The night wind was slightly cool, but I was sweating all over. I am a person who has experienced ups and downs, but in the face of the truth of being betrayed, my heart is still full of anger, humiliation, and unwillingness.

Is it really a good thing for me to know the truth? I remembered what Xiao Yang once said to me: "The truth is often more hurtful than lies", smiled bitterly, and lit a cigarette. Perhaps with Xiao Yang's intelligence and connections, he already knew the truth of the matter, and he didn't tell me for a long time, probably because he was afraid that I would be hurt again, or that I would lose my mind again.

Taking a deep breath of my cigarette, my clenched fist loosened, but it trembled faintly.

I can't be impulsive, I'm a family now. For the sake of his wife and children, put up with it. My sanity reminds me. But the anger in my chest seemed to erupt at any moment, which made me feel uncomfortable.

"I'm sorry, Amu. Seeing the expression on my face, the chicken boy apologized again, "This is the content of my conversation with those witnesses at the time, and you should be able to prove your innocence with it." "He can prove that the words of those witnesses are perjury." ”

Taking the recorder, I looked at the chicken, not knowing what to say for a while. Chicken boy handed me the recorder means that he is going to break with Song Jian completely, which means that chicken boy betrayed his eldest brother.

"Count it as my reward for saving your life. "It's also a kind of self-redemption for me." ”

After handing me the recorder, the chicken boy looked relaxed, and his face showed a smile for the first time tonight: "I'm tired of my current life for a long time." Closing his eyes, the chicken boy shook his head, "When I was young, I thought that I could follow a big brother and be a good man, like in the movie, I could be a good man who stuck a knife in both sides for righteousness, but in reality, I always stabbed my brother for the sake of profit." Hey, Amu, you may not believe it. Over the years, I have only seen 'righteousness' from you. But I'll give you to you in a blink of an eye。。。。。。 ”

I held up my wine and interrupted the chicken, "Thank you for telling me all this." ”

"Amu, can we still be brothers in the future?" The chicken boy touched the wine bottle with me, but instead of drinking, he stared at me, as if expecting something.

"If you want, we'll be brothers. "Touching the voice recorder, my heart was a little moved. For my sake, the chicken boy gave up all that he has now, how can such a person not be my brother?

"Then this cup to brother!" the chicken boy raised his eyebrows and grinned.

"!" my cheeks flushed, and I drank all my wine in one gulp. It's been a long time and it's the first time I've drunk so much alcohol. But I wasn't drunk at all, but more sober.

"Will you go to Chen Zhijun and Song Jian?" the chicken spat out his cigarette, "I've seen that video of yours and know that you are different now than before." However, Chen Zhijun and Song Jian are also different from before, especially Chen Zhijun, who is now a benchmark figure on the S Provincial Road, don't be impulsive in everything. ”

Will I go to them? I don't know. But what if Chen Zhijun becomes a benchmark figure on the road? Am I afraid of him? smiled coldly: "Don't worry, I'm already past the age of impulsiveness." ”

After drinking a lot of wine, I waved goodbye to the chicken. The chicken was going to send me back, but I insisted on walking back by myself, and the chicken boy was not reluctant and left by himself on a motorcycle. I, on the other hand, clutched the recorder in my hand, and walked back down the empty street alone.

In recent years, the lighting project in Y city has been getting better and better, and the light seems to be everywhere. I turned on the recorder and played the conversation between the chicken boy and the witnesses over and over again, but my heart was shrouded in a layer of darkness, a hysterical voice was constantly shouting and roaring. Maybe it was the strength of the wine that came up, and I started to chill all over. From the chest to the whole body, the cold is bone-chilling.

I started to run slowly, trying to warm up, or maybe I wanted to unleash the beast in my heart. I ran faster and faster, showing no signs of exhaustion, so much so that I still didn't feel enough when I ran home and needed to keep moving.

I took off my coat and punched the sandbags in the yard. I used my best power with every punch, and I left no stone unturned with every kick. Soon, the friction between my fist and the sandbag canvas made my fists blur with flesh and blood, but I still didn't stop. The "thump" of fists and sandbags still didn't cover the unwilling cry in my heart.

"Wood, you stop!" Liu Yuxi, who was wearing pajamas, stood in the courtyard and looked at me.

But I didn't realize it, still gritting my teeth and breathing heavily, hitting the sandbag vigorously. Until a soft body hugged me tightly from behind, a crying voice: "What's wrong with you, wood, what's wrong with you?"

I lowered my head, my chest heaving violently, "I'm fine, Yuxi." ”

The master also stood in the courtyard, silently watching me and not speaking.

"Wood. Liu Yuxi hugged me tighter, "You don't want to do this, okay?"

I turned my face away, looked at the tears on Liu Yuxi's face, and was stabbed in the heart again: "I'm sorry, Yuxi." ”

"Don't scare me, Wood. Liu Yuxi rested her head on my shoulder and gently wiped the tears from her face.

"Not anymore. "I hugged Liu Yuxi's waist tightly, looking for my last warmth, my last harbor.

"If it's okay, go back to rest early. The master looked at me and said lightly, "It's cold, don't catch a cold." ”

"Hmm. I nodded with the master, and as Liu Yuxi returned to the room, I fell asleep on the bed without even washing.

I don't know how long I slept, but when I woke up from my dream, Liu Yuxi hadn't slept yet, and looked at me with wide eyes: "Did you have a nightmare?" The voice was very soft and soft, for fear of waking up the daughter who was sleeping on the other side.

"Hmm. I nodded and put Liu Yuxi Lou into my arms, "Why haven't you slept yet?"

"Can't sleep. Liu Yuxi obediently rested his head on my chest, "What did you dream about?"

I thought about it, but I shook my head: "I can't remember, it's all mess." ”

"Don't be afraid, I'm always there for you. Liu Yuxi kissed my chin and wiped the cold sweat on my forehead, "What happened today, can you tell me?"

I was a little hesitant, I didn't want to share my struggles with my woman, but I didn't want to hide anything from Yoo Yuxi.

"It's okay if you don't say it, just remember that the baby and I will always be with you. Liu Yuxi's warm little hand supported my face and kissed my face again.

I exhaled softly and looked into Liu Yuxi's eyes: "I always wanted to be your support, but I didn't know that you were my support." ”

I still told Liu Yuxi the truth that the chicken boy told me at night. I don't want my woman to be asleep in the midst of wild speculation, and I don't want to watch her worry about me anymore.

Listening to my narration, Liu Yuxi bit his lip tightly, and under the faint light, I could feel Liu Yuxi's body trembling slightly.

"I'm afraid, wood. Liu Yuxi curled up together and put her arms around my neck, "Will you go to them?"

The same question, Liu Yuxi asked again.

"Don't be afraid. I didn't answer Yoo Yuxi's question, I just closed my eyes.

"Ever since you came back, I know you've had nightmares for a long time. The word I hear most clearly in your dreams is the word 'kill'. Every time I hear you shout this word, I can't sleep for a long time, wood, I'm really scared, I'm afraid you'll leave us again. Liu Yuxi's eyes were filled with tears, "Let him pass in the past, okay? For me, but also for the sake of the child." Let's just be together as a family, okay?"

Tucked the quilt for my daughter, and I nodded: "Okay." ”

I know I can't get over this hurdle in my heart for a while, and I can't accept the truth that the chicken boy told me. A voice in my heart even encouraged me to take revenge. But after all, I am no longer alone, I have my own family. I may be able to do it for a while, but what about after that? Continue to live a life of fugitive, leaving Yoo Yuxi and her daughter afraid? Over the years, I have done too little for this family.

"Really?" Liu Yuxi cupped my face, as if to confirm the truth of my words.

"Really. I smiled, "I promise you not to look for the past, and to be a good chef with peace of mind." ”

"Wood. Liu Yuxi called me, and then leaned up, two slender thighs wrapped around my waist, "You're so good." ”

In the face of Liu Yuxi's actions, I also responded positively, kissed her lips, and felt the warmth of the beauty.

The past is in the past, and with this recording of the chicken boy, I think I can really get rid of the past from now on. Turning over, I pressed Liu Yuxi under me.

"Yuxi, you are so beautiful!"

End of Volume I

PS: Looking back on those past nights of lighting up the creation days, it was very hard and happy. Looking at the first volume, there are many deficiencies that need to be improved. However, the time was in a hurry, so it was sent out in a hurry. But I still expressed what I wanted to express. The first volume is a gift I gave to myself, time is fleeting, let me slowly reminisce about it! The second volume will be closely related to the content of the first volume, and I will explain the tail I left behind in the first volume. The following updates will be very slow, life is tiring, forgive me!