I was dragged all the way to the bathroom by Hu Jing, pushed into the bathroom, and I began to take a shower. I sighed that a big man and a girl live together, and it will be annoying in the future.

I don't want to do this, if I tarnish the innocence of Hu Jing and Ning Meixuan, then I won't be able to raise my head in the future. But who can control fate?

I remembered today's events again, remembered what had just happened, and I never figured it out, maybe I was really suspicious.

I can't help but think of Ning Meixuan and Zhang Zhi in my mind, I don't know what will happen next in life, whether they can go together or not, maybe this is really not something I can control.

There are always so many regrets and incompleteness in life, and it is precisely because of this that there are all kinds of people.

I often hide in the corner thinking about my fate, thinking about this life, hoping to give myself a little insight and make my life very different.

I turned around and saw myself in the mirror, and I was suddenly startled, I was so strange in the mirror. I found out that my beard was very long, and I hadn't shaved it for a few days, and how long had it been since I had looked at myself so quietly, looking at the fate of the person in the mirror.

I smiled, and I smiled in the mirror, and he smiled ugly.

I saw that I was a little vicissitudes in the mirror, this is the trace of the years, everyone will encounter it so plainly, and then go away plainly.

The reality is so cruel, and the cruelty is so long, I often can't tell myself, but I still have to face it.

In the face of this miserable fate that is messed up, my love, my brothers, my parents, those I once cared for, and those I cared about.

I don't know why they are suffering and why they are so heartbroken, maybe I found my own shadow in them.

I'm just an ordinary person, and I often fantasize that if I can be like the protagonist in a novel or movie, I will encounter invincible skills and have an immortal and powerful golden finger, but reality is impossible.

I will also be born, old, sick and die, and there will be natural disasters and misfortunes around me, which are unavoidable, and even my own fate I can't control, let alone my parents, friends, and people I like, I am just a grain of sand in the vast world.

But fate has long been doomed, but I am still in the shadows, this fate only I don't know, but I still have to face it.

I wiped the hazy mirror, and he smiled and gave me a little encouragement.

I shook my head, quickly took a shower, then put on a bath towel and walked out.

Ning Meixuan and Hu Jing sat on the sofa watching TV and looked at me.

I didn't say anything and went straight to the bedroom.

I suddenly found that I am so cowardly and succumbing to the help of others, if I lose the help of these people now, without Zhang Zhi, without Lu Hai, without Ning Meixuan, without Hu Jing, without He Yulu, I don't know if I can live.

Back in the bedroom, I closed the door, I walked to the window, opened the window, the lights were shining in the distance, the slightest cool breeze was blowing on my cheeks, I took out a cigarette and lit it.

Looking back on these 24 years, I realized that I have been wasting my time almost every day for the past few decades.

I don't know why I suddenly sighed, maybe it feels good, he can take me out of this predicament, I suddenly have a kind of motivation, a whim in my heart, I want to fight for my future.

I'm going to work tomorrow, maybe it's a new beginning for me, and I feel like I need to change my face and want to be different.

I took out my razor, looked in the mirror, and cut off the slender hair.

I stared at the mirror, I was still so young with my beard, I couldn't help but smile.

Changing into pajamas, I lay on the bed, maybe it was the realization of this moment, this night, I slept very soundly.

The next day, while I was still sleepy, I was woken up by a sharp knock on the door.

I opened my eyes dimly, opened the door, and saw Hu Jing standing outside my room in pajamas, which were very small, only under Hu Jing's shoulders, with scattered hair and plain face, but it made me feel a sense of freshness.

I rubbed my eyes and asked her, "What's wrong?

"Yo, you're more handsome after shaving!" Hu Jing looked at me with a smile.

"What the hell is going on. I said angrily that I had been ridiculed by others early in the morning, and it disturbed my sleep. I'm a little angry because I'm a sleeper.

"From today onwards, breakfast for both of us will be handed over to you!" Hu Jing grinned.

"What? Isn't it?" I suddenly lost my sleepiness, this is simply torture, I looked at the time: "It's only five o'clock, you called me up for this?"

"By the time you're washed, it's not too early. Hurry up, we'll wait for you!" Hu Jing winked at me with a smile, smiled sweetly, and left without waiting for me to speak.

"Have I become a sidekick?" I muttered, returning to my bedroom and closing the door.

Now I am equivalent to sending someone under the fence, and I should pay such a little, because I have always been a person who will repay my kindness.

I hurriedly changed my clothes, washed up, and went to buy breakfast.

I had just come downstairs when the phone rang, and when I saw it, it was from home.

I felt a pain in my heart, and I couldn't help but feel guilty, thinking that I hadn't called home in a long time.

So I quickly picked it up.

"Tetsuko, didn't you get up. "When I heard it, it was my mother's voice.

"Mom, get up. "I don't call, in fact, I've been tired of my family's chatter, it's not that I don't love my family, but I also have a psychology of being ashamed, I don't have any ability at all, and I'm embarrassed by my family.

"How have you been there lately? Are you sick??...... are you eating?" my mother muttered these words every time she called, and I had memorized them.

"It's nothing, I'm fine, Mom, is there something wrong with you calling me so early?" I said impatiently.

Usually when I'm on the phone with my family, I don't know what to say, I just listen quietly on the other end of the phone.

"Zhezi, your cousin Zhang Yan is getting married this Saturday, you can take the time to come back. My mom said.

"Zhang Yan is getting married? Saturday, isn't there five days left? Why are you in such a hurry to get married?" I asked.

"If you don't tie the knot, you can't do it, your belly is big, and if you don't tie the knot, no one wants it. I'll talk about it when you get back, you have to come back. My mom said.

"Why do you have to go back, you just go and add some dowry. "I don't really want to go back, and it's not a good fit for me now.

"If you don't come back, you also know the situation of our family, there is no money, and it will be a problem for you to get married when the time comes. Your aunt has two daughters, and if you don't help, how can your aunt lend us the money then!

"What do relatives have to talk about! If you don't borrow, you won't borrow, there's no need to beg them so lowly!" I said impatiently.

"That's not good, how old are you!Tetsuko, can you not let your mother worry about it, listen to your mother, and come back when the time comes, even if your mother begs you!" my mother said softly.

"Okay, I'll go back, Saturday, right?" I said.

"Well, yes. The other end of the phone said happily: "Take care of yourself there, eat well, and dress well." ”

"Then I'll hang up. As soon as I finished speaking, I hung up quickly.

"You have to call home often......." The phone came before hanging up.

I think of my cousin Zhang Yan, she is very beautiful, in high school, we were from the same school, and she treated me well, if it weren't for Zhang Yan's face, I wouldn't have gone back at all.

I looked at the time, it was not early, so I hurried to buy breakfast.

When I returned, Hu Jing was already sitting on the sofa waiting for me.

"You don't know that girls hate eating fritters the most, they are so greasy in the morning!"

"You eat whatever you buy. I shook my head and said.

"What's the matter, I didn't say I wouldn't eat it. Hu Jing pursed her lips and said.

Hearing Hu Jing's words, I felt that I was a little angry just now, and I thought about it for a while, as if my temper had become a little bigger recently.

I smiled and quickly said I'm sorry.

Fortunately, Hu Jing was not angry and asked me to sit down and eat together.

I just noticed that I didn't see Ning Meixuan today. Thinking of this, I remembered that I was going to persuade Ning Meixuan and Zhang Zhi yesterday, but I didn't expect to be forgotten by my own blind thoughts. I couldn't help but feel ashamed for a while, I was really sorry for not taking my good brother's affairs to heart so much.

So I asked Hu Jing: "Where did Ning Meixuan go? Why didn't you see it?"

"She, she went back yesterday, and she said she wasn't at ease. Hu Jing said as she ate.

When I heard that Ning Meixuan was fine, I was relieved, and I didn't want any of my friends to have an accident.

Then, I gobbled up breakfast, and when I saw that it was only past seven o'clock, I thought it would be better to go early on the first day of work.

And Hu Jingfei said that she wanted to send me, but in fact, we didn't go to work the same way, she said that it was in return for buying me breakfast. I reluctantly agreed.

It didn't take long to arrive at the company.

When I got out of the car, I saw He Yulu standing outside the company from a distance.

I walked over, in fact, I didn't know what to say when I saw He Yulu, I looked at He Yulu, today He Yulu is wearing long jeans, white short sleeves, slender hair in a bun, round face is very cute, He Yulu looks fleshy, taller than Hu Jing and Ning Meixuan, a little shorter than me.

I walked over and saw Ning Meixuan just looking at me like that, I smiled and scratched my head, which was a sign of my nervousness.

I thought about it for a while, but I still said hello: "Good morning!"

"Well, good morning!" Ning Meixuan stood there quietly.

"Have you had breakfast?" I asked habitually, because I really didn't know what to say, and I couldn't ask her about her and her family, because it would remind her of sadness, and I couldn't be stiff, so I asked casually.

I didn't see Ning Meixuan speak for a long time, so I looked at Ning Meixuan, she kept her head down and shook her head.

The breeze blew, it was so silent, it blew the bangs in front of her, let me see her face, and she cried again.

When I saw this, my heart was immediately disturbed, and I thought about not upsetting her, which made her cry again.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have brought up the sadness. I quickly apologized, and I thought again, no, I asked if she had breakfast, didn't she?

I looked at her and asked again, and she nodded.

"How can you skip breakfast! What if you're hungry!" I was a little angry, and my heart was in turmoil to see her so disdainful of herself. I grabbed her hand and walked towards a nearby breakfast shop.

I thought of the strong He Yulu again, I don't know why He Yulu became so fragile, I thought of the big grinning He Yulu I once met, the He Yulu who scolded me.

I couldn't bear He Yulu to be so sad, I was a little sentimental this morning, and they all said that a good mood is good luck, I decided to persuade He Yulu not to let her be so sad: "If you cry again, when others see us like this, it is estimated that others will arrest me as a human trafficker." ”

He Yulu raised her head and looked at me, wiped her tears, and stopped her tears, but there was still no expression on her face.

I thought about it, after all, I don't have the talent to speak, and being able to make her not cry shows that I'm already very good.

I asked her why she didn't eat breakfast, but she didn't say anything, and I didn't ask again, afraid that she would be sad again.

After buying breakfast, He Yulu took my arm with one hand and ate breakfast with the other, I didn't shake her off, maybe this could make her feel gratified, so we walked towards the company.

On the way, He Yulu kept looking at my face, I thought, is it really handsome after shaving?