I thought as I went downstairs.

I had just walked out of the hospital when the phone rang, and I remembered that I had just turned it up.

I looked at the phone, it was Ning Meixuan calling, and I picked it up.

"Where are you, why didn't you come back yesterday?Did something happen?" Ning Meixuan said.

"I... Don't worry about it!" I'm still angry about what happened yesterday.

"I'm going to send my mother back today, didn't you say you want to go back with me?" Ning Meixuan said softly.

"Oh, yes. "I forgot about this matter, I bit my lip, this state, how to go!

"There's a car at noon today, and if you don't come back, you won't be able to catch it. Ning Meixuan said.

"Okay, I'll go back in a minute. I bit my lip, I hated myself for doing so much in the first place, but I couldn't help but do it, I thought, this is the last thing I did for Ning Meixuan, maybe, in the future, I won't see her again.

Yesterday's incident, I am still haunted, if I really keep that money, then He Yulu will be saved now.

It's a pity...

I couldn't help but sigh, hung up the phone, bought breakfast, and walked back.

It's time to go, it's still time to go.

I thought about whether to tell He Yulu or not.

But if I say it, will He Yulu be unhappy?

I thought about it, but I still forgot it and made an excuse casually.

So, I hurried back to the ward.

He Yulu stood on the balcony, the morning sun had just risen, the gentle sunlight sprinkled on He Yulu's body, the pink top was so bright and moving, the window on the balcony flashed a crack, the wind blew through her hair, fluttering with the wind, I walked over slowly, the hair hit my face, I closed my eyes, she made me a little intoxicated.

"Do you like flowers?" He Yulu seemed to feel me behind her.

I opened my eyes, looked at He Yulu who didn't turn around, nodded and said, "I like it." ”

"What flowers do you like?" asked He Yulu.

"Peony, rose?" I don't know much about flowers, but I feel very beautiful about this common flower.

"Is this flower beautiful?" He Yulu pointed to the side, and I saw a pot of wild chrysanthemums on the side.

"It's too earthy, and I don't like the color. I shook my head, this flower, it makes me feel very vulgar.

I like to wear black, that's my favorite color, she shows my state of mind.

"I like this flower very much, she doesn't live for other people's liking, although she is not showy, not fragrant, but she has her own taste, this taste is very special, it makes me feel fresh. He Yulu picked up the pot of flowers, closed her eyes and smelled it, looking like she was enjoying it, and then looked at me: "You smell it!"

I nodded, leaned up and sniffed, and then I smiled and said, "Well, it smells so good!"

She looked at me suspiciously, I didn't understand.

I only know that I had rhinitis when I was a child, because my family was poor at that time, and the treatment was delayed, although it was later cured, but although my sense of smell is still there, it is difficult to smell things clearly.

Even sometimes, I can't smell anything.

I haven't told anyone about it, and my mom and dad don't know.

I have a lot of self-esteem and I don't want to be looked down upon, so I keep pretending to be like a normal person.

And when I am with He Yulu, I can always feel a fresh feeling, I know that it is not what my nose feels, but my heart.

I realized that I was still carrying rice in my hand, and hurriedly smiled and said to He Yulu: "Breakfast is bought, hurry up and eat it." ”

"Hmm" He Yulu smiled, put down the pot of chrysanthemums, and walked in.

I prepared breakfast and sat on the sidelines, thinking about how to explain it to her.

Suddenly, it occurred to me that my cousin was getting married, and that wasn't the best reason, so I quickly said, "I might have to leave for a few days, because my cousin is getting married, and I'm going back to help." ”

"Hmm..." He Yulu was eating, and when she heard my words, she suddenly paused: "Your injuries are okay, right?"

After a while, she looked up at me and smiled reluctantly.

I know she's uncomfortable, and I'm reluctant to let her go, but sometimes we have to separate.

"It's okay, you have to take care of yourself while I'm away. I looked at He Yulu with anxiety.

"I can take care of myself. He Yulu lowered her head and said.

"Well, then I'll go first. As I spoke, I got up and left.

Suddenly, He Yulu's voice came from behind: "You won't abandon me, will you?"

I turned around and saw He Yulu staring at me, and I hurriedly said, "How come?" ”

I quickly turned around and walked quickly.

I'm afraid that I won't leave again, I really can't bear it.

Actually, I always wanted to say that I want to protect you all the time.

However, I just looked at her, and I didn't say anything.

I hurried out of the hospital.

Hurriedly got on the bus and headed towards the Xianglin community, where Ning Meixuan said she was waiting for me.

Sitting in the car, my mind was full of He Yulu's figure.

I sat at the window and I looked at the hospital.

Suddenly, when the car just started, I was in the crowd at the bus stop, and I saw her, He Yulu.

She hid in the crowd and watched me.

There are advertisements on the outside of these buses, and I saw her through the cracks, and she couldn't see me.

I had the urge to get out of the car, I didn't want to leave her.

However, I held back, and the car was already running at a high speed.

I looked at He Yulu, and she looked at me quietly in the crowd, and saw reluctance and sadness on her face.

I looked at the harsh sunlight and couldn't help but shed tears, maybe this time it was a brief separation.

If it were in the future, that goodbye, would I still be willing to give it up?

Will He Yulu be willing?

I don't know, my heart is like this bus, I can only go down one stop at a time, and on this one-way street, it is impossible to turn back.

I stare at the dazzling sun, this scorching sun, so irreversible, there are cloudy days and nights, why am I hopeless?

How many times have I ever thought that one day my fate can no longer be so ordinary, and when the extraordinary day comes, all I have is sadness and helplessness.

The more I thought about it, the more confused I became, so I quickly took a deep breath and calmed down.

The car soon arrived at the adjacent community.

I went upstairs, only Ning Meixuan was home alone, and it was estimated that Hu Jing had already gone to work.

I didn't ask, and I didn't bother to ask.

I just want to do what I need to do now, and I'm done when I'm done.

After each of them brought a change of clothes, I went downstairs.

Ning Meixuan said that she would go to the crematorium first to get her mother's ashes, which she kept in the crematorium last time.

Ning Meixuan was wearing black clothes and sunglasses, and she looked like a female paper on the outside, but her personality was so weak.

She probably tried to protect herself, and I didn't care.

Soon got Ning Meixuan's mother's ashes, it was a delicate box, and Ning Meixuan gently hugged it.

I just helped Ning Meixuan take the luggage, and I can only take this.

Ning Meixuan was holding the ashes, wearing sunglasses, and she couldn't see any expression.

Ning Meixuan said that she would take the train back.

Fortunately, there are not many people running around at this time, and there are still tickets, so Ning Meixuan and I bought tickets and waited for the bus soon.

I just learned that Ning Meixuan's hometown is from S City, and I don't know where it is, she didn't say it, and I didn't ask.

It's only a little over an hour's drive and not far from H city.

That S city is not very famous, it is a small city.

Due to the late purchase of the ticket, our seats were not together, coincidentally we were in a carriage.

Ning Meixuan sat at the window of the car, staring out the window all the time, and didn't speak.

Train tracks are generally built in open areas, surrounded by only endless grasslands.

The bustling city can still be seen in the distance.

It's not so far from the city.

It's so peaceful and sunny everywhere.

It gives me a sense of idyllic, away from the hustle and bustle of the big city, and maybe such a quiet and ordinary day is what I dream of.

Now, however, even such a peaceful day has become a luxury, and I shook my head, for such a day would always be a luxury.

There weren't many people on the train, some traveling, some going home.

Everyone has different forms, some are looking forward to it, some are disappointed, and some are happy......

But my heart has always been like this, my fate is like this, I can't treat her with other attitudes, treat life.

I thought about who I would choose if I could choose one more time and let me go back to this peaceful life.

The figure of He Yulu floated in my mind.

I took a deep breath and arrived at the station.

Ning Meixuan also got out of the car.

Ning Meixuan told me that there was still a long way to go, and she pointed to the mountain in the distance and told me that her home was in that mountain.

Then, Ning Meixuan and I continued to ride towards the mountain.

Ning Meixuan still didn't speak, just looked out the window along the way.

Was she grieving for her mother?

I don't know, I can't guess, I just know that she will be very lost and sad.

I can never guess what other people are thinking.

Looking at it now, Ning Meixuan and He Yulu's personalities are so similar, but they dress differently.

Maybe it's like life, I can only like one, I chose He Yulu.

All I thought about was life.

After I go back, how should I face my life, how to face He Yulu, there is still a lot of hope, I can't just be so decadent, but I can't do anything now.

Even after I go back, I can't do anything, I have no money, no hope.

Then let's deal with this matter first, I silently thought to myself, after this time, maybe I and these friends will have to stay away.

I'm going to slowly disappear from their world.

I don't know if anyone will suddenly find out that I'm gone, or if anyone will feel sorry for me, but I'm still going to do it.

I looked at Ning Meixuan and silently said I'm sorry, this is the last thing I did for you.

I was a little sleepy in the kind sun, so I gradually closed my eyes and slept for a while.

The car was uphill all the way, and by the time it approached the mountain, it was close to afternoon.

The car stopped at the foot of the mountain, and Ning Meixuan called me to get out of the car.

Halfway up the mountain, I could vaguely see some small houses, probably there, and I followed Ning Meixuan towards it.