Lin Feng put down his chopsticks and said, "Actually, my marital status has become a joke. Sometimes I want to end it, but I can't bear it with my wife. Back then, when I met her, she wasn't a good 'girl' either. ”

"So it became the reason why you started to 'mess' and finally gave up, and went all over the day?"

"Maybe that's it. Lin Feng lit a cigarette and said, "You don't mind if I 'smoke' a cigarette." ”

"Mind!" promised to reply crisply.

Lin Feng extinguished the cigarette with a smile: "If you don't play according to the routine, you can't say that you don't mind against your will." ”

"Maybe I'm not worldly enough to live against my will, I have to pretend to like it even though I don't like it, and I have to pretend to be happy when I'm not happy. You all wrap yourselves like this, aren't you tired!"

"I'm tired, but what can I do? In the adult world, there are not so many feelings to sell 'play', and there is no time to hurt the 'spring' and autumn. When we reach a certain age, most of us choose to bury our hearts shallowly, bury our true side, and give people an empty skin. ”

"Go on with the story between you and your wife." ”

"My wife, she's actually very good right now, but I have a knot in my heart that I can't open. She's been trying to change for me. She used to go to nightclubs, but now she doesn't go, she drinks fiercely, and now she only drinks a little red wine, and she has smoked for more than ten years......"

The promise interrupted Lin Feng's words, "You said it, this is what she used to have, and all she had before has nothing to do with you." ”

"She's a drug addict......"

"Drugs?!" Promise opened his eyes wide, "Are you quitting now?"

"Quit it. ”

"That's good, it shows that your wife loves you. ”

Lin Feng nodded and said, "I can forgive everything, but this is the only one that will torment me for the rest of my life." ”

"Why? Knowing her mistakes can improve a lot, and since she has changed, you have to accept it calmly. To love someone is to love the whole of a person, her good, her bad, everything about her. Love is inclusive, but also mutual accommodation, no family is smooth sailing. At least, she's emotionally attached to you. When a man is in love, he will want the body of a 'woman', but when a 'woman' is in love, he wants to get a man's heart. "Promise is like a marriage expert.

Lin Feng's expression was solemn, and he said, "If it's really as you said, then it's good." My 'girl' is five years old, which is supposed to be the happiest age, but it is a slow 'sexual' bronchiectasis. It recurs twice a year, each time getting worse than the other. It's all because of my wife......"

"Why?"

"People who take drugs, give birth to children. There is a high risk of being unhealthy, and you will suffer from various incurable diseases, especially respiratory diseases. When my wife was pregnant, I asked her to get rid of the baby, but she insisted on having the baby...... Now, every time my 'daughter' is tormented by illness, my love for her is reduced by one point. ”

Lin Feng was in pain. Everyone will hide some secrets, the secrets of his family for so many years, except for tonight, he has never told others, including his sister Lin Xi, but also his parents.

The more forbearant the life, the more turbulent the dark 'tide' will become. There is nowhere to relieve so much loneliness, and he uses cheating to show his pain to the fullest. However, he went further and further on the road of derailment.

After eating, he promised to insist on going home by himself. Although it was only a simple 'sex' affair for one night, Lin Feng had generally understood the 'sexual' character of the promise.

"Will we be friends in the future?" Lin Feng closed the 'door' of the taxi for the promise.

Xu Yu'er smiled, "What do you think?"

Lin Feng waved his hand, and after promising to leave, he got into his car and lit a cigarette. For a long time, he didn't leave, sitting in the car, Lin Feng was a little 'confused'. He didn't know where to go, so he made a phone call to Xia Qiu.

"Qiu'er, have you come back from Wuxi, see you in a while, just the two of us. ”

Move Bar.

Lin Feng and Xia Qiugang sat down, and were recognized by the waiter who came to them, and said, "Brother, tonight is still the old rule, is it a snow 'flower'?"

"! Bring me a dozen Landbergs, ice. ”

After the waiter left, Xia Qiu said: "Crazy, you don't want to buy drunk too, do you want to call a dozen more." ”

Lin Feng handed Xia Qiu a cigarette, lit the cigarette himself and 'smoked' it twice, and said indifferently: "One dozen is good." I can't borrow wine to drown my sorrows like you, I'm here to tell you something, Kiki, she's pregnant. ”

"Haha......" Xia Qiu couldn't straighten up with a smile, "Crazy, you are a dandelion, scattering seeds everywhere, how long has it been since Tang Qi last time, why did you win the lottery again." Stop doing business and buy lottery tickets. ”

Lin Feng smiled and said, "You base your happiness on the pain of others, so you will have no friends." ”

Xia Qiu suppressed her smile and asked, "Are you worried?"

"Sorrow!"

The waiter picked up the beer and opened it, Lin Feng lifted the bottle, poured the beer into the cup, drank half a cup, and said, "I want to keep this child." ”

"You're crazy!" Xia Qiu put down his wine glass, stared at Lin Feng, and said, "You have a wife and children, you must not do this kind of thing of playing with fire." If that's the case, my today is your Lin Feng's tomorrow. You already have a textbook in front of you, bloody lessons, hurry up, 'lost' way back, still a good boy. ”

Lin Feng said: "Cheating once is as deep as the sea, and from this section '' is a passerby!"

"The lover is gone, and the cheating is long and lasting. That's right!"

"Be serious, don't always 'plug' into the line. People are sprinkling salt on the wound, and you are good, and you are 'sticking' a knife in the wound. Lin Feng knew that Xia Qiu's sadness and happiness were very different, and now that Xia Qiu had just come back with Xiao Nian, he might be really happy.

Running away from marriage and re-packing the mood, it took half a year in summer and autumn.

Xia Qiuzheng said: "You have always done your own thing, what I told you, you may not listen to it, why not drink this glass of friendship and leave all your troubles behind." ”

Lin Feng poured the wine and drank it all with Xia Qiu. After Xia Qiu's 'insertion' of the subject, Lin Feng suddenly relaxed a little, yes, thinking left and right, pondering repeatedly, a dead wall appeared in front of him, and he couldn't see whether it was water or land outside the wall, so he didn't dare to cross it easily. He could only stand under the wall, looking helplessly.

He is strong, domineering, and mixes his 'sexual' personality in many things, he thinks he understands love very well, but in fact he is so pitiful that he doesn't understand love at all.

He thought he could control the situation, but the situation was slowly out of his control.

After a few glasses of wine, Xia Qiu's face turned red, and said: "Actually, none of us have to say anyone, everyone is on the verge of marriage, although I am already outside the siege, the pain is no less than yours." ”

"Or is it because of Xiao Nian?" Lin Feng asked.

"Hmm. I don't dare to go back to my dad now, we don't have a good temper, and every time we break up, we go to make each other more troublesome, and I really don't know what to do if he gets angry. ”

Lin Feng said: "What is the gap between you and Xiao Nian before, do you know?"

"Except for the amount of money, there is no difference. Xia Qiu scratched his head, "Brother, you won't be and don't look at us." ”

"Not optimistic. Lin Feng took a sip of wine, "Two people who are not from the same world, they have to squeeze into one world, and in the end it became a joke in vain." ”

Xia Qiu said arrogantly: "If she can't squeeze into my circle, then I'll try to squeeze into her circle; I know that Xiao Nian has too many shortcomings, and her past is difficult to be accepted by the world, but why can't we universalize sentient beings?"

"Love is not charity, how can we talk about universal sentient beings? If you can't cross it, how can you be a doom person?" This is true in summer and autumn, and so is Lin Feng.

"Ahem, isn't this about your topic, why are you starting to criticize me now. ”

"Well, if we think about it, it is just to increase our troubles, and our troubles are just because of 'desire', and the good and bad are all self-inflicted, and we are not gods, and we can't see that far away. Life, you think you can decide everything by yourself, but in the end you can't escape the arrangement of fate, I believe in fate, but I don't accept fate. ”

Xia Qiu raised his glass and shouted: "Come, we don't accept our fate, cheers!"

"Cheers!" Lin Feng stopped his breath and drank it all.

……

When Lin Feng returned home, Yuan Lili hadn't slept yet. She had just finished drinking a glass of red wine, and her empty eyes were 'shot' onto Lin Feng's face, 'intermingling' with his eyes.

"Xiaoxi, she left, left in the afternoon, and went back to Shanghai. Yuan Lily's eyes were resentful and sad.

Lin Feng took off his shirt and prepared to take a bath. "I knew she couldn't stay, she was used to being free," he said. Let's go, just don't take her to have a good time. She's a kid who doesn't give me a call when she leaves. ”

"She got it. ”

Lin Feng stopped, looked at Yuan Lili in a daze, and asked, "What does she know?"

Lily raised her elbow, "I killed myself." It was Han Han who told her. She was smart and didn't want to be caught up in our right and wrong, so she left. ”

"Will she tell her parents? ”

"No, it won't. She said she wouldn't tell anyone, but it would be hard to stay here. Yuan Lily sneered, "You also have times when you are worried, and you are also afraid that others will know these dirty things you have done." ”

"People have left their names, geese have left their voices, and no one wants their dark side to be exposed in broad daylight. We don't need to discuss these things anymore, it's better to live like this, just like you said, I don't care about you, and you don't care about me. ”

After Lin Feng finished speaking, he went to the bathroom without looking back.

Yuan Lily lit a cigarette and sat in the smoke in the clouds, stunned for a while. Lin Feng is getting farther and farther away from her, and she used to be able to communicate with each other, but now, her Lin Feng has torn off the fig leaf, but she can't hold it anymore.