I am like a cow, stubborn life, but the years are indeed a pig-killing knife, this knife rubbed on me, although no knife slaughtered me, but I suffered from the pain of scaly wounds all over my body.

When I got on the phone, I tried my best to control my mood and make myself look flat.

"Do you have time at noon?" said Chen Ya on the other end of the phone.

"Well, there should be time at noon, I'll decide the place, and I'll send you the address later. I said.

I didn't say much, I hung up the phone, and it was useless to say more.

I sent the address of "Haiyuetian" to Chen Ya, not because I chose it because it was free to eat at Haiyuetian, but because I wanted Chen Ya to see that I was doing well, I didn't want her to laugh at me, Haiyuetian Restaurant was very high-end, and it could also save a little face for this abandoned me.

Maybe I was just trying to escape myself, just to cover up my uneasiness, and I had to do that.

I sent the address of Hai Yuetian to Chen Ya.

What makes me a little strange is that Chen Ya has never replied to the text message she received.

If it weren't for the fact that my text message was successful, I would have thought she hadn't received it.

I didn't care so much, since Chen Ya meant to meet, it was impossible for her to break the appointment.

Now I'm still hanging the water, I don't know how long it will take, it should be about the same before noon.

I think of He Yulu again, yesterday's events have always been a knot in my heart.

I wanted to explain something, but when I took out the phone and called He Yulu, He Yulu still didn't answer.

I lay down and covered my head with the quilt, maybe so I could shut my heart.

If I hadn't looked forward to it, I wouldn't have had such heartache.

In the darkness under the covers, I asked myself, isn't this what I want?

Maybe He Yulu won't be sad for me in the future, she will have her own happy life, but my heart is always panicked, I really want to run to He Yulu immediately, tell her, tell her the truth, tell her how I feel.

But I don't allow myself to do that, just like this society, it's not like you can do whatever you want, there are always so many ties and involuntary in people's lives.

The weather was getting hotter and hotter, and the air temperature in the quilt was rising sharply, and I felt a little depressed and out of breath.

I wiped my eyes and found that the quilt was already wet, and every time I think of He Yulu, I always feel so inexplicably heartache, and I can't find out what I feel.

I lifted the quilt and saw a face in front of me, looking at me, it was Ning Meixuan, I don't know when she had sat down.

I rubbed my face, pretended to smile, and asked her what was wrong.

Ning Meixuan shook her head and said, "Are you okay?"

I grinned, not happy, but I knew I was smiling, and I said, "What can I do? Look at my strength, I can kill a tiger!"

"I thought you were joking. Ning Meixuan said, suddenly crying.

I'm most afraid that the girl will cry, Ning Meixuan cried, I suddenly panicked, I thought if I said the wrong thing, I quickly asked: "What's wrong with you? Did I say something wrong?"

"I know all about your illness. Ning Meixuan stared at me, with tears on her face, and bit her lip and said.

"My illness?" I froze suddenly, yes, I should have thought of it, and the doctor would know it as soon as it was examined at the hospital.

I suddenly realized that I was ridiculous, and I wanted to laugh.

"That Zhang Zhi and Brother Long also know?" I opened my mouth and wanted to laugh, but I knew that my own expression was more ugly than crying.

Ning Meixuan nodded and covered her mouth.

"What are you crying about, don't you see I'm fine?" I pretended to be strong, and persuaded Ning Meixuan, reaching out to wipe the tears on Ning Meixuan's face.

Ning Meixuan grabbed my hand, looked at me blankly, suddenly burst into tears and laughed, and said while wiping her tears: "I don't cry, you will be fine." ”

I withdrew my hand and lowered my head.

"You're a good girl......"

I was melancholy for a while, not knowing why I said that, but I couldn't help but say the second half of the sentence. I thought to myself, "You're a good girl, but I can't like you." ”

Ning Meixuan heard what I said, suddenly covered her mouth, stood up, and ran out.

I don't know what's wrong with Ning Meixuan, I called her, and she ignored me.

I silently muttered, "Zhang Zhi is a person worthy of entrusting his life." ”

I looked at the empty door and shook my head, Ning Meixuan was very good to me, I saw all this.

I also understand these intentions, but I can't accept it, let alone let her down.

In this world, it's easy to be a bad person, but it's hard to be a good person.

I leaned on the bed and saw the hanging water, which had already dripped by this time, and I pulled out the needle myself, and it didn't hurt at all.

It's not too early now, it's almost noon, I want to hurry up and find Chen Ya now.

Otherwise, if Ning Meixuan comes back later, it will be difficult for me to escape again.

I hurriedly got out of the hospital bed, and I didn't see Ning Meixuan outside the door.

I hurried out and took advantage of the elevator to go downstairs.

My pale face was reflected in the elevator, and I knew that my body was starting to deteriorate, and now my chest didn't hurt, but I knew that I didn't have any strength in my body, and it was hard to run even a little faster.

When I arrived at the Haiyuetian Hotel, I looked around at the restaurant and found that Chen Ya had not yet arrived.

I sat on the sidelines, thinking about how I would pretend to be comfortable and relaxed when I met Chen Ya.

Chen Ya doesn't know if she is doing well now, whether she is thin, whether she is still so beautiful, and whether she still cares about me?

I thought wildly in my mind, although I have been separated from Chen Ya for less than half a month, I feel that we have been separated for a few months, a few years.

It's like a dusty memory, like a corner about to be forgotten.

I realized that I was also a ruthless person, and I thought of those people who had been separated all their lives, but loved each other all their lives, and I felt sorry for myself.

I smiled bitterly, maybe this is good, isn't it? At least, Chen Ya, who doesn't love me anymore, won't be sad for me.

I laughed, it's easy to be a good person.

Then why did I come to see Chen Ya again?

She's already married, what's the point of me coming to see her?

Is she only embarrassed herself, does she want to use her happy life to squeeze me?

I am very distressed, I always tell myself that I have forgotten Chen Ya, but when Chen Ya has news, that little bit can always worry about my heart.

Whenever I think I don't love Chen Ya, I think of the four good times I spent with Chen Ya.

How many times have I wanted to tell He Yulu that I like her, but when I was about to say it, Chen Ya's shadow, Chen Ya's laughter, Chen Ya's crying, Chen Ya's sadness and lovely face always floated in my mind, so I couldn't control myself.

When I didn't know what to do, no one could tell me, I just kept my feelings in the deepest part of my heart.

Suddenly, I was stunned, I saw a familiar figure, it was so familiar, her actions still made my heart tremble a little, she was the Chen Ya who abandoned me.

Chen Ya hasn't seen her in the past few days, she has changed, she has become noble, and she is more beautiful.

Chen Ya was wearing a brown-yellow straw hat, a broken knot in her hair bun, a pink dress, so gorgeous, carrying a shiny leather bag in her hand, and a huge jade necklace, pendant, bracelet, earring, and ring around her neck.....

I couldn't open my eyes when she was shining, and I suddenly felt shy, perhaps, I was destined to be humiliated this time.

I had a feeling that I wanted to run away immediately, I hated myself, why I always had to find someone to abuse me every time, why I was so cheap.

However, Chen Ya had already walked in, and she stepped into the restaurant with gorgeous dance steps.

I practiced smiling, and I wanted to let the smile cover myself.

I looked at Chen Ya, and when Chen Ya walked into the restaurant and looked around, the waiter next to her looked at her and shouted respectfully, "Sister Chen is good!"

The people who eat in this restaurant are not talkative, and it is very quiet.

Chen Ya didn't pay attention to her, but the waiter's voice was loud, and with the attitude of me looking at the waiter, I definitely understood.

However, I don't know why the waiter called Chen Ya Sister Chen?

I became more and more confused, and I couldn't figure it out when I thought about it.

Could it be that the waiter has something to do with Chen Ya?

No, the waiter bent down respectfully to Chen Ya and said it, and his face was expressionless, if it was a relationship like a friend, it would definitely not be like this, and there would be talking and laughing, which can also be seen from Chen Ya's attitude.

It was getting stranger and stranger, and my mind was full of doubts.

And Chen Ya had obviously noticed me, and walked towards me with a smile, looking very calm.

I hurriedly stood up, although we are no longer together, and it doesn't matter, but at least I still hope to leave a good impression to Chen Ya. Otherwise I wouldn't have come.

Chen Ya walked up to me and shouted at me a few times, and I realized that I was distracted.

"Oh, sit down, I'm sorry. I felt that I was rude, and quickly said.

Chen Ya smiled and sat across from me.

The waiter came over at this time and handed over the menu, and I directly asked Chen Ya to order.

I looked at the restaurant, although there are a lot of people in this restaurant, but there are really not many people who come here to eat at noon, and this restaurant is very large, so I chose to make the window with a glass position.

Because I can pretend to look at the scenery to hide my uncontrollable emotions.

Chen Ya handed the menu to the waiter after ordering and didn't let me order.

I was lonely for a while, and I was already thinking about taking all the blows, so Chen Ya did this, even though I was very sad, I could still control my emotions.

"How are you doing?" I said after a pause. I still have a lot to do with Chen Ya, I know that Chen Ya is doing well, you can see it from the dress, I say this, just to let Chen Ya know that I don't care about her.

Also to deceive yourself.

"Okay, what about you?" Chen Ya sat opposite me and looked at me, and I quickly twisted my head out the window.

"Good. I nodded.

At this time, the food was served quickly, perhaps because of the large restaurant, and a large table was soon filled.

The table was full of precious dishes, and I knew they were expensive, and if I hadn't had a gold card, I would have really heartache.

However, when men and women eat together, it must be the men who pay for it, and Chen Ya ordered so many dishes, and I felt sad in my heart, because Chen Ya knew that my economy was not good, and she definitely didn't think about me.

I smiled wryly, that's it, this may be the last time I will eat with Chen Ya, so be it!

"Your face is very pale, is there anything uncomfortable? Are you sick?" Chen Ya didn't look at the food, nor did she move, but looked at me.

"No, I'm fine. I hurriedly picked up the dishes, ate them like chewing wax, lowered my head, and hid my emotions.

I suddenly realized that the dominant position in all of this was Chen Yana.

"I've always been worried about how you're doing. Chen Ya said with a confused look in her eyes.

"You just have to live well. I don't care. When I heard Chen Ya's words, I was stunned for a few seconds while eating.

"Do you still love me?" said Chen Ya.

The chopsticks in my hand suddenly fell, and I was stunned, what did Chen Ya mean by that? Does Chen Ya still love me? Do I still love Chen Ya myself? I felt in a trance that all this was fake, fake!

A voice in my heart told me, "If Chen Ya turns around and says that she still loves me, I will definitely return to Chen Ya desperately." ”

But, I know it's impossible, she's already getting married, isn't that enough?

And what's the use of me loving or not?

I shook my head and didn't speak, but I answered.

After a moment of silence, I looked up at Chen Ya, who looked out the window at this time, motionless.

"Did you forget about me so quickly?" Chen Ya turned her head and stared at me deadly.

I was suddenly a little annoyed, maybe Chen Ya said this to embarrass me.

"Is it still useful for you to say so much now?" I shouted.

"Yes, it's useless to say anything, and there's no going back to the past. Chen Ya's voice was a little choked, and she suddenly sobbed and said, "I'm going to get married next week." ”

I kept my head down, and when I heard Chen Ya tell me in person, my body couldn't help but tremble, and tears fell down. Although I already knew the facts, from Chen Ya's mouth, I was still so unbearable, the world suddenly darkened, so silent, full of sadness.

I told myself to be strong, I could hold on, and I had no rain.

I took a sharp breath, wiped my tears, and choked up, "I wish you a happy wedding!"

I looked up at Chen Ya, but I wasn't happy, but I knew I had to pretend to be strong.

I tell my heartache that you will win soon, hold on, don't cry!

At this moment, a person suddenly rushed over, and my eyes widened and I was surprised.

He pulled Chen Ya, his movements were a little savage, regardless of Chen Ya's resistance, he walked out, and shouted: "You come over to me!"

I jumped up at that time, I had only seen this man once, but his hateful face was etched in my mind.

He is Brother Tiger, when I first met He Yulu, the Tiger Brother who was arrested by the police!