As I grew up, I realized that what love and life are are not as simple as doing, wrong, or changing......

When I thought I would have a vigorous love, it was surprisingly bland, so plain that I didn't even have a chance to say the simplest "love", and when I thought I wanted to do something extraordinary, life was so dull that it didn't do any effort you made.

I feel that every day is very fulfilling, and that is because I feel that there are so many things to do every day, useful and useless, all done, and I seem to have lofty ideals. When the light faded away, I looked back and saw my past, trying to find something in it, but I couldn't find anything rich in fiber, so that I would often hide in the corner, frowning and thinking, what's wrong... What's wrong...

My name is Yun Zhe, and when everyone praised me for having a philosophy, I understood that the scene God had arranged for me was just a tragedy, because I could only act in comedy, and in this drama of life, all I could do was change myself.

is like this name that no one understands---- Yunzhe, fell, and died young.

Of course, I still can't understand it, just like when I read this sentence, every time I read it, I feel differently every time.

Another reason is that I have something to do now, and I don't have time to feel these things that are completely illusory, so that when I regret it many years later, I often can't tell what it is.

******

I'm going to surprise her.

Looking at Chen Ya in front of me, I ran over excitedly.

"Let's go, I'll take you somewhere!" I took Chen Ya's hand.

But I noticed that she didn't move, and I withdrew my hand.

"What's wrong, isn't it uncomfortable?" I didn't know why, and looked at Chen Ya suspiciously.

"Let's break up!" she bowed her head.

I froze instantly, these five words, coming out of the mouth of a beautiful woman, were like needles, stinging my heart one by one.

She must have been joking, I thought.

I barely managed to smile and asked, "Your joke isn't funny at all!"

"I'm not kidding! Yun Zhe, I'm serious!" Chen Ya stared at me, and said word by word, very serious.

"No... No... It's impossible...", I yelled.

"You don't already know it, I've been with him for a long time. ”

"He ???"

I feel like the world has collapsed, and at the moment I would rather be a walking dead who will not be sad, but I am not reconciled.

I looked at the familiar and unfamiliar Chen Ya beside me, I didn't believe that she abandoned me like this, I couldn't lose her: "Chen Ya, please don't do this, I was wrong, really, don't you go, I beg you." ”

I'm a bit incoherent.

"You know it's impossible. Chen Ya didn't even look at me: "Isn't there something you are looking for me? ”

It is said that as long as a man sincerely admits his mistakes, he will get her forgiveness, although I am not wrong, but I also tried, but it didn't work.

I looked at the woman in front of me in surprise, a thousand words had turned into heartache at this moment, and I endured the pain in my heart and the sourness in the corners of my eyes.

The night has sunk faintly, just like my heart.

The bustling lights in the distance, but it can't illuminate my heart, and it's better than the cigarette in my hand that can't be stopped.

I don't know when the smoke has fallen to the ground, and the fireworks are so dazzling.

I barely held on to tears, but I couldn't stop the heartache, I looked at the lights in the distance, pretended to be strong and said, "You go!"

There was no word, only the sound of high heels in the ear, which gradually faded away.

She didn't even want to say a word more.

I resisted and didn't turn my head, I was afraid, afraid that she would see me cry.

Tears slipped silently.

Crying bitterly, only in the corner.

The cigarette butt on the ground had not been extinguished, and before a cigarette was burned, Chen Ya had already left.

It is said that love is like a glass of wine, but in fact, it is not, love will give people pain, but people will not hurt when they are drunk.

Tragic love is like a drug, it hurts to get it or quit it!

I had already guessed this ending, and when she slept with other men, I knew it, and I knew that we were destined to break up.

But I'm not reconciled, I'd rather be with her so stupidly, even if I haven't even kissed her on the mouth.

But she still abandoned me and followed someone else, who was my boss.

******

She didn't laugh at me or sarcastically mock me, should I thank her?

I always like to hold some fantasies, I came to this western restaurant, which is also a couple's restaurant, this is my birthday gift carefully prepared for her, today is her birthday.

She likes Western food, she likes quiet places, she likes high-end food, I spent all the money on me to prepare this birthday present for her.

This is what I have been eating instant noodles every day for months.

Unexpectedly, it became a commemoration of our breakup, and all this can only pay tribute to our love.

I thought I could surprise her, but it turned out to be a tragedy.

I always thought that she was not a person who forgot about money, but the truth told me the result cruelly.

We were in a relationship for four years, we were together in college, and after graduation, we joined the same company again.

I thought that our love could enter heaven, but I didn't expect it to go to the graveyard.

This company became the graveyard of our love, and the boss became the gravedigger.

******

I don't know how to get back, I just know that I bought a lot of wine and drank a lot of wine.

The next day, while I was still asleep, my colleague and close friend Zhang Zhi called me to tell me that I had been fired.

I smiled, satisfied with the result, picked up the bedside wine, and drank it again.

I'm like a dead fish now, and I can't die anymore, so someone came and ate me.

I don't know why I'm such a sad person, I don't even have a chance to regret it.

The road of life, I can't see the direction clearly.

With her company before, I didn't seem so lonely.

I was drunk and drunk again, and I always thought that this method that worked for everyone would definitely work for me, but it didn't.

I don't know how long it was, but when I was drowsy, there was a sudden banging on the door.

It's like a dream, but it's not like it.

I was a little angry that the knock on the door was so loud that the only moment I could numb myself at the end was lost.

I walked over and opened the door, ready to scold wildly and relieve the pain inside.

I opened the door, but I held back. I saw a girl in her twenties standing outside the door, with slender hair scattered over her shoulders, wearing a powder blue coat and a miniskirt underneath, with a bumpy figure, pink lips that made me think of her, and round eyes staring at me with electricity.

"I'm so beautiful!" I sighed how could there be such a beautiful woman in this world, although I was talking dirty.

I think this woman is about the same age as me, and I am twenty-four years old.

"Who are you grass!" As soon as I opened the door, the beautiful woman held out a hand to me: "You finally opened the door!"

I don't know what she wants to do, I don't know her, dressed like this, could it be a little ~ sister?

This woman is indeed very beautiful and seductive, but I am not that kind of person, and besides, I am not in a good mood.

Thinking about it, I just wanted to close the door.

Unexpectedly, she blocked the door I was closing, and shouted: "You haven't given the money yet, you want to hide!"

This strengthened my idea that I think she is a little ~ sister.

But I never do that, and I ask me what kind of money I want? Do I want to extort money?

So, I asked her: "What's wrong with little ~ sister! I haven't grass you, why should I give you money!"

When she heard my words, her eyes widened, and she suddenly pushed me to the ground, pointed at me, and said angrily: "Hooligans!

I covered my almost broken ass and stood up: "Who scolded you, how did you scold you, what a murderous thing!"

Maybe I'm thinking wildly, plus I'm drunk and open-mouthed, but I don't mind now anyway, my heart is too depressed.

"You stinky rascal! Hmph! I don't have time to talk to you!" the beautiful woman pouted angrily and pointed at me: "Your rent should be paid, I'm here to ask for rent!"

"Ahh Hehe smiled and apologized, after all, I was wrong just now.

Touched the pocket, it's broken!

I just remembered that I used all the money to buy a birthday gift for Chen Ya, and now I don't have a penny.

She looked at me, the corners of her mouth curled and said, "You owe three months' rent, plus the utility bills, a total of two thousand three, bring it quickly." ”

"Beauty, let's sit down and talk. I spread my hands and smiled at her.

"Yo, it won't be without money!" she looked at me and said, "If you don't have any money, move out quickly!"

"Whoever said I didn't have any money, I just didn't bring that much. Will you be able to do it two days later?" I said, bending over and flatteringly. If you ask for someone, you have to be low, or I will end up on the streets.

The most beloved person has abandoned me, and my career is far away, and if I lose even a place to live, I really don't have the courage to live.

She glanced into my room, then pushed me away and walked in.

"What are you doing? I don't really have it right now. "I don't know what she's trying to do, but I guess she's ill-intentioned.

Sure enough, after entering, she sat on the sofa in the living room and said, "Hurry up and get the money, if you don't have any money, move out quickly, I'm staring here." ”

As soon as I heard it, it was over, this was going to kill me!

I looked at this woman so beautiful, I didn't expect to be such a scoundrel, anyway, that's what I thought at the time.

But I really didn't have a penny.