Chapter 5: Self-inflicted affection
NO.14
The world is fair, there is praise and criticism, not to mention that the head teacher Hou is still a clear reward and punishment, unforgiving master.
"The last five students in this exam came to my office for self-study in the evening, and we had a good exchange of recent studies. β
Peng Meijia next to her was preoccupied, and she flipped through the textbook over and over again to hide her anxiety and uneasiness.
"I don't know how this big strange exam is? Looking at her hard work all day, it shouldn't be too bad. I muttered to myself, wondering if I should ask her about her test scores.
Forget it, let's go to Teacher Hou's office and see for yourself, lest she don't do well in the exam and be angry with me.
"Zhong Keyu, you are not in the classroom during self-study time, what are you doing in the office, are you going to ask for leave again. Before I could speak, Mr. Hou made a preemptive strike, and his aggressive momentum almost scared me to death.
But she never imagined that I had come to her to ask for a report card.
"Teacher Hou, can you take this report card back to me and take a good look, I didn't see it clearly in class. β
"Absolutely. Didn't you see clearly? Are you short-sighted? I'll move your position to the first row, so that you can see clearly in class and concentrate. "Teacher Hou has a knife mouth and a tofu heart, although he is not forgiving, he actually cares about us very much.
"No, no, I'm in a good position right now, so I'd better leave the first row to those who need it more. After saying that, I hurriedly walked out of the office with the transcript, for fear that Mr. Hou would do some new tricks.
Peng Meijia can always bring unexpected surprises, and her results are the last in the class......! I laughed out loud in the hallway, but luckily it wasn't in front of her, otherwise I would have died a miserable death.
When I returned to the class, I glanced at Peng Meijia, she was silent, her hands tightly clutching the test papers of each subject, and I turned my head to look at the report card again. The words "miserable" are no longer enough to describe her current miserable situation.
NO.15
After the bell rang, I was the first to run out of the classroom and rushed to the school cafeteria, I was a little heartless, I didn't know her very well at the time, there was no reason and no way to comfort her, so I had to do that.
"It's none of my business" has always been my criterion, not to mention that I'm also very pitiful, I can't just ask for leave in the future, so I have to take good care of myself, such as eating on time. Thinking of this sadness welled up in my heart, so I added two chicken legs to myself for lunch.
NO.16
It's boring, it's boring, it's boring, it's boring, but I got to know a bunch of interesting people, they're a bunch of sports students, and sometimes I skip class to train with them.
Being different is also a kind of luck, so why be embarrassed to become so ordinary. My name destined me to be an extraordinary person, and I kept telling myself that all those boring days.
The students in the classroom were all sitting upright, and when the class bell rang, their eyes were scattered, stunned, and lifeless. And every time I walked into the classroom with the bell ringing, I became the focus of attention of the whole class again and again. I didn't mean to be in the limelight, I just didn't really like being in the classroom.
Many years later, I read this passage in an education magazine: In the face of the college entrance examination, everyone strives to protect themselves, and where will anyone care about the changes in other people's emotions. After so many years of evolution, learning this ghost thing has long lost its original fun in the eyes of students, and many times learning is like facing the sea without the sea, the spring flowers bloom without flowers, and the class door loses the axe.
NO.17
I don't know if it was out of sympathy or idle boredom at that time, I decided to help Peng Meijia study hard. As for why I wanted to help her, even I didn't find any decent reason myself, and later Peng Meijia asked me if I helped her study because I liked her, and I said solemnly: "It's completely out of sympathy." β
Last weekend, I went to pick up my mobile phone stored in Ms. Hou's office and overheard a conversation between Peng Meijia and Ms. Hou. It turned out that Peng Meijia was an art student, and it was her parents who sent her to the experimental class. According to the assessment standards of the experimental class, she will be kicked out of the first and second classes of high school immediately because her grades are not up to standard.
"If you have any questions you don't understand, you can ask me, and I can teach you. "I said this so suddenly, so that it attracted Peng Meijia's disgust.
I said to help her study, but she ignored me, I am a person who does not hit the south wall and does not look back, so I started to take further measures.
I handed her a note that said, "Actually, we can learn together and make progress together."
She still ignored it.
I don't know what I did wrong at the time, so Peng Meijia hated me so much, but fortunately, in addition to being a person who doesn't hit the south wall and doesn't look back, I am also a knowledgeable person, and I started to run north before I hit the south wall.
Many years later, Peng Meijia told me that she didn't care much at that time, only grades. Maybe I've been autistic for too long, I see everything very lightly, I'm used to being alone, I'm stingy with words, I don't have too much trust and dependence, and I insist on sticking to a small space.
If you are poor, you will be good alone, and if you are good, you will help the world. I continued my old class habits, fell asleep again in physics class, and woke up to see Peng Meijia's note.
Zhong Keyu:
I was worried about you until the results were announced, and although I was not capable, I was doing my best to help you. After the results were announced, I realized that I was making a lot of love for myself, your academic performance is so good, you are the god of learning in everyone's eyes, how can you need the help of a poor student like me. You know what? Your proud posture is so obnoxious, please don't look down on others all the time. Talent is not something for you to squander, ask yourself, have you really worked hard to study? I'm stupid, but I'm responsible for myself, at least I'm not wasting my time.
Finally, please forgive me for being rude, I've been under a lot of stress lately and can't control my emotions well, if it has caused you harm, please forgive me, I'm sorry.
βPeng Meijia
When I woke up and saw other people's bad comments about me, I felt so uncomfortable.
"Calm, calm...... To be angry is to punish yourself for the mistakes of others. "I silently guided myself in my heart.
It doesn't matter what others think of you, in this life, it's not a waste to let yourself nod. I thought about it for a long time and finally found a reason to comfort myself.
I don't deny that I wasted my time, but if I want to say that I look down on others, I won't carry this pot to death.
Maybe everyone has become sensitive when they enter high school, just like little hedgehogs, covered in thorns, and if they don't grasp the proportions well, they will stab each other.
Before I can refute Peng Meijia's unobjective evaluation of me. Teacher Hou came to me murderously, so frightened that I hurriedly sandwiched the note written by Peng Meijia in the textbook, pretending to be studying seriously.
"Zhong Keyu, you and Zhang Feng will change positions, and you will sit in the first row in the future. Change it yourself before class in the afternoon. With that, she turned around and left.
I hurried to the office to try to change Mr. Hou's decision.
"Mr. Hou, I don't seem to have applied for a seat change, why did you suddenly move me to the first row. β
"I remember you said that you couldn't see the blackboard clearly in its original position, and I was afraid that it would delay your study. Besides, if you are moved to the first row, the teacher will pay more attention to you during the class, and you will answer questions more actively, which can better drive the learning atmosphere of our class, which will be good for you and our class. β
"But I'm used to that position and I don't want to change. β
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"Don't talk about it, if you can score more than 50 points more than the second in the whole class in the next exam, you can choose the position in the class, and I won't stop you if you want to sit on the podium. β
"It's not good, it's embarrassing to have so many points more than others to put second place. "I'm a little embarrassed to say this, who knows if a dark horse will suddenly appear next time, and I will snatch my first one.
"Don't make excuses, if you can't do it, don't mention the matter of changing your seat again, go back to self-study!"
"Oh. Then I'll wait for the results to be released after the exam. β
The ginger is still old and spicy.
It wasn't until today that I realized that people like the head teacher are always a very scary existence.