told me about those truths.

Lin Zhenhua is Lin Zhenhai's elder brother, but Lin Zhenhua is good to everyone, but not to Lin Zhenhai.

And Lin Zhenhai is not good to anyone, but Lin Zhenhua is good alone.

When Lin Zhenhua knew that Lin Zhenhai had a girlfriend, he began to take revenge.

Lin Zhenhai found out about all this, so he pretended to be very bad to He Yulu, and then was forced to separate from He Yulu against his will.

And by then, things were irretrievable.

Lin Zhenhua not only persecuted He Yulu, but also used conspiracy to trap He Yulu's father's company.

One of them is Brother Tiger.

Brother Tiger is willing to do things for Lin Zhenhua, and he can reassure Lin Zhenhua because Brother Tiger's father, who is Chen Ya's father, owes Lin Zhenhua millions of dollars, of course, there are also reasons for Chen Hu.

Although Chen Hu is idle, his filial piety is difficult to compare.

Because of this, Chen Hu willingly worked for Lin Zhenhua.

At that time, it happened to be when I met He Yulu, and Lin Zhenhai just behaved so badly in front of outsiders, and it was at that time that I saw the separation of He Yulu and Lin Zhenhai.

However, later, He Yulu suddenly wanted to start over with Lin Zhenhai.

Lin Zhenhai then told me that Lin Zhenhai thought that Lin Zhenhua would not take any more action, and he was really relieved, so he resumed his relationship with He Yulu again.

However, it was later discovered that He Yulu actually had leukemia.

Did you know that leukemia is not difficult to treat at all?

However, it was useless to persuade her at the time.

I just didn't expect that it was all for you.

However, since she agreed to treat the disease, Lin Zhenhai said that he thought it didn't matter if he could cure He Yulu.

Originally, all this was fine, but Lin Zhenhua gave it ......

I'm sorry, I hurt He Yulu...... Lin Zhenhai was sad like a child.

******

Brother Long's restaurant, Brother Long was a little surprised, people seemed to be several years old.

When I met Zhang Zhi, Zhang Zhi told me that he was no longer in that company.

Then Zhang Zhi told me that Chen Ya and Mr. Lin were divorced.

I smiled, I had expected it, but I couldn't be happier.

I asked Chen Ya how she was, and Zhang Zhi told me that Chen Ya was arrested and sentenced to ten years.

I was so surprised that I asked Zhang Zhi what was going on?

Zhang Zhi told me that Chen Ya embezzled Lin Zhenhua's 2 million and was sued by Lin Zhenhua.

I vaguely feel that Chen Ya led to today's ending for me, and I feel very guilty.

But why two million?

I said, forget it, let's not talk about this, what about Lu Hai?

Zhang Zhi sighed.

I vaguely feel that things are not good, it stands to reason that Lu Hai and Xue Wenwen should have been married a long time ago, right?

Then Zhang Zhi said that Lu Hai was suspected of having a woman outside. As a result, the wedding was canceled.

I found Lu Hai, and when I was drunk, Lu Hai told the truth, but because the 1.5 million, with Lu Hai, I couldn't make up the 1.5 million at all, so I embezzled Xue Wenwen's money, and Xue Wenwen noticed it, although I later returned it to Lu Hai, but it was still ......

Some people can't rub impurities in their eyes, and some people don't want to be in everything.

Later, I inquired several times, came to the prison, and met the haggard Chen Ya.

I didn't tell me I wanted to see her, and Chen Ya was surprised when she saw me.

I felt bitter in my heart, Chen Ya was having a bad time.

Under my constant questioning, Chen Ya told the secret of the two million.

******

I asked Zhang Zhi, why didn't I see Ning Meixuan all the time?

Under my stalking, I felt that there must be something between them, and after trying to ask hard, Zhang Zhicai told me this shocking secret.

Now Zhang Zhi hasn't seen Ning Meixuan for a long time.

Zhang Zhi said he had something very important to say.

I said don't ink...

Do you still remember that Ning Meixuan and I saw you in the hospital before you left?

I nodded, and that time I accompanied Yanzi to the hospital.

Zhang Zhi went on to say that they went to the hospital for a check-up, and Ning Meixuan was pregnant.

I smiled, Zhang Zhi, you kid, you made someone's belly so big so quickly.

Zhang Zhi's eyes were confused, and he shouted, wronged!

Treat unjustly?

"You don't know yet, do you? Actually, Ning Meixuan and I were pretending, and she only found me to do this just to act in front of you. ”

Show me the play? Are you mistaken?

******

It turned out that at that subway entrance, 500,000 discarded was found in a package, but it was actually Chen Ya estimated that it was deliberately picked up by me when it was thrown there.

Chen Ya told me that she actually knew that I was sick before she broke up with me, but I was still in the dark at that time.

At that time, Chen Ya's father was already in Mr. Lin's company, and Chen Ya heard that it would take a lot of money to cure my illness.

It was an unscrupulous doctor who told her that it was going to be millions.

Chen Ya was stupid and tried her best to sneak into Mr. Lin's company, and I went with me.

Chen Ya is the cashier of the company, and after privately transferring 500,000 yuan, she was discovered by Mr. Lin at that time. The hateful Lin Zhenhua made that shameless request.

How does Chen Ya choose?

In the end, the 500,000 was sent, but I didn't have a chance to know.

Until in the end, that one and a half million, ah, hitched a ride on her own happiness.

In prison, Chen Ya smiled and looked at me through the glass, through the transparent glass, I didn't dare to look directly at Chen Ya, through the reflection I saw the tears on my face, maybe this can give me a little comfort.

******

After thinking about it, I finally decided to tell Zhang Zhi the news that Hu Jing was no longer there.

It's all because of me, I've already thought about it, according to Zhang Zhi's temper, he will definitely beat me up.

But no, Zhang Zhi just stared at me and didn't say a word. It's been like this for a long, long time.

Zhang Zhi spit out word by word, "Sue-Sue-I-Place-Address-"

I looked up at Zhang Zhi's eyes a little scary, but when I looked closely, I couldn't see anything.

That night, I received a text message from Zhang Zhi.

"I'm going to stay with her. ”

I don't know what this sentence means, is it going to the United States, or is it ......

After receiving the text message, I immediately called Zhang Zhi, but Zhang Zhi had already turned off his phone.

******

When Lu Hai saw me again, he looked a little dazed, it was in Brother Long's restaurant.

He's back to the life he used to have, but now he's drinking all day.

Brother Long still runs that tepid restaurant, and his life is always plain.

Although the days are light, they are also idle.

That was when I first met Lu Hai, and when I saw Lu Hai again many days later, it was still in Brother Long's restaurant, but he was already hugged left and right, and he was a picture of frequent changes of beauties.

He ignored what I did, including Brother Long, of course.

I wondered, will he get better?

******

I came to Ning Meixuan's house, hesitated in front of the door, and almost wanted to knock on the door, but I couldn't find a suitable opening sentence.

Suddenly, the door opened, and out came a slender girl.

Under the colorful hair, it is difficult to see that delicate face, and I can see that she is Xiaocui.

It's just that her eyes are full of unruliness.

She was visibly stunned when she saw me, and I was stunned for a while.

I was about to ask, but the door was suddenly shut.

Facing the cold gate, I asked Xiaocui what was going on?

Xiaocui said that Ning Meixuan had not lived here for a long time. And she didn't know where Ning Meixuan had gone.

I can see that Xiaocui doesn't seem to be lying to me, but Xiaocui doesn't seem to want to see me.

I have been cut off from contact with Ning Meixuan for a long, long time, and of course her phone can't get through.

That night, Xiaocui sent me a text message: "You made me and my sister like this, I hate you!"

I didn't reply, it's not that I didn't want to go back, it was just that I didn't know how to go back.

******

Zhang Zhi told me that Ning Meixuan's child is mine.

I can't laugh bitterly, I can't make such a joke.

Zhang Zhi told me with a straight face, no joke.

I said how do you know.

Zhang Zhi said that Ning Meixuan told him, it was in my hometown A city, a hotel, and I was drunk......

But I don't think that's true, so I'm going to find Ning Meixuan and ask for clarification.

But Ning Meixuan also disappeared, as if the world had evaporated, and asked all the familiar people, but no one knew.

******

When I left the prison, I asked Chen Ya, have you always liked me?

Chen Ya, who had been laughing from beginning to end, suddenly cried, and she nodded.

I yelled at the glass, then why are you doing this to me, hiding it from me, why did things turn out like this.

That's fate, and we all have to do it. There is no why.

You still want to be with me, don't you? I don't know why you suddenly asked.

No.

Why?

I'm in prison.

I can wait for you.

I'm married.

I know you're divorced.

I'm not me anymore.

No, you're Chen Ya.

I'm no longer pure.

But you don't have a husband and wife, and you don't even have a wedding! I know you're pure.

What is not pure is my heart......

******

I cried in front of the portrait of He Yulu, looking at the eternal smiling face next to the epitaph, and everything suddenly became very distant.

She said she wouldn't see each other again when she came back, and I didn't want to keep my promise.

But why don't I even have room to resist?

He Yong came suddenly.

He handed me a letter that He Yulu had left for me.

"Yun Zhe, thank you for taking care of me for so long. My heart for you is what you are for me. It's just that I can't say that I have no choice in the face of father-daughter love, brother-sister relationship, and family relationship. When I knew that my dad was seriously ill and I couldn't do anything about it, how much I needed someone to rely on? I always wanted that person to be you, but I did it against my parents' will, I did all this for them, but if I wanted to go against their will, I would do nothing in vain. Forgive me, although I don't like Lin Zhenhai, he is indeed a good person. Now that I'm leaving, my greatest wish is to see you. But that's not possible anymore, and it's good that you said you're doing well. You told me you saw her again, and I was relieved. I told her to let her take good care of you, tell her your preferences, too, I'm a bit talkative, she's a nurse and must be more caring than I am. Actually, I don't want to say this, I just hope you can feel my heart, in order not to worry you, I handed over my phone to my brother, and everything I want to say is written, and I will send it to you. ”

Suddenly, my phone rang and it was a text message.

"I've only loved one person, and that's you. ”

******

Ryoko and Yanzi felt that they had retreated to the mountains and forests, and this was the biggest decision they had made.

They decided to live incognito for the rest of their lives, not only for me, but also for their parents, relatives and friends, which is equivalent to being isolated from the world.

I asked them if they regretted it?

No regrets!

Decided?

It's decided!

You are rebels!

There is only one choice between family affection and love, and for the sake of love, what can be done?

******

There was no one around me to remind me anymore, and my days were quiet all of a sudden.

I think back to everything.

I'm wondering where Ning Meixuan is going?

What Zhang Zhi said to me lingered in my mind all the time.

I remembered the bits and pieces of my encounter with Ning Meixuan.

Her home, company, restaurant, hospital, park...... I found everything I could find, but there was no trace.

I almost searched all over H City, but there was no news.

I have a feeling that Ning Meixuan must still be living quietly in a corner of H City.

I suddenly remembered the nursing home, and I don't know why I suddenly remembered this.

So I thought I'd take a look.

When I arrived at the door of the nursing home, I felt a little nervous, how could Ning Meixuan go to the nursing home?

However, when I walked into the nursing home, under the long hall visible at the entrance, I saw Ning Meixuan snuggling up with a little girl, Ning Meixuan was holding a comb and helping the little girl comb her hair.

My heart suddenly beat faster, and my body trembled uncontrollably, but I still endured it and walked over.

Ning Meixuan seemed to notice something, and suddenly turned her head and looked at me.

Ning Meixuan touched the little girl's head and said with a smile: "Call Dad, quick!"

The little girl grinned: "Daddy!"

I was stunned: "Is this kid really mine?"

"She was an orphan, and I couldn't bear to see her wandering, so I adopted her. Since she was a child, she didn't have father's love and mother's love, so it's always excellent for her to feel it. ”

I grinned.

******

Ten years is neither long nor short.

But there are so many things that can be changed by one person alone.

It's easy to remember a person, and it's easy to forget a person.

In the past ten years, I have always been doing something, going to the flower shop to buy some flowers, coming to the ancestral hall to meditate for an afternoon, not saying a word, just looking at the smiling face next to the motto,

I often buy some fun and delicious things, go to the nursing home to visit the little girl adopted by Ning Meixuan, Ning Meixuan said, only when you are older, will you know how to love those children more.

I would often stop outside the prison, staring at the iron fence in a daze, silently calculating when the decade would be over, and then silently counting the remaining days.

Ten years, Brother Long's restaurant is still tepid, probably because Brother Long is old and has no requirements for this.

And in the past few years, Lu Hai has lost news.

Zhang Zhi has never contacted me, and even if I took the initiative to contact Zhang Zhi, there was no direction to contact.

Thinking that Chen Ya was about to be released from prison, I went to the United States to see Hu Jing, and by the way, to see if my old friend Zhang Zhi was doing well.

I met Zhang Zhi, who has become a grave sweeper.

Zhang Zhi didn't want to talk to me more, I only asked Zhang Zhi one question.

"You've had a crush on Ning Meixuan for so long, why did you suddenly fall in love with Hu Jing?"

"I found out that Ning Meixuan likes you, so I told you that I like Hu Jing, but I found out that Hu Jing also likes you, so I pretended to be with Ning Meixuan later, in fact, I have never liked Ning Meixuan, and the person I like has always been Hu Jing. ”

******

Chen Ya was released from prison, and I went to pick her up.

Chen Ya took me to a place that I was familiar with and that I come every day.

Rest home!

Ning Meixuan was not surprised when she saw me and Chen Ya coming together.

Ning Meixuan pulled the little girl behind her and walked over, then pulled the little girl over, and said to me and Chen Ya, this is your child!