It is the expectation of something that I yearn for, so I cherish it so much.

The beauty of the epiphany is not because of the flamboyance of the moment it blooms, but when it withers, it shows an inexplicable gloom, and some people will remember the brief moment when it blooms.

Everyone is actually the same, and they are so crazy about what they are about to lose.

I just don't know if anyone will feel sorry for what you're about to lose.

When I asked about Zhang Zhi, he was still so cynical and kept teasing Hu Jing.

This night, Hu Jing just sat there quietly, and rarely even ate food.

Zhang Zhi just pushed Lu Hai, and Lu Hai suddenly realized, and then walked over and pulled me out.

Outside the green city, there is a very wide green belt, and in the middle is a very wide road.

Lu Hai and I sat on the curb of the road, looking at the opposite side that was a little unclear because of the night.

I feel that this moment is so intimate, and I vaguely feel that it is very much like life, and there are many times in life when the road ahead is blurred because of blinding?

It's just that there wasn't as calm as it is now.

This night, Hu Jing and I, who had not been touched by a drop of wine, were the most sober.

Lu Hai seems to have drunk a little too much, although I didn't see how much wine Lu Hai and Zhang Zhi drank, and half of a bottle of beer was left, but his eyes were a little hazy, and a woman dressed in a foreign style passed in front of him, and the clothes on his body were only enough to cover one-tenth of his body, but Lu Hai was stunned and didn't move.

Zhang Zhi is still racking his brains to say something interesting.

Have I ever been so melancholy, when I saw my good friends lost, when I saw my parents' sadness, when I fell out of love.

"It looks like it's going to rain. Lu Hai raised his head and suddenly said this.

"Really?" I looked at the sky, there were no stars or moon, the sky was dark, the clouds were not visible, I didn't know if it would rain, anyway, I didn't look at the weather forecast. "Yo...... Are you interested in being a host?"

Melancholy is a bad thing, and while we can't think of any way to eliminate him, I don't want him to show it to the fullest in front of these close people.

Zhang Zhi suddenly turned to look at me, there was a trace of worry, although it was at night, but I had such a strong feeling.

"I have been an orphan since I was a child, and I have not felt father's or mother's love until I grew up, and even the people around me have alienated me, and I can't even find a close friend. ”

I patted Lu Hai on the shoulder, I don't know why Lu Hai suddenly mentioned this, Lu Hai is an orphan I always knew, but seeing that Lu Hai is doing well now, I have never dared to mention this sensitive topic in front of Lu Hai, and I was a little surprised to be mentioned by Lu Hai today.

"Those relatives robbed my parents of the last bit of money they had left behind and disappeared into my world, and I didn't eat for three days when I was at my poorest. So I went to grab other people's things, just two steamed buns...... Two steamed buns, they beat me up. Remember when we first met?"

My mind quickly flew back to before, and I couldn't remember how I met Lu Hai, and when I found out that I was familiar with Lu Hai, I was still in college at that time.

"Isn't it like going to college?"

Zhang Zhi shook his head.

"Maybe you've forgotten, we met in City A. ”

"City A?" I'm a little confused, I went to college in City H, and I should know Lu Hai in City H?

"I still vividly remember that day, in A middle school (a high school in City A, where I went to junior high school and high school, the school was a school integrating elementary school, junior high school, and high school. It was school day, and I hadn't eaten in three days. I didn't go to school, and I thought that educated students would help me, even if they sympathized with me, they would give me some support, but no one was willing to help me, no one was willing to help me, and even some people scolded me, and everyone looked disgusted. Sadness, disappointment, sadness, and no hope anymore, that's what I thought at the time. I remember very well that day, you were the last to come out, and for the first time in the world, you came to me and asked me what was wrong, but I saw that you were dressed and that you didn't have much money compared to other people. I suddenly couldn't bear to speak, maybe you can only help me for a while, but you can't help me for a lifetime, three days later, six days later, a month later, I still can't hold on, but I'm so hungry that I even have a little trouble talking. ”

I can't remember exactly a time when I had ever done something like this, as if I was just listening to a story that wasn't good.

I thought Lu Hai would be sad, but no, he smiled, and I listened quietly, because I didn't know what Lu Hai wanted to say.

"I saw you rummaging through your pockets and digging out a hundred and thirty dollars, and I thought you were going to give me ten dollars, which was not even too much. I didn't expect you to give me a hundred yuan! At that time, a hundred yuan was enough for me to live for more than three months, and I was a little afraid to accept it at that time. ”

"Oh, I still have a little impression of what you say, it seems like I was too young to remember. But it's all gone, isn't it good now? You see, it's more than ten times better than me? By the way, how did you get into college? And how did you recognize me at a glance?"

Lu Hai took out a cigarette and handed it to me.

I took it a little hesitantly and asked, "Have you learned to smoke????"

"I was hesitating about the money, and you said to me, 'Dude, go home.'" Then you turned around and left, and I took the money and stayed there. I couldn't believe that someone would call me buddy, and I always felt unsure and wanted to thank you in person, but the next day I found out that you weren't in class. I waited at the school gate for a day, and I figured out a lot of questions, those ugly people dressed in kindness, I will one day trample them under my feet, let them repent for their mistakes, and those who help me, I will repay him with more affection!! Since then, I started to work part-time while self-studying, I went to work during the day and studied at night, although I grew up, I also earned enough money to go to school, but I couldn't get into A middle school, I could only choose a very small private school, and then I was admitted to the university in H City, which is the university we knew. ”

Lu Hai took a few puffs of cigarette and coughed a little, it seems that he should have just started smoking.

"Although it has been so long, a person's appearance will not change much, and you were still a bad person at that time, I didn't know your name was Yun Zhe, I asked you, you said that you went to school in A middle school, but after getting acquainted with you, I didn't dare to tell you. ”

"Because I found that we are the same type of people, we can't speak any exaggerated words, and we only use silent actions to love those who once cared for and cared for us. ”

"And at that time, I had to pay my tuition while working, and I didn't have the ability to repay you!"

"I was scared, afraid that I would say it and not be able to do it. ”